"In the beginning, my first instinct was to seal them up and stop touching them. Phila sighed and said, "But those are not machines and substances, those are knowledge, knowledge hidden deep in the brain, not that you can do it if you want to put it aside." I can control myself not to use them, but every minute, every second, even when I am dreaming, my consciousness is filled with these known and unknown things, and every day new ideas come out of my head, and you can't imagine that as a mage scholar, the pain of having to give up for various reasons when facing a subject that has broken through the most critical difficulties and may obtain the final result at any time, is simply the most terrible torment that comes from the depths of the soul. ”

"Should I say I'm glad I'm not a mage?" Pannis really couldn't understand the pain that Fila described, but if you think about it from another angle, if you let herself and Nelly face injustice and evil, but for various reasons you can't interfere and can only watch, that anger does come from the depths of your soul. For this empathy from another angle, Pannis could only smile wryly and said: "So, in the end, you still didn't hold back?"

"It's not a question of holding back or not holding back. Phila shook her head and said, "Every day I think about this aspect of directness, and I find that although I can control myself from experimenting, when I fall asleep at night, I in my dreams will uncontrollably study the knowledge that I insist on not touching during the day." Therefore, instead of wasting more time in dreams and getting no results, it is better to simply unseal and start researching directly when you are awake. ”

"Actually, you just don't use the magic that costs a lot of money. Pannis said, "Why do you have to use that way of splitting time to increase your consumption?"

"I'm looking at the rules of time through this, and it's this that I've broken through, so how can I not study it?" Fila shook her head and said, "And these studies all need to be experimented, and the object of the experiment can only be myself, so even if I deliberately control it." The rate of aging is also surprisingly fast. However, the good news is that the effort will still pay off, probably ten years later, that is, ninety years ago. I had another breakthrough and was able to split my time into three different timelines, so that I appeared in the same world on all three lines. At that time, although I was not yet sixty years old, I looked no different from a ten-year-old man, and I was lucky. Before I died, there was a new progress in research, but I was also unfortunate because I found that when I split up an extra portion of my time, the price was not double the time I imagined, but more than ten times the consumption, which used to be two to one, now it is more than twenty to one, and sometimes more. ”

"Still. Overall, I'm happy because in my lifetime, I'm one step closer to the secret of time, and even though I'm aging countless times faster than before, I still feel like it's worth it. Fira seemed to sink into her memory, and her previously calm voice became muffled: "But, it wasn't long before I had to stop my experiments. ”

"Because you're sick?" asked Pannis, tentatively, "I remember you just said if you were old." It's going to be the state of seeing you in between, and you're probably going to know it from that time. ”

"Yes, that's when I found out. Fira smiled coldly and said, "The movements are getting slower and slower, and the limbs are shaking violently involuntarily. Seeing things more and more blurred, even the voice of speech sometimes becomes muffled and inaudible, unable to walk on your own, unable to eat by yourself, let alone carry out some sophisticated experiments. That's when I knew. I thought I could see a lot of things, but it was just an illusion, and I was wrong about a lot of things. For example, I thought that in order to pursue knowledge and truth, I could face death without fear, and there was nothing wrong with that, but I was wrong because I didn't know that there were too many things that were far more terrifying than death, far more unmanageable than death. ”

"We're contemporaries, Kyle. Fila paused for a moment, calmed down a little, and then continued: "However, Nelly's forcible reversal of the death curse before her death makes you unable to experience these greater horrors at all, you will not understand the meaning of aging, and you will not be able to understand the pain of disease, these are actually still secondary, the most unbearable thing is to see that the rules of time are already looming in front of you, but you can no longer take this last step forward." This kind of unwillingness and despair is incomprehensible to you who have not experienced it, and if Christo were still alive, he must know very well what I am talking about. The lion of Dilly once said that the most reasonable sentence is that as long as the truth has been heard during the day, it is worth dying even at night, and I agree with this sentence very much, and it simply speaks to the hearts of all mages and scholars. But if you look at it the other way around, you know that you can see the truth at night, but you die during the day, hehe......"

The corners of Pannis's mouth twitched, he didn't know what to say, he couldn't agree with what his old friend did, the behavior of plundering others to meet his own needs, the purpose of his coming today, both parties were very clear, it was to draw a stop to this matter, but, as Fila told him little by little about what happened in the past, he felt more and more helpless. It is undeniable that these things are absolutely wrong, but if you were to be yourself, watching yourself lie in bed and rot day by day, and the truth you have pursued all your life is right in front of you, but you can only watch the truth from afar and you go to death step by step, can you really resist the temptation?

"You see, you hesitate too. Phila blew on the hot air coming from the teacup and said lightly, "It's really a difficult question to have a correct answer, right?" ”

"Definitely. Pannis took a deep breath, looked up into Fira's eyes and said, "However, although I don't know what the answer is correct, I am sure that your method is wrong. ”

"I know, I know very well that my method is wrong, I never said I was not wrong. Fila spread her hands and said, "However, as long as I can see the truth of time, it doesn't matter to me whether the method is right or wrong. After so many years of friends, you should know my characteristics very well, how can I care about this?" (To be continued.) )

ps: Thank you book friend Xingjian Yaotian for rewarding 10 starting coins.