Chapter 149: Here It Is
Just as the fat man looked like he had seen a ghost and was about to turn his head to look behind him, Su Bai reached out and patted the fat man's fat face: "This time it scares you." ”
"............" fat.
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Half a century ago, humans left their footprints on the moon, but in reality, humans have not been able to fully explore the planet beneath their feet, such as the sea.
The ocean, a symbol of immensity, also means a kind of loneliness, especially in its depths, this loneliness, if nothing else, is basically equivalent to eternity in disguise.
In a cave in the sea near Qinhuangdao, Xie Yu sat paralyzed on the round platform, his suit had already become messy, he looked like a poor man in prison, and the sentence was indefinite.
In addition to the mottled loneliness, there is only another person in his body who accompanies him, although Xie Yu has tried every means to regain his body and expel that guy at the same time, but at this moment, in this situation, it seems that only his existence can make his sentence no longer completely free of waves.
There is no sympathy for each other, the concept of the initiative of the body is beyond everything, I don't know how many times Xie Yu has tried to expel that guy from his body, and I don't know how many times he has failed, he no longer has the luxury of expelling the other party and he will be able to regain his freedom, but he has to do something.
Su Yuhang's sentence "Please sleep for another two thousand years" completely sealed off here, that man, that woman, their identity and the impact of their identity are enough to make this seemingly joking sentence become a golden rule.
Xie Yu didn't take the time to think about why his boss would give the ring to him, why he didn't give it to Su Bai, not to the fat man, or even to the Chengdu listener Chenguang.
He didn't want to think about it, after all, he had to keep a little better reverie and memories for himself, at least, he didn't want to turn himself into another version of Xianglin's sister-in-law.
The cigarette was long gone, but by Xie Yu's side, there was a smoke, he skillfully took out one, bit it between his lips, lit it, and took a puff......
Xie Yu is clear that this is just a kind of illusion blessing for himself, as long as he simulates the feeling of a cigarette, then he is like he is really smoking.
This is a kind of self-deception, and it is also a kind of "painting bread to satisfy hunger", but in fact, he doesn't need to eat, and the level of advanced listeners can basically be regarded as a valley, as long as there are still residual sporadic energy around him to absorb and transform himself, he can continue to live, of course, it is impossible to be similar to that train and other isolated areas.
Fortunately, this is the bottom of the sea, fortunately, the aura here is quite sufficient, at least I don't have to worry about becoming a human being.
Therefore, the things that Xie Yu has to do every day are very simple, but they are also very rich.
The first thing I did when I woke up was to try to expel Fusu, and then failed......
After that, it's time for breakfast,
Xie Yu can put himself into the illusion of breakfast, there is milk, there is fried eggs, and even caviar from the white sturgeon, as long as it is what he has eaten, what he has felt, he can let himself re-experience it perfectly in the illusion.
After that, reading the newspaper, listening to music, karaoke, noise-canceling headphones, everything you need, and then there is a richer lunch, Western and Chinese dishes, in rotation.
Even, sometimes he chooses to eat barbecue at dinner, as long as he can calculate the thickness of cumin and salt, the progression and the change of meat quality, he can completely grill meat skewers with different tastes for himself.
It seems that this kind of cage life is not bad.
But Xie Yu felt more and more bored, he knew that all this was fake, and everything he did was nothing more than to bring himself a kind of psychological comfort and hints, but the pain was that he had to keep the last bit of sobriety at all times, because once he completely sank into it, it was equivalent to tying himself a plastic bag and suffocating himself to death.
Just as Su Bai was forced to stay in the place of enlightenment by Lao Fugui for the first time and chose to take the initiative to go to the Yellow Spring to seek liberation, Xie Yu is now also faced with such a choice.
He could allow himself to devote himself to the illusion he had created, but at the cost of never waking up.
He's still weighing, at least,
Wait,
Let's take a look again,
What will change?
Of course, Xie Yu no longer hopes that he will enter the story world, unless he completely overwhelmingly expells Fusu or controls Fusu and turns it into his own "totem" and "companion soul" driveable existence, it is impossible for the broadcast to pull himself into the story world again, because it is Su Yuhang who personally seals himself here, what Su Yuhang represents behind is the will of that existence, and they don't need to take off their pants and fart, seal themselves and then release themselves by entering and exiting the story world.
Of course, they also have to follow the rules of broadcasting, because broadcasting can determine the current interpretation, not the real interpretation, so they can't transmit the story world to him.
Xie Yu doesn't know how long he can hold on, perhaps, he has not been detained for a long time, but this is not confinement, because you can't see hope at all, when a person is completely desperate, in fact, time, is really meaningless.
The cigarette butt, flickering and flickering, Xie Yu held the cigarette butt in the palm of his hand, and sensed the temperature and burning of the cigarette butt, I have to say that in the past half a month, what made Xie Yu cry and laugh the most was that his realm had been raised to the level of the peak of the middle level of advanced listeners.
He didn't know if it was because of the Fusu in his body, or because he tried to deceive himself when he was so bored, which caused his illusion to have a qualitative effect.
But at least it gave Xie Yu a little comfort, or rather, gave him another way.
Either you will be immersed in loneliness forever until one day you will be completely lost in the maze of illusions, or you will succeed in that way in this way.
If the sermon is successful, there should be a glimmer of life, right?
At least, he should be able to expel Fusu at that time, right?
Every day, it was these miscellaneous thoughts and cigarettes that Xie Yu thought about how Su Bai had worked hard in the place of enlightenment for half a year.
"Click............"
In the distance, there was the sound of footsteps, it should be the sound of leather shoes stepping on puddles, Xie Yu raised his head slightly, and a rare trace of hope appeared in his eyes, which had lost most of his brilliance.
Coming, walking very slowly, as if hesitating, as if overcoming,
In fact, those who can walk in here will not be ordinary people.
Therefore, at this time, it is still possible to find yourself and really come here to see yourself, Xie Yu can completely guess who it is.
He didn't lean on the edge and shout, he didn't cry "why" hysterically, and he didn't pretend to be pitiful, although he knew that he was pitiful enough to look like he was.
It was clear that the man should understand what kind of torture it was to have him wear a dirty suit.
In front of him, a figure appeared, and that person walked very slowly and carefully, this posture was like his life.
careful
Trembled
Skate on thin ice;
This can be said to be a kind of persistence, adherence to one's own lifestyle and philosophy of life, but it can also be said to be a kind of cowardice, and it seems that he can only live in the rules and regulations that he was used to in the early days, and he does not dare to cross the thunder pool by half a step.
He used to be his idol, he was a well-known backbone of the game industry before he became a listener, and then he followed him to start a business, and then the two of them became listeners one after another.
The first days of loneliness and fear, he passed under his care, he began to get stronger and stronger, but still kept his heart, at first, he thought it was his calmness, but slowly, he began to no longer satisfy his calmness.
Especially when the breath of the radio came down that day, I actually saw him hiding in the corner of the desk in fright, shivering, and weeping.
Dreams are beautiful, but they can also be broken.
At that moment, his dream was shattered.
So he did whatever it took to force his idol to keep his dream going, and the pursuit that was out of reach for others seemed completely within his reach.
Everything is so natural;
I feel that I know him very well, but slowly, I find that I still can't really understand him, and sometimes, I also feel that he is hiding something, but after a long time, it doesn't seem to matter whether he is hiding something.
Just like Zhang Xueliang, who will be an old man in the future, answered in an interview with reporters why he chose not to resist and give up the Northeast in the first place, in fact, it has lost its own significance, history has been closed, and no matter what he says, he still can't completely restore his image.
He's coming
The dark shadows began to become clearer and clearer,
His appearance was revealed.
With a burgundy suit and a delicate tie, he is still so meticulous, he has always felt that he is a successful person, and he has always lived according to the living standards of successful people, which is very clear.
Xie Yu saw him, his own boss,
This scene,
It should have been a little embarrassing,
Because his own boss seems to be the initiator of this matter,
And now, it looks as if the boss has come to visit him.
But the embarrassment that should have occurred did not appear, two people have lived together for a long time, especially in the years after becoming listeners, exchanging each other's fears and feelings, this kind of communication, even more than direct flesh, body relationship can shorten the distance between two people, after all, even true love couples do not necessarily have this opportunity.
"You're here............" Xie said.
"It's coming. Boss Liang replied, "I brought you some oranges." ”
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