Chapter 686: Cursed Order
He was long dead...... The current Hua Tengyun is just a walking corpse. What does he live for? He is unwilling! He lives by breathing a breath and saying "unwillingly," and he does not want to be the laughing stock of others. It is precisely because no one cares about his life and death that he should be stronger to live, even if he can only be a corpse, he still exists, can still fight, and can kill, is this enough?
More than once he questioned himself, his answer was always "not enough". Light can kill, but can not find the meaning of existence, just like the past keep repeating the military career is really boring, but what should be the fun of fighting? Fighting again and again, as a human being, as an undead, he is just killing the enemy, making meritorious contributions, breaking cities, and making meritorious contributions again and again, he should only think about winning battles, winning battles all the time, winning undefeated, killing and killing, knocking down the enemy, and making a name, but where is the meaning of doing this? In doing so, they are not living for themselves and making meritorious contributions to others, but in the end, what can they do? Blindly being dominated by others, being used by others, running out, and having no value, and being suspicious and jealous of the master, he can only be framed or ruthlessly abandoned by the Lord, and this has always been the case. He has won thousands of battles, but in the end he has not made a wedding dress for those shameless and despicable villains, what does he get for himself? He has nothing, everything that belongs to him is empty, the more he fights, the more empty he becomes, the more he kills, the more boring he becomes, he has established great feats, but the world is so big, but there is no place for him, the "double father" of the two worlds of man and demon, this is simply a great irony!
Is everything that Hua Tengyun insisted on worthy of his continued persistence? He should not be like this, nor should he accept the injustice of the world. The world shouldn't treat him like this, even if the helpless betrayal will zero all the achievements of the past, even if he is spurned by others, it is better than being completely forgotten in the past, right?
Yes, he could get 99 out of 100 points, but not getting the last point made his efforts go to waste. Where should Hua Tengyun go to find the true meaning of life, he doesn't know, now he has no life himself, how can he talk about existence? Lost, heartless, neither heartless nor fearless, framed, ostracized, forgotten, buried, the world will always stand on the opposite side of him, the sky above his head, as if it has never been clear, always dark and gloomy, just like his former heart, painful and numb, crying about the past that has been abandoned, crying about the reincarnation of sadness.
Maybe the brief clearing of the sky is just a hypocritical faΓ§ade before the wind and rain are presumptuous, and he can only keep guessing what the appearance of the sky ability is. There is no good side to the sky, but people are used to clear skies, so they hate the dark world, but if the original appearance of the world is pitch black and dark, then the original understanding of human beings is wrong.
The predestined falsehood, it is not fate or this world that is playing tricks, but the death cycle that originally followed the wrong trajectory and developed to the present, a "dead circle" that can never escape, Hua Tengyun has no ability to break free, so he can only hide in the dark corner, let the years erode his torn soul, wreak havoc in his mind, unable to extricate himself, and constantly numb himself in the war, and the cause and effect he pursues can only become a bubble like his soul that is full of holes but cannot be touched.
Immersed in his heart, how could Hua Tengyun ever pursue a true one? For his fate, he had no choice but to let it go and go with the flow. He tried his best, he did well enough, and he was worthy of it, he never regretted that he had worked hard, but he couldn't get the initial expectation, in the end, he had nothing, like a chess piece at the mercy of others, like a trace of insignificant duckweed, unable to change the trajectory of flowing water. Whether as a human being or as an undead, he has never really lived for himself, let alone found the meaning of his existence, he can only be dominated by people, without any freedom, and he can't find the past, no matter how brilliant it is, it is an empty dream.
"Haha...... Why? Why...... Why did God do this to me? Sure enough, I was just a cursed, incomplete life......" Hua Tengyun stared at the sky with a wry smile, and he didn't know how many layers of huge waves had stirred up in his heart, as if his heart had always been as calm as death, because he was dead, and what was left in the world now was the unbearable body of the walking dead.
No matter how much he shouts in his heart, it's useless, he's a cursed, something that can't even be talked about as a living body, his existence is originally "nothing", what can he change no matter how hard he tries? Sighing lightly, helpless, bitter, and confused, Hua Tengyun seems to be in a daze, and he doesn't even know what he is thinking. The decision has been made, what is he still hesitating about?
Hua Tengyun stood still, his mind wandering, and he had thought too much in a short period of time. He muttered to himself, but he was dumbfounded and resentful: "Am I the one who is wrong......?" Is it the world that is wrong? It was wrong from the beginning, it was fate that deceived me, and I was not the only one who was cursed, right? The whole world was cursed, it must be like this...... Tell me that I'm not wrong, that my existence itself has no meaning. It's all here, what can you do if you live? The world is unfair, right......?"
Yes, fate has never been fair to him, he should have been the prince of Dongria, who was supposed to be the king of Dongria, but ...... He had long forgotten the unbearable scenes, but the piercing pain was tormenting his soul that had been twisted into twisted flowers all the time.
Facing the soul, Hua Tengyun can no longer deceive himself. He suddenly realized that he knew that he should seize every opportunity in front of him, and today, the final moment of his gamble, the iron of victory and defeat will be the final mark on his soul. In this move, it is only the luck of success or failure, and he wants to see if fate will pity him even the slightest. If he is really a cursed life, then he will dig his own grave now, but in fact, his self-confidence comes from no reason, precisely because he does not believe, even if it is only once, he will no longer believe in fate, his vitality, his freedom, will be controlled by himself, the destiny of heaven is up to him, he does not want to be dominated by others anymore! He wants to break through, for his own sake! Even if the world turns its back on him, he cannot willingly become a lamb to the slaughter. He's not weak, he can still fight!
Take the initiative once, let him take the initiative to assert it once! Not for anything else, just to prove that he has overcome fate and got rid of the curse! Maybe he can't recall the glory of the past for a long time, but what he can do is not just those meaningless things. Live for yourself, live well, if there is still a chance, he will definitely not repeat the mistakes of the past, right?
He's gambling, and he's planning for himself. He's going to live, is he right? He's tried his best, he's been cautious enough, he's besieged here, he's exhausted, it's enough, there's no need to wait any longer! He's going to win, he's not going to lose!
If Hua Tengyun can successfully break through this time, he will definitely not return to the undead guild that turned his back on him, he will disband the army, leave alone, and live an idyllic life of solitude. But only if there is such an opportunity. Everything is only if, no matter how beautiful it is, it is only if. What would he envision if he didn't have an if? Cursed life? No, he didn't want to!
"General Hua!" Dwyson's shout suddenly made Hua Tengyun wake up like a dream, only to see Dwyson rush to him in front of him, and said, "General, the vanguard army that has broken through is ready, and the whole army is on standby, just waiting for the general to give orders." β
"Ah...... Very good...... "Now is not the time for him to consider this kind of philosophy of life, Hua Tengyun suddenly came back to his senses, put aside all the thoughts that he shouldn't have, and hurriedly asked, "How is the next wave of attacks of the Human Guild going?"
"It's in full swing. It seems that this is the case, their march is getting bigger and bigger, and the offensive is becoming more and more violent, and the siege forces in the north and south directions seem to be more powerful. Dwyson then suggested with some uncertainty, "General Hua...... Judging from the current situation, should we temporarily change the direction of the breakthrough? The offensive on the north and south sides is particularly fierce, shouldn't we break through from the east and west directions?"
"At this point, there's no reason for us to change our strategy. Hua Tengyun said categorically, "There is no time, and as soon as the offensive stops, the chances will be even slimmer." Although the two major city gates in the north and south are in danger, this is precisely the trick used by the human guild to confuse us into not daring to break through from the north and south gates, and we are going to break out from these two gates, and this layout also proves that my conjecture is correct, the east and west directions seem to be weaker, but in fact they are hiding murderous opportunities. β
"Having said that, wouldn't it be easier for us to break through from every gate and create suspicious soldiers outside the other three gates?"
Hua Tengyun shook his head: "No...... That's the stupidest way to do it, and if you do what you say, we'll not be able to break through. Since you have broken through, you have to surprise him, there is no need to make a big noise, only those who are unaware can slip away. You must know that once Guo Xing discovers that we are trying to really break the encirclement, then a large number of troops outside their encirclement network will be mobilized, and even if we can escape this catastrophe at that time, the army in the rear will quickly outflank us and surround us again. Therefore, it is obviously not wise to do so. β
"Okay, I really lost to you, General Hua......" Dwyson smiled awkwardly, and at this point, he also had no complaints.
The army layout of the Human Guild is actually not as ulterior motive as Hua Tengyun imagined, in the final analysis, Hua Tengyun really thinks too much, he thinks about an already simple problem too complicated, even more than Guo Xing calculated. Whether God still favors him, or is all this just an accident, Hua Tengyun doesn't want to know, and similarly, others won't know.
"The armies everywhere are being deployed as scheduled. In the tent, the soldier was reporting the situation to Guo Xing, who was sitting leisurely in the middle seat and elegantly sipping red wine, "President Su has arrived at the designated place, and everything is under the control of our army." β
"Good. Guo Xing put down the glass of Chinese wine, and there was a hint of cunning in his cold face, "Just waiting for them to do this, how can they escape Guo's calculations?
"Well, yes, although the Vice President has been in contact with General Butterfly, none of their troops have encountered any hostile situation so far. β
"Hehe, the big fish didn't take the bait. Guo Xingsen smiled, and a drop of bright red wine popped out of his fingers inadvertently, "The undead army is now like a good wine in this cup, just waiting for Guo to savor them, even if it is inevitable to splash out a few drops, it is an insignificant drop in the ocean, and it will no longer pose a threat to Guo...... At least this time, we must completely cripple this group of filthy and dark miscellaneous pieces......"