Wadsworth had a dream, a dream about something that had happened a long time ago. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoHe has a father who is a bricklayer and a mother who is a washerwoman. From birth, he was destined to serve the lord for the rest of his life, just like his parents, so from the age of four he went to the hunting dog house and began to take care of the animals there.

Remember one year, the lord was besieged in the castle by the enemy, and after eight months, the cold winter wind brought irrepressible hunger. Despite several attempts at a breakout, and despite several waves of messengers being sent, it seemed impossible to break the siege. The lords besieging outside knew that they had won the battle, and they only waited for the people of the city to starve to death before they could take over the land.

There was nothing to eat, and the falling snowflakes became the only thing that could move in the walls. Wadsworth was curled up in his parents' arms, his body temperature still faint behind him, and the snow was pouring down the window. He felt like he was going to freeze to death, and he was going to starve to death, and for the first time, the threat of death came to his mind so clearly.

"Hey, wake up, it's not good to go to sleep!"

Wadsworth opened his eyes and looked at the face not far away, and he didn't have the heart to say anything. He was still trapped in the terrible cold, and his own strength was constantly drained by the cold. When he raised his hand, the ruddy and smooth skin was gone, and only the old wrinkled skin hung with frost remained. I believe that my appearance has also become old, and wrinkles and age spots must crawl all over my head.

"Wadsworth, how are you feeling?

"I still want to pinch you to death. How did I come to know each other...... No, you found me. I'm so unlucky. Wadsworth spat blood on the ground, turning into ice chips before he could hit the ground. "What's in it for you if I'm dead? Don't you want to know what I know?"

"I actually roughly understand that tree retreat, soul tearing, fusion and assimilation are nothing more than these things. Zhao Mai shook his head: "No, Wadsworth, I don't have the slightest interest in becoming what you were before." Arrogance to the point of losing oneself, greed without moderation. ”

"You're right. Wadsworth shuddered with his teeth, clenched his knees and said, "I just dreamed of the feeling of death, the feeling of nostalgia...... How many years have I not had the fear or reverence of death since I fused with the mangroves? Mike, thank you, at least in my dreams I saw my parents again and felt the warmth of their bodies. ”

"Dreams of Death...... Parents...... Your parents?"

"Oh, they're long gone, they're not sick or sick, but they're at the end of their lives, and I take care of them until the end. Wadsworth said with a nostalgic expression: "I remember, my mother blamed me for not getting married and having children before she died, and she was worried that I would be alone." That's when I started to have the idea of a doppelganger, and then it was the accident of the tree escape technique. ”

"Have you regained your memory?"

"Actually, it's been recovered a long time ago, I just don't want to tell you. Wadsworth shook his head and said, "Stop this damn cold wind, I've calmed down." If I don't turn it off, I'll freeze to death. ”

"Oh, I think it's pretty much the same, too. Zhao Mai breathed a sigh of relief, and the power of ice immediately stopped. It would take a while for the temperature to rise, but Wadsworth immediately felt much lighter. He looked at the chain on his wrist, which had been frozen into a lump of iron, but it still held him tightly.

Zhao Mai opened his palm to Wadsworth, closed his eyes and felt it carefully. "Your soul is still strong, and you always exude influence on others. However, your body's natural Force is restored, and it is slightly higher than the surrounding environment, which is considered the normal level of the druid. With a tug of his left hand, the shackles of war shook off the ice, untied from Wadsworth's wrist and returned to Zhao Mai's palm. "I suggest you stay in your current state for a while, rediscover the fulcrum of your past life from memory, and then think about restoring the level of the natural Force. ”

"You've unshackled the war, aren't you worried that I'll teleport away now and never find it again?"

"I told you, I am not very interested in your knowledge, you can say what you want, I will refer to it at most, and I will never go back to your wrong old path. Zhao Mai shrugged his shoulders: "I used fusion to make you look like that before, so naturally I have to treat you responsibly and recover." Now that you're almost healed, if you had run away, I wouldn't have been looking for you everywhere - that's not my responsibility. ”

Wadsworth nodded: "Fair, I trust you." Now I'm listening to how the powerful Force of Nature has made me uncomfortable, Mr. 'Doctor'?"

"I have a theory about eternal life. Zhao Mai said to Wadsworth: "You and I are both human beings, born to be constrained by death, whether we usually think about this aspect or not, the length of life also affects our way of thinking all the time. If suddenly one day life expectancy is no longer an issue, people don't know what to think. The ass determines the head, and no longer dead is a big event, and people's way of thinking and thinking patterns can't change so quickly. Therefore, whether it is to become a lich, to become an elemental, to become a tree, or to drink the potion of eternal life, it will affect people's thinking and gradually drive people crazy. Maybe it's not crazy, it's just that you can't continue to use the past concept of life, and you will fall into contradictions. ”

"This ...... This is indeed a contradiction. Wadsworth nodded in agreement: "You're right, I haven't felt the threat of death for a long, long time, and to a large extent, I don't care about time or myself, so it doesn't matter if I sleep in the ground, if it weren't for the biggest doppelganger being captured, I wouldn't have woken up at all." But since I'm immortal, what do I do? ”

"Since all immortality can lead to madness, madness leads to the loss of self, and the loss of self is not death?" Zhao Mai said with a smile: "So, I think that immortality just postpones death, and sooner or later it will still come to that point." I don't know when I'm going to go crazy, just as I don't know when I'm going to die, keeping the thought like that can replace death in the mode of thinking, and remain normal after eternal life. ”

"You're so sophistry......" Wadsworth thought for a moment, then suddenly burst out laughing. He couldn't stop laughing, laughing with a sense of self-deprecation.

"You're just keeping yourself, isn't it any different from before?"

"Of course, I have to keep looking for things to keep busy, to keep progressing and to stay interested, because I'm more scared than I used to. Zhao Mai said: "I think of how difficult it will be to kill and how difficult it will be if I go crazy one day, and I shudder myself." ”

Suddenly, Wadsworth also shuddered, as if recalling the terrible things that had just happened.