30. Don't look back
Little Beans is already babbling.
An older child, a small child, the two of them sat on the carpet and had a great time. Xiao Li was lying on the sofa, his hands on his head, watching with interest Xiao Zhu teasing Xiao Douzi, this warm picture, Xiao Li really wanted to draw it, this should be the fun of the weekend. Xiao Li's face was rippling with a smile, and the unhappiness that had been stuck in his heart for a long time could only calm down for a moment at this time.
"Call Daddy, Daddy—Daddy!" Xiao Zhu took Xiao Douzi's finger and taught him to chant, Xiao Douzi didn't hear what he called for a long time, but his saliva flowed. Judy playfully put him down and scratched the soles of his little feet, which made Little Bean laugh.
Xiao Li also smirked. The little beans in this house are his pistachios, his comfort, and the only reason why he comes home on time every day. Of course, there is also Xiao Zhu, this little girl is Bingxue smart, her hands and feet are nimble, and her heart is good, Xiao Li feels that this family is thanks to her, otherwise I really don't know what it will become, but it's a pity that the family is not good, and she came out to work before she finished high school, Xiao Li has always wanted to help her, but Xiaodouzi is too young to leave her, even if he Xiao Li himself feels that he can't leave her, thinking of this, Xiao Li couldn't help but sigh for her.
The sound of clattering high heels hitting the stairs grows from far to near, from low to high. Xiao Li is too familiar with this voice, once upon a time he was so eager for this voice, but I don't know when he started to disagree, and even more so than now listening to this voice but how he feels more and more tired and impatient, yes, impatient, this voice is like a small worm, clattering on Xiao Li's heart to pull out a series of heart-wrenching marks.
The door creaked open, and the man entered.
Only Little Bean's laughter continued.
"Hey, you dead girl, why do you let Xiaodouzi lie on the carpet like this, it's dirty!" Ling Ling quickly stepped forward and picked up the child and said, "It's dirty!" ”
Xiao Zhu argued: "I just washed this carpet two days ago, and I was afraid that Xiaodouzi would be cold. ”
"You're still quibbling, you shouldn't let him play on the ground!" Ling Ling shouted loudly: "Dead girl! ”
Ling Ling's drink didn't matter, it scared Xiaodouzi into crying, tossing up and down in Ling Ling's arms, just thinking about climbing towards Xiao Zhu.
Seeing this, Xiao Zhu wanted to reach out and take it, but she didn't dare.
Little Bean cried for the sake of death.
Ling Ling was impatient, so he stuffed something into Xiao Zhu's arms, saying that it was strange, as soon as the little guy transferred to Xiao Zhu's arms, he immediately stopped crying. This made Ling Ling even more angry, so he pointed at Xiao Zhu and said, "You have a big ability, you can help me raise it in the future, and see what good bird you can cultivate!" ”
Xiao Li listened to it angrily and funny, and said to Ling Ling: "What good things do you have to say, Xiaodouzi is not your son, so what kind of bird do you say he will be?" ”
"You still say, you came back so early and watched her take care of the child like this?" Ling Ling saw that Xiao Zhu went to the small room to serve Xiao Douzi, and did not answer her words, so he pointed the finger at Xiao Li.
"Children, don't take care of them too thoughtfully and exquisitely, do you see the two children who collect waste outside the community, the whole barefoot is running all over the world, I think the parents are very good and sturdy." Xiao Li said: "Besides, Xiaozhu is not very good at taking care of her!" ”
"You just protect her, or you'll go with her and pull her down!" After Ling Ling finished speaking, he ran to the room to remove his makeup.
Xiao Li looked at Ling Ling's appearance and was really getting stranger and stranger, that sense of disappointment was like poison slowly seeping into his heart along the blood, he felt that the oxygen in this room was getting thinner and thinner, breathing was becoming more and more depressed, and it was becoming more and more difficult, and a desire to escape rose from his heart. He shook his head lonely and gently led the door out. He needs quiet, he needs air, he needs comfort. Who said that a man doesn't need to be comforted, who said that a man will definitely be strong, no, Xiao Li needs catharsis, he needs to confide, he thought of Lin Yifan, he thought of Zhang Juchi, but even if he is with these two brothers, what can he do, it's nothing more than a drunken retreat, but what about the next day, the sun will still rise, the moon will still sink, and life still has to go on day after day year and year after year.
This street has been stretching forward, Xiao Li is willing to go all the way under this plane tree, and together with this person who is rushing to and fro for his life, he surged into the distance like a stream of water, never staying, no need to look back, no need to look back, if only it could be like this.