21 I have lost my self in the past, and I have lost my way in the world

Gao is cloudy in "Mountain Fu in the Climbing Room":

Yu to the Lu family, there are mountains in the realm, towering in the sky, it is commonly said to be the residence of Lao Tzu, that is, in the name of Lao Jun.

This Jingmuro Mountain is the place where Lao Tzu went out to Guguan in the west and returned to seclusion and preached.

Tang Taizong Li Shimin, ordered Wei Chi Jingde to supervise the Laojun Mountain, the top of the mountain to build the Laojun Temple, iron rafters and iron tiles, known for the "iron roof", later generations renovated the "golden roof", built the Lingguan Palace, the vinegar hall, the moral mansion and other temples. Change the scenery of the room mountain to Laojun Mountain.

The Tao is numerous, and the celebrities are gathered,

Simple and dignified, incense blazing.

Laojun Mountain has been quietly and secludedly stopping in the land of Luanchuan.

......

The sunset is red, and the sky is solstice in the evening.

Jing Xiao was still delirious, and was transported to the top of the mountain by Yan Dong and his party in a daze, where more than a dozen Taoist leaders gathered, but they were helpless.

In the blue robe, Yan Dong's outfit looked very abrupt, Shen Hao, Hou Yi, and Ya Hao were surrounded by Jing Xiao, and the little Taoist priest who checked Jing Xiao's condition again still shook his head helplessly:

"If the spleen and stomach fail, the liver and kidneys are suspended, the lungs are penetrated, the gallbladder is ruptured, the flesh and skin of the whole body are severely eroded, nothing else is intact except the heart, and the wound is too large, the bandaging is useless, and it will not heal itself, this person ......"

"Don't say it!", Yan Dong scolded the little Taoist.

"You did your best, come over first", a strange-looking, pine-shaped crane bone Gao Gong walked out of the crowd, this is Li Daochang, who taught Jing Xiao Bajiquan, his full name is Li Tangwa.

Although he was not accepted as an apprentice, Jing Xiao also grew up under his eyelids, Jing Xiao was still a child back then, and now he is so burly...... The fate between them, he will never forget.

"Uncle Shi, is this what you call the number of lives?", the white-haired old man turned out to be a generation younger than Yan Dong, but Yan Dong was so young.

"Is there no other way?", Yan Dong looked embarrassed.

"As Uncle Shi saw, my brother and I have done our best, but the force into his body, like throwing a stone into the endless abyss, can't be explored at all, the effect is only to delay the decay of the body, the index does not cure the root cause, no matter how good the medicine is, it will reduce the injury to the point that people can heal themselves, and it is themselves who really save lives, Jing Xiao is I watched grow up, how can I have peace of mind......"

"How long can he carry it, senior brother?"

"Shizu and his old man went to Shaanxi Zhongnan Mountain Tower to view the sect, and it took two or three days to come back, and Jing Shanshi could still carry it at most...... Uh......", the little Taoist priest looked at Li Laodao for a long time, for fear that Yan Dong would reprimand him again.

"Something is hidden!

"Can you still carry it...... ...... one night", said the trail and secretly hid in the crowd.

Shen Hao, Hou Yi, and Ya Mo were silent, but their eyes were full of grief and indignation.

"Take the smile back to Luoyang, there are so many imperial doctors in the palace, I don't believe that I can't save him, let's go, let's go!", Shen Hao said and went to pull the unconscious Jing Xiao.

"Uh......", a slight groaning pain, woke up the sluggish Hou Yi, Yahao, and also frightened Shen Hao.

"Enough...... , He can't stand the bumps, besides, is that a matter of medicine, laughing at him for having no soul, all the trauma is hard to carry, he is already cooked, who can you call to save a person who has been burned~", a burst of crying with choking, Yahao's rare calmness, but his heart was full of grief.

Hou Yiqi said that he wanted to try again.

"Get up! Your little Dao power is as high as this group of Taoist priests, don't waste that effort! Give me out...... I have a way. ”

Among this group of Taoist priests, Daoist Li has the highest seniority, however, he has to call Uncle Shi to the young man in front of him.

Hearing Yan Dong's reprimand, the three Hou Yi brothers looked back with their eyes full of hope.

"Can you save him?!", the three of them said in unison.

"I can't save him, I'll pay for your life"

"Then you're fast!"

"You guys, go back to the mining area, there are important things that need to be dealt with by you, leave this to me. ”

"I don't know the big officials of theirs, so I'm here and I'm not going anywhere," replied Yahao eagerly.

"If you don't listen to the arrangement, I'll leave directly, don't expect to save him!"

"This ......", everyone was puzzled, the Taoist priests usually saw too much of Yan Dong's hippie smiling face, uninhibited, this is the first time to see such a serious look.

"Let's go, I believe Uncle Shi, don't make trouble here", Li Daochang led the crown and left together.

"Let's go, do you want me to get you!"

"Let's go, this is the only way to ...... now", Hou patted Shen Hao and Yahao and went out.

"Is this Yan Dong usually so fierce?"

"Who knows, where do we go from here?"

"I want to go, you two go, I'm going to stay here and wait for Jing to laugh out"

The three of them talked outside the door, and the rumors spread to the house.

"I'm talking about going down the mountain!, I don't understand the words!", a loud shout came from the room, startling Yahao.

"Let's go, do as he says, maybe he really has a way, now we have to follow his ......", the three of them went down the mountain from the zipline, took advantage of the sunset, rushed back to Jiudinggou, and followed up properly, after all, it was something that the four brothers exchanged for their lives, and they couldn't deal with it emotionally, and then they mistook him.

......

Jing Xiao is in the guest room not a few steps out of the hall of merit, at this time the Taoist priests on the mountain, some prepare for the evening class, and some go home early. This Laojun Mountain does not belong to the Quanzhen Dragon Gate, but there must be a saying for returning to the domain, the north is true, and the south is one, which has become the current pattern, but no matter which department responds to a sentence:

If you are delusional, it is useless to burn incense

Holding the avenue, it doesn't matter if I don't worship

Yan Dong closed the door and blessed Jing Xiao with a layer of Dao to relieve some pain, there were less than three hours left, and all he needed now was to wait.

However, it must be unrealistic to let such people who have their butts on the stool wait for a long time. Yan Dong took a few steps to the front of the Hall of Merit and looked around slowly.

The huge hall of merit seems to be silent, and in front of it is the statue of the old gentleman, dusting in his hand, with an indifferent expression......

Before entering the hall, Yan Dong sat on the spot, no matter how he looked at it, he didn't look like a Taoist master.

"This hurdle, how should I choose ......", as if he was interrogating himself, and like someone around him, Yan Dongyuan looked at the old gentleman's eyes, it was so big-hearted, in fact, he was very eager for this kind of cultivation, but he was afraid of this kind of appearance, after all, he was worried about losing himself.

When Yan Dong came to be a Taoist priest, he was selected at a glance, and it was said that the Taoist priest accepted good apprentices, and he looked at the master. Generally, it is the master who picks the apprentice, who wants to enter this door, not by fate, but by people's hearts. Sometimes even if you beg the heavens to kneel, the Taoist priest says that if you don't accept it, you won't accept it. When someone thinks that the Tao is hidden in the mountains, the Taoist priest will tell him that the greatest hidden is hidden in the city, not in the mountains......

Yan Dong didn't understand very much, when he went up the mountain with Jing Xiao, Jing Xiao looked gloomy at that time, but he was innocent, Jing Xiao wanted to have a home, and he just needed a place to live, but in the end, it was the master who took a fancy to himself at a glance, and Jing Xiao was not even a nominal disciple. Yan Dong was puzzled and asked the reason, but the master only said: You are more tacky than him.

Yan Dong has not understood this sentence thoroughly......

The night has ended, and the atmosphere at this time should be anxious, but Yan Dong's mentality can be so indifferent, which makes him feel strange, this indifference is what he longs for and fears.

"Which one is really you, you are just thinking about this question ......", a voice came, Yan Dong did not look back, he knew this voice, when he revealed to him the news of the advance of Jing Xiao's uprising, it was this voice, and it was thanks to him, Hou Yi, and Shen Hao arrived two days in advance.

"Which one do you think is like me?", Yan Dong asked rhetorically.

"No, the real you are a selfish person. ”

"Who wouldn't?"

"Then do you think your master chose you instead of Jing Xiao in the first place. ”

"Because I'm more vulgar!"

"No, Jing Xiao is more satisfied than you, his family is healthy, his wife and children are safe, this is his standard. ”

"It's too ordinary, he is already destined not to be that ordinary person. ”

"That's the difference between the two of you, you recognize yourself, and he's still living for someone else, you're living realistically, and he's still living in a dream. ”

Yan Dong, who was sitting cross-legged, was slightly touched, and looked back at the place where the voice came from, a black and white robe was lit by candlelight, reflecting the surroundings of the circle, and the person in the robe was middle-aged.

This must not be an ordinary person~ Yan Dong affirmed in his heart that he had basically taken a look at what strange things he had seen in the past few years, and his mood was not what it was back then.

Yan Dong was just about to get up, but was stopped by a force: "You just sit there, it's good." ”

It is very clear that it is the technique of the person in front of him, Yan Dong tried to use his Dao power to probe, but what he got was a blank, this person's cultivation was far above himself!

However, it is an indescribable feeling that the strong stand and the weak sit. It seems that winning without a fight is stronger than strong. It's a vile feeling, and it's self-deceptive, like a villain who hides his ears and steals the bell, but enjoys himself. For the first time, Yan Dong felt contempt for himself.

"How, this feeling. ”

"It's hard, it's very hard", Yan Dong said his inner thoughts without thinking, and he didn't care about hurting people at all, and he didn't talk about seniority. He has a strong feeling that in front of this person's face, don't tell lies~

"Not bad~ Really, you enjoy this feeling very much, everything in the world, all living beings, how many people will be so straightforward, even if they offend people. ”

"Sir, the younger generation dares to ask, what do I want, how many years, I have been so heartless, in fact, I am very entangled in this mentality......"

"When you angrily scolded the little Taoist, you have already got the answer, Jing Xiao is the person you have wanted to win since childhood, you are talented and intelligent, but these do not satisfy you, what you want is to defeat Jing Xiao one by one in the attitude of a mortal, and now, you have won, because Jing Xiao is going to die, you saved him at that time just to bring him back to life, to defeat him again as a mortal, you treat him as an opponent, like an opponent of life and death. ”

Yan Dong said: "I actually saw through my mind, I have lived for more than 20 years, but I have the mentality that others have in their eighties, I want to know why?"

"Your master saw at a glance that you had the talent for enlightenment, not just because you were vulgar, but because you had entered the [Too Illusory Realm] under circumstances unknown to you!"

Yan Dong was shocked, since he entered the Dao Gate, he has always had the mentality of an advanced age, and he had long forgotten this emotion of shock. And today, this untold secret is casually told from another person's mouth.

"You've been covering up, because you're afraid of yourself, you're strong but weak, noble and obscene, and since you came out of the [Too Illusory Realm], you've started to question yourself, which one is you, so much so that it awakens your fear!"

"Huh-hiss", sucking Changshu violently, Yan Dong seemed to have unloaded the burden, this burden that had been picked for more than ten years, from the time he first stepped into the [Too Illusory Realm], he understood what this series of Gelu Weilu was, when he understood that Jing Xiao was the elected person, his heart was full of unwillingness, not jealousy, but a manifestation of unconfidence, and now he finally understood that he just lacked recognition, a simple recognition:

"When I stepped into the void, I saw my own insignificance, but I didn't accept it, I didn't accept this fate, but I didn't have the ability to resist this destiny, until Jing Xiao, I saw this change, it turned out that people don't want to go against fate, adapt to this fate, destiny, people can't change, but people can change themselves...... Sir, can you tell me what exactly I should do? ”

"People never live alone for themselves, you live very well, very exciting, more wonderful than Jing Xiao, you are already an old man, and Jing Xiao is still a child, you understand the avenue, but you don't have the courage to recognize yourself, and now, you need an order to help you take this step. ”

"Can you give this order?"

"No, I don't have the right to control people's hearts. ”

"Who has?"

"Lil...... And yourself, you don't have to ask me the answer, when you get rid of everyone and want to sacrifice yourself to save Jing Xiao, you have the answer. I'm just saying what is in my heart for you before you become like that, some people seek the Tao all their lives, but they are lonely, this Tao can sometimes ask others to help them find it, this is not a kind of compromise and self-defeat, but a kind of wisdom and wisdom, you are in the Tao, but the Tao is not all you, he can appear in the sages, can also belong to the disciples, you alone, go too far......"

"The Tao is in the rubble, and it is also drowning in, hahahaha~ It turns out that I have already understood, but I am arrogant and unwilling to admit that this vulgarity is also the Tao, it turns out that this is the self, I have the answer!", Yan Dong got up and thanked him, the black and white robe was long gone. The only thing left is ethereal:

Life and death are fate, and wealth is in the sky

Do your best first, and then by the mandate of heaven

......

In the guest room, Jing Xiao had a nightmare, he dreamed of the sea of fire back then, he was in it, the sea of fire turned into a human form, teeth and claws, surging towards him, and he called the sky should not be called the earth and the earth. The only one left was engulfed in flames......

Suddenly, like the nectar of heaven, a breeze and drizzle extinguished the flames. In reality, it was Yan Dong who was reciting with him the first Taoist scripture he had just learned when he entered the Daomen:

The avenue is invisible, giving birth to the world;

The avenue is ruthless, running the sun and the moon;

The avenue is nameless, and all things are nourished for a long time;

I don't know its name, but I am called it.

The Husband:

There are clear and turbid, moving and static;

The sky is clear and turbid, and the sky is quiet.

Men are clear and women are turbid, men are moving and women are quiet.

Reduce the cost to the end, and give birth to all things.

The source of turbidity is clear, and the foundation of stillness is moving.

People can always be quiet, and heaven and earth will return.

......

"Laugh, the avenue is vast, you have to find it for me, this is my last commission to you, I don't ask you to complete it, but there needs to be a result. ”

When the time came, Yan Dong held Jing Xiao's wrists with both hands, and suddenly, a golden-white light faintly flashed on Jing Xiao's body. This light appears so white, warm and delicate, without impurities.

Yan Dong's hand holding Jing Xiao changed, his healthy arms were slowly thinning, and Yan Dong's black hair gradually appeared......

This is the art of regeneration! Use your own skin, flesh and bones to replenish and nourish another person! This is exactly the move that Zhao Peng and Zhao Ju want to learn, but Yan Dong already knows that it is more proficient than Jing Xiao!

That strand of flesh slid down Yan Dong's arm like a ball, surging towards Jing Xiao's scorching body, a little bit of repair, remodeling...... Jing Xiao's body gradually returned to its original complexion from scorched black, the exploding wound slowly healed, the internal organs returned to normal functioning, and the eroded skin of the mouth began to grow lip red, covering the exposed row of teeth.

"Ah~", a long breath was slowly output, and Jing Xiao's whole person returned to his former look, and his body was still more robust and angular than before. Especially the two "shopped" faces on those shoulders, they actually opened and clenched their teeth, gulping down the white light released by Yan Dong, and the depths of those mouths were as dark as a bottomless pit but full of mystery......

For half an hour, Yan Dong used his own skin, flesh, muscles and bones to slowly nourish and repair Jing Xiao's missing limbs, but at this time, Yan Dong was aging and shrinking into a little old man, his height had plummeted, his white hair and silver beard had long been gone, and in exchange for a short old man, the knight's outfit looked huge and bloated on him

......

Birds chirp in the early morning, and mountain springs sound crisply.

Jing Xiao had a dream, a comfortable and soothing dream, and at this time he was lazy and woke up.

"Ah~poof", a yawn, and a loud fart, proudly showing this healthy body to the world.

When Jing smiled, he felt that his scalp was refreshed, his face was not oily, his mouth and tongue were sweet, his ears and nose were clear, and his part-time job was as smooth as after taking a bath and cleaning.

Standing in front of the door, the sun spreads all over the body. I haven't felt like this in a long time

Twist your neck and rattle

Slightly raise your left shoulder and twist in reverse

"Click-click-click-click", a crisp sound made Jing Xiao comfortable and happy.

With a big eye, he was in Laojun Mountain, and he found an acquaintance to ask about it carefully, and learned about yesterday's situation.

But seeing that Xiaodao's eyes were red and swollen, as if he had cried, Jing Xiao only felt that something was wrong:

"Yan Dong?"

"The master is in the hundred-step stone that is going down the mountain. ”

Jing Xiao was a burst of joy, Yan Dong fought with him on weekdays, but the two of them knew their true feelings.

"Yan Dong~", Jing Xiao looked at a figure on the stone bench, opened his mouth and shouted, the figure did not respond, and ran in front of him, only to say that he was an old man, short in stature, but with a charitable face, and a sword beside him.

Jing Xiao first clenched his fists: "Dao Ye is merciful." ”

The old way returns: "Three immeasurables"

"Dao Master, have you seen Yan Dao Chang", Jing only thought that he was the Dao Master of Yunyou, and he didn't think much about it.

Lao Dao just replied with a smile on his face and said no more.

"That bother~", the moment Jing Xiao turned around, his body was suddenly stunned, and a strange feeling forced him to turn back

That sword! Yan Dong's sword! He never left his body, nor did he allow anyone to touch it! And at this time, it was in the hands of this old man.

A feeling germinated in Jing Xiao's heart, but he didn't want to believe it.

Jing Xiao stared at Lao Dao's eyes, these eyes are so clear, and at the same time so familiar, although this face is deeply wrinkled, but the more you look at it, the more it looks like a person!

Jing Xiao instantly felt a thunderbolt from the sky, and mustered up the courage to open his mouth

"Winter?"

"Alas~"

For a while, Jing Xiao understood everything, this indescribable feeling spread out in his heart, Jing Xiao leaned down, buried his head in Lao Dao's shoulder, and cried......

......

The sun had already risen, Jing Xiao packed her bags and came to the steps down the mountain, where Yan Dong was still sitting.

smiled and dressed Yan Dong with some clothes, combed his hair in a bun, and crowned him with a Zhuangzi scarf. Gently pat the falling dust.

Jing Xiao's huge body blocked the sunlight shining on Yan Dong's body, and under the figure, Yan Dong opened his eyes.

Jing Xiao grinded his eyes, the once handsome young man was so free and easy, and Yan Dong, who bullied him, never came back; How many big girls have been attracted by his once healthy physique, but now he is the length of this child; The two of them used to live as brothers and had fun in the bitterness, but now that happiness is difficult to repeat~ Jing Xiao was so sad in his heart, but he could only swallow his tears, he couldn't let Yan Dong see his cowardly side......

A pair of dry firewood-like hands stretched out towards Jing Xiao, smiled knowingly, possessed and lowered his head, his huge body was in stark contrast to the little old man, and his hands gently rubbed Jing Xiao's short hair:

"The avenue travels the world ~ Go ~ You should go, live the way you should be"

This "go" is so free and easy that the strong man can no longer control his crying, and his knees quietly touch the ground:

"Dao Ye~ Ask your grandson to give you ~ kowtow~"