Chapter 9: Reminiscences of this Life

Having a painful memory is the same as guarding a hatred, it will torment you to the point that you are incomplete, all the time in the night you fall asleep, tormenting you, tearing your soul, it is like a beautiful and sad flower, in the story you don't want to remember, silently appear, rushing to the clouds with your soul, and then falling into hell, after you have been tortured beyond recognition, satisfied, with the blood-red delicate twin flowers that you watered with blood, leaving you with the wreckage and the tears that have been drained, and disappearing cleanly with a roar。

Under the old peach tree outside the courtyard, there are a few yellow leaves hanging alone, the roots of the old tree have been covered with thick peach leaves, the soil is filled with a faint smell of rotting leaves, a cool breeze blows, the only few dead leaves on the tree swayed and fell with the wind, I stood under the tree, quietly they were unwilling to flip in the air and flip and flip again. In the end, I looked at it with those rotten leaves, how unhappy it was, I hugged my arms tightly, and shivered, autumn is here again, it's so cool

Pushing open the door, a bare lonely grave stood conspicuously in the courtyard, I looked at it blankly, tears slipped out unconsciously, at this moment, all kinds of feelings swarmed in, it seemed to be from my pores, from my cells, like the passionate Yangtze River, roaring, The shouting and rushing swept away all my reason, making me wonder how I was so bold that I stepped out of that gate from the eyes of the Li mother and son, making me think of how impassioned I was at that time, venting the resentment that had swelled in my heart for more than ten years

I also forgot how I moved my heavy lead-filled legs to the grave, and only the rough touch of the grave earth came from my fingertips, shaking my broken heart wave after wave

Memories slammed at me like the rising tide of the sea, each time more ferocious and fanatical until the sea smashed my flesh into pieces and turned me into that eerie and horrible white bone, and then abandoned me to the shore of the beach, leaving me to see the light of day in the deep pain of the wind and sun

Almost in a blur of blood, when I opened my eyes, I thought I would wake up in a hospital filled with the smell of alcohol and disinfectant, and then my head was wrapped in a thick gauze but unfortunately not.

This is a very hazy milky yellow light, like a dream, there is a beautiful woman, I swear, I have never seen such a beautiful woman, that is, the ancient beauty who walked out of the lady picture, three thousand green silk slightly pulled up, a goose egg-like face, a pair of willow eyebrows, a pair of moist and divine eyes, at this moment there is a god and love looking at me, she is Cui, my mother.

I blinked my eyes, I thought I was dreaming, but this feeling was too real I wanted to rub my eyes, but I found that my hands were only the size of a baby, I looked around in horror, the sandalwood bed, the splendid lotus leaf bed, the screen embroidered with lotus flowers, and a high thing like a table lamp on the side of the bed, there was something shining in it, and the whole room was shining by this thing, I blinked my eyes, like a dream, true and false, my brain, suddenly crashed, and I had no ability to think

"Sir. "Behind the screen, turn into a man, a man who makes my eyes shine, but his dress, really thundered me at once, his green silk is tied high, a face, as if cut out of a knife, angular, handsome, magnificent, the woman holding me, her eyes flashed, excited to speak, those eyes are like stars, beautiful and moving.