198, only this life
Fan Chen reappeared, looking at Ying still sitting on the trunk of the tree, impartial, she still had a strong sad temperament. The blood on the hem of her skirt was washed away by the rain when she left the yard, but the bare ankles did not hide the traces of being bitten by wolves, and she was clearly not afraid that Fan Chen knew that she did it, and it was more like she was deliberately provoking him.
"Why ......" is extremely painful.
Ying was not surprised to see Fan Chen come to Xingshi to ask about the crime, and asked, "If I die, will you be so heartbroken for me?"
"Why did you move her, where did she provoke you?!"
"Do you really think that this is what I have been waiting for you for so many years, to share your love with another person?"
"Then what do you want me to do? If I had known that you existed in the first place, I wouldn't have let myself fall in love with her! Why didn't you show up in the first place? Why did you have to show up after I met her and tell me these things?!"
Fan Chen is also very distressed, there is nothing in this world that he can't solve, but when his death is approaching, he is completely stumped, this must be God punishing him.
"You betrayed me, why do you blame me in turn?"
"That dead person should be me, too, isn't it?!"
"You will die, maybe half a year later, the person who killed you will be me," Ying smiled lightly, still sad, she had no choice, she could only do this, and said, "You yourself said, you will always love me, only love me, you promised three lives and three lives, and I only waited until your second life, and you betrayed me." ”
"If I could, I would love you for eternity, but she has no reincarnation! She only has this life! Why do you want to deprive her of 'this only life'?!"
"Are you crazy? You have killed countless people yourself, have you ever thought that you would also deprive them of their 'second life'?"
"It's different, it's different, she's not the same as them......"
"Fanchen, you are so selfish, you have never changed, no matter which life, you are the evil devil! Even if you lose the thirteenth rib, you can't completely eliminate your evil!"
"Oh, I'm evil, you're not evil, your desires are all good, and my desires are evil...... Why is there such a race in this world? Is reincarnation a favor or a punishment? I'm not uncommon...... I just want her! I just want her!!
"If it's cruel, you've changed your mind after all. ”
"Did I change my mind?" Fan Chen didn't feel that he had betrayed love, he had always been very firm, he was just helpless, he couldn't cross the gray area between life and death, he couldn't go through life and death alone, "The person who changed his heart is clearly you!"
Ying was shocked when she heard Fan Chen's last words, and cried and said, "So, you still hate me?"
"I hate you! I hate you all the time! I hate you in my bones, I just can't refuse you!" Fan Chen's love for Ying was recalled by her, but the hatred that followed her also crept in.
Ying felt extremely hurt, Fan Chen's words were denying his love for her, how much he used to love her, but now he defined it as "just can't refuse", "Have you never loved me?"
Fan Chen roared like crazy: "I don't love you! How could I fall in love with a woman like you?! I feel dirty! I feel disgusting! I feel ugly! You are just my unbearable past!"
What hurtful words, they come from the throat of a loved one. In those light purple eyes, in addition to sadness, there are other feelings, not anger, not jealousy, but love, deep love like an abyss, what a sad reality.
"The wind is blowing," Ying raised her hand and said lightly, as she fell from the tree, "Fan Chen, you will lose your lover, you will not even have the opportunity to hug the corpse, you will be alone forever, tortured, suffering, and living the rest of your life in regret." ”
Fan Chen watched Ying leave, he didn't kill her after all, he hated her, and he hated himself. The past of Fan Chen and Ying, it is impossible to use the word "unbearable" to roughly describe it. If Xi Yao is imprinted on the heart of Fan Chen, then the tassel is engraved on the bones of Fan Chen, the former because of the curse of love, but the latter is in love, and he goes deep.
However, the living can die, the dead can live, the living cannot be with death, and the dead cannot be resurrected, all of which are not lovely. Fan Chen experienced life and death and crossed the road of reincarnation, but Ying stuck to life and waited for him to come back after death, between him and her, is it true or not?
The wind was wrapped in fragrance, brushing the long silver-white hair of the dust, he raised his head, the cherry blossom trees were full of cherry blossoms, and the pink petals kept falling, not the cherry blossoms of the flower season, just like the snowflakes that were not summer.
Fan Chen unconsciously remembered what he had just said, and regretted it incomparably, he was just provoked, maybe he had thought about it, but it was definitely not a total denial. At this moment, there was a layer of sadness in his blue eyes, and even his heart suddenly surged with a burst of sourness and sadness, that woman, he really loved deeply, he didn't want to hurt her like this, but what should he do?
"Fan Chen, you will regret it, I will let you owe me eternal life, you don't need to be awakened, you will remember me unforgettable......" This is what Ying said to Fan Chen after she walked away, but it was more like saying it to herself.
Only people of their race have reincarnation and enjoy unique death treatment. Fan Chen died half a year later, and his next life may be 1,621 years later, or maybe 10,000 years. He can reunite with Ying, it is a once-in-a-lifetime fate, but it is self-defeating, planting the seeds of resentment, which is the source of love, and unconsciously has become more deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.
Fan Chen stopped under the cherry blossom tree, like a puppet that had lost its soul, numbly undergoing the baptism of cherry blossoms.
He broke his promise to Xi Yao, he said that he would not betray her, but he was not able to eliminate all the accidents, he did not betray his love for Xi Yao, he always loved her as before, but he did not accompany her to the end.
He has done his best, whether in his past life or in this life, he is loyal to love until death, perhaps because he is too focused, he has failed love itself. Love cannot be divided, it must be whole, love cannot be shared, it must be completed by two people. The more serious he became, the more he was stuck in the quagmire and couldn't extricate himself.
Fan Chen returned to the courtyard, and Ying said that Fan Chen would lose his lover, and he would not even have the opportunity to hug the corpse, which was what it meant. He looked at the burned yard, the charcoal was pitch black, and wisps of white smoke were still emitting.
Fan Chen sat in the ruins, he was silent, lowered his head, mourning more than his heart died, it should be him at this moment. There were still traces of Xi Yao's blood on his white clothes, the only traces of her existence.
"Fan Chen! What did you do?!" Ya Chi couldn't believe it, he had only been away for half a day, and he couldn't even find Xi Yao's corpse, but he could tell that the blood stains on Fan Chen's clothes were Xi Yao's, and he yelled angrily, "What happened to you?!"
"If you could have killed me earlier, I'd be grateful to you. Fan Chen threw Ji Shuang's spirit sword on the pitch-black charcoal, he didn't want to wait any longer, without Xi Yao's days, he didn't know how to spend the next half a year.
"Let you die, do you want to be free? Do you want to leave it alone? You want to get out of the sin of your own making? Do you know that I tried my best to let her live, and I tried my best to give her life! You appeared again and again, easily pushing her to the brink of death! This time, you finally succeeded! Are you satisfied?!"
"She should have met you earlier...... "Fan Chen muttered, as long as she met Ya Chi earlier than he met before Fan Chen, Xi Yao would not have experienced these things, and she should be very happy and live a carefree life.
"Whoever she meets, she shouldn't meet you!"
"Hehe, it seems to be. Fan Chen laughed at himself.
Xi Yao doesn't love Ya Chi, she has always lived in her heart, and Ya Chi accepted it silently, but at least he can accompany her and take care of her. He knew that she had had a hard time in the past two years, even if she didn't tell him or show it, he could feel it, and felt that her love was very forbearant and hard.
"It's that woman, isn't it?" Ya Chi said, glaring at Fan Chen, her purple-golden eyes were full of hatred and murderous aura, "It's been more than two years, haven't you had a good time? Why do you still want to provoke Xi Yao? What kind of hurtful thing did she do, and you want to punish her like this?!"
"I shouldn't have come to her. He just needs to continue to endure it, and continue to wait for death insensitively, but he loves her, he misses her very much, and he doesn't want to see her all the time.
"Is the woman dead?" asked Achi, who got the answer from Fanchen's face, who despised him and despised him for being a coward.
"I will let your blood, drop by drop, honor her, and let your bones be more than for her soul. Ah Chi dropped a sentence and disappeared in an instant.
"Xi Yao, have you seen it, Ya Chi is really good, better than me, happier than me, he loves you more than me, I knew this, I shouldn't have stopped you from falling in love with him. Fan Chen said and picked up the Ji Shuang spirit sword and stabbed it into his heart, but when the spirit sword was against his chest, it instantly turned into blue smoke, and he didn't listen to his master's words.
With a sound of "coaxing", a blue flame ignited in the palm of Fan Chen's hand, and then it suddenly surged, enveloping the periphery of his body, surrounded by clusters, and disappeared in the moment when the flames converged, and he was safe and sound, not even a single hair was burned.
Fan Chen looked at his empty palms and asked, "Xi Yao, don't you want to see me?"
Fan Chen got up, walked to the lake, and poured his body into the lake without hesitation, but a blue air flow suddenly surged around his body, slamming the lake away, not even giving him a chance to suffocate.
"Huh...... Hehe...... Hehe......" Fan Chen lay at the bottom of the lake, looking at the sky, and smiled so sadly.
He can't die like this, does he have to wait until half a year later? Where is the man who can kill him? He really wants to see that person soon. Ying is right, he will spend the rest of his life in repentance, torture, and suffering.