Ji Fan finally got a few days of quietness, because Bu Cen was dragging Bu Wan in the mansion these days, she didn't have time to bother him.

It's just that even Cheng Zixu and Yin Qinglan don't see each other much, in fact, he also knew that Cheng Zixu was Cheng Hu early on, but maybe Zixu is his pseudonym or epigraph, and he won't change his words when he gets used to it.

These days are too quiet, but he is uncomfortable, in the past he has always been alone between the cities, it stands to reason that he should have been used to it, but in the few days of the imperial city, he was more inclined to be with Cheng Yin and the two, the three of them gathered together to enjoy the scenery and talk about the whole day was very fast, and suddenly he was left alone and really not adaptable.

That's it, I'm freer, and I don't have a lot of constraints.

Thinking about it like this, cold sweat soaked his forehead, he shouldn't have such worries and habits, first of all, he won't stay in the imperial city for too long, even if he wants to, but this is not a place that can accommodate him, obviously he noticed this problem early in the morning, but he still knowingly committed it.

As time went on, more and more bonds were involved, but what he hated most was that he couldn't leave here freely and happily.

At this point, even if he doesn't want to admit it, he just can't give up Cheng Zixu and is attached to Yin Qinglan.

They all had things on them that he didn't have, and he didn't know exactly what they were, but they inexplicably dragged him and manipulated him like a tie to a thread.

He thinks he is free, he thinks he is free, at least his heart is free, no one can control it, even if he can't do it himself, but unfortunately this is all before he came here.

He had been to Miao Jiang, where there was a girl with a beautiful face and a beautiful figure who tried to keep him by falling in love with Gu, but he couldn't stand him and insisted on preferring to die rather than stay, so he promised that if he could survive the first day when the Gu worm woke up, he would lead the Gu worm out of his body, and the first day would be the most painful day.

He has experienced all the temptations and pains, and he has survived them, and the most painful thing is that the moment he saw his father's head hanging on the head of the city, the blood flowed down his father's jaw into the soil, penetrated, spread, and that piece was even filled with a fishy smell, and the head was hung for a few days, and he knelt there and watched for a few days, and he must always remember that pain.

It wasn't until later that the family was forced to move out of the imperial city, and the former Jing family no longer existed.

His mother was also ill on the road, he was too young at that time, twelve years old, even if he went out to work as a handyman, he still couldn't afford the money for his mother's herbal medicine, and all the money he saved was just to buy a steamed bun for his mother every day to fill his stomach.

It didn't take long for his mother to go, and he didn't even dare to cry, he promised his mother to live at any cost, he was afraid that he would cry and even be unable to hold on.

But no matter how insistent he is, he is the only one left after all.

Can it hurt more than what he experienced when he was twelve years old? I can't do it.

Thinking about the pain of these Gu worms when they were raging was nothing, it was probably numb.

So he thought that he had no scruples, that he had nothing to care about, but he ignored the most important point, he could not be afraid of pain and not care about suffering, but he could not resist the temptation from warmth.

The maggots in the deepest part of the darkness and dampness actually longed for the sun, even if they knew that the sunlight never really belonged to them, but they still couldn't help the olive branch handed by the warm light.

He had asked himself more than once what made him persist in his life, hate? He only hated himself for being incompetent, and he couldn't even move when he saw the fact that he was as fierce as a flood swallowing him up.

Mr. Yi Yang, the mentor who once took him as an apprentice and raised him to the age of bundling his hair, also asked him what made his desire to survive so strong, that was that look that shocked him, and made Mr. Yi Yang decide to accept him as an apprentice, and he was such an apprentice all his life.

How did he answer at the time? It seems that it was because he promised his mother? But this answer has been overturned by him so far, there must be something else supporting him, what is it, maybe he traveled all over the world for his home to find such an answer.

……

The wind was not strong, but it made him chill for no reason, maybe it was fate, fate made him come back here again, and he was bound by it, so that he could no longer escape lightly.

It was also a loss that he was left alone for a few days, so that he had the kung fu to smooth out some of the messy threads that were entangled in one place.

If I continue to be with them, I am afraid that there will be chaos again.

Since there is nothing more than what he has experienced that year, is it really that difficult to leave?

It's just an escape, but even running away will make him hesitate a few times?

Another gust of breeze was blowing, this wind was too gentle and comfortable, I don't know what to think of, Ji Fan smiled.

I wanted to turn around and leave, but he paused again, because he could still smell a few wisps of flowers in this place, maybe he was really too comfortable, and every time he found a little fragrance, he couldn't move his steps.

Speaking of which, he is also a lover of flowers, a man with a bloody life experience on his body is actually a lover of flowers, and few people may believe it when he says it.

This liking still comes from before the age of twelve.,What he avoids the most is that there are traces of the past that can remind him of all that happens.,So he also shy away from step-by-step.,But only for this.,He also tried to let go but finally found that it couldn't be changed.,That's just not to change.,Let it be.,Avoid what you can avoid.,What can't be is his.,He admitted.。

Smelling this fragrance, "It's probably a white hibiscus." ”

"This little brother understands flowers." The smile of the people who came was kind, and the bending of the moon eyes made people can't help but feel close.

Ji Fan, who has read countless people, just feels that this is a bad thing to get along with, and it is not intuition, just looking at him can feel something.

"I don't dare to say that I understand, but it's just a hobby."

Glancing at the large bunch of white hibiscus in the hands of the visitor, Ji Fan couldn't help but fill in again, "Presumably this little brother doesn't love flowers very much." ”

"How so?" Hearing this, he was also quite surprised.

"People who love flowers are reluctant to fold flowers like this."

After hearing this, he only smiled and left a sentence, "The flowers can be broken and must be broken, don't wait for no flowers and empty branches." He left like this, leaving only Ji Fan to sigh, he was really a strange person, but this strange person looked a little good-looking, as if he had seen it somewhere, but he was sure that he had never met this person head-on.

No matter how much he was just a passerby, it wasn't worth his attention.