"So, what the hell are you guys up to? Pannis was in deep distress.

Ever since the two female clergy met, things had taken a strange turn. In the original plan, after the two came to the temple to report, they would take advantage of the night to have a meeting with the affiliated investigators to discuss, and the next day they would go to meet with the survivors to investigate the clues. But the plan never changed quickly, as soon as the two women met, after the first few minutes of small disputes, Cynthia pulled Lina directly closer to the small room, and the two closed the door and whispered, leaving Pannis alone, crying and laughing.

It took nearly half an hour for the door to be pushed open, and Cynthia walked out of the room with red and swollen eyes. Lina, who was following behind, had a normal expression, and the smile on her face was as calm and serene as when she was with the believers on a daily basis.

"This ...... Mr. Pannis. Cynthia resumed the proper etiquette of a clergyman, bowed slightly to Pennis, and said, "If it's convenient for you, can you talk alone?"

"Talk alone?" Pannis looked at Lina, but Lina shrugged her shoulders indifferently, sat down on the side, pulled out a book and began to read. Pennis nodded and walked into the hut with Cynthia.

"Sorry for the delay. Cynthia made a gesture to sit down: "Black tea, water, juice?"

"Clear water is fine. Pannis took the cup from Cynthia, but just put it aside: "If you have any questions, just ask." ”

"How much do you know about Lina?" Cynthia asked bluntly, "about her past, about her relationship with Betty." ”

"Betty means her sister, she basically told me. Pannis scratched his head and recalled, "Well, most of the content, the rest of what she didn't say, you can know a rough idea by guessing." ”

"In that case, it will be easy to do, and I don't need to scruple about what I am going to say next. Cynthia said, "About her mental abnormality right now. You probably know that, too. ”

Of course, a few people who are close to her know it. Pannis said, "It's too easy to see. ”

"I always thought that it hit her very hard, but I didn't expect it to be so big. Cynthia sighed. said distressedly: "I never imagined that after more than ten years of not seeing her, she would actually ...... It's going to be ......."

"No one can think of this, I don't blame you. Pannis comforted: "And the current situation doesn't have much impact on her." ”

"But it's not normal after all. Cynthia rubbed her forehead. Headache said: "I hope you can help me to get her back to normal and not like this now...... Such...... Changeable. ”

"Oh?" said Pannis, noncommittal, "what are you going to do?"

"She became the way she is, and I think the root cause is her past with Betty. Cynthia said with some hesitation: "I haven't figured out exactly how to do it, but I think that as long as she can get out of the shadow of that incident, everything will be solved." ”

"Is that what you think?" said Pannis, still noncommittal.

"Yes, as I said earlier, I watched her grow up, I know her too well, and she is definitely not someone who will do something to her sister out of jealousy. Unfortunately, I was too young and of too low status at the time, and my opinion was not taken seriously at all. Cynthia clenched her fists tightly and said unwillingly: "Although Betty has always lived with us, I don't like her, her scheming is too deep and too practical, not at all like the heart of a child." So, if I had to choose, I would definitely choose to believe Lina over Betty. I think that's where we can start. Find out the truth at that time, relieve Lina of the burden on her heart, and completely get rid of the shadow caused by this incident on her, in this way. Her psychological abnormality should have disappeared naturally. ”

"Well, I don't deny that you are very nice to Lina and care about her, and everything you want to do is for her good. Pennis finally stopped being silent and whispered, "But I have to say. You made a few mistakes, or rather, you had a few misunderstandings. These misunderstandings are likely to end up making you get the exact opposite of your original purpose, you know, there are always some people who do something for their good, but can only reap blame and resentment. ”

"My misunderstanding?" Cynthia didn't refute, looking directly into Pannis's eyes and asking, "I hope you can point out what misunderstandings I have, after all, I have been separated from her for more than ten years, and she was still an eight-year-old when I last saw her, so misunderstandings are inevitable." ”

"The first misconception is that since you just met, you have always felt that she was self-exiling because she had hurt her sister. Pannis asked, "Is that so?" ”

"She must have been wronged. Cynthia immediately retorted: "When it happened, she was unconscious, which means that she didn't know what happened at that time, and the only person who knew was Betty, so isn't it up to Betty to say anything?"

"Calm, calm. Pannis smiled wryly and waved his hand: "I didn't say that she had to do it, just to discuss the reason for her self-exile, you think it was because she hurt, no, no, someone lied to her that she hurt her sister, right?" ”

"Yes, that's definitely the reason. Cynthia affirmed, "Someone deceived her." ”

That's your first misconception. Pannis held up a finger and shook it and said, "Although I have known her for less than a year, I know her thoughts very well after being together for a long time. When I first heard this passage, I also wanted to explain her from the perspective you proposed, but I soon realized that I was wrong. In fact, it doesn't matter if she did it or not, whether anyone lied to her or not, the important thing is that during the time of the incident, she did have jealousy, and she did have a hatred that she couldn't wait for her sister to die, and this is where she can't forgive herself. ”

"This kind of impulse can be felt by anyone...... bar. Cynthia said halfway through and couldn't go on.

"You see, you know, not everyone has this kind of hatred for their only loved one in the world. Pannis smiled wryly and said, "Especially because of jealousy, this hatred is the reason why she punishes herself." ”

Cynthia bit her lip hard, and the tooth marks left on her red lips expressed the turmoil in her heart: "Even if you punish yourself, this punishment is too heavy." ”

This is the second misconception. Pannis held up a second finger: "She'll lock herself up in the library, not just to punish herself." According to my analysis, in her young mind, she was afraid that she would be forever controlled by this demon called jealousy. That's why she completely isolated herself from the outside world, maybe she naively thought that without the temptation of the outside world, this demon would have no chance to control her anymore. ”

"What's this?" Cynthia said puzzled, "jealousy. No matter how long you are isolated from the outside world, you can't hide from it when it's time to appear. ”

"That's right. Pannis nodded, "But did you understand this when you were eight years old?"

"Alas. Cynthia patted her forehead lightly and said weakly, "You go on." ”

"Misconception three, your last misconception. Pannis didn't raise his finger this time, but looked at Cynthia very seriously and said, "It's also a piece of advice from me." Don't do anything superfluous, don't make her hate you. ”

"Superfluous?" Cynthia's eyes immediately widened, "You said I wanted to help her get her back to normal?"

"Very redundant. Pannis nodded, "What do you think caused her abnormality?"

"Isn't it because of guilt?" Cynthia heard what Pannis's words meant, "You mean, what's hidden in it?"

"Basically it's not about guilt, she told me personally. Pannis smiled bitterly and said, "You should also understand that guilt will choose to avoid self-deception at most, and it will not be like her." ”

"Why is that?" Cynthia asked.

"You can try to think for yourself what would happen if you were thrown into that environment when you were eight years old. Pannis asked rhetorically, "A closed, dark, huge library without any light." Old buildings, decaying smells, silent surroundings, the occasional strange noise, only a candle or an oil lamp to provide light, would you go crazy if it were you?"

"I should be with her. Cynthia covered her face and choked up and said, "Even if there is an archbishop's ban, I should rush in to accompany her." ”

"She won't accept it, don't forget that she chose this path for herself. Pannis spread his hands and said helplessly: "So there is no solution to this problem." If she would have accepted you in, she would have walked out on her own, and no one stopped her, she refused to come out by herself. ”

"Even so. Cynthia was still making a final effort: "There's no need to say it's superfluous. ”

"Superfluous, of course. Pannis said mercilessly: "In her heart." Those people, those books, each one of them was her friend, or each of them was her relative. Each of her friends has accompanied her through long times of fear, and each of them has accompanied and encouraged her. I shared the pressure in her heart. To put it too far, even you may not be closer than those who don't exist. And what you have to do now is to snatch those relatives away from her one by one in the name of her good, and even make those relatives disappear completely from the root, what do you think she will think? What do you think she will do to you?"

"Then what do you say?" Cynthia was completely helpless: "There must be a solution to the problem." ”

"Let it be. Pannis sighed, "Actually, it's not necessarily a bad thing now. And recently I found out that maybe things are not as you and I imagined, her current state is not just crazy, it may be related to some special physique or special state of her, and those friends may not only exist in her imagination. So, it's better to leave everything to herself, she has the ability to handle it. ”

"Doesn't that mean doing nothing?" Cynthia said dissatisfied.

"Trust her, as her friend, you should believe her. Pannis persuaded: "She can solve it by herself, she is just naïve and simple, and she is not stupid, well, it should not be...... Right?"

"I hear you. The door of the room was pushed open a crack, and Lina stuck her head in like a ghost: "I heard it all, including the last comment, hehehehehe." ”

"Hey, don't you mean you don't care about our conversation?" called Pennis, in horror, "Aren't you supposed to sit there and read a book quietly?"

"Yes. Lina nodded vigorously, smiling brightly, but showing a mouthful of white Sensen's teeth threateningly: "I pretended." ”

"Hey. (To be continued.) )

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