258. Punishment and satisfaction
Xi Yao did not resist, nor did she cater to her, her heart was the same as this ice and snow weather, she was forgotten and turned a blind eye. For him, perhaps she was just a corpse with a body temperature, full of the smell he loved, and that was enough.
The first time, in order to punish her, he felt that her body was hot, felt that she was dirty, and did not want to touch too much, and the second time, in order to satisfy him, her body made him adapt a lot, and he admitted that he liked her body and her taste, maybe it was only her heart that was dirty.
He left her body without a moment's hesitation when he left, just like he never needed to verify that the other party was dead and turned away, because he could sense that he never liked to do more than that, doing meaningless things, wasting his time.
But is it superfluous to comfort a woman who has just been under him?
His steps were as light as his garments in the wind, and resolute as his lightning-fast sword. The snow made a slight sound beneath his feet, as she instinctively let out an involuntary moan beneath him.
After he left, it was so quiet that he couldn't hear anything. Snowflakes fell into her dark eyes, and the cold was in her heart. His fingers, numb from the cold, moved stiffly, buttoning his messy clothes onto his cold body. She bit her white lip, turned sideways, folded her arms, bent her knees and raised her legs, and curled up in the snow, not crying, not noisy, just heartache.
The kiss marks he left behind, like ice and snow cutting across her body, gradually faded away, like a gust of cold wind, unable to grasp the evidence of his love for her.
Xi is different from the lattice, he doesn't touch a woman's body casually, nothing attracts him, he always habitually ignores everything, indifferent, and doesn't care, because he feels that it is a waste of time and energy. He touched Xi Yao, but it was only because of that body that attracted him, even if he didn't say it, she felt that he only needed her body.
She raised her eyes, her gaze unfocused, at the corpse of the wolf not far away, covered with a layer of snow, the ice and snow had frozen it, and its blood had been frozen bright red because of its death.
Its cold corpse could temporarily satisfy his desire to kill, and her warm "corpse" only provided him with temporary needs. What is the essential difference between her and it?
She suddenly understood that what he wanted was killing, blood, and a body that had nothing to do with her love.
Even if she froze to death in the snow at the moment, he would not build a grave for her, he would only look at her corpse with contempt.
He won't let her die, death is in his control, so no matter how much she suffers, it will be in vain, and she will be brought to him after all. The consequences are rewarded by him, the severity is determined by him, the history is written by him, her sorrow is brewed by him, and he is still not satisfied, he can never find a way to be comfortable, and she can only continue her unspeakable love.
He didn't allow her to have the slightest resistance and incompleteness, he wanted all and thoroughness, but she couldn't give it, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't give him wholeness, and she couldn't give it no matter how much she wanted to. It's true that she didn't protect her body, the body he liked, it didn't belong to him at first sight. Whether it's this time, or a thousand years later, whether his name is Xi or Fenchen.
Xi Yao's eyes reflected several men in black robes, if she hadn't seen them in the first place, she must have wanted to believe that these people were from hell and had come to take her to hell to rest in peace.
A feeble voice sounded behind the man, extremely magnetic, melodious and charming, "Even if you say it ten thousand times, you are not her, but in my opinion, you can still be her." ”
Goth came from behind the black-robed man, the clothes on his chest swayed by the north wind, revealing a bandage wrapped around his body, and he was still the same, as if he was going to fall and die at any moment. I haven't seen him for more than half a year, and he seems to have matured a lot, as if he has grown up by three years all of a sudden, maybe it has nothing to do with time, but because of Su'er.
Ge Si walked to Xi Yao's side, he squatted down, his misty eyes stared at Xi Yao's face, what he saw was Su Er's face, what a warm face, but he was still lonely in his heart, because he knew that she was not really Su Er.
"Be my corpse, okay?" Goss held out a hand and invited Xi Yao. Xi Yao turned into a corpse, and she was more similar to Su Er.
It's really an unreasonable request, but Goss seems to be much gentler than Xi.
"Become a real corpse...... Xi Yao actually felt that it was a temptation, because she occasionally yearned and longed for it like this, she stretched out her hand and put it on Gossi's hand, and he pulled her up.
For the sake of Fan Chen, Xi Yao longs to live, hoping to find him, but in the end she knows that Fan Chen does not exist at all; now, Xi doesn't love her, but she loves him, the deeper the love, the more painful the hurt he gives, death is relief, but without his permission, can she die smoothly?
"Is that okay?" asked Xi Yao suspiciously, could she really be a corpse?
"Are you worried about him?" asked Goss with a smile.
"Well, he doesn't allow it. Xi Yao replied in a sneering manner, it was the first time she had spoken so closely to Goss, as if they were both fallen people from the end of the world, and what they said could be understood by each other. Ge Si was seriously injured on the outside and very seriously injured on the inside, Xi Yao was very good on the outside, even if there was an injury, it would heal, but the inner injury could not be recovered.
"Oh, it turns out that death doesn't allow it, it's really hard to do," Goss picked up the silk at Xi Yao's feet, got up and tied it around her waist, and said, "Whether he allows it or not, it will be done soon, but you have to promise me that your body will be mine, okay?"
"Good. Xi Yao responded. After a person dies, it is a piece of loess, and if you give it to Gesi, it is better than letting him remember the disappeared Su'er, and maybe it can relieve the regret and loneliness in his heart.
"Xi Yao, you are so kind," a light smile appeared on Ge Si's pale face, he didn't expect her to agree so refreshingly, "I also promise you, I won't let you suffer, I will let you go very happily, and I will make you the happiest corpse in the world." ”
Corpse is obviously a bad word, but it came out of Ge Si's lips at the moment, but it made people feel inexplicably warm, because Xi Yao hadn't felt warm for a long time, at least someone cared about her at this moment, although it was also because of another person.
"Did something happen?" Ge Si saw Xi Yao's expression, and saw that she was curled up in the snow in disheveled clothes just now, very helpless and distressing.
Xi Yao shook her head and didn't answer Gos.
Ge Si knew that Xi Yao had been staying by Xi's side, but now she had agreed to his "death invitation", and would rather be his corpse than stay by Xi's side, what happened to her?
"Isn't it happy to stay by his side?" Ge Si looked at Xi Yao's eyes that wanted to cry but didn't have tears, what was she suppressing? What was she enduring but she didn't want to show it, she didn't want others to know.
Xi Yao stays by Xi's side, not unhappy, at least there is love, because there is love, so I feel sad, because of sadness, so I am unhappy.
"It's okay, after a while, I'll pick you up, my beautiful corpse. Goss leaned down as he spoke, his lips gently touching Xi Yao's cold lips.
Xi Yao stepped back, her stiff fingers on her mouth, as if it was too late.
Goth didn't wait for her to respond, he had already turned his weak body, and the black-robed men followed him, drifting away and disappearing into the vast snow.
"If he knew that I promised to give my body to someone else, he would definitely be angry......" Xi Yao muttered to herself. But she couldn't change the situation, no matter what she did, he hated her, he didn't love her, he just wanted to take the body. If it was just a body, then she would feel that it would be easier to be a corpse, at least there would be no expectations, no sadness, and no more pain in her heart.
She stayed in the snow for a long time, but she knew that she still had to go back, back to Xi's side, whether he needed it or not, she could only go back, she had no choice, and she could only continue to bear the love that continued to torment her. Therefore, Goss's invitation to death made her heart move in an instant.
Xi Yao had just entered the gate of the courtyard when she saw Xi in the distance walking out of Ying's room.
When she was alone in the snow, he had returned home early, to the other, and when she had sunk in his residual breath and lost herself, he had given the other his utmost tenderness and patience without reservation.
That person was like a mystery, not giving Xi Yao a chance to catch the wind, but she knew that there was ambiguity between Xi and Ying, and she couldn't tell it.
Xi Yao lowered her head and walked to her room. She was not qualified to question the entangled relationship between Xi and Ying, but he suddenly blocked her way, grabbed her wrist, and her body leaned forward, almost not standing firmly.
"Are you so impatient?" asked Shu.
What can't she wait? Can't wait to die? Even if she wanted to, would he agree? Will he let go?
"Nope. Xi Yao turned her head, avoiding the sharp light in her eyes. Arguing with him is fruitless, explaining with him is useless, he only believes what he thinks.
"How many men have you been contaminated with?"
"I didn't...... Well...... It hurts...... "Xi Yao was dragged by Xi, and her wrist was pinched so painfully, I don't know where to be dragged by him.
He kicked open a door and threw her into the hot spring, the warm water splashing on the rocks around him and spilling on his shoes, and he watched as she was wet.
The spring water drenched her long hair, soaked her body, and splashed her face, and she opened her eyes, the remnants of which trickled down her long eyelashes and into her sockets, wetting them.
She muttered, "I didn't." ”
He leaned down, leaned closer to her, and asked, "Don't you know how smelly you are at this moment?"
She raised her eyes, a grim expression, and realized the crux of the problem. She had the smell of other men on her body, because she was too careless to forget the smell of medicine on Goss.
Seeing that Xi Yao was speechless, she was always like this, which made people see through it at a glance, and he said coldly to the iceman, "I hate you for cheating on me, but you like to lie." ”