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"That's right. When I was a child, I was very naughty, naughty all day long, and I had countless awkward fights with my grandfather for martial arts training. Every time, my grandfather had to fight with me before he could convince me to reluctantly practice if I wanted to steal, cheat, and slip.

After the old man passed away, there was a period of time when I devoted all my time to crazy martial arts training, and then my emotions calmed down, but my body got used to that kind of intensity, and slowly as time passed, I really liked martial arts, and I automatically and spontaneously got up early in the morning every day to insist on practicing. ”

At that time, he was only ten years old. In the Dingguo Mansion, even if the father is still alive, the stepmother is the biological aunt, there are several brothers and sisters, and there are many loyal subordinates and servants. But he really felt that the sky had fallen, and he couldn't see any hope of living, and he lived like a walking dead every day.

If he hadn't promised his grandfather Shen Shaoqi, he would definitely live well, until the day he saw his sweetheart get married and have children, until the day when he made contributions to his grandfather's only son and his biological father, Shen Yueqi, to enjoy his old age, and until the day when he could finally go to see his old man with a smile and say that he had no regrets in this life, I am afraid that he would have struck his neck or right chest early in the morning and killed him with a knife.

Shen Jingyuan sighed, "Yan Shunhua, I'm so glad I met you." ”

If it weren't for her sudden appearance, I'm afraid that in this life and this life, he would not be able to truly understand his grandfather's distress and be convinced by the old man's dying wishes.

Living with carelessness and happiness with anticipation are two completely different ways of living.

"Okay, it's incendiary again? You've said that many times. My ears were calloused. Yan Shunhua rubbed his ears, feeling that his fingertips were hot, obviously red and dripping blood, and he felt a little awkward in his heart.

"In fact, with your personality, the old man must know that he will not admit defeat easily, and you will naturally not do such a stupid thing as self-judgment. It's just that I'm worried that you won't be able to see it, but I've been depressed all the time I live. That's not a problem either. That's why I comforted you with all my heart.

Knowing that you not only listen to your ears, but also practice it, I think he knows it. I will definitely feel comforted by the boss, maybe I will dance for this, thinking about how I fought with you in the first place, and now this time. Finally, his old man completely had the upper hand. ”

Shen Jingyuan laughed dumbly when he heard this.

"You're right. At that time, I loved to go against him, but what he said he was going to do. I must have come the other way around, he asked me to go to the left, I was determined to go to the right, he called me to come forward, and I always stepped back. I have done a lot of work in the house, uncovering tiles, climbing trees, and digging eggs, and I have been beaten a lot. But in the process, it's really a win with less loss.

Every time he was so angry that he jumped on the spot and hoarsely exhausted, he would come forward to receive the punishment with a smile. Then he began to talk about the conditions, and after success, he went to practice martial arts. He used to call me a stinky boy. If you don't respect your elders, it's like you owed me in your previous life. ”

Speaking of this, Shen Jingyuan seemed to see the tall and burly Shen Shaoqi, his expression was either loving or stern, or angry or happy, looking at him, shouting at him, beating him, coaxing him, no matter which look or action, now recalled it is full of warmth.

Because he is sincerely nervous and loves him, so the old man will be so emotionally exposed, always pay attention to his needs, and teach him how to behave in the world all the time, I just hope that in his lifetime I can watch him grow up safely and healthily, marry a wife and have children, make meritorious contributions, protect the family, defend the frontier, and have meritorious service in the community, and no fault in the family.

Even if he is so weak and useless, he still learns a little bit of his grandfather's advantages subtly.

Otherwise, we will not be able to resist all the sorrows, pains, injustices, and indignation, and finally usher in the day when adults will completely take over the family.

"I really envy you, in your heart, your grandfather has always been the one who stood up to the sky but loved you deeply. ”

Until he died, he was not worried about the safety of this grandson, and comforted him and taught him with great care, just so that he could have the courage to live, and be able to live well and happily.

Her parents, I don't know, will they know that she is no longer alive?

Yan Shunhua's expression was lonely for a moment. No matter how relieved I am, every time I think about it, I still don't feel happy in my heart.

It's not that she doesn't mind those pasts, it's just that every festive season, when the people around her either go home happily or don't go home but naturally miss the home waiting for her to go back, she will always have a sense of astringency in her heart for no reason.

She doesn't spend her time outside during the Mid-Autumn Festival or Spring Festival every year. Occasionally, I will stagger the time to visit the two houses. This festival is at the father's house, and the next important festival will be chosen at the mother's house. Even some less important weekends, although rare, will ask the parents out for a meal alone.

But even so, at a certain moment when everyone was in the middle of the crowd, she would suddenly find herself as if she had withdrawn from the environment, just watching her interactions with others through the eyes of a bystander.

Her parents will be very concerned about her reaction, whether the water is hot or cold, whether the food is salty or light, whether the towel is clean, whether the quilt is dry, whether the toothbrush and toothpaste are good, etc., they will ask again and again.

Until she was sure that there was no problem, she would continue to eat and drink warmly with a sense of relief, and told her that if she found something uncomfortable, she must tell them, and they will solve it immediately.

"Isn't that great? It proves that they still care about you, which is why they are so careful. ”

After listening to her talk about some of the daily trivialities of going home and staying, Shen Jingyuan obviously wondered why she was bothered by these things.

"It's because I'm too careful and thoughtful, so I seem polite and detached. It's as if I'm not part of the family anymore, so I need special treatment compared to my younger siblings. ”

She explained softly, "In the past, when the family of three got along, the water would have been hot. My parents will immediately call me to solve it myself, add some cold water when bathing, and if it is a problem with drinking water, I will take an extra cup and pour it back and forth, so that the boiling water can speed up the heat dissipation;

If the amount of salt is not suitable for the dish, they will say, "The salty food is more fragrant, and the lighter is sweeter, and I will taste the food made by my family with gratitude." In the mouth, everything will be supremely delicious';

If the towel is not clean, I will find a way to wash it myself or go to the supermarket to pick up a new one;

If the quilt is not dried, it will be mentioned to my ears and remember to disassemble it. Take it to the washing machine and wash it and take it to the roof to dry, instead of being lazy and lazy, 'waiting until the sun is drying your butt to remember that your quilt is about to grow hair';

Toothbrushes and toothpaste don't work, so you have to wait until they run out. Because 'learn to be diligent and thrifty, not to be rich and lose'. ”

Shen Jingyuan was thoughtful, and then he heard her laughing at herself in a very low voice.

"There are times when I think. Even if I look down on myself in the end, there is no way for the two of them to really treat my daughter easily.

After all, I once loved it. Later, I have been trying to treat me as a pearl in the palm of my hand, but because I tried too hard, I showed a different sense of distance. They had no choice but to deal with me more cautiously. Every time we meet, we do our best to echo my words and achieve my requests.

Even if there are times when I deliberately do something wrong or speak too much, the most they do is be silent, or worse. Because of this, he would take the opportunity to beat his younger siblings, and then repeatedly comfort me, the initiator of the wrongdoing. Occasionally, I would ask the little ones to apologize to me.

What do you say, 'It's rare for my sister to come to the house for a holiday, can't you let it once?' Usually you are allowed to dominate the family at home, what's wrong with letting it happen once? It's only a day or two of work, and this is wronged? Are you still justified or ashamed?'

Usually at this time, my stepfather would keep his face strained and silent, unhappy but not attacking me, but instead looking more and more unpleasant, he would follow my mother and count down his own children, until my mother herself felt that she had changed her mind too much.

As for the stepmother, it is also very interesting, when my dad speaks to train people, she usually doesn't say anything, but when she feels that her child has been wronged, she will silently wipe her tears. Then the next time, she would be more and more attentive to me, handing slippers, pouring tea and water, peeling shrimp and pears, all delicious and fun to me first, and her children could only watch and not eat or play, even if I agreed. ”

"Since your father and mother are businessmen, they don't see the trick?"

Shen Jingyuan felt a little sorry for her who had lived like that, and couldn't help but gently pat her shoulder to show comfort.

Yan Shunhua smiled slightly, nodded and sighed.

Although my parents are not the kind of people who are naturally smart, they have been in the society for decades, and they can do business in foreign countries. ”

Speaking of which, she was still in the mood to say a joke, saying that her family's economic situation has been rising in a straight line for many years, just like a high interest rate and loan, "It's really like a snowball, getting bigger and bigger, and before you know it, the whole small family has been flattened and collapsed." Because of too much money and too much ambition, the once stable triangle was destroyed and fell apart as the sky and the earth collapsed. ”

Shen Jingyuan was silent, just continued to tap the action.

Yan Shunhua buried his head in his shoulder socket and left for a long time before returning to the topic just now.

"Actually, even if you can see it, what can you do?

When the family is scattered, they become the husband of another woman, and the other becomes the wife of another man, and each of them has gone through the process of death and rebirth, and has a new family. Even if I am their flesh and blood, but after all, it is all in the past, and when I see it, I may think of the beauty and love of the past, but more than that, it is the long-term entanglement and exhaustion.

As a parent, no matter how much reluctance and love they have for me, in the end, the frustration caused by their failed marriage and the joy brought by their new family will all be transformed into responsibility and a deeper sense of guilt.

For my sake, they can ask themselves to be patient and whisper to please, they can also ask their current partner for understanding and support, and they are even willing to let my children who have wronged me tolerate my rudeness and even rudeness and hurt, but all of this is based on guilt.

The fact that they were able to tolerate me for a long time does not mean that they are willing to let their later partners, especially younger children, be subservient to me forever.

Because of these unspeakable emotions, after dealing with me tiredly, I must need to be more thoughtful and sweet to coax the people around me, and the next time and the next time, and countless times later, after my stepfather and stepmother repeated countless times again and again to deal with my rights and wrongs with open-mindedness, my parents began to feel really tired.

Then, no matter which side I went back to for the holiday, all of them did greet me with a smile, but in private, my younger siblings often cried aggrievedly, my stepfather and stepmother were in a bad mood, and my father and mother were not pleasing and embarrassed.

And I, even though I was in an awkward situation, still played freely for a long time, and finally I was able to breathe a sigh of relief, watch coldly, see clearly the sincerity and politeness, and also see where the boundary is, and never crossed the line again. ”

She paused, and Shen Jingyuan took the opportunity to ask, "What boundary?"

Yan Shunhua grinned silently in the dark, and then said in a cold tone, "It's that boundary, the boundary that makes each other feel safe and comfortable." ”

She reduced the number of visits to the two houses, and she never took the initiative to go back to either except for the occasions she had to attend. I never asked my parents out alone, and the family of three had an awkward but quiet meal.

Later, even on festivals, she would often make excuses and even say hello at the end, and go crazy with her friends all over the world.

Emails are infrequent, phone calls are frequent, and occasionally communication is inconvenient, or she is too lazy to listen to those repetitive polite words, she will always send messages during the trip, report to the two of them about their safety, and attach her whereabouts.

Children are debts owed by their parents in their previous lives. But how can parents not be the burden of their children in this life? Because they are family members, she is willing to carry them forward, even if later, they are not willing to walk with her again, and they turn a corner in front of her eyes and drift away.

But, in the end, it's family. The existence of blood determines the bond between them.

Family affection, some people ignore the blessings in the blessings, some people can't ask for it, can only helplessly watch them bit by bit in the time until they disperse, powerless, regret for a long time, and finally only left a heart full of tiredness and embarrassment, and the most sincere blessing to each other buried deep in the heart. (To be continued.) )