One hundred and five, don't learn from me
"Why are you here?"
Father didn't get up, just raised his head, and then buried himself in making his reed broom. But Lin Yifan still caught the surprise and relief that flashed in his eyes.
"You...... How are you doing? Lin Yifan asked hesitantly.
"What do you think?" The father smiled, and finally stopped what he was doing.
"I'm sorry, it's all because of me." Lin Yifan suddenly choked up.
"No, you're not wrong, it's me who is wrong." The father stood up, patted Lin Yifan on the shoulder and turned around and said, "Come in!" ”
This is the old house when Lin Yifan was born, the peeling wall ash can prove its age, and the photo of his mother is still hanging in that familiar place, but the mirror surface has been wiped clean, Lin Yifan's heart moved, and he sighed secretly, I knew today, why bother in the beginning.
"You haven't been here in months, give your mother a pillar of incense!" My father took out three sticks of incense and took out a lighter, but somehow, his hands trembled a little and he couldn't light them.
"I'll do it!" Lin Yifan said in a low voice, carefully took the incense, and bowed respectfully to his mother three times after lighting it.
The father didn't say anything more, but sat down silently on a bamboo chair under the wall.
"You...... Do you still live here? Lin Yifan was silent for a long time and asked.
"No, I still have to go to the city once in a while, and there are occasions when I have to go, and it's part of the agreement." My father smiled, a little relaxed and helpless, "I hope to live in this country for a long time!" ”
"Agreements? Auntie, she ......, "Lin Yifan didn't understand a little.
"Yes, I had a verbal agreement with your aunt five or six years ago, and I usually go wherever I want. Do whatever you want. But if she has any activities or personal contacts that need two people to come together. I was obligated to accompany her to the event. The father explained calmly.
"I'm sorry, it's all because of me." Lin Yifan repeated this sentence again, as if he had nothing more to say to his father besides such a sentence. Yes, he used to hate the silver-haired father in front of him, although Lin Yifan had gradually forgiven him in his heart, but he could no longer say those close words.
"I said, we don't want to say sorry to each other again. How much hatred between father and son cannot be resolved! The father shook his head, although his face was a little pale, but it could be seen that the arrival of his son today still made the old man more angry.
The corners of Lin Yifan's mouth rose slightly and smiled. yes, who is to blame for all this? If you want to blame it, it can only be blamed for making people, only blame the mother's blessing is too shallow and left too early; If you want to blame, you can only blame the ancestors for not being blessed enough, so that the children and grandchildren are too poor, and in this world, they should not be born poor.
"Don't dwell on the past." Father comforted. "By the way, you came here very suddenly today. Didn't make a phone call either, is there something wrong? ”
"I ......" Lin Yifan hesitated, wondering if Lu Dao came correctly today, and I didn't know if Lu Dao should tell the auspicious things completely. If it had been before, he would never have come back, but he had already forgiven his father, hadn't he?
"Swallowing and spitting, what's the matter, lack of money to spend?" The father stood up with a kind face and said, "Wait, I'll get you some more, the money from selling the reed broom last month has just been recovered." ”
"No need!" Lin Yifan hurriedly held down his father.
Lin Yifan suddenly wanted to cry, really. When he was in high school, he will never forget the scene of coming back again and again to get money, and his father at that time said almost the same thing, you wait, I just sold peanuts, I'll get them for you.
"Yes, yes, look at my memory, you're already going to work, but I forgot, I thought you were here to get tuition!" My father was a little embarrassed, but also a little proud.
"I'm here to tell you that I'm talking about a girlfriend!" Lin Yifan stood in front of his father and stared at his eyes seriously.
"Girlfriend? It's true? "My father was a little unresponsive, a little surprised, and a little surprised.
Lin Yifan nodded and said, "I want to bring it over to show you." ”
"yes, that's great, it's just, it's just ......" Father hesitated as he glanced at the old house.
"It's okay, she doesn't care about that." Lin Yifan understood what his father meant.
"Oh!" The father groaned, seemed to be lost in thought, and after a while asked, "Is the girl from Linjiang?" What are you doing? ”
"She is from Ningbo, but she grew up in Japan and just came back to open a horticultural engineering company in Linjiang." Lin Yifan.
"Oh? She's older than you? The father looked excited when the son introduced the auspicious eyes, but he had doubts.
"Hehe, why do you think that, she's three years younger than me!" Lin Yifan was a little surprised by his father's reaction.
"Looks like she's a rich man too!" The father let out a long sigh and said to his son with some worry, "Don't you learn from me!" ”
"No, Geely, she's not like that." Lin Yifan said with confidence.
"Oh, her name is Geely, that's for the best." My father was a little relieved, and after a moment of silence, my father muttered alone, "She wasn't like this at the beginning!" ”
"What did you say!" Lin Yifan didn't hear it very clearly, and asked.
"Nothing, I mean your aunt." Father smiled faintly, "When I first met her, I didn't expect her to become what she is now. ”
"What, do you regret it?" Lin Yifan said.
"If you say you regret it, you regret it, and if you say you don't regret it, you don't regret it." Father looked at Lin Yifan meaningfully.
"I don't understand, can you tell me about it?" Lin Yifan actually wanted to know more about his father.
"If I want to say regret, it is that I didn't fully care about your feelings when I married your aunt, and I really regret this." Father held Lin Yifan's left hand hard.
"It's all over." Lin Yifan didn't withdraw his hand, but just used his right hand to gently cover the back of his father's rough hand.
With tears in his father's eyes, he continued: "If you want to say that you don't regret it, it's to your aunt, although she was a little snobbish later, looked down on the poor, and had too many knots with you, but we fell in love with each other when we were young, and that time was still beautiful after all, so I don't need to regret it." ”
Lin Yifan nodded, it was the first time he had such a deep contact with the depths of his father's heart, it turned out that his father was also a lover, he only blamed himself for being too young at the time, and his resistance was too strong, and his father's so-called beauty was mixed with too much sand by him.
"So, I think ......" the father stopped talking.
"So what, you say!" Lin Yifan could vaguely guess what his father wanted to say.
"Anyway, she is your aunt after all, so ......" The father looked at Lin Yifan's face and never dared to say it.
"So you're going to let me take Gilly to her house?" Lin Yifan sank his face and said coldly. (To be continued......)