I looked at Zhou Yuan: "I don't think you have it"

"But I can't satisfy the people around me," Zhou Yuan's tone couldn't hear joy or anger, "I thought that I had chosen a path that would allow me to earn income faster in a short period of time, but no matter how hard I work now, I can't make myself better." I thought that I could make myself better through Lan Ruo, but it turned out to be a mirror, and my mother was right, maybe I really wasn't a qualified son."

The more I listened to him, the more unreliable he became, and it was obvious that he had completely denied himself now, "Don't think like that, we all think you are very good, you are very nice, you are very hard-working, and you are also very popular, otherwise how would we come to see you? Even the director said that he wanted to see you."

Zhou Yuan shook his head: "It's not what you think, I'll show you something"

Zhou Yuan said and began to take off his T-shirt.

"Hey, what are you doing, don't play hooligan!" I saw that his movements were getting more and more weird, and I was about to stop it, but suddenly I saw a terrible scene:

Zhou Yuan's body was covered with wounds one after another, each of which was at least a dozen centimeters long, covered horizontally and vertically in his chest, abdomen, and both sides of his ribs, and each wound was at least two or three centimeters deep! In order to prevent these wounds from turning out, these wounds were stitched together with needles and threads, just like suturing wounds after surgery, but ordinary needles and threads were used for suturing. The whole wound has scabbed, but it looks very scary. Zhou Yuan, who took off his shirt, was completely a walking dead, just like a zombie in Resident Evil.

"Oh my God, what's wrong with you!" The first word that comes to mind is self-harm, and many people who are stressed out do this, but the wound will only be shallow, because the deeper the pain will make them stop.

Liu Shuai looked at Zhou Yuan's upper body, didn't close his mouth in surprise, and said for a long time: "Are you crazy? Call an ambulance!"

Zhou Yuan looked at us with a wry smile and waved his hand, this action drove the wounds on his body, and some of the wounds pulled the sutures next to him: "I found one thing, as long as I don't want to, I won't be in pain, not only mentally, but also physically I can't feel it, just now my mother said those words to me, I used to be very uncomfortable, I wanted to die, but now I just answer by reflex, and I don't feel any pain in my heart." I've cut so many knives on my body, and as long as I don't want to, I don't feel it at all, and even if I want to, I won't leave a drop of blood, don't believe me-"

Zhou Yuan picked up the knife on the coffee table and slashed it towards his stomach, I was frightened, and hurriedly snatched the knife over, "Letter, letter, letter!"

Zhou Yuan, who was robbed of the knife, did not resist, and continued to sit on the small stool, I looked at his upper body and felt pain, and hurriedly handed him the T-shirt: "Put it on, don't-catch a cold"

Zhou Yuan put it on obediently, obediently like a little rabbit: "You see, Sun Wukong has the ability of King Kong not to break the copper head and iron arm, and he is not afraid of knife cutting, although I don't have this ability, but I don't hurt to cut it." ”

"What's going on?" I came back to my senses and asked Liu Shuai.

"Mourning is greater than heart death" Liu Shuai sighed, "I used to think it was an empty word, but now I understand, the so-called heart death, that is, the soul is dead, he is now soul gone, the body is still alive, but there is no soul bond, the whole person is too rational, like a machine, all reactions are based on the experience and methods learned over the years, and over time, he will learn to control his nerves and body, so he can now have no pain." When I heard that the Buddha cut meat and fed eagles, I always felt that it was nonsense, how painful, but seeing him understand in this way, if the Buddha cultivated to the realm of immortality, impurity and impurity, and the nerves of the body have been controlled to send and receive as much as the heart, then there will be no pain at all."

"So, Zhou Yuan has become a Buddha?" I myself thought this conclusion was strange.

"No, on the contrary, it is a very dangerous situation. Soul, bond, fear, and other factors are necessary for a person's survival, and now Zhou Yuan does not have these, and it is dangerous at any time. Liu Shuai didn't understand, Zhou Yuan really wanted to listen to him again, but he didn't want to listen to him, so he continued to explain, "For example, let me ask you, is a computer afraid of shutting down?"

"No, it won't."

"A computer, will you be afraid of being replaced with a graphics card and open the chassis?"

"No, it won't."

"Why?"

"Because he doesn't know it hurts. No, because he doesn't have sensors, and it's not right, because he, well, because he's a machine."

Liu Shuai looked at me with a smile, "Then you tell me, what is the fundamental difference between man and machine?"

I looked at him, and I never thought about this philosophical question: "How do I know, you're R&D, I'm a product manager"

"Actually, you know, you also told me, but you forgot" Liu Shuai looked at me and also at Zhou Yuan, "because computers don't have the concept of death, but people do"

Well, I seem to have said this heresy when I was eating and farting, but I didn't expect him to fall in love with it.

"Born to die" Liu Shuai lowered his head and thought about it, "I couldn't figure it out before, but now I understand it, if there is no fear of death, there will be no attachment to life, if-" Liu Shuai continued to look up at Zhou Yuan, "If there is no resistance to pain, there will be no pursuit of happiness, if the body can't feel the threat to life of pain, then how can there be fear of death, resistance to pain, therefore, there will be no happiness, there will be no desire to live." ”

The more I listened, the more I felt as if I had entered a deep pit, and I felt that Zhou Yuan would directly wipe his neck in the next second.

"Of course Zhou Yuan won't die now, right" Liu Shuai looked at Zhou Yuan.

"No, because I'll tell my body that I can't die" Zhou Yuan replied seriously, "But I've been thinking about one thing recently, what is the meaning of living alone"

"You can't figure it out" Liu Shuai patted him on the shoulder, "Don't worry, we will return your soul to its place as soon as possible, and then you will still be the happy, sad, and heart-wide Zhou Yuan!

"Let's go eat"

......

When I went back in the evening, Liu Shuai's face was solemn, and when he arrived at the place where he was separated, Liu Shuai gritted his teeth, as if he had made a big decision, and said to me, "Haoning, you go back and ask Yan if there is a way to find my master."

"Your master?" I thought it was strange, this kid was reluctant to tell me about him a few days ago, how could he mention this matter today, "Can your master save Zhou Yuan?"

"No, but he may be able to find someone, and this person may be able to save Zhou Yuan. ”

"Who? so powerful, even more powerful than Yan?" I'm a little curious, it seems that this Liu Shuai has a lot of secrets

Liu Shuai looked at me, his face uncertain, and finally, he highlighted three words:

"Look!"