I woke up on a dark night.

The room was lit with incense, light smoke, dimly lit, and my head hurt like it was going to explode. I had a dream, a dream that drained me of all my mental energy, and I needed time to slow down.

I dreamed that I was killing, and I could pierce the heads of those people with my fingers, and bright red blood was splattered on me, and their bones were so fragile that they shattered when I pinched them...... I dreamed that I was like a game, madly killing everyone.

I reached out from within the quilt, and there was nothing in my palm......

I barely walked to the window, pushed it open, and suddenly a cool breeze blew on my face, and I shivered. I saw a drizzle coming and going in the wind, and the lights shining like white dust.

Outside the window, the yellow lanterns glowed softly in the night.

Everything, it seems, is peaceful.

The cool wind also woke me up a lot, and I realized that I was wearing a thin clothes, who changed my clothes for me?

Can these ...... I didn't think it mattered. My head is a mess, my heart is also very messy, I suspect that I killed someone, I suspect, Shan Junhuang, she may have been here.

Another gust of wind almost extinguished the candle, and I was so frightened that I quickly closed the window and hid under the covers, shivering. Only a little gap was exposed, staring at the night pearl on a few cases.

My heart was pounding, and I thought I'd be fine soon, after all, I've been like this for so many years. My eyes were so sour that I reached out to rub them, but they were wet.

Half a month has passed since such a day.

When I woke up, there was a service in the pavilion, but there was no woman named Youlan. I knew that these servants were the ones who served Yu Yuxuan, for the first time I pushed open the door and saw Duan Fang guarding the door, respectfully calling me "Madam", and once I looked down from the windowsill and saw him, and he stepped over the plum tree, and I noticed it at once, and I caught the afterimage, who made me like his sword.

For the first seven days, I lay in bed, not speaking to anyone, and the servants were in good order, never saying a word, like the people who served me on the mountains.

In the past half a month, my thoughts have changed every day. It wasn't until I finally came to my senses, oh! I just had a dream, how it looked like I had really killed someone!

When I was in the mountains, I couldn't sleep every day and every night, and it took me more than ten years to look normal, but what happened four years ago still made the people around me think that I had changed my personality, and the people around me changed again and again. I think I have to be a strong person, what is this, you have somehow become a murderer, don't you let others be afraid of you? Don't you let others kill you?

But strangely, my body began to weaken, and I didn't know why, and I thought that my life was coming to an end. Once, when I was not thinking about killing myself, I found that I had a hard time turning into a wind blade, and I cut my wrists, and it took me a long, long time to grow up, and when the service came in and saw blood on the ground, I was so frightened that I fell to my knees.

I don't think it's because I'm getting weak that I can't beat that "Fold Fold", but why did I become like this?

In the past half a month, I haven't seen Xuan Yuxuan, and he hasn't come to see me once, at first I was a little unhappy, but then I thought about it, it's just that, when I wanted to see him the most, he didn't come, and now it doesn't matter if he comes or not, I am even glad that he didn't come, and I didn't see me shivering.

He probably got angry when he didn't come to see me. I said I would wait for him to come back, but I turned around and fled from the island in the middle of the lake, even though he didn't know why I had escaped.

Xiaobai didn't come back, and Xiaohei was gone. I went from being angry at the beginning to becoming more concerned about whether something had happened to them. After all, I am a dying person, and there is nothing to hate about what Xiao Bai has done to me, and Xiao Hei, he has never disappeared for so long. I said something inexplicable to him on the roof that day and threw him there, and I thought he was gone too.

Until last night, when the rain was pouring down, he dodged his eyeliner and came in through the window, his hair was slightly wet, and he changed into a navy blue brocade suit, and I thought he had changed his taste for a while. I was combing my hair and I didn't see him, and he knocked on the window to remind me.

He must have been stunned when he saw me, after all, I was a daughter at the time, but when I saw him, his eyes were already calm.

These days, the only thing I can say to my ministry is to make the wordless building brightly lit, or a shadow will lie on my windowsill and scare me again.

I said that Xiaobai stole my things and ran away again, joking that I was so angry that I vomited blood, and woke up and was here; I looked at his new clothes again, and saw that they were not cheap, and asked him if he had taken on private work, otherwise where would he have the money; I finally told him that although you are behind the mountain, I will not dislike you, and I will still treat you as a friend, but my health has deteriorated now, and I may not be able to go out to travel the rivers and lakes for a while.

He was stunned when he heard me say that he had his back to the mountain. I quickly shut up. He took the bamboo dragonfly out of his bosom again, and I looked at it, waved his hand, and said no, how could I ask for this! He was a little disappointed, and took out the dagger along with it, as if he wanted to return it to its original owner.

I looked at him, compromised, and said, "I don't need the dagger, you can take it." At the end, I picked up the bamboo dragonfly, and when I turned around, the bamboo dragonfly flew up, I looked at the bamboo dragonfly, and suddenly felt something, and said to Xiao Hei: "Xiao Hei, do you know, in fact, the bamboo dragonfly was given to me by my husband before, and I always felt that I didn't like my husband, in fact, because I knew that the person he liked was not me, and there was one thing he didn't know...... I don't want to do that, but I can't do anything about it. ”

After saying that, I was also stunned, I inexplicably told Xiao Hei what to do with this. But it's good that he can't speak, otherwise maybe he would laugh at me.

I asked Xiao Hei again, has there been any major incident in Xiyin recently, or has there been a lot of people who have died somewhere?

Xiao Hei lowered his head and thought for a long time, then shook his head.

Later, Xiao Hei walked off the windowsill again, jumped into the courtyard, and disappeared into the night.

I went out and asked about the ministry, and I realized that it had been almost two months.

The rain stopped, and some of the rain pooled under the eaves, reflecting the sparkling moonlight. The whole yard was wet, and the birds flew over the thin green bamboos and shook a little.