When there were more muttering things, the layer of separation in Bian Tianci's heart reappeared, and there were always two voices in his head that kept making noise.

A voice said: "Since you have decided to stay with her for the rest of your life, you should trust her, fully trust her, and always be so suspicious about how to live your life." ”

Another voice said: "She can't lose contact at every turn, this must be a problem, she just cares about herself and doesn't consider your feelings, she doesn't have you in her heart at all, why are you still on the pole like this." ”

The two voices argued endlessly, giving him a headache every time. He didn't know whether to listen to the voice in his heart, and he didn't know if he should spread out and have an in-depth communication with Qin Muyao.

He was afraid of losing her, but she had upset him.

This uneasiness eventually turns into a scarred wound that no longer bleeds, but never again in its original form.

......

It was a weekend afternoon, Bian Tianci and Qin Muyao went shopping all morning, had dinner, lay on the bed, and Bian Tianci looked at Mu Yao directly.

Mu Yao looked embarrassed and said, "Do you have flowers on my face?" ”

Bian Tianci smiled and said: "My wife not only has flowers on her face, but she is also the most beautiful flower. ”

Mu Yao stretched out her hand and hit him in the face, and Bian Tianci grabbed her hand, but Mu Yao didn't care and continued: "Who did you learn from, how did you learn so poorly." ”

At this time, no amount of words can express the feelings of two people at this moment as practical actions.

At a critical moment, Qin Muyao's reason overcame impulse and braked in time.

Bian Tianci was very puzzled about what this was for, but this matter must be between two people, and if one party is forced, it will be a crime.

Lying on the bed, Tianci gasped for breath, thinking about his beast-like behavior just now, he himself felt strange, and after this thought appeared, he immediately calmed down.

Looking at Qin Muyao's clothes scattered next to him and her somewhat frightened eyes, he deeply felt self-blame, what happened to him just now, why was he so impulsive, he didn't care about Mu Yao's feelings at all, he kept saying that he wanted to be good to her and love her, is that it.

The fire in Bian Tianci's body was quickly extinguished.

He took a deep breath, adjusted his state, looked at Mu Yao and said, "Mu Yao, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it just now." Don't be mad at me. ”

"God, you were so terrible just now. ”

"Just forgive me this time, I will never again. ”

......

For a long time after that, the two of them respected each other like guests, and never mentioned the events of that day again, and the layer of separation between the two seemed to have increased a little.

Time is always turning, and in the blink of an eye, Qin Muyao and Bian Tianci have been together for a year, and on the day of the first anniversary, they specially went to the restaurant where they met for a meal, and then watched a movie.

The whole process was very pleasant, and then they returned to Bian Tianci's residence together, this time Qin Muyao did not shirk, nor did she use her parents as a shield.

It seemed that everything was going smoothly and naturally, and the two of them had a substantial relationship.

With this breakthrough, the muttering and incomprehensible estrangement between the two of them seemed to have disappeared.

But a new diaphragm reappeared, this time physically.

Before they had a relationship, they also talked about this topic, and at that time, whether it was Mu Yao or Tianci, they all said that they had not had a relationship with anyone else.

But here's the problem, on the night of the first anniversary of their acquaintance, they had a relationship, but they didn't see red, which made Bian Tianci feel a layer of estrangement in his heart.

It's not that he attaches great importance to seeing red, but there must be something hidden in it, and this concealment is definitely not good for the feelings between each other.

Besides, I don't care about this kind of thing, what can't I say honestly and unfairly.

It's always easy to get on the tip of the horns in love, and it's not easy to come out.

Some things have a first time, just like encountering a delicious taste, and the second and third times will follow.

The miraculous thing happened the second time, something that I never expected, but in hindsight, it turned out to be red.

This is really confusing for Bian Tianci, a rookie, not the first time he meets red, why is it the second time when he comes to himself.

There are many reasons for not being popular, such as intense exercise, such as practicing dancing when I was a child, such as having an accident, etc., but for Bian Tianci, this time really impressed him and made him unforgettable.

With this redness, the doubts in Bian Tianci's heart completely disappeared.

The two of them are like each other, and it can be said that they sprinkle dog food near the company every day, which makes their colleagues in both of them very envious.

......

Qin Muyao made a generous move, many times she paid for parties and so on, but according to Bian Tianci, she didn't have much salary a month, so where did the money come from? Could it be that her parents gave it to her.

One day, Bian Tianci couldn't help but ask, and Qin Muyao replied very calmly: "In addition to my current job, I am usually running an online store. Every month, the online store can bring me a very good income, and that salary is just an allowance for me. ”

Hearing Qin Muyao's explanation, Bian Tianci was very shocked, he really didn't expect her to have her own career, he really didn't expect that the gap between himself and her would be so big.

Qin Muyao also opened the website and let him take a look, the goods she sells are some small household appliances, and there are several popular products, and the business is indeed good.

At this time, Bian Tianci felt that he really didn't know much about the woman he wanted to live with her for the rest of his life - Qin Muyao.

How many secrets does she still have that she doesn't know?

For a long time, love was trust, love was respect, love was space, and love was freedom...... originally thought that if I knew so much about love, I would definitely be able to give each other happiness.

But when you find that you don't know your other half more and more, that kind of panic and anxiety will haunt you like a devil, for fear that if you don't pay attention to the other person, you will leave your side.

Sometimes leaving is a lifetime, and there is no turning back.

These are not the results that Bian Tianci wants to see, so he looks for questions from himself: Is he not caring enough about Mu Yao? Is he not loving Mu Yao enough? Is he not deep enough for Mu Yao?

In the self-denial and doubt, Bian Tianci suffered from the torment brought to him by love.