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It's Yanyan and Wang Mengmeng, I can't tell the difference anymore, and I don't want to tell anymore, because it's no longer important to me. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Shen Dandan looked at me with a smile: "What about Wang Mengmeng?"

"Wang Mengmeng?" I muttered, my expression in a trance for a moment: "What does she have to do with me." I said lightly, but there was still this inexplicable emotion churning in my heart.

Gently shake the glass and take a sip of the wine inside.

Shen Dandan sighed lowly, looked at me and said with some sadness: "Yes, what does she have to do with you, you can even use Cheng Hui, how can you care about her." ”

I felt an inexplicable irritability, took the red wine from the side, and I took a sip directly from the bottle.

"Xiaoyu, you are really pitiful. Shen Dandan looked at me with some pity.

"What a, what do I have to be pitiful. I said with some annoyance, the complicated emotions in my heart rolled in waves, like a stormy wave, drowning my whole heart in it, but more of it was cold, it was the back of Yanyan and Zhang Long holding hands and going away, it was the explosion that took away my brother's life.

My heart suddenly hurt like a pinprick, and I couldn't help but gasp for breath.

Shen Dandan sat up, took a set of pajamas from the side and put them on her body, she paced forward, took the red wine and poured herself a glass, and then drank it in one gulp; "Xiaoyu, aren't you in pain?"

"Pain? haha......" I laughed twice as if I had heard something ridiculous: "I tell you, I don't have any pain anymore, I don't have any emotions anymore." ”

Shen Dandan sighed, reached out and touched my face, and said with some distress: "Poor Xiaoyu." ”

"I'm pitiful, but I don't need you to be pitiful. I said expressionlessly, I thought I really wouldn't be in pain anymore, but I still had an inexplicable feeling in my heart.

Shen Dandan shook his head: "Keep recalling the past, those painful pasts, use those pains to remind yourself, spur yourself, motivate yourself, and give yourself unlimited motivation, because you are afraid, afraid of forgetting those painful things, so you can only keep recalling, over and over again, until you make yourself hard-hearted, right?" She looked at me with pity: "Xiaoyu, don't you think it's very pathetic? Even if you really go to the top of the mountain, you won't be happy." "h latest chapter +: on e. Cool: ◎ Craftsman. Net?

I pushed her hand on my face: "Yes, I'm pathetic, I'm pathetic, but I don't need anyone to pity me, to pity me." I smiled coldly: "Because I will go to the top of the mountain, I will get back everything I have lost, and I will make those lives that hurt me worse than death." Anyone who stands in my way I will, kill. The last word was like the low roar of a beast, the helpless roar of despair.

Yes, I also know that I am pathetic and I am pathetic, but it doesn't matter.

The important thing is that I will find a way to get to the top of the mountain.

"What if it's the four fires that stand in front of you, it's Brother Hui?" Shen Dandan frowned and looked at me with some complexity.

I took a deep breath: "I said, I'll find a way to get them to leave." ”

"Leave. Shen Dandan suddenly smiled: "People who have come to this road, even if they leave, where can they go?"

"It's my business. I frowned, feeling inexplicably irritable, and my voice couldn't help but get louder.

"Keep reminiscing about those painful pasts to remind yourself. Because you are afraid of losing, you don't even dare to have the idea of owning it. Shen Dandan shook his head: "It turns out that the person I love will run away." ”

Lighting a cigarette, I took a deep breath, took the red wine from the side, and let me drink it directly: "It's not an escape, as long as I go to the top of the mountain, I can protect the people I care about, even if it is everything I have lost, I can also get it back." ”

Shen Dandan looked at me lightly, and his peaceful gaze seemed to be mixed with a hint of sarcasm.

Inexplicably, I felt a wave of upset.

Taking a deep breath, I continued, "It doesn't matter anymore. I smiled: "Because, I can't go back." Do you know? All the people have abandoned me, and the people I care about have left mercilessly in front of my eyes, hehe......" I said as if crying and laughing, as if I wanted to use this method to make my heart colder: "Chen Ye, God died because of me." You know what? As soon as I close my eyes, I can see how they died. ”

Shen Dandan listened quietly, but there was a trace of heartfelt distress in her eyes.

"In the year I was locked in the cellar, life was worse than death, and the only thought that supported me to survive was that I was going to escape, I was going to kill Tiezhu and Li Jun, and I was going to regroup and go to the top of the mountain. It seemed that I was back in the cellar, and my voice was full of hatred; ”

"Hehe, since everyone has abandoned me and left me, well, I don't want anything. I don't ask for anything, it's better, I can have no worries. ”

Shen Dandan closed her eyes in pain, maybe she also understood. To this day, I really can't go back. Even if I could go back, I wouldn't.

In the shadow of the moonlight, it seemed to cross the boundless distance, and the light shone on my body at the same time, but it did not shine into my heart.

"Xiaoyu, you still have me, I won't leave you. Shen Dandan looked at me, his dark eyes flashing with determination. It seems that I want to use this method to warm my heart that has sunk in the ice.

"It doesn't matter anymore. I shrugged my shoulders indifferently. I don't know why, at this moment, I suddenly miss Yeon-yeon.

I really want to ......

I don't know if she forgave me.

Would you have cried when you heard the news of my death? Maybe, after all these years. The appearance of her and Zhang Long holding hands and leaving suddenly flashed in front of her eyes.

Whenever I think back to this moment, my heart still hurts like a pinprick in a pin.

I smiled self-deprecatingly, I was going to see her, even if it was to take a sneak peek, this thought suddenly flashed in my heart, and I had a feeling of impatience.

If you can......

It would be nice if she, who was holding Zhang Long's hand and leaving at that time, could turn back for me.

But after all, there is still no going back.

I wanted to see her, even if it was downstairs looking at the bright lights upstairs.

Shen Dandan sighed lowly, she lowered her head and looked at the shadows that occasionally overlapped between the two of us, as if the alternating time was presented in the shadows: "When are you going to force Cheng Hui away." ”