Chapter 690: Can't Do Without You
In just forty days, the dragon flew from the Second Empire to the Sixth Empire, almost diagonally across the entire Sameen Continent, and for the summoner who controlled the dragon, the soul power required was unimaginable to ordinary people. The dragon knight who had been brought back to the palace by Nobel 20 had no energy to attend the banquet? As soon as he was ushered into the guest room, he fell directly on the bed, and in the blink of an eye, he slept like a dead pig, snoring so loudly that he couldn't wake up.
On the other hand, Su Ze, except for hatching eggs, the consumption of soul power at any time is just a drop in the bucket for him. Wash off a body of floating soil and put on a new clothes, his whole person immediately became vibrant, and he could eat a whole roast suckling pig on the dining table, which can be seen in the abundance and strength of his soul power.
Fan Qian, as one of the most favored princes at present, secretly ran out of the banquet held by the king and did not return for a long time, and he will inevitably be criticized in the future. So after making sure that Su Ze was safe and sound, he left Su Mansion in a hurry.
And as the other protagonist of this city-wide feast, Li Shasha can't care so much. For her, Su Ze is her sky, her earth, and the air she lives on, not to mention that before Su Ze falls asleep, she will never leave Su Mansion for half a step, even Su Ze walked into the bathroom to wash her white, she followed in without blushing and heartbeat, and quibbled sternly: "It's not that I haven't seen it, what's there to be ashamed of?"
Before attending the banquet, Li Shasha had already bathed and changed clothes in the palace, but just now she was rolling in the flower bed with Su Ze, and now she has become dirty again. So Su Ze stepped into the bathtub full of petals with her front feet, and she took off her beautiful dress with her back feet, got into the bathtub naked, lay in Su Ze's arms, and helped him wipe the dust on his face with fragrant petals with her own hands.
The beauty is in her arms, and Su Ze has no distractions. Different from Su Xing's childhood heart when he hugged Su Xing, his love for Li Shasha was like holding a transparent and flawless bubble with both hands, looking at Li Shasha's serious and focused little face, he didn't even dare to hug her waist hard, so he had to gently stroke the red hair floating in the water, and feel the temperature of the delicate skin on his body as gently as possible.
After taking a bath safely, Su Ze had a great appetite, and he ate until he had a long burp in one go, which made the maids serving on the side laugh.
People, if they are full of food and drink, they will be sleepy, and Su Ze is the same. But when he stretched his waist and walked into his bedroom full of sunshine, the sound of footsteps behind him made him feel a little embarrassed, "Sasha, you're tired of running back and forth for so long." There are a lot of empty rooms in Sufu, why don't you let Butler Yi help you find another ......"
"Don't. Li Shasha hugged Su Ze's waist from behind, shook her head and said, "I want to accompany you, I want to comfort you." ”
Su Ze turned his head, squeezed out a smile, and asked, "Xiaobai has already been buried, what do I have to comfort me?"
"Hmph, you can fool the whole world, but you can't fool me. Li Shasha put her face on Su Ze's vest and murmured: "Bai, Meng, Xue, why don't you call her Xiaomeng, Xiaoxue, but call her Xiaobai?" Everyone believes that you are guilty of her death, only I know that you are not only guilty of her death, you are also guilty of not protecting Xiaomeng, and you are still guilty of failing Xiaoxue. You have said that if the gods die, then you will become the gods and administer justice for the world. I admire you the most, but after all, you are just a person, a person who has flesh and blood and will have heartache, and no matter how hard you try, you can't save everyone! Xiaomeng won't blame you, Xiaoxue won't blame you, Xiaobai won't blame you, you did what you should do and can do, they just chose what they should choose and are willing to choose, you don't owe them anything, why torture yourself?"
Li Shasha was right, Su Ze did bury his guilt for Xiaomeng and Han Xue in the flower bed with the curly white hair. The sentence "Su Ze's wife" on the tombstone is not only engraved with his promise to Bai Mengxue, but also contains his guilt towards Xiaomeng and Han Xue.
After being pierced by Li Shasha, Su Ze's heart seemed to soften instantly. He gently held Li Shasha's hands around his waist, closed his eyes and gritted his teeth, and said: "I am very strong, and before I know it, I am so strong that even the king has to talk to me with a smile, and even so strong that words like 'Dragon Knight Legion' can't give me even a sense of crisis." O king, that is the existence that stands on the top of the mountain of the Seven Great Empires, and they will actually please me?Dragon Knight, the existence I longed for most in my childhood, the hero I dreamed of, but now I have become an ant that I disdain......"
"Hahahaha, do you think I'm satisfied? No, what's the satisfaction? The more I get stronger, the more empty I feel, the more I don't understand, in just four years after I walked out of the village, I have changed from an ignorant summoner who doesn't even know what a demon is, to what I am now, why can't I become stronger earlier? Even if I can advance it by a year, Xiaomeng won't have to suffer those inhuman insults and tortures; if I can advance it by two years, I won't have to reject Han Xue's sincerity because of the threat of Black Cherry. Why...... Why do I owe so many people? Why do I owe so many people? I don't understand, I really can't figure it out......"
After saying the biggest regret in his heart, Su Ze's heartbeat gradually calmed down, "I can't even protect the person I want to protect the most, the person who needs protection the most, what quasi-dragoon captain, what person who controls the fate of the world, what god who does the way for heaven, I am nothing, I am still the waste who can only watch my parents turn to ashes in the sea of fire! The stronger I become, the more I feel incompetent." Xiao Fan is right, I am really sick, and I am not lightly ill. ”
Listening to Su Ze's self-deprecation, self-trampling, and self-questioning, Li Shasha listened quietly and said nothing, until Su Ze fell into silence, she asked faintly: "If you left the small fishing village a year earlier, maybe you would be able to save Xiaomeng; But, what about me, am I so unimportant in your heart? Or do you mean that as long as you can save Xiaomeng and marry Xiaoxue, you don't need that little beggar who ran away from home?"
The trills in Li Shasha's words became more and more obvious, Su Ze quickly turned around and hugged her tightly in his arms, and replied heartbreakingly: "I want you, please don't say it, I can't live without you." ”
Li Shasha raised her head, looked at Su Ze's eyes with tears, and said with a forced smile: "Xiaomeng has been in the Rhino Town Academy for three years, and Han Xue has lived in the capybara town mercenary stronghold with her family, so I don't run away from home every day." If you leave the small fishing village two years early, you may really be able to recover Xiaomeng and marry Han Xue, but you will definitely not meet me. I can't accompany you to Cuizhulou for a big meal, I can't help you bankrupt Viscount Di, I can't watch you stand at the head of the city with wings outstretched, I can't listen to you personally refuse His Majesty's marriage......" As she spoke, Li Shasha's tears had already wet Su Ze's chest, "You can do without me, but I really can't live without you......"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" Su Ze kissed the tears in the corners of Li Shasha's eyes with great heartache, "It's me who is too greedy, blame me for being too greedy......"
"Hmm~ It's not you who is greedy, it's me. Li Shasha gently hugged Su Ze's neck and murmured, "I am obviously determined to leave you, but I am reluctant." Even if the whole world says I can't have children, I still want your first child to be born with me. ”
Hearing this, Su Ze was slightly stunned at first, and then the little brother under his crotch set up the tent without arguing. Then he held Li Shasha's buttocks with both hands, carried her to the side of the bed, and pressed her forehead, panting and saying, "Well, then let's work hard." ”