Chapter 13 Sinking into the Sea of Misery, Hopeless

As a snake, his instinct is greater than his thoughts, which makes him feel that he is not so tired of living. But memory still torments him, which makes him worse than death, for a waste, any identity in memory, is a failure, as a son, he fails, as a younger brother, he fails, as an uncle and uncle, he fails, as a student, he fails, as an employee, he fails, as a member of society, he fails, they all say that failure is success, yes, these failures make him a successful waste. After all, not every ship can reach Hong Kong against the current.

Memories are a quagmire in a swamp, and once you sink into it, you are likely to have no bones left.

The first step for Yansheng to achieve salvation is to completely erase the memory of failure. Because these failures were too many, too heavy, and had occupied all his thoughts.

He felt unfair, he was already a snake, his identity had changed, why should he have the memory of being a human being, he was looking forward to having Meng Po Tang in this world.

Time flies, in the blink of an eye, three hundred years have passed, and on the island of "no bones remained" in the sea of suffering, there is a famous "crazy snake", he relies on his instinct, cultivates his natural power to the extreme, he is powerful, willful, he has no friends, only enemies, he is Yansheng, the blue dragon.

Human beings are the minds that control the instinctive behavior, the beast is the instinct that controls the thoughts and behaviors, and the life extension is the human mind, the body of the snake, while he wants to practice well, the instinct is the expression of barbarism, he wants to be friends with other snakes, unfortunately, he often eats his companions, for example, the snake.

In the past three hundred years, the memory of his personality has not faded, but has become clearer, and he often admonishes himself: be a happy little snake and do not dwell on the failures of the past. The more he was reminded, the clearer it became, and in the end, he was finally driven crazy by his memory, and began to devour everything on the island, and began to do whatever he wanted, and he became a destroyer.

Because he knows that the instinct of the beast is to survive, and only to survive. But after human beings have thoughts, their instincts have been controlled, and there are even so many that they can choose, and Yansheng's instinct is to seek death, which is the only reason for him to come to the Waste Continent.

The soul that seeks death meets the body that seeks to survive. After struggling, he thought: if he can't kill himself, then ask someone else to do it!

He regretted that he chose to live in the first place, this way of living was too painful, and it was extremely painful.

He thought: I'd rather die a repeat without memory than recall those failed pasts, but he forgot that it was a choice he made.

Yeonsheng crawled out of the hole, and what he was going to do today was to do the same as usual, which was to hope that another companion would kill him.

You see that he is fierce and vicious, swaggering, and rampant without scruples, but whenever he meets a creature, he puts on a vicious face, and his body is already very large, and he is no longer a python, but a dragon, with horns, and siblings.

Xu Xian and Bai Suzhen have been in retreat for three hundred years, and since Qinglong said that he wanted to send them to 'hopeless' for cultivation, he has collected a lot of them, and he doesn't dare to make any more casual mistakes.

Yeonsheng has been looking for these two guys for two hundred years, but he still hasn't found them, because he believes that as long as he finds any of them, he can easily kill himself, the memory is too painful, and he wants to be freed too much.

"Bang bang bang" A loud sound suddenly sounded on the island, the sky shook, and a trace of surprise flashed in Yansheng's eyes, he knew that the two 10,000-year-old snakes were out of the customs.

He shook off his body, exhaled a puff of mist, and in an instant, disappeared in place.

Xu Xian and Bai Suzhen walked out of the retreat place at the same time, they just used the Dao Xing to arrange a formation on the island so as not to disturb their Qing cultivation, which is why Yansheng couldn't find them.

The two went out at the same time, and they saw hesitation, entanglement, and even embarrassment in each other's eyes.

In the previous life, I loved to die and live, and I hated to die and live in reincarnation, and goodbye was not a friend, not an enemy, but I had a bad heart.

"You broke through, congratulations!" Xu Xian, as a man, took the lead in celebrating.

"You have also broken through, rejoicing and rejoicing!" Bai Suzhen responded lightly.

The two of them didn't start leaving, nor did they stay, and the atmosphere was indescribably embarrassing.

Yansheng rushed out of the fog, and without saying a word, he directly attacked Xu Xian, and the water column turned into a blade and slashed straight down.

"What a little demon, Hugh has to make a mistake!" Xu Xian roared angrily, the snake's tail swung, purple light flashed, and Yansheng's attack was completely resolved.

Yansheng snake tail handful, aiming at Bai Suzhen.

After a while, one white, one purple and one blue, the three snakes fought and attacked each other. disturbed the island of 'no bones', and it was completely uneasy.

The wind and clouds meet, the lightning and thunder, and the wind and rain.

Yansheng's soul shouted to the other party to kill him quickly, but his body instinct skills were thrown at the other party one by one.

"Roar!" the dragon appeared, and the three snakes turned into huge dragon bodies fighting in the air.

Three hundred years of Yansheng, against Bai Suzhen and Xu Xian, who have been 1300 years old, they actually do not fall behind, they have the same attributes, and their attack methods are similar, and they are all going to die to correct each other.

Finally, this crazy battle of neurosis alarmed Mr. Qinglong again.

He jumped out of the deep sea against the monstrous waves, transformed into a dragon, and joined the battlefield.

"It's you two again, I said, you are sending you to 'hopeless' cultivation like this, and you will fend for yourself!"

Bai Suzhen and Xu Xian heard Qinglong's voice, and while defending against Yansheng's attack, they said: "This time is a great wrong, this snake demon also came out of nowhere, as soon as the two of us came out of the customs, he didn't ask the reason for the crazy attack, we have no choice but to take action, please be careful!"

The green dragon dragon flicked his tail, bounced Bai Suzhen and Xu Xian away, and asked, "When did you become a snake demon, so talented, but do such a thing?"

Where can Yansheng manage so much, at this time he is bent on death, killing gods when he meets gods, killing Buddhas when he encounters Buddhas, or being killed, he rushes towards Qinglong frantically.

"Don't measure yourself!" The head of the green dragon dragon was high, the dragon body became larger, the dragon's tail became longer, covering the sky and the sun, hovering under the sun, seeing Yansheng rushing directly, he spared no effort and crashed into it.

Yeonsheng only felt unbearable pain, but he smiled, yes, that's how it felt.

The pain made him feel alive, and the pain made him feel comfortable. It turns out that the pain of the body is more useful than the pain of memory.

"Come again!" he was undaunted and rushed towards the green dragon again.

Qinglong said: "The sea of suffering, it has always been a bitter sea, if you turn back, you can see the shore, why are you obsessed and unrepentant, and you don't want to turn back!"

Yansheng said: "I can't see the shore when I turn back, it's still a bitter sea, there is only a bitter sea behind me, why do you still tell me to turn back!"

"Stubborn! In this case, then I will send you to the 'hopeless' world and let you fend for yourself!"

"Don't go to any 'hopelessness', let my soul fly away!"

Qinglong incarnated as an adult and said with a smile: In this world, "The soul is scattered, merit is needed, you have not established merit in the sea of suffering, you shout that the soul is scattered, you can't help but look up to yourself too much!"

Yansheng still ignored it and rushed towards the green dragon, the green dragon stretched out his palm, easily resisted Yansheng's snake head, slapped down angrily, and Yansheng fell into the sea.

A huge whirlpool was formed on the surface of the sea, and the whirlpool went straight to the bottom of the sea, and the bottom of the sea exuded absolute darkness, and a black mist floated.

It's so quiet, it's so quiet, only the sound of the wind, only the sound of water, isn't this how he felt when he faced death? Yansheng closed his eyes again.

Darkness, absolute darkness, no light, no wind, no smell of nature. I can't see the road, I can't hear the sound, I can't smell the smell, I can't touch anything, and some of them are just memories that can't be escaped.

Why did I make a choice that I regret again? I enjoy life but despise it, I enjoy freedom but despise it.

Why do I always repeat the process of failure over and over again, I have a choice, but I never take responsibility for the choice.

Why should I be a deserter, fleeing from the earth to the waste continent, from the sea of misery to hopelessness, have I ever done a successful thing? Since when did I become a waste?

Waste, at least once used? So who used mine, and why did they abandon me?

I miss you, Dad, I miss you, Mom, I miss you, my brother and sister, I miss you, my dear friend, I miss you, my partner.

No, you are not qualified to think about them, you have no money to honor your parents, you have no love, righteous friends, you are not qualified, don't think about it, you are not worthy of it.

You go away, who are you, why are you pestering me, why are you pestering me!

I'm not leaving, I'm leaving, this dark world, how do you spend it, with me, you can see your parents, you can see your friends, you can see everything. Did you see that?

No, I didn't see anything.

Maybe it's too dark, and you're looking at it carefully, you see, it's your father ploughing the fields in the rain, driving oxen, that's your mother, wearing a straw hat in the sun, breaking corn, that's your brother, driving a car, is about to pick up the bride, and today he's going to be the groom, that's your sister and brother-in-law taking your nephew back to her parents' house for the New Year, you see, you see, do you see clearly?

See.

Why are you crying?

Why did you come out to accompany me in the dark, why didn't you show me earlier?

I've always been there, it's just that you don't usually want to watch it.

How, I want to see it, I've always wanted to see it.

No, you usually prefer to watch these, do you see?

No, invisible.

No, you must have seen it.

I really didn't see it, you pointed it out to me?

You see, there, he's so bright red that you can't see it, see?

See.

What is it?

It's vague, it's numbers.

Want to see it clearly?

No, I want to see those things before.

"Do you still think your memory is heavy? Do you still want to erase it completely?"

"I don't want to!"

There is nothing in the dark world, what can you hope for? What you see may be something that has been forgotten for a long, long time.

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, it has been a thousand years. A beam of light fell from the sky, and countless tentacles burrowed into Yansheng's body.

The road to salvation has officially begun, are you ready?