Chapter 142: The Last Letter to My Lover
Just when there was a violent conflict between the bottomless abyss of the Black Prison Formation and the martial arts arena, Whitebeard and Blackbeard were finally about to rush back to Taiyang City. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info
They harnessed the spirit sword and hid in the clouds, preparing to go back to the Demon Suppression Society to hide the giant sword first, and then go to the martial arts to investigate the matter of the Heavenly Demon.
The samurai family is in the south of Taiyang City, and Whitebeard and Blackbeard also fly back from the south, so the flight route is not far from the samurai.
When approaching the martial arts, the two suddenly said "huh" in unison and took out the array disk from their arms.
I saw that on the array plate, two pointers were turning wildly, and their roots pointed directly to the direction of the martial arts arena.
"Could it be that the Heavenly Demon has really appeared?" Whitebeard and Blackbeard changed color together, and immediately changed their flight path and rushed straight to the martial arts!
The black-bellied old monster is extremely powerful, and when they moved, they were discovered by the black-bellied old monster!
The six-winged demon monster in the bottomless abyss of the Black Hell Array roared without anger, raised his hands high, fanned his six wings together, and released a big spell with words in his mouth.
Wu Yan was taken away by the black-bellied old monster, lost control of his body, and was panicking so much that the six gods had no master, and suddenly, the black-bellied old monster blew himself up!
The soul of the black-bellied old monster exploded into countless fragments, turned into wisps of black smoke, and rushed towards everyone on the martial arts field!
Among them, there was a group of divine souls that rushed towards Wu Yan extremely violently.
The black smoke turned by the self-explosion of the old monster with a belly was more intense than the black smoke it had turned before, and it faintly exuded a wonderful charm.
After being washed in by the black smoke, everyone's minds were violently hit as if they were being hit by a giant object.
This impact dug up all the most painful things in everyone's heart, and magnified it tenfold, hundredfold, and thousandfold!
There is a weakness in a person's heart, which is a person's most fatal character weakness!
Once this weakness is dug up, it will be painful.
Once this kind of pain is put to a hundredfold and a thousandfold, how can anyone bear it?
People's hearts have been torn into countless fragments, and every time they are torn, they are heart-wrenching and difficult to suppress.
Human consciousness is self-aware of avoiding danger, and once it is subjected to unbearable impact and injury, it will take the initiative to defend itself, separate and wrap the harm, and do not touch it!
The impact of black smoke just prompted the activation of people's subconscious protection mechanism.
People's consciousness began to diverge, deleting, smashing, and separating all the memories of what had just happened, throwing it into the most secret corner, never wanting to touch it again!
All of a sudden, everyone's memories were broken, and they forgot what had just happened.
And that's not all!
When the black smoke trick succeeded, it changed the way of impact, turning into extremely beautiful scenes, luring out all the beautiful fantasies in people's hearts and realizing them one by one.
Whose heart has no dreams?
Once this dream is stimulated, the power that erupts is often extremely astonishing.
What's more, people's hearts have just been greatly hurt and they are even more desperate to make amends for something beautiful!
Black smoke conveniently uses people's compensatory psychology, quietly lures people, reshapes memories, and turns the terrifying scene that just happened on the martial arts arena into a scene full of warmth, friendliness and happiness.
As a result, smiles began to bloom on people's faces, and some even laughed out loud, as if they were immersed in the most beautiful dreams.
On people's faces, the eroded black color is disappearing quickly, and even the scars on the necks that have just been gnawed are rapidly recovering!
On the martial arts arena, there were still various commodities that Wu Yan bought from Taobao, and at this time, they suddenly burned, and soon burned to ashes, and disappeared without a trace when they were blown by the wind.
Wu Yan is also experiencing the same thing as others.
Moreover, the black smoke that eroded Wu Yan was much more than others, so the pain that Wu Yan suffered was much stronger than others!
In Wu Yan's mind, the scene of himself being on earth and separating from his former lover kept appearing.
Wu Yan had already hidden it deep in his heart and was unwilling to touch this scene, which was forcibly pulled out by black smoke and played back repeatedly in Wu Yan's mind.
This is Wu Yan's weakness, and it is Wu Yan's only weakness!
Even if Wu Yan thinks of this, he will be in pain, let alone being replayed repeatedly like this?
Soon, Wu Yan's consciousness also fell into chaos, and the self-protection mechanism also began to activate!
In the end, Wu Yan was completely controlled by the self-protection mechanism and lost consciousness!
At the last moment when Wu Yan was in a coma, in his mind, the last letter he had written to his lover suddenly appeared:
"One last thing.
I want you to be happy, this is my love, the goal to achieve.
Obviously, I can't.
I wanted to, but I really didn't.
At the end of the day, it's all my fault.
I've always been reluctant to give up because I've always had all sorts of fantasies.
Maybe it's also because you also have all kinds of reluctance in your heart.
But reality is reality, no matter what, there is no escape, only to face it bravely.
In my heart, there are all kinds of reluctance and unwillingness, but I know that I must accept it.
When a result is bound to come, even if you are unwilling, you must accept it, and there is no other way.
Choosing to accept it hurts, and it hurts to the heart. But if you don't choose to accept it, it may hurt more and it will hurt for longer.
Instead of continuing to drag on, dragging and arguing, and hurting each other, it is better to be direct and completely cut off.
Such a choice is very correct and rational. I envy you for having a pair of sharp eyes that can directly perceive the essence.
When sensibility and rationality collide directly, it is difficult for me to bear the sluggishness, let alone the sharp you?
I can understand this feeling very well, I don't want to, you have been immersed in this tangle and struggle.
Perhaps, now you should be able to understand that I will choose to leave, not because I don't love, but because I can't love and have no right to love, so I can only not love.
I admit that this is very selfish, very mentally retarded, very stupid, but in the long run, it is very sensible and very selfless.
I watched a movie, Guanyin Mountain, a lonely middle-aged woman, when she finally got friendship and care, she chose to commit suicide.
It seems incredible, but I think that although her choice is wrong, it is not a wise move? I can understand her feelings too well, it is precisely because she cares too much, because she wants to get it too much, that she is afraid of losing! The only way not to lose is to choose to die while she still has it. In this way, you will not feel the pain of loss!
It sounds like crazy.
However, it is indeed a real existence!
This kind of feeling, only the people who care the most, can understand, when a person's love reaches the peak, there are only two choices, no love or death.
It's sensual, it's Nietzsche.
But it's true.
There really are people who think that, because, I am.
Please forgive me for all the things I did wrong, there are too many to go into detail one by one.
Please forgive me for running away like a coward, I regret it, but if I don't, can I really be happy?!
Please forgive me for my pessimism, please forgive me for my faults, please forgive me for my liking and love, for the pressure I put on you.
If you make a mistake, you can't turn back!
Life is so helpless!
But this is life, a life that is happening, and will eventually go away.
So be it.
So be it!"