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If he succeeds, everyone will naturally be happy, if he doesn't succeed, he can accept it, in fact, he can't accept it and there is no way, because this is an extremely slim thing, and he didn't even have the luxury of hope at first.

But he was able to accept Shen Li's surprise and rejection, but he couldn't face Shen Li's disgusting expression towards him, as if he thought that he was like and urine in the toilet, so dirty that he shouldn't live in this world at all.

Shen Bang didn't know if he saw Shen Li's reaction, would he really have no love, and then apologize with death.

All he knew was that he had no way to escape. Wishful thinking in the same place will not give you a chance for development or rebirth.

So it's either success or failure, there's no second middle way to go.

Seeing the resolute expression on his face, Yan Shunhua was stunned and couldn't help but hold his forehead.

This person was forced to a desperate situation by his inner feelings, so he finally made up his mind or had no choice but to take action, right?

If you don't explode in silence, you die in silence.

In many cases, there is indeed no way back from emotional matters. Because once you fall in love, you will either weave a perfect dream with the person you desire, or you will die and fall into the bottomless abyss.

She was silent for a long time, not knowing what to say to calm his emotions.

"Girl, do you think I'm cowardly like this? It's very inconsistent with the image you saw before? In fact, from the beginning to the end, I have never been able to be natural and confident in front of Shen Yan.

It's really funny to say, after discovering my own strange thoughts, I once dreamed of death, whether it was a girl in a green house or a lady from a white family, I have also tried to contact it countless times, to deliberately let myself work hard to like it.

Whenever there was any possibility, I would not allow myself to have such dirty thoughts about my brother, but unfortunately no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't take my eyes off Shen Yan's body. ”

Shen Bang seemed to be talking to himself, not caring about Yan Shunhua's surprised and slightly embarrassed expression, and continued.

"Girl, you may not know, in the first department, I am the most murderer, even Jia Yi, the number of people in his hands is much less than mine.

If I fall in love with a girl's family, even if the other party is a lady, or even a princess, it probably won't make me so shocked and unacceptable.

Yes, you heard it right, at the moment when I was in Fuzhi's heart, I really slapped myself several times on the spot, and then there was endless pain, I couldn't believe that I was such a person, and I actually had such a distorted thought. The thought of wanting to get involved with my brother is like wanting to get my friend's wife, and it makes me feel sick.

As a consequence of my self-loathing, I began to constantly beg my master to send me on a mission, to kill, kill, kill, and kill with endless killing to try to cover up the filth of my heart.

It's a pity that the blood is drenched but there is no way to stop me from missing him, in the longer time I go out of the mission every time I pull it every time, I become more and more insensitive when I kill, and I am very simple when I am up and down, but when I am a little free, Shen Yan's figure will occupy my mind, forcing me to want to go crazy. ”

Shen Bang still knelt on the ground, his voice was very calm, as if he was telling an inconsequential past, Yan Shunhua slowly squatted down, and then sat cross-legged on the ground, listening attentively.

Shen Bang's gaze was close to hers, and her movements obviously made him more and more relaxed, as he also changed his kneeling posture and turned to sit cross-legged and sit face to face with her, assuming a posture of long talk.

"When I go on a mission, especially when I kill someone, I take it easy because it requires full attention. It's sad that the waiting time before I decide to do it, and the long time on the way home after the mission is completed, I always wish I could never remember that he will never see him, but unfortunately no matter how many missions I have done and how many people I have killed, he still hovers in my mind, jumping and jumping, like he is always by my side.

I'm not afraid of your jokes, but for a long time, I really had hallucinations from time to time, thinking that he was smiling at me right within my reach. ”

Yan Shunhua's face was expressionless, but her eyes revealed seriousness, indicating that she was listening.

Shen Bang seemed to be caught in a memory, and his expression began to mock again, laughing at his former stupid appearance was really stupid.

"Before I realized my thoughts, I always felt that the so-called love between men and women was really redundant, how fake it was, what mountains and seas oathed, and the sea was rotten, all of them were all plays, strictly speaking, it was just a choice or compromise after weighing interests.

Women's uncontrollable care and love for men, and men's strong possessiveness and protection of their beloved women, are all jokes, just like those who sing big dramas on stage, all kinds of effort, no matter how wonderful the process is, it is still acted in the end, and after the curtain ends, people will wake up, knowing that what they have just experienced is just a play, and it is a wonderful dream that people have been obsessed with crying, laughing and laughing. ”

The mocking expression on Shen Bang's face became more and more intense, and Yan Shunhua began to sigh in his heart.

Then retribution came, and I began to pay attention to a particular person, and I easily affected my emotions because of his joys and sorrows, and I would be angry because he was angry, I would be happy because he was happy, and I would want to see him all the time.

Once he is present, there is no way not to notice his strong presence, once he is out of sight, he will feel relaxed, but at the same time there is a strong sense of loss, always suffering from gains and losses, afraid that he will not eat and sleep well and will not take care of himself at all, and even more afraid that he will encounter some danger.

Ha, I, Shen Bang, actually had such a day as the protagonist of a bitter love drama. Isn't it funny, you say?"

Yan Shunhua knew that he didn't actually want her answer, he just wanted to talk, so she didn't speak, but shook her head gently.

It's not funny, it's not funny at all, especially his self-spurning mocking look, which makes her feel uncomfortable.

Her friend in modern times, after experiencing countless psychological sufferings, finally chose to face head-on, but unfortunately yes, there was no desperate rebirth, and the person he loved, before he confessed, told him with a happy face that he had just pulled a marriage certificate with a kind woman.

Her friend had no way to break up the happiness that her sweetheart had so hard to pursue, and there was no way to send blessings like "a hundred years of good luck and early birth of a noble son", but he barely maintained his dignity, turned around and walked away, and quickly withdrew. (To be continued.) )