Over here...... Where is it?

I opened my eyes and looked at the familiar surroundings around me. The sky was dark, the moon light shone in the night sky, and the night wind swept up the yellow sand on the ground and blew it to the distant side.

I...... Who is it?

Come to think of it, I am Kyle, the pride of the Terrans, the guardian of justice and courage, the most perfect saint.

She...... And who?

Who is walking towards me? Who is walking under the stars, above the yellow sand? The brows that are lightly swept, the eyes that are gentle and resolute, the bridge of the nose that is straight and heroic, and the gentle smile at the corners of the mouth, the long black hair, the silver-white armor, and the spear that still flashes under the night sky.

Everything is so familiar, including your active hug, so familiar, so nostalgic, but why is my body shaking involuntarily? What am I afraid of? Why do I want to run away from afar? Who are you?

Oh, I remember, you are Nellie, Terran Nellie, my comrade-in-arms, my ...... It's mine...... It's mine...... Lover.

Looking around, I remembered, sighed in the desert, and sure enough, it was here again.

My sin, the place of sleep, the place of my dreams every night.

And also...... You, the one who appears in my dreams every night, my ...... Wife.

How many years, countless times, I thought I had escaped from here, I thought I had lost my heart, I would not regret it, I would not feel guilty anymore.

Unfortunately, every night, every dream, will tell me that, in fact, I have never fled.

I've always been here, forever sinking in this hellish nightmare.

"Kyle, you're finally back. "You who hugged me haven't changed at all. It's still so straightforward, it's still so gentle, and your voice is still so familiar.

"Ever since you went to Yongsan, I've been worried about you. The two major forests in the north and south are both cemeteries of demigods. "Hehe, you are always like this, in your heart, except for chivalry, is there only me, a sinner?

"I won't die until this matter is resolved, even if the opponents are the overlords of the Warcraft Forest. What a proud voice, how high-spirited, but now it sounds, hehe, really disgusting: "Even if I really die, for the peace of the whole Yara, for the justice of you and me, I have nothing to fear." Isn't it the ideal of you and me to dedicate oneself to justice?"

Stupid people, despicable and cowardly waste, you are always so proud, you always want to make yourself a perfect person, you always deliberately pursue virtue to be praised by others, you always want others to think that you are a saint, but you are actually just a waste, you are just an ordinary and useless waste, you are just a cowardly and despicable waste in the face of strength and powerlessness in the face of death.

"Ha, Nelly, an old friend will be here soon, let's go meet you. "Ha, stupid fellow, be proud, be arrogant, the more you are like this, the more you know your true nature, when you find your weakness and cowardice and meanness, the more you will hate yourself, do you understand that......? I, the ...... of my dreams I.

Oh, I know, I can't escape anymore, I know, my soul will stay here, unable to leave.

I know that every night, I'm going to come back here, I'm going to relive every minute of this fight, every night, I'm going to face it again...... My sin.

That's the punishment.

Punish me for cowardice and meanness.

Every night, the punishment continues.

Endless nightmares.

Endless Crime and Punishment.

Come, I confess my sins, I accept judgment, I welcome punishment.

Let me face my sins once again, and all this is the reward I deserve.

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"Ha, ha, ha, ha", Pannis gasped violently, waking up from his nightmare once more, and seeing the dark dome of the cavern through his sweat-soaked hair stuck to his face. The trembling of his body gradually subsided, and his curled body slowly stretched out, and Pannis reached out to wipe away the marks on his face that he didn't know if it was sweat or tears, revealing a self-deprecating smile.

"It's hard, Pannis. Lina's voice was no longer elegant and clear, but it became hoarse and magnetic.

"What are you talking about, Miss Lina. Pannis, who was already awake, simply got up and walked to the lamp, opened his kettle and poured a few sips of cold water.

Lina smiled and shook her head, and asked rhetorically, "What does Sister Catherine want to do, you actually know it in your heart, right?"

"Stupid knights, stupid chivalry. Pannis threw the kettle aside, covered his face with his hands, and his voice came out of his hand with an urn: "Foolish mercy, foolish redemption, therefore, I hate knights." ”

"yes, the eldest sister is stupid. Lina agrees with Pannis: "She has aspired to be a knight like Nelly since she was a child, so she has vowed to carry out chivalry for the rest of her life, as Nelly did." Actually, it's nothing, the problem is, she was stupid enough to actually do it. ”

"Knight, it's all wrong. Pannis's voice carried an imperceptible wrench: "Sacrifice, mercy, mercy, justice, glory, scorn, they will never understand that these things will kill them sooner or later." ”

"Maybe they don't get it. Lina smiled and whispered, "Maybe they just think that they would rather embrace death than lose these virtues." ”

Pannis sighed softly, and his tone turned back to his usual coldness: "What the hell are you trying to explain?"

Lina's right hand was naturally placed on the collarbone under her neck, and her expression was full of natural seduction: "Since Pannis, you understand what the eldest sister wants to do, why do you back down every time?

"She's an employer. Pannis's answer was simple and straightforward.

"Really?" Lina smiled, with a smile in her voice: "However, you can even refuse this commission, just like the eldest sister said before, gold coins actually mean nothing to you." In that case, how can you be bound by an employment agreement?"

"I ......"

"You also crave it, right?" Lina interrupted Pannis's defense and said in an affirmative tone: "Waking up from nightmares every night, struggling with pressure every day, freezing yourself every moment, rejecting all kindness from the outside world, constantly punishing yourself with pain, but constantly stimulating yourself with alcohol and sex, in fact, even like this, your heart is longing, right? ”

"Nope. Pannis subconsciously raised his voice, and even he was startled by the raised voice, and when he looked back to see that the sleeping girls were not woken up, he lowered his voice and justified: "This is my offense, this is my punishment, no one can redeem me, no one can ever redeem me." ”

"Hehe, if you don't give it a try, who knows the result?" Lina laughed softly, but instead of pressing Pannis, she talked about herself: "Actually, speaking of which, our adventure group, who doesn't have some unbearable painful memories, who doesn't have a story behind it that can't be talked about?"

"It's your party. Pannis deliberately corrected.

"Okay, okay. Lina replied casually: "It's our adventure group, so I'm satisfied." In the party, I, Vivien, and even Catherine herself had a very unhappy past. Vivien and I were once like you, miserable, cold, and unscrupulous. If you had seen us a few years earlier, you would never have believed that we were the same person before and after. ”

Pannis listened in silence and with a blank face, no one knowing what was going on in his mind.

Lina didn't expect any answer from Pannis, and continued to herself: "We have always been like this, and think that this life will always be so painful and indifferent, but Catherine has reached out to us. So, since we can all be saved, why don't you have the courage to try?"

"You don't understand. Pannis shook his head and sighed deeply: "It's still the same sentence, no one can redeem me, and I will never be redeemed." ”

"Maybe. Lina was not angry, stood up noncommittally and said, "We still have a long time to work together, let's wait and see." Hee-hee, please take care of it in the future. ”

"That's right, Pannis. Lina slowly walked to Pannis's side, the corners of her eyebrows and eyes were full of charm, her posture swayed just right, and her every move was indescribably charming: "It's time for your vigil, I'll go to sleep, come on, good night." ”

Looking at Lina's swaying back, Pannis casually asked, "What are you...... Changed again?"

"yes. Lina turned around and raised the book in her hand: "Princess and the Empire, Princess Heidi." ”

"Well, it's very ......" Pannis thought about the word, "very personal." ”

"Shhhhh Lina lowered her voice: "Actually, Sister Catherine said that my lethality was too great and she wouldn't let me come out." But if you don't let me out, I'll be lonely, so when I'm alone at night, I'll occasionally let me out to breathe, and I'll go back early in the morning. Hehe, are you dizzy? I'm gone, I'll see you later. ”

"It's really lethal. Pannis said, "Go and rest, and I'll wake you up before you depart." ”

"Redemption?" Pannis watched Lina get into her sleeping bag and whispered to herself, "Is it possible for someone like me to be redeemed?"

Hanging his head and muttering to himself, Pannis suddenly burst into silent laughter, silently, but maniacally, laughing until he was exhausted, laughing until he burst into tears.

The cave was silent, and the four girls fell asleep silently, forming a strange scene with the men laughing wildly under the lamp.