(It's amazing that it made it to the new book list in the last week.) To celebrate the last madness, it's better to have two days a day. In addition, friends who have passed by, ask for collections and recommendations, your support is my biggest motivation) Is it here again?

Is this dream again?

The familiar night sky, the familiar moonlight, the familiar wind, and the familiar yellow sand.

Oh, sure enough, this is it again, the place where my sins sleep.

Well, you should be here too, my love.

Stretching out my hand, I gently shook it to the side, and a rough and soft little hand appeared in my palm. Oh, you are here, my love, my knight. Turning my head sideways, I gazed greedily at your face, how could so many people think that you are not beautiful, your beauty is intoxicating, but they can't see it.

This is my dream, and this is my sin, my punishment.

My love, you know, I am so afraid of this dream, I am so afraid of my past sins, and every time I come back here at night, the fear of the past and the hatred of my past self eats away at my heart. But even with all this fear, even with all this pain, I still don't want to be redeemed, I still don't want to get rid of this painful punishment. My love, do you know why?

Oh, because, here you are. Only here can I dare to face the sins of the past, only here can I dare to face you, only here can I immerse myself in your tenderness again, and only here can I tell you the thoughts and regrets in my heart.

In order to regain your tenderness in the illusion, in order to be able to hold your hand again, I would rather sink forever in this endless nightmare, I would rather go through the torment of pain and remorse every night, I would rather be the meanness and cowardice of myself in every dream, and in the face of my former self, which I hated the most, I would rather never be redeemed until the end of time.

Oh, isn't that what you want? Isn't that the punishment you want to give me? isn't that the punishment you inflicted on me who I was, for my vile and cowardly me?

But even so, I want to tell you. Every day, every night, every time I meet again in my dreams, I want to tell you.

My love, I miss you. My love, I'm sorry.

"Kyle, my friend. ”

Are you interrupting my thoughts again, Lady Mina? Turning his head, he looked at the figure beside him who was wrapped in a cloak and walked side by side, and looked at the eyes that shimmered golden under the hood of the cloak.

"I've been thinking about it since I saw you the other day. Although you have the best combat power among demigods, you have never been able to awaken the inherent spiritual realm, and I have been thinking about why. ”

"And what about the results of your thoughts?"

"My friend, I would like to ask you, what are you fighting for? Specifically, this time, you know how dangerous it will be, but you still organize this battle, why?"

"For the sake of peace, for the sake of justice. "Oh, I, who am righteous and awe-inspiring, if I had known my meanness and cowardice at that time, would I still have said such an answer?

"Then why do you want to protect peace and justice?"

"Because I am a perfect person, brave, upright, fearless, sacrificed, all this is not taken for granted. ”

"Oh, in order to be a perfect person, do you have to guard peace and justice?"

"No, Miss Mina, you're mistaken about one thing. I don't want to be a perfect person, but I was a perfect person, and that's not my personal opinion, everyone around me thinks so. ”

"Hehe, I guess, I know the problem. You think that because you are a perfect person, you have to protect life and peace, right?"

"Yes, it's my natural duty. ”

"Have you ever wondered what would happen if one day, you found out that you weren't perfect?"

"No, there will never be that day, I firmly believe that. ”

"Oh, such pride and conceit, that's a great sin, my friend. Mina shook her head lightly under her hood, "No creature is perfect, not even gods, humans, elves, dwarves, dragons. And don't you think your cause and effect is reversed?"

"I'm sorry, I don't understand what you mean, Lady Mina. ”

"It's okay, you'll understand one day. Mina's golden eyes stared into the distance, as if she had seen through the boundaries of time: "It's just that the price may be beyond your reach, my friend." ”

Heh, heh, it turns out that Mina, you have already seen my problem, it turns out that Mina, you have already anticipated the tragedy that will happen in the future. It's a pity, stupid me for many years, just simply hated my past self, just disgusted with my past self, but never understood why all this, until today I found the key to the problem with the help of a little girl.

And what about you? Nelly, my love. Whenever you talk about these things, you can always see a faint worry in your eyes, and you have already understood my problem, but you can't change my stubbornness, pride, and conceit? Sure enough, pride is a great sin. But even though you know that I have been on the wrong path, you are still there for me, and you are still anxious and worried about me. And I, who repay your tenderness with meanness and cowardice, is an unforgivable sin.

Well, my love, as every night has passed, let us bear witness to my sins once more, and face our past once again, a debt I owe you that I will never be able to pay.

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"Whew, whew, whew. As always, Pannis was once again awakened from a nightmare. Sitting up in a panic and looking around in a daze, Pannis exhaled a few more heavily, covering his forehead with his hands, and pulling his hair heavily with his fingers, falling into a deep sense of loss.

"Pannis. Vivien's childish voice suddenly sounded, waking up the lost Pannis: "You're crying again, Pennis." ”

Pannis subconsciously touched his cheeks, only sweat on his face: "You're saying such inexplicable things again, Vivian, I'm not crying." ”

"Huh. A mature smile appeared on her immature face, and Vivien pointed to her chest again: "Your heart is crying, crying every day." ”

"Can you see what I'm thinking?" Pannis stood up and walked over to the crystal lamp and sat down again, "How else would you know I'm crying?"

"Of course not, I don't see what you're thinking. Vivien shook her head: "But I can see everyone's heart, joys and sorrows, good and evil, I can feel it." Don't underestimate the agility of a genius. ”

Pannis frowned, and unnaturally changed the subject, "Why are you keeping vigil? As a mage, you should be resting now." ”

"I can't sleep. Vivian sat on a half-human-high rock that she had moved from nowhere, kicked her legs in the air, shook her head and said, "I had a headache, and I woke up in pain and couldn't sleep, so I let my eldest sister go to sleep." ”

"What the hell is your headache?" Pennis looked at Vivien's face, "Is it serious?"

"Hee-hee, this is the first time you've cared about someone else, Pannis. Vivian chuckled, not showing the slightest trace of being troubled by the headache: "It's okay, it's old, it's painful every day, just bear with it." ”

"Do you know what the reason is?" Pannis's face turned imperceptibly red when he heard Vivien's teasing, "It's not a way to endure it like this." ”

"Can you not say it?" Vivien's expression darkened, "I don't really want to say it." ”

"It's okay, I'm just asking, I don't want to say it. Pannis shrugged indifferently.

"Hee-hee, thank you, Pannis. Vivien smiled again: "You are indeed a good person, I can feel your kindness from the first time we met." ”

"I'm not a nice person. Pannis muffled, "I'm just a sinner." ”

Vivien smiled slyly, "Have you forgotten my talent? you can't fool me." ”

"I'm going to wake Catherine up. Pannis's eyes wandered and he stood up: "You go and sleep for a while, or you won't be able to hold on tomorrow." ”

"Don't. Vivien rejected Pannis's kindness: "I really can't sleep in pain, just let the eldest sister rest for a while, the eldest sister is very tired." You can just talk to me, okay?"

Pannis sighed helplessly, walked behind Vivien and sat down: "Don't move, just sit like this." ”

"Why?" Vivien's obedient Yiyan turned her back to Pennis and didn't move, she felt a few fingers pressed on the left and right sides of her head, and a few cold breaths passed through her fingers into her brain, calming the headache she was accustomed to: "Ah, what is this, it's so comfortable." ”

"Some healing techniques unique to life gods. Pannis, while massaging Vivien, replied, "What I learned from the elves in the past seems to be quite effective." However, this method can only provide simple relief from the headache, and if you want to treat it, you need to find the cause first. In fact, you should pay attention to your headache, the disease needs to be treated as soon as possible, and something will happen if it drags on for a long time. ”

"Hee-hee, you've become as nagging as your eldest sister. Vivien covered her mouth, and her eyes stole a glance at Catherine's sleeping bag, and found that she was still asleep, so she continued reassuringly: "She always nagged me like this, and every time she said it, my head hurt even more. Hmm, it's so comfortable, can I lie down?"

"Absolutely. Pannis temporarily stopped the massage: "Just relax." ”

Vivien happily lay down on the stone, pillowed on Pannis's lap, curled up like a kitten, and after feeling the coolness from Pannis's fingers again, she sighed comfortably: "Whew, it's so good, it really doesn't hurt much." Pannis, although she always educates you seriously and always wants to change you, you don't hate her. ”

"How could it be. Pannis smiled and shook his head, "I don't hate any of you. ”

"That's good. Vivian rubbed her head and found a more comfortable position: "Actually, you also know in your heart that she just wants to care about you and just want to redeem you." ”

"Of course, I understand. Pannis's voice became softer: "I understood it from the beginning. ”

"Eldest sister, she is always like this. Vivien's voice grew softer and softer, gradually turning into a murmur, and finally vanished, and she fell asleep in a light and comfortable way that she hadn't felt in years.

"yes, I've always understood. Seeing Vivian asleep, Pannis continued to massage gently, but his eyes looked up in amazement: "Alas, salvation." ”