I am a very ordinary girl, and like countless people in this world, I feel that I can live one day at a time. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Although I don't know what the meaning of being alive is.

I never know what tomorrow will be like - maybe a heavy snow will come and cover me with death, maybe a torrential rain...... Or maybe some big man didn't like us and killed us all with one sword.

I only have one thing that is different from others.

First of all, even if I'm thin, I should be a teenager no matter how I look at it, right?

But my memory is only a few years.

Don't care, memory isn't useful anyway, you can know every day of mine if you look at it.

It's all the same.

It's light rain today, and I hate light rain because it makes food in the trash or elsewhere moldy, or at least it doesn't taste as good anymore.

Well, our taste may be a little different from that of real people.

I looked up and saw a woman crying, and next to me lay a man with a rope tied to him, blood flowing from his eyes, nose, ears, and mouth.

The couple should have been here last week...... I hate to see this face.

I stood there for a while, and I wondered when I was going to be like this, I didn't even know my birthday.

It's time to look for food, it's hard to find food on a rainy day, and if you don't go, you'll be robbed of all the kind - I understand, but I took out my dirty handkerchief anyway, walked over and handed it to the woman.

I think it's much better to wipe your tears with your blood-stained hands, even if they are dirty.

Not to mention the blood of loved ones.

Loved ones, what a strange word.

The light rain was very weak, it had a big drive, and while it made it difficult for me to find food, it didn't clean the blood.

If you don't carry the corpse, you'll get something disgusting—it could be a rat, or a monster in human skin.

I saw it in the last city, rats eaten raw and corpses raw...... Monsters, disgusting monsters!

Even if I die, I will not succumb to that darkness!

Even if I don't have many souls, I'm going to die as a human being, and I'm different from them.

Even more terrible than death is the human heart.

The woman didn't take the handkerchief, it was already wet with rain, but I put it on the ground anyway.

Bless the departed life, then turn away.

This place, I will never come back because I am afraid.

As I walked, it occurred to me that I was empty-handed, and all I had with me was this body, so was this a move?

I was amused by myself, I smiled, and immediately, I stopped and stood in the middle of the road.

There is a woman on the left who sells her body for food, and I have become accustomed to it, and I have learned to make myself dirty every day without being targeted.

It's not a reason for me to stop, I'm looking at a woman who is already unconscious, and the woman is holding her child.

The child is dead, and the woman is dying - I can feel that the woman is not unable to find food, but that she wants to kill herself.

She's tired of it all.

Well, that's my daily routine, and don't be surprised you guys, these things happen every day.

I walked up to the woman, stretched out my hand, and watched as the woman opened her mouth.

"Can you give me that cloth?"

"When I die, you can take it yourself...... Probably in the evening. The woman replied weakly.

"That's fine, but I'd rather you give it to me. ”

"Strange child. The woman tried to laugh but suddenly realized that she had forgotten how to smile, and she slowly closed her eyes.

"I'll send you, take it. ”

"Well, thank you. ”

I took the cloth, and the woman said no more, knowing that this was the last time I spoke to her.

I'm afraid I'm also the last person to talk to her.

It's hard to find food in the morning, I know, but I'm still going to try.

Don't think about it in the slums, not even the leftovers of leftovers will be left for me, so I'm going to take an adventure.

Now that I think about it, if that moldy bread hadn't been snatched by the rats yesterday, I wouldn't be so hungry now......

What? You say how can I survive if I can't even get mice? Are you underestimating mice?

Believe me, a rat united together will always be more fighting than a girl living alone.

Before I left the slum, I saw the madman again, he scratched his body with his hand, he bit people nearby.

Maybe I ate food contaminated with the plague virus, maybe I was caught by a rat or something, but I ...... almost every day Not to mention every day, you can see it almost every week.

Don't hesitate to make eye contact with this poor man, and run quickly.

Run, run, run a little and look back, there was still a wailing sound, but I shouldn't have been targeted.

Running is exhaustive, and the food of another world is not something you can find by speeding up your pace.

All I need to do is wait quietly for an opportunity and pounce like a beast at that opportunity – this is the moment when you have to do your best.

Unlike the dead silence of "my house", the streets here are noisy and noisy, and the smell of food reaches the nose......

I really want to eat a meal like this!

Although it is very unproductive, I am willing to pay everything that does not exceed the bottom line.

That being said, but everyone understands that often you pay more than the bottom line and don't get what you want.

or life.

Squatting on the side of the road, I saw my peers, I saw people going to work, and I saw noble adventurers.

It's a completely different world, and everything is so exciting – and what I want most is the little restaurant.

It seems to be hiring people there today, I tried it in another city a few years ago, and it turned out to be ...... Not much more.

I didn't know when the rain stopped, so I put aside the old cloth full of flowers and climbed to the stagnant water to look at myself.

The rain has taken the dust off my face, and although I am emaciated, I should still look like a human being, right?

I washed my hair with water and dried it in the sun, and then I walked to the small restaurant.

Knowing the result in my heart, I also saw the boss touching the girl's ass through the window, but I still walked forward.

It's as clean as ever, and I can live without going beyond the bottom line - this is my dream self.

But now, I know it's all bullshit.

If I can find a man who will take care of me by waiting for my body, then I will definitely not hesitate.

At this moment, I finally understood that I was no different from those women who sold their bodies for survival.

It's all dirty.

But I still think too much, mature men don't like skinny girls who don't feel anything.

With a self-deprecating smile, I left through the back door where I had entered.

I kept my head down, but out of the corner of my eye, I could still see the pity or disgust in the girls' eyes, and a waiter took a mop and dragged me across.

Have mercy on my girl, can you kindly give me a piece of food? a piece of bread will be fine, and I will bless you.

I hate me, please don't look at me like that anymore, okay? Because I hate myself too.

Miss waitress, I want to wear such beautiful clothes as yours.

I left the small restaurant, probably because God thought I was too pitiful, and a piece of bread appeared in my vision.

The bread was moldy and there were a few bugs crawling on it...... But even if it's like this, I usually pounce as fast as I can.

But now, I am like a young lady, walking slowly, as if on an outing.

But the eldest lady will not be so hungry that she will not feel hungry, she will not walk barefoot on the dirt after the rain, and she will not walk towards disgusting bread.

Don't get me wrong, it's disgusting for the eldest lady, it's a lifesaver for me.

Dawn.

I picked up bread to chase away the bugs and sat next to the puddle as I ate bite by bite.

Don't chew, if you chew, you'll be digested faster - I forget who told me that.

Thinking of this, I swallowed the bread in two bites, then touched the corners of my eyes with my fingers and felt a hint of wetness.

Is it raining? I looked up and saw a cloudless blue sky.

Then brush your fingers over your cheeks, damp.

Crying? yes, crying.

I sat on the floor, hugged my legs, and even the tears were silent.

It's been a long time since I've cried, and the last time I remember crying was when I first remembered the unknown of everything made me cry like a child.

But fortunately, the survival instinct is still there, and I have survived until now.

It wasn't easy, but now, I don't really want to continue living.

I know that thought will disappear tomorrow, but at this moment, I am really uncomfortable.

Children like me couldn't even cry for long, and after crying for a long time, they would become hungry, and I lay on the ground with red eyes.

Leaning my head against the puddle, I struggled to raise my head to turn the puddle into a mirror.

You look so ugly. So ugly that only the same ugly guy will have lust for you.

Actually, you know, if they get hungry and thirsty, even the sow is willing to go up.

But only if there is a sow, I can't remember the last time I ate meat.

The people here don't need me, and the people at home need a young body.

I looked at myself in the mirror, and she suddenly smiled, and for the first time she smiled so haughtily.

No, I don't!

I turned around and dropped my head, putting my face in the still wet dirt, and getting all my hair dirty......

Everyone's life is a different story, but you may be a little unhappy with my story.

So I'm not going to tell you what food I got today.

After the rest, leaving two loaves of bread to eat tomorrow, I walked towards the silent place.

When night fell, the stars and the bright moonlight illuminated the road in front of me, and I saw an extremely ugly scene.

A group of brutes in heat are doing unconscionable acts against a corpse.

I usually walk away quickly, pretending I didn't see it. But this time, I stopped like I had done in the morning.

The child's corpse was tossed aside, and perhaps the woman's corpse was still being toyed with by the brutes......

Seeing all this and holding the old cloth, I could only stand aside and remain angry, but I did not dare to take action.

On the other side of the road, a blind-eyed woman came and stopped when she saw the unsightly scene in the moonlight.

She took out a handkerchief and wiped the blood from her palms, the blood had solidified and could not be wiped off. But she wiped it for a moment, then looked up at me and smiled.

I didn't know how to respond, no one ever smiled at me.

The handkerchief was placed on the ground, and the woman's eyes warmed, and as the pace increased, the eyes gradually became dyed with crazy colors.

Don't! Run!

I couldn't shout these words, not because I was afraid of being discovered, but because I knew that another companion had given up his belief in living.

Unlike me, who will change their minds tomorrow, their hearts are heavy beyond my imagination.

The first drop of blood spilled, and I didn't look at what happened next, and with a few steps, I picked up the handkerchief on the floor.

Placing the handkerchief in the old cloth, I walked forward with my head bowed.

Tick tock......

Blood fell to the ground, and I looked up to see brutes with blood on their hands surrounding me.

I hugged the old cloth tightly, looking nervous and overwhelmed, and the hug became tighter and tighter, and I suddenly became less afraid.

There was a gap on the left, and I quickly ran out of the encirclement and into the dark alley.

The clouds lifted, and the moonlight suddenly shone into the alley, illuminating the way forward for me.

Keep running, I'm kicking over trash cans and anything that gets in my way, I still want to live!

The belief in survival became extremely strong because of the things in my arms, but the reality was always so cruel, and a wall appeared in front of me.

Impasse.

My hands were caught, and with lewd laughter, they were approaching me.

Is it over? yes, it's over, I'm going to die in an ugly way.

But I still want to live, for no reason, I just don't want to die!

I just want to take their share to survive together!

So everyone, please help me...... Please, I don't want to die......

My world suddenly went dark, and by the time I regained consciousness, I was lying in a pool of blood.

In my daze, I always felt as if I was grasping something, grabbing something and putting my hand in the moonlight, my body suddenly began to tremble.

Is this the heart? Still beating slightly?

"Ahh

I threw my heart away, and I grabbed the old cloth in the pool of blood and ran out as hard as I could, but I didn't take two steps before I fell to the ground.

With my face covered in blood, I immediately got up, I didn't dare to look at the torn corpses, I just wanted to get out of here quickly!

Keep running, get up after you fall and keep running, leave the alley and leave the place......

Outside, I didn't stop, I started to run towards the place where it was like day.

I don't want to be in this dirty place anymore, even if the other world is ugly, but I don't want to go on like this anymore!

"Hey, the people over there, did you kill them?"

Out of the darkness came a girl dressed in black, her hair blending in with the night, but her pupils were exceptionally beautiful in the moonlight.

It's cold, but it's fascinating.

"Hey, I know I'm pretty, but please answer my question first, okay?" The girl in black was obviously impatient, and had already begun to walk towards me.

I shook my head nervously, "I don't know, I don't ......"

I didn't know what to say because I passed out then. I wanted to say this, but the girl had grabbed me by the neck and lifted me into the moonlight, and was looking at me.

"Your hands are covered in blood, and there is murder in your body, but your eyes are ......," the girl in black looked into my eyes very suspiciously, "It looks like a retarded person." ”

Mentally retarded?

"Am I feeling wrong? The girl was asking herself, and then muttering something in a low voice, too soft for me to hear.

The girl let go of her hand, I fell to the ground, the girl grabbed my clothes and dragged me away... I was dazed, I didn't know what was going on.

......

"Your Highness, get up...... The bed is up. It was Grace's first day as a maid, and she nervously opened the door and stammered.

Charlotte rolled on the bed, and she didn't sleep very well.

But some cute.

But Grace didn't appreciate it, and the guest outside had been waiting for almost a morning.

"Your Highness, wake up. She reached out and began to push His Highness's body.

Charlotte impatiently pushed Grace away, and unconsciously rolled over, the quilt slipping off......

Your Highness is not wearing pajamas!

Grace blushed slightly, picked up the quilt and put it over her plump body, which was completely different from herself.

The quilt feels great, and His Royal Highness's skin feels even better!

But now is not the time to think about this!

"Your Highness, the guests outside have said that they want to die, can you be merciful and get up and meet him?" said Grace in Charlotte's ear.

Charlotte still didn't react, and let out a light "um", the corners of her mouth curled slightly, as if she was dreaming something.

Grace was about to cry, she didn't want to lose this good job like pie in the sky, but she couldn't wake up His Highness......

What to do, what to do?

Grace returned to the living room with her little head down, and when the guests saw her, they hurriedly ran up, knelt directly on the ground and wept with a sad face, begging her to wake up His Highness.

At a loss, Grace could only open the door of His Highness's room again, and when she saw His Highness in a different sleeping position, she smiled softly......

If you don't make both sides comfortable today, you're going to roll up the cover!

"Your Highness, get up. Grace began a new round of the battle to wake up His Highness......

"Get out of here, don't instruct my little maid!" said a mature maid haughtily, "If you want to die, go to death, don't disturb my highness's sleep, okay?"

"It hurts to skip breakfast. The man replied solemnly, "And this maid is much better than you, and she really went to call the head of the regiment...... What an angel!"

"Heh, you wait a month to come over and see if she birds you or not. ”

Half a month later......

"Please die. Grace replied expressionlessly, "If you don't die, come over in the afternoon, and then I'll consider whether to open the door for you." ”

The man sighed, and turned away helplessly.

Another day passed.

The black-haired man stood outside the iron gate, smiling and greeting Grace.

"Wow, new. Wood licked his lips, "Open the door, I'm here to talk to Her Highness Charlotte." ”

", Your Highness is sleeping. Grace was about to turn away.

"Grace, why are you not opening the door?"

Charlotte opened the window and said a little lazily to the bottom.

"Temple, Temple...... Grace's expression was like seeing a ghost.

"It seems that I am not mistaken, you are indeed mentally retarded. Charlotte rubbed her head, "This man has a special pass I gave, do you understand?"

Grace really didn't understand, but now she could only nod and quickly turn to open the door, wanting to kneel down and ask for forgiveness.

Wood held Grace up, smiled and said "It's nothing, nice to meet you" and walked expertly forward.

"Grace, you remember for me, you are only allowed to kneel down to me in this life!" Charlotte shouted angrily and slammed the window shut.

Grace didn't stand, and she didn't know how to kneel, and she was stunned like a little wild cat that had been abandoned.

"Get back to tea!" said an angry Charlotte when she opened the window again.

Grace is woken up and immediately trots after Wood, entering the restaurant to find that her colleague has already prepared tea for her.

"Don't worry, I used to be scolded even worse, but when Your Highness is in a good mood...... You'll understand it anyway. The eldest sister smiled meaningfully.

Grace didn't have time to think about it, so she bowed gratefully, and then picked up her plate and ran to the living room......