302: I don't hate him, I don't hate him, I just blame him
Cold sweat soaked from the corners of her forehead from time to time, and she stretched out the quilt with both hands, grabbing it in the air, "Mother, save me, I don't want to die, mother, father, come and save Xiaonuo!" No one saved her, no one could save her, tears of sorrow slipped down her closed eyes, and soon soaked the hair on her temples, "Ah! ”
With this cry of pain and despair, Xiao Nuo's eyes opened.
The night was silent, so the sounds of terror, the pain, the despair that came from her room came far away.
"Arnold, Arnold, what's wrong with you? Did you have some nightmare, it's okay, my mother and your father are here, here! Hearing the grief and despair coming from Xiao Nuo's house, Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo, as well as Xuanyuan Qing's family, quickly got dressed and ran towards Xiao Nuo's house, because Ling Wushuang had a big belly and was inconvenient to move, she simply ignored Xuanyuan Mo's dissuasion, and floated from the house where their husband and wife lived to Xiao Nuo's house, and as soon as she pushed the door open, what she saw was that Xiao Nuo was sitting on the chuang, tears in her eyes.
"Mother, Daddy, I'm not dead, it's good, I'm not dead, it's good!" Raising his teary eyes, Xiao Nuo couldn't cry silently, "I thought I, I thought I fell from such a high peak and never saw you again!" I thought, I want to use my true qi to keep myself from falling hard, but I just can't use any strength. I'm so desperate, I'm really desperate, I can't bear you, I can't bear my brother, I don't want to be separated from you......" The little girl has regained her memory? The little girl remembered all the memories she had missing. Is it because I fell down and hit the stone on my forehead? Ling Wushuang stretched out his hand, took his daughter into his arms, caressed her back with his hand, his eyes were red, and comforted softly: "It's okay, you're okay, my mother and your father, and my brother can't bear you." It's not good for us to be there for you when you need it most, stop crying, okay, let's stop crying! said that she told her daughter not to cry, but the tears in her eyes couldn't stop falling one by one.
Seeing that Xiao Nuo was just awakened by a nightmare, Xuanyuan Qing and Xuanyuan Mo nodded and said hello, and then went back to the house with Ling Yushan and Mu Shen to continue to rest.
Seeing his wife holding her daughter and crying non-stop, Xuanyuan Mo's heart was also uncomfortable.
He walked to Chuang, sat down at the other end of Chuang, and looked at Xiao Nuo's eyes with soft and pity: "Listen to your mother, don't cry." He had a strong sense of self-blame in his heart at the moment, according to the calculation of time, his wife suddenly fainted in the imperial garden, saying that something might happen to his children, at that time, he really took what his wife said to heart, and he might be able to save his daughter in time.
However, time does not turn back.
Moreover, there is a long distance from Jizhou to Mingcui Mountain, can they really save their daughter in time?
"Daddy, I don't want to cry, I really don't want to cry. But the tears in my eyes just couldn't stop flowing down. Turning his gaze to Xuanyuan Mo, Xiao Nuo's eyes were hazy with tears, and he didn't pity people, Ling Wushuang wiped the tears on his face with a handkerchief, smiled softly at Xiao Nuo, and said, "It's okay, if you want to cry, cry out." Cry out all your grievances, so that your heart will feel better. ”
The pain in the little girl's heart, she knows, she is rejected by her beloved man again and again, she is a girl, I am afraid that she will not be able to accept it.
And her little girl, because she loves Nanfeng too much, will be rejected by her again and again, but she confesses to Xingyue Palace again and again, her courage and frankness really make her pity.
This time, it must be Nanfeng's refusal to be too thorough, or some other accident happened, which stimulated the little girl, so that she would run out of the Star Moon Palace sadly, go to the peak to relax, and accidentally fall into the abyss.
Abyss? Thinking about this, Ling Wushuang looked into Xiao Nuo's eyes and asked very seriously, "Xiao Nuo, you are at the peak, how did you fall into the abyss?" She didn't ask why Xiaonuo ran to the peak, she was afraid that asking herself would make Xiaonuo even more sad and sad.
Xiao Nuo stopped the tears in his eyes, lowered his eyes and thought for a moment, raised his head, and said to Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo: "I asked Nanfeng to propose to you and Daddy to marry me, he, he rejected me, and the relationship with his maid was very ambiguous, I was very sad in my heart, so I ran to the peak alone, sat there, thinking about what to do next, and then I felt the soil under me collapse downward, and then the whole person fell into the abyss." Xiao Nuo didn't tell Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo about the scene she saw in the South Wind House, she was afraid that they would go to trouble South Wind.
She didn't hate Nanfeng for rejecting her, nor was she annoyed with him, but she resented, resented that he was involved with the maidservant in order to reject her.
Do you still love him?
Love, she still loves him, but her love is not accepted by him, and she is hurt deeply by him.
If she saw him again, would she still smile at him with the pure, clear smile she had before?
Ling Wushuang frowned slightly, and said, "Think about it, at that time, there were other people on the peak?" "The soil is soft and deep, falling into the abyss, this may be an accident, she can not be deeply suspicious, but the maid of the south wind, died tragically at the top of the peak, what happened?
Is her death directly related to the little girl's fall into the abyss?
Could it be that the maid offended someone and was brutally killed and thrown to the top of the peak?
No, it's not right, according to what Zi Ning said, the soil under the maid was buried and was very red with blood, and the peak was the first murder scene of the murderer.
After such analysis, on the peak at that time, in addition to Xiaonuo, there should be two people, one is the maid who died tragically, and the other is the murderer who killed the maid.
Who will be the murderer?
And where is the murderer?
Why did you use such cruel means to kill a weak woman?
"Mother, I was very sad and my brain was very messy, and I didn't know if anyone was at the peak. However, the peak is very high, and no one should run to it to blow the wind on a cold day. "Except for a sad person like her, who would stupidly run to the top of a mountain wind whistling to find excitement?
No one, no one will be as stupid as her, saying that she wants to leave, but not in action.
"You should know Qin Yun, right?"
Ling Wushuang asked softly.
Xiaonuo nodded: "She is, it's Nanfeng, the maid next to Uncle Nanfeng, mother, what's wrong with her?" Speaking of his name, her heart suddenly throbbed, uncle, now without his reminder, she will call him uncle, Xiao Nuo had a sad smile on his face, Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo glanced at each other, they knew Xiao Nuo's bitterness in her heart, the pain in her heart, otherwise, she would not have changed her name to Uncle Nanfeng.
Since she saw Nanfeng when she was five years old, the little girl has been calling Nanfeng's name, and it seems that this time she has indeed suffered a big blow, so that her whole heart has been hurt.
"She's dead."
"Dead?" Xiao Nuo was startled, grabbed Ling Wushuang's arm, and said with some disbelief: "How could she die?" The disciples in the Xingyue Palace have an excellent relationship, who would kill her as a maidservant? Ling Wushuang shook his head, was silent for a moment, and said, "She is really dead. ”
"Who said that? Is it Nanfeng, did Uncle Nanfeng tell you personally? ”
Xiao Nuo still didn't believe what Ling Wushuang said, she didn't believe that there were few words, and when she saw her, the woman who always had a humble smile would die suddenly.
Ling Wushuang sighed, raised his hand and stroked the hair on Xiao Nuo's head, and said, "It was Zi Ning and Tian Xiang who told me and your father, and besides, your uncle Nanfeng also told us personally that his maid Qin Yun was stabbed many times in the body, and died tragically on the peak where you went, there will be no fake." ”
"Zining, Tianxiang, didn't they come to see me with their brother? Did they come to the Star Moon Palace to look for me before they ......?"
"Hmm."
Ling Wushuang nodded.
"Then why didn't they talk to me about it before they returned to Gyeongju?" After Zi Ning and Tian Xiang were more than half of Xiao Nuo's injuries, they were persuaded by Ling Wushuang to go back to Gyeongju, after all, they had been away from home for too long, which would make their mothers worry about remembering, and after learning that Xiao Nuo had lost part of his memory, Ling Wushuang strictly forbade them to mention what happened to Xingyue Palace and the peak in front of Xiao Nuo in order to let Xiao Nuo recover his injuries, so although Xiao Nuo's memory was restored at the moment, she didn't know anything about what happened on the peak after she fell off the cliff.
"It's my mother who didn't let them tell you." Ling Wushuang whispered.
"Died on the top of the peak I've been? Who could have killed her? And, did she arrive at the peak after I fell into the abyss, or did she arrive at me, shortly after I arrived? Xiao Nuo seemed to be saying it to herself, and to Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo, as she spoke, her expression gradually shrouded in pain, "Mother, I want to get married." ”
Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo were stunned at the same time.
Get married?
How could the little girl suddenly think of getting married?
Xuanyuan Mo frowned and said, "You are still young, you will talk about it in a few years after you get married." Xiao Nuo shook his head, "I've been in the middle of the war for more than two years, and if I drag it out any longer, I'll become an old girl." Since he didn't like her, and refused to get her close again and again, and took her confession seriously, then, as he wished, she found someone to marry.
However, after she said the words of marriage, her heart hurt very much, really painful, more painful than seeing the red petals on the chuang slip in his house, it hurt even more, and the pain was piercing!
"He was the one who found you at your Uncle Mu's house, and was by your side until your father and I came. Because of you, your brother stabbed him with his sword, and he told me and your father, and all those who knew about your fall into the abyss, that he liked you, and even fell in love with you. He also said that he would marry you and be with you forever. Now, are you still in a hurry to get married? Regardless of Xuanyuan Mo's black face, Ling Wushuang said the oath that Nanfeng had said, word by word, to Xiao Nuo.
Like?
Or even already in love with her?
Oh, it's impossible, how could he like her and fall in love with her early.
Xiao Nuo kept shaking his head, and the tears in his eyes instantly slid down his cheeks: "No, he doesn't like me." How could he possibly like me? If, as he said, he liked me and fell in love with me early, then why did he reject me again and again, and be indifferent to my confession? "The tears full of pain, like pearls with broken threads, dripping drop by drop, she didn't believe it, she didn't believe it!
"Mo, you go to sleep, I'll stay in Xiaonuo's house tonight to accompany her." There were some things that Ling Wushuang wanted to say to her daughter alone, so she smiled apologetically and sent Xuanyuan Mo back to their house to rest, "You are pregnant, and Xiaonuo's health is not very good, don't say it too late." Reluctantly, but the kissing lady had already told him to leave, and if he stayed here, he would definitely make her unhappy, Xuanyuan Mo sighed helplessly, got up, walked outside the house, and by the way, gave the door to Ling Wushuang's mother and daughter, and gently closed them together, and then stepped on the moonlight and walked towards their husband and wife's own cabin.
"Mother, I miss him so much, but I don't want to see him. My heart hurts, it hurts so much to be hurt by him......" Xuanyuan Mo's footsteps walked away, and Xiao Nuo immediately cried and fell into Ling Wushuang's arms, "If he likes me, if he loves me, why do you want to treat me like that?" I don't want to believe him, don't! Mother, I want to get married, I don't want to see him again, I don't want to ...... again"
Ling Wushuang's eyes were soft and pitying, and he said, "Mother knows that your heart hurts, but because he cares too much, he will push you away from your side again and again." Your dad won't let him appear in front of you again, you know? For more than half a year, he has been secretly and silently watching you, watching you and Yunyi talk and laugh, but not see each other, do you think his heart will feel better? He must be very bitter in his heart, and if he likes her, he will give him a chance. ”
"No, I don't want to give him a chance. You once said to me that only when a person has the bravest and most sincere heart can he get the most beautiful love. Daddy doesn't even care about his life in order to be with you, what about him? If you really like me, why don't you have the courage to tell me in front of me? He's a coward of feelings, I don't want him like this, don't ......"
Xuanyuan Mo loved Ling Wushuang, and when Ling Wushuang mistook her for the enemy who killed his mother, he still loved her, and he didn't blink when she pointed his sword at the door.
He loved her and was not afraid of any trial.
Even in the battle of Songshan, he almost paid for his life, but he had no regrets.
These bits and pieces of love, Ling Wushuang remembered in his heart, and he will never forget it for the rest of his life.
The reason why Xiao Nuo knew about the unforgettable things that happened between Ling Wushuang and Xuanyuan Mo was all heard by Hui Niang, and she was touched by the love between her parents, and she was deeply envious.
What about her love? At this moment, every time she recalls a scene, her heart will be filled with endless pain.
His refusal, over the years, again and again, instantly came to her heart.
I thought I had forgotten it, but the providence of God made her recover her missing memories tonight, and let those pains burn, burning her over and over again, burning her heart so painfully, so painful!
Suddenly, the resentment against the south wind intensified in her heart.
She complained, complained about his cowardice, complained that he took too much care of her, refused her approach again and again, and blamed him for using clumsy means to force her to leave the Star Moon Palace.
Thinking clearly, she thought of it, and thought of the blush on the south wind chuang list, there should be another reason.
Is it self-soothing?
She smiled bitterly in her heart.
Why didn't he explain the bewitching blush when she asked him?
Why didn't she catch up with her when she ran out of the Star Moon Palace sadly?
Could it be that he really refuses her to come close to him again and again because he cares too much?
Did he really like her, and was already in love with her?
The more she thought about it, the more disturbed she became.
The more disordered it is, the more heartache it becomes; The more heartache there is, the more disordered it becomes.
After a catastrophe, he said that he liked her and fell in love with her early, how ridiculous it was!
In the past, she was around him, not being put in his eyes and heart.
lost once, but now, he is watching her in secret.
Did he think that his countless refusals had not hurt her deep enough?
If you want to marry her, you want to be with her for a long time, then be stung by her first, and be hurt by her!
If she can bear it, maybe she will give him a chance.
can't bear it, then, they can only miss fate, forget each other hard, and feel pain in their hearts.
"Xiaonuo, Nanfeng he, he is different from your father, the time you spend with him is intermittent, and there is not a short time, he is gentle and elegant, abides by etiquette and education, and will not be like your father, who doesn't care about anything and only acts according to personal preferences. Mother believes in him, believes that he really likes you and loves you. If you really want to play a temper and marry, your mother won't stop you, but you'd better think clearly, so as not to hurt him when you get it, and at the same time, you will be hurt yourself! ”
Ling Wushuang knew Nanfeng's feelings, and being able to say those amazing words at the bottom of the abyss had already broken his psychological bottom line, and even shattered his moral outlook.
An uncle's marriage to a niece is indeed a thing against human ethics for an authentic ancient man like him.
Even if his niece is not related to him, it is really difficult and difficult for him to cross this ethical morality without scruples.
But, in order to love the little girl, he did it. finally took that step, and swore that he would marry a little girl.
If, if he knew that the little girl was in a hurry to get married, and the man she married was not him, would he be able to accept it?
If he can't accept it, what will he do?
After a long time, I didn't see Xiao Nuo speak, Ling Wushuang spoke softly, and said: "Maybe he pushed you back again and again, which really stabbed you and hurt your heart." But from his point of view, isn't his heart painful? obviously likes you and has a love for you, but because of age, generation, and the relationship between me and your father, I reject you, this is him, he is forbearing, and he is true love. And isn't that what you like? ”
Xiao Nuo raised her head, the tears hanging on her eyelashes were crystal clear, and she felt pity for her, and she couldn't wait to do her best, and coaxed her to smile softly, she bit her lip and shook her head: "Mother, I don't want to listen to what you say, I don't want to listen." Hearing his name, hearing anything about him, it hurts me now, and my heart hurts! ”
She felt that her love for a long time was so humble, really humble!
Afraid that he wouldn't like her, every time she came to Xingyue Palace to see him, she showed her best side in front of him.
She also has emotions, she has a little xingzi, but she doesn't want to annoy him, dislike him, suppress her heart that is obviously stinged by him, smile at him, say that she will not give up, say that she will find him, say that she must marry him, etc. However, there are times when she can't bear it.
It's human beings, and there are times when they can't bear it.
In the end, his heart was deeply stabbed, and his body became bruised because of him.
With a word of repentance and an oath, he wants to get her forgiveness and marry her, is it too easy?
Give him a chance, okay, she will give it, but it is still the same sentence - whether he can bear it in the end is his own business.
Raising his hand to wipe the tears from his face, Xiaonuo smiled, and smiled easily.
Ling Wushuang's eyes suddenly wondered, what happened to this little girl? She was still crying sadly just now, and she smiled like a flower in the blink of an eye, could it be that she had figured it out and wanted to give Nanfeng a chance to rebuild her old friendship?
"Mother, what I say to you, don't tell anyone, not even Daddy." As he spoke, Xiao Nuo tugged at Ling Wushuang's sleeve and brought her head closer, "Okay, you say, I will never tell your father after listening, tell the third person." Ling Wushuang lowered his head, leaned close to her lips, and said lovingly.
After a moment, Ling Wushuang's eyes widened, staring at her fixedly for a while, and said, "Are you sure you want to do this?" And if you do this, it won't be a harm to Yunyi! ”
Exiting Ling Wushuang's embrace, Xiao Nuo lay down on the pillow, his eyes were slightly confused, and he murmured, "Yunyi won't mind." If, if the south wind really disappoints me, I will give Yunyi an explanation. Ling Wushuang lay down next to her and said, "You kid, you are really willful enough. "Alas! Can she say she doesn't agree? Don't agree with the ridiculous thing that the little girl is about to do?
"Mother, Yunyi people are very good. He has a warm and jade side, but also a hearty and free side, with him, I really feel very happy, just like my brother together. Mother, I've grown up and know what I want! "Nanfeng, how would you react if you knew what I was going to do next? Will you stop me at all costs?
Will you?
Salty tears, drop by drop.
"Why are you crying again?" Hearing his daughter's faint sobs, Ling Wubian turned around, his eyes were worried, and he said with concern.
"Mother, I miss him, I really miss him! But the thought of him makes my heart ache. I'm so conflicted, really, I'm really conflicted, I want him and I blame him, maybe he will really be stung by my actions, but I just want him to hurt, I want him to taste my heartache! Mother, do you blame me? Do you blame me for being ignorant and fooling around? Xiao Nuo buried his head in Ling Wushuang's arms, his shoulders trembled, and he cried so sadly, "Good, my mother won't blame you, I don't think you are fooling around, if he can't even withstand this test, then it's a stranger to him!" "Her child is well-behaved, from childhood to adulthood, except for the infatuation with him like the bright moon, there is nothing else to ask her to be hearted.