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There were very few people on the training ground, but Xin Wu did not evacuate like the others.

He sat down on the cherry tree, glanced at the gloomy sky, and took out the letter from his bosom that Shiriato had brought to him.

It was supposed to be a sad story that he couldn't choose to listen to on a sunny day.

The purple envelope was delicate and neat, and a few faint tears could be seen on it, which was the letter that Shirlia entrusted to herself.

Xin Wu carefully tore open the envelope, and there was a delicate ring lying on the neat stationery, and the faint fragrance that emanated was refreshing.

In a trance, Xin Wu seemed to see Xue Liya standing in front of him, with red butterflies tattooed on her arms and neck.

The expression is unruly, but the eyes that look at him are as dusty as letterhead, without a trace of wrinkles, soft and pure.

......

Xin Wu, when you read this letter, I must have been standing at the altar of worship in Garan Temple.

Holding a wooden fish in his hand, he knocked on Master Xuanku's head like a wooden fish, crossed his hands on his waist, and smiled from ear to ear.

After knocking the head of the bald donkey, I should have sat under the willow tree in the Missy Pond, looked at the goldfish swimming around, and inexplicably said, "Fuck, it's like turning into a fish with only seven seconds of memory." ”

Because seven seconds is not enough for me to miss you, I can't think of the depths of love, and the tears won't be as low as they are now.

We didn't meet under the pink cherry blossoms, nor did we end up with a poem and a boat ride on the Danube.

There was some drama at first, some bizarre.

I am a lower-class person living in a dire environment, but I cherish the women of the world and strive to fight for the rights of the majority of poor women, and I am also the leader of the Taimei group of "insulting the rich, insulting the handsome and insulting the powerful".

I hate handsome people, after my father died, my mother was seduced by the handsome scum Xiao Ren's soul was lost, not only was she cheated out of her family property, but she also ended up dead.

Handsome men have bellies full of flowers, and I don't understand why their rotten hearts can speak such beautiful sweet words.

Xiao Cui of our Taimei Group followed Su Beimo with all her heart, and even wanted to quit the organization of insulting the rich and handsome and the powerful, but in the end she ended up being made by someone with a big belly, with a child in her belly, and she was lonely. When she gave birth to a child and died painfully, Su Beimo was playing with other women.

The sun was scorching, and the front was distorted by the scorching fire.

Everything is as usual, and everything is very different from the usual.

I was still standing on the street, munching on papaya bella, looking for a target for insult.

Who told you that your lips are red and your teeth are white, your blonde hair is flying, and your cold and melancholy eyes are filled with a deadly light?

Without hesitation, I spit on your fair face, and my contemptuous eyes provoke you, a lone wolf.

You're not as angry and crazy as everyone else, yelling at my daddy.

He didn't even lift a knife or hold a sword, call friends, chase more than a dozen streets and slash us.

I like to look at the eyes of those handsome people who are panting, desperate and vicious.

I like to see them screaming and scolding, and I like to see them hang their heads but have to think they are unlucky.

But you are like a pool of water, and no amount of sharp action can hurt your graceful heart.

You tell me.

"In your eyes, there is the former me.

A long time ago, I also used these methods to attract the attention and recognition of others, and used other people's strange eyes and opinions to prove that my humble self was alive.

However, there is no point in living like this, and it is tiring to live like this.

Because you can't hug the person you love, you can't kill the person you hate, and you have to live for love or hate. ”

The belange that I chewed up was lying on your slender palm with saliva, and handed it to me elegantly: "Take back this rotten penang, and you will slowly be whole." ”

"Who do you think you are, teaching me a lesson, and not soaking in urine to shine on your retinking skin?"

I slapped you in the face, stomped the rotten betel under my feet, and laughed maniacally.

But after you left, I didn't see the smile behind the smile, and I couldn't hold back the tears like rain.

For the first time, for the first time in my life: I feel like I have no clothes on, I am naked in front of you, and my body and mind are all seen through by you.

I'm afraid to meet you again, because I don't know how to face it again.

But I guess I can't do that kind of spitting and swearing at you.

Ten days later, in the sewers of Chaolong Town, we met again.

I had a high fever and was unconscious. Fearing that the disease would spread to his sisters, he threw them out.

I'm alone, in the stinky squeaxing sewers full of rotten leaves and jumping lice, alone......

When I woke up, there was a fire around me, the ginger soup was warm, the aroma was curling, and I was wearing the clean and smelling clothes I had worn on you. You sit next to me naked, your hands roasting my sweat-soaked dirty clothes, your moving side face bewitching in the sparks, and your short ear-length blonde hair warms people's hearts.

"You saved me?" I pinched my collar, hesitating with murderous intent, feeling strange.

"They say you're the boss here, and you can live here if you save you. You spoke lightly, and handed me the warm laundry to dry.

"You were used as a gun by them, I was sick, and they were worried about being infected, so they lied to you. ”

"Whether I was deceived or not, when I see hope, I will try to seize it.

Saving you, just helping myself. ”

"In order to save me, you were infected and died, is it worth it?"

"I only think about how to live, not how to die. The flames in your dark eyes flickered, confident and cold: "Before killing Gu Nei and Gu Wai, I will always live well." ”

"Shiria, I told you last time that people have to live for love or hate, do you think about my words?" you stared at my hesitant eyes and asked me?

I wondered and excited at the same time, I didn't expect you to remember my name.

Do people like me deserve to be remembered?

"You saw my body naked?"

"Looked. You are calm, do not shy away from it, and add mischievously: "Green and yellow, not attractive." ”

I bare my body in front of you, I gave you back my clothes, put on my own clothes, and suddenly I had a great determination: "I will think about your words."

You see my body, and I will live well with hatred for you, and I will live because of love or hate. ”

I met you twice, and I was naked in your eyes, naked and unreserved, but the feeling was slowly changed from aggrieved and unwilling to calm and decided.

I think I missed the first step on the way to becoming whole, but fortunately, I wasn't late to the second step.

The dark sewers are lit by your arrival, and the foul air is sweetened.

The fly in the ointment is that in the six months I have been with you, I have never seen you smile.

You are often awakened by nightmares, with tears in your eyes, shouting the name of the girl called "Azusa Yue", and sitting alone until dawn on the night when the stars and the moon are draped.

I became weird, strange like a madman.

I want to know everything about your past, and I want to know how to make the corners of your mouth melodious and draw a beautiful arc.

You're on all fours again, sweat soaking wet clothes, screaming and waking up from your nightmare.

I bought the wine and drank like crazy with you, and that night, you cried like a child.

Tell me, you saved the wrong person, that girl named Ziyue was kidnapped by Gu Nei you saved, you were judged and slandered by the Light of Judgment, you were imprisoned in the Mystery Prison, you finally lost her, you finally lost her......

I hugged you who couldn't twitch, sad and happy, angry and jealous, and secretly made a vow in my heart.

You are in such pain, how can I be happy?

You used to cry, and you were just as fragile as I was under your pretended strength and indifference.

You need my arms too, and I'm so happy.

You've been ruined by Gunei, he's a filthy piece of that will defile anyone who wants to purify him, and I'm so angry that I want to tear him to pieces.

The person you like is called Ziyue, I am helpless, I am jealous, and I also want to kill her and make her disappear from you forever.

You don't know, I sent all the people who "insulted the rich, insulted the handsome and the powerful" to find out Ziyue's information and learn everything about her.

I didn't want to save her, I wanted to kill her, completely, decisively!

But she's being held in the Jinglong Pavilion, and I can't even sneak in.

Ziyue, that slut, born or dead, far away, but alive and more successful than me, who is close to you.

She deserves to be killed, she deserves to die, I am angry, I hate.

However, I could not do it, so I could only be jealous and helpless like the hated self I used to be, and comfort myself with chatter and curses.

After that night, you suddenly told me that you were leaving.

"Is it because of me?" I cried, begging you to take me.

You shake your head: "You're going to kill a lot of people so that you can go to a place called a pit viper."

If you choose a distant place, you will have to go through thick and thin, and I don't want to bring you who are useless. ”

Your words make me sad, the days together are so real, but suddenly like a dream, I hate you and don't take me.

I'm stunned by you, I'm going to ** you!

If you can't get your heart, then at least get your people.

Why did you see my body naked, and I had no reservations about you, but you rejected me through your clothes?

I don't want to be like a breeze in your life, leaving nothing behind.

Whether it's good or painful, there's always something to be left behind.

When I rode on top of you, you were still shouting in pain: "Azusa, you wait, I will definitely come to save you." ”

I burst into tears again, I was skin-to-skin with you, but you were still thinking about another woman.

It dawned on me that I was still as tattered as a chewed magnolia betel lang, destined to be remembered by this shameless act to prove that I was alive.

Is this my life?

Look at your face as warm as water, so clean, so warm.

No, it's not my life.

The moment I met you, I was different.

In my years, only you were as clean and warm as your face, and I couldn't ruin this clean warmth with my own hands.

I shook my head, got dressed, tried to keep myself out of nakedness, tried to make myself whole, and left with a wry smile.

Outside the eastern suburbs, I met a bald donkey.

I jumped off the tree, ripped off my clothes, and said, "Xuan Ku bald donkey, you answer me a question, otherwise I will call you insulting me." ”

The bald donkey stared at me desperately, and for a long time, his hands were folded: "Squeeze out a sentence of oh Mituo Buddha." ”

"How can you keep a person by your side forever. I looked at him with disdain, but in a very reverent tone.

Peony embraces each other in the moon and season, and in the strange flower garden, the pink butterfly gently stops at the flower buds, the thin wings are flashing, and the fragrant powder is fluttering.

The bitter bald donkey pounced violently, and the pink butterfly was frightened and flew away.

"Good, good, good. Xuan shook his head bitterly and smiled bitterly, but the pink butterfly stopped on his shoulder: "Desperate to catch the butterfly, the butterfly flies away; ”

It turns out that love is not envy and possession.

I'm glad I couldn't kill Ziyue, and I'm glad I gave up that night.

Xin Wu, the red butterfly on my neck and arm is not a tattoo, but a terminal illness - lupus erythematosus, which I will not live to be eighteen years old.

But even though my days are short, my mood is more relaxed than ever, because I have decided to come to you in a posture that is no longer jealous, no longer hateful, no longer willful, and no longer rude.

The night you wept before my eyes, I made a vow: "I must see your bright smile from the bottom of my heart in my lifetime." ”

I can't keep you by my side because of love, but because of love, I'll come to you and look forward to that smile.

Xinwu, I'll be here soon.

So, wait for me, just like Azusa waiting for you.

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