"Ritsu, I don't think you're going to comfort me in saying that. How much I owe you, I know very well myself, where is it said to offset and offset? Don't always think about me, it's time for you to think about yourself. Lu Xiaoxiao smiled bitterly.

She felt that her statement was still a little inappropriate, but she really couldn't think of a better explanation, and in the face of Situ Lu, she felt that no matter how much she said, it was actually in vain. She is not eligible.

Because she couldn't meet his expectations, she knew that for a long time.

"This time it's for myself." Leaning down, Situ Lu looked at her, his brown eyes approached her and said, "This time, I told you these words for my own sake. Gratitude can't be exchanged for affection, it can only maintain our relationship, and no longer let you push me away. However, for me, after three years of waiting, it was time for me to work hard. ”

Lu Xiaoxiao bit her lower lip, she didn't know what to say in the face of Situ Lu's seriousness.

She wanted to tell him, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I still can't let go of that person, and I still want to go back to that person now. But she couldn't say such cruel words firmly.

She is undoubtedly weak and not good like this, but Lu Xiaoxiao feels that some buffers are better at the headquarters than directly speaking.

Situ Lu didn't seem to intend to hear any answer from her, he just looked at her and continued, "So, when I attack you, if you can't accept it, refuse me. Because once you say yes, I won't let go this time. ”

Lu Xiaoxiao lowered his head bitterly: "...... You should know the results, I never changed my original intention. Something that, now that you know the result, can't you not start? ”

She was afraid, afraid that she would finally be so close to him, and that it would end up in a fragmented way. She knew that she was a little selfish, but in the past three years, she had already treated him like her brother. She didn't want to dominate him, she wanted to follow Mu Shaotian's footsteps and drag Situ Lu, she just hoped that she wouldn't hurt him so straightforwardly.

Even though he had decided to take the hurt a long time ago, and she was the one holding the knife, she still felt palpitations.

Situ Lu shook his head, pressed her hair with his big hand, stroked it gently, and said very dotingly: "No, because someone let me know that love without a beginning is not the same as a failed love." The former bothered me and made me regret it for the rest of my life. The latter comforted me and reminded me of it occasionally in my life, and although I regretted it, I was relieved because I started to live it. ”

In the ward three years ago, Ye Shuo sat in the hospital bed next to him and muttered in a low voice: "Actually, some things, even if they end badly in the end, it is a kind of happiness to start living when they can begin." ”

He knew what Ye Shuo was talking about, he was talking about his love that had never started. Although they love each other and protect each other, they end without beginning.

Lu Xiaoxiao blinked, looking at those brown eyes, her heart had a slight pain, she thought she probably knew something. It was Ah Shuo's matter that made Situ Lu choose to stick to this matter.

She still thinks of Ah Shuo, Xiao Shan sent her a message some time after she left, that is where Ah Shuo's tomb is, she knows that Ah Shuo's parents have hatred for her in their hearts, so they refuse to tell her where Ah Shuo's tomb is, but Xiao Shan She is soft-hearted after all, she told herself.

Due to her physical weakness, she never went to the cemetery once, but she asked Situ Lu to bring mint grass for her, and helped her bring mint grass during the Qingming Festival every year.

She still misses him very much, but when she thinks of him, more and more times she feels happy, no longer always so sad, no longer always crying. She thought of him, remembered his company, remembered the youth they had walked together, and she was very happy to have him by her side.

Occasionally, she accidentally fell asleep in the yard, and in the scent of mint grass, she would go back to those summer seasons in a trance, and she saw Ah Shuo, who was still so youthful, waving at her and calling her "little".

The world is changing every day, and everyone's face will gradually grow old, including myself, but only you, only you, or the youthful face in my memory, will not fade for a lifetime.

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When I got home from work in the afternoon, the two little guys in the family pounced on me, and Lu Xiaoxiao's tiredness of the day disappeared like this.

When she was sleeping, the two little guys suddenly asked to sleep with her, but Lu Xiaoxiao didn't care too much, just when the two little guys were coquettish, so she let the two children sleep in the same bed with her.

"Mommy sleeps in the middle." Cheng Cheng said in a bunny pajamas.

Lu Xiaoxiao smiled: "Okay, Mommy sleeps in the middle, and then tells Shengsheng and Chengcheng stories, okay?" ”

Mo Sheng nodded happily: "Okay, okay." ”

Mo Sheng glared at her from the side, and raised his head to look at Lu Xiaoxiao: "Mommy, we don't listen to the story tonight, we want to talk to Mommy." ”

Mo Cheng was reminded by Mo Sheng's words that he was going to leave tomorrow, and they would be temporarily separated from Mommy after tonight, she wanted to cry for a moment, but then thought of Mo Sheng warning her not to cry, otherwise she would throw away her little bear, Mo Cheng suddenly threw herself into Lu Xiaoxiao's arms.

"Mommy, Chengcheng likes Mommy the most, and the world loves Mommy the most."

Lu Xiaoxiao was stunned for a moment, and said in her heart, what's wrong with this little girl? Hugging her, Lu Xiaoxiao smiled: "Mommy also loves Chengcheng the most, and she loves Chengcheng little princess the most." ”

On the other side, Mo Sheng also hugged him, and Mo Sheng, who has never been very fond of expressing feelings, even said: "Mommy, I love Mommy the most in the world." ”

Lu Xiaoxiao was stunned, took the two little guys into his arms, and looked down at them: "What's the matter, Shengsheng, Chengcheng, has anyone bullied you?" Tell Mommy. ”

Mo Sheng hurriedly said: "The teacher said that I want to thank Mommy, it was Mommy who brought us into this world, so Chengcheng and I are thanking Mommy." ”

Lu Xiaoxiao breathed a sigh of relief when he heard him say this.

Xindao startled her, her two babies were so good, who wanted to bully them, she would never agree.

Pulling the two little guys to lie down, Lu Xiaoxiao smiled happily: "Mommy just wants to thank you, you make Mommy feel very happy, very happy." ”

Mo Sheng blinked his eyes and said, "But Mommy is not the happiest, Mommy is not the happiest without Daddy by her side." Mommy, is it because we are here that Mommy can't go to Daddy? ”

Mo Cheng also asked on the side: "Yes, Mommy, doesn't Daddy like us?" ”

Lu Xiaoxiao hurriedly defended Mu Shaotian: "No, how could it be." Mommy doesn't see Daddy, it's Mommy's own problem. If it weren't for you, how could Daddy not like you? He doesn't know you, if Daddy knows about you, he doesn't know how happy he should be, he will definitely love you more than Mommy. ”

When he said this, Lu Xiaoxiao was a little weak-hearted. She had never seen any child Mu Shaotian touch, and she really doubted that he would like children.

But she couldn't let the two treasures plant a shadow before they met their daddy, so she could only lie for the time being.

In his heart, Lu Xiaoxiao also hoped that Mu Shaotian would like children, and hoped that he would like their children.

Mo Cheng was already a little sleepy, and his voice became quieter and quieter: "Mommy, is Daddy really handsome and gentle?" ”

"Yes, Daddy is the most handsome and gentle person Mommy has ever met, and he will definitely be very good to Chengcheng." Lu Xiaoxiao said that Mo Cheng had already slept, Lu Xiaoxiao choked on the quilt for her, turned his head to see that Mo Sheng was still asleep, and was looking at her, Lu Xiaoxiao leaned against his head and asked in a low voice: "My little prince, aren't you sleepy?" ”

Mo Sheng blinked her beautiful peach blossom eyes and tightened her hand: "Mommy, you will definitely be able to meet Daddy again." ”

Lu Xiao's heart moved, and suddenly his nose was sour, and he almost cried in front of his baby son in shame. She endured the tears rolling in her eyes and gently stroked his hair: "Well, it will, it will be." ”

I will definitely meet him again in a certain year, a certain month, and a certain day. Hasn't she thought that way all these years? I never dispelled such thoughts, and I never stopped.

"Mommy, good night."

"Good night, my darling."

In the end, Mo Sheng also fell asleep, and Lu Xiaoxiao dropped a goodnight kiss on each of the two children's foreheads, and she also slept peacefully, she had a dream.

In the dream, she returned to Mu Shaotian's villa, she was very familiar with it, she saw the kitten, it had grown up, and there were a few kittens at home, which were very cute. A golden retriever happily ran on the grass, Mu Shao led a kite and ran on the grass, Mo Cheng chased happily behind him, and the golden retriever smashed her and chased her. Over there, Mo Sheng made a simple water spray rocket, and suddenly rushed to the sky, and the few little milk cats around him were startled, Mo Sheng's lips hooked, and she looked very happy, and she, she was sitting on the chair next to her and drawing this scene.

It's so beautiful, how can this painting be so good-looking? She almost burst into tears, and her heart felt like it had been crumpled with paper.

The early morning sun made this beautiful picture all frozen in the dream, Lu Xiaoxiao woke up, blinked his eyes, the two little guys next to him slept a little upright, fortunately, the bed was big enough, enough for them to toss.

She thought of the huge waterbed in Mu Shaotian's villa, that bed, not to mention her and this little guy, even if Mu Shaotian was added, it would be enough for four people to toss. Thinking of this, Lu Xiaoxiao thought of a dream again.

The Gensokyo she made up in her dream was really beautiful.

"What a beautiful dream, hopefully...... Eventually, the dream can become a reality. ”

Taking a deep breath, Lu Xiaoxiao decided to work harder, work harder to finish everything in her hand, and she mustered up the courage to go to him.

Go to him and tell him: I've been missing you for so long, and I've been trying to get back to you.

Now that we've become the best of us, I shouldn't be afraid, should I? What could be harder than it was three years ago.