Morrich at this time should be the same as I was at that time.

Pat respects and appreciates his teacher. But at that time, he felt that he had to offend the teacher a little. Not for anything else, not even for Morithi, just for the dream I had when I was a child

He was going to do it once, and he had dreamed countless times of the little bug that appeared next to him.

That's the most beautiful thing in the world.

It was something he had always wanted to see but hadn't seen in the end.

He wanted to play himself, to play it once. Even if it's just once, it can let him know that that thing has indeed been saved, and he hasn't touched it before, but he is unlucky.

Morrich should have had a little more luck than him.

Because he is the eldest brother of Morithi.

If the big brother who has always been trusted can't even do what a little bug can do, then why do you do this big brother?

If he can't do that little worm himself, when he was a child, he stood in the gloom, with so many hopes and dreams, so many days and nights of longing, what was he longing for?

Do you crave a kind of existence that you don't even believe in?

So he said to Morithi: "Don't worry, I am your eldest brother, and I will take care of your business." ”

Thinking about it later, I was really too naïve at that time.

It's not that I'm naïve enough to take this thing, but I naively think that I really have weight. Even if the teacher is not very happy with his behavior, he will see that he is his "proud disciple" and help mediate, right?

After that, just make amends to the teacher.

But in the end, I didn't expect the teacher to even see his face, and directly announced to the public: "Pat is rebellious, not my disciple's choice, and he will be expelled from the door." At that time, when I heard the news, I was really like a bolt from the blue.

How so?

Could it be that the teacher's "attention" to him all the time is fake? Could it be that the teacher's "you are my most proud disciple......" is false?

He didn't believe it!

But the truth soon convinced him.

When he was broken and his face pressed to the ground, he finally realized that the more than ten years of "genius" had finally passed again. The teacher who had always been pinned on by him even after he was expelled from his brotherhood had completely abandoned him after all, without even the slightest bit of protection, as if the master and apprentice had gotten along for more than ten years before, as if there had never been.

Is the teacher too ruthless or is he too a failure as a disciple?

For many years afterward, Pat pondered this question. Of course, there is no answer.

And after that incident, Morrich finally chose to leave in order not to continue to burden himself.

And he couldn't stay in that mercenary group anymore, so he chose to return to the family. At this time, perhaps, only the family can bring some warmth.

But he was still too naïve.

The father, who had been "understood" by him, looked at him as if he were looking at a stranger: "What are you doing when you come back? Don't you know that your return may bring great disasters to the family? I won't say anything unpleasant, you should leave immediately, and don't come back again." In the future, you will not have this home!"

Hehe, it's really funny to think of how he looked at that time.

It's ridiculous, he understands others, who understands him? Those who are related by blood do not mean that they are relatives. Or should he "understand" his father one more time?

It's just that, whether he understands it or not, his father won't give him this chance. Whether he understands it or not, that family, since then, has nothing to do with him.

Once again, the world has gone dark.

is different from the hour, the gray hour has an end, and his life has a calm and acceptable arrangement. At that time, he was a grass chicken, and even if he was a grass chicken, he had his own life.

But now, he's just a goshawk with folded wings.

When a goshawk folds its wings, it is no longer a goshawk. But he is no longer a grass chicken, and he can't go back to the grass chicken, and no grass chicken will accept him. At that time, he knew that the goshawk with folded wings was actually a storage zài that even grass chickens would laugh at. ,

Even, laughing more fiercely than those goshawks, in a trance, it made him think that they were even more arrogant than those goshawks.

From more than ten years of gloom, to more than ten years of pride, and then to more than ten years of gloom, this ups and downs, many things that happened during this period are really interesting, but unfortunately, he can only reminisce.

He even thought many times that time would be turned back, to the moment when Morrich said goodbye to him.

If he had the opportunity to face that scenario again, would he still make the same choice? Would he trade the bleakness of the rest of his life for the opportunity to fulfill his childhood dream?

He didn't know, he really didn't.

It's just that he thinks that if Morrich still stands in front of him and calls him "big brother", he will probably still become that little worm.

Although you may regret it afterwards.

But let it regret it, and do what needs to be done. - He can betray his life, but how can he betray his dreams?

Isn't it because I've been in the cold and gloom for a long time that I crave warmth and light so much?

How, then, after receiving warmth and light, turn yourself into cold and gloomy self? If you do that, I'm afraid that even you will be disgusted with yourself, right?

So, eight years ago, Pat, who had finally figured it out and thought it through, said to himself, "I regret it. But if it were to happen again, I would still regret it. ”

Dust, dust......

After meeting His Royal Highness Fang Tian, Pat finally stopped suppressing himself, and finally learned to be happy, from beginning to end, from childhood to later, little by little, as if looking at other people's stories, looking at his own past.

But he still couldn't do what His Highness Fang Tian said:

"One, you will be completely abolished from body to heart in the agony that pierces your heart and bones day after day. The other is to put your body, your heart, your mind, your mind, your mind, and your potential into a furnace like a furnace, beating and exercising, and combining your body, mind, and mind into a sharp sword that can pierce a qiē. ”

He didn't know what to do.

As a result, he could only trudge through the dust, unable to see where he could settle down, and where he could carry his dreams. So, he could only continue to be silent......

But on this day, in the things written by His Highness Fang Tian, he suddenly saw endless light.

Following that disciple, step by step, he walked a long way, and when he came to that disciple, he finally said the last sentence, "I have a pearl, and I have been locked by dust for a long time." Today, the dust is gone, illuminating the mountains and rivers. ”

Suddenly, Pat grinned, and before he knew it, big tears were dripping down his face...... ）