After I finished watching the news broadcast, Qingyu hadn't come back yet.

I just wanted to call Qingyu, and Qingyu came back.

When I saw that she was in a hurry, I asked her, "Where have you been?" ”

Qingyu smiled at me and said, "I went to the bookstore to read a book." ”

I teased, "You can buy any books you like." ”

Qingyu smiled quietly and said: "There is a learning atmosphere in the bookstore, so I looked at the bookstore, has Brother Hao Ren eaten?" Qingyu is going to cook for you. ”

I said, "I've eaten it, you can make something yourself." ”

Qingyu smiled and went to order a bowl of noodles for herself, and after eating, she continued to review her homework, while I went back to my room, turned on the computer, and took a look at QQ to see if there was any news. Now I basically don't go to QQ very much.,Because it's time-consuming to be on QQLang.,And the chat is still some of the things that don't.,It's better to read two more books when you have this time.,Even if it's the most rubbish novel.,It's better than chatting.,At least you can feel some of the author's view of the world.,Of course, chatting is also divided into objects.,If you're sure that the opposite side is a very productive character.,So you can get something by chatting.。

It's just that it's clear that people who really make a difference won't go to the Internet.

After I got on QQ, a lot of group messages popped up, all of which were alumni groups, all of which were talking about finding a job, and I just glanced at it and closed the window. I suddenly noticed that Ma Xiaodan's update of the space log dynamics, I subconsciously clicked on it, the name of the log is "The Road to Redemption: Rebirth"!

……

The contents of the log are as follows:

I remember someone once saying to me that he liked me.

When I heard that, I didn't know what I was thinking, but I was thinking, like? Do you really like it that much? If I let him know about that, will he still like me? Hehe.

I don't know when I was a freshman in high school, or the first time that man did something to me that should have gone to hell, I fell in love with practicing myself.

Under my own practice, I went to a three-college school. In school, I continued to practice myself, I became a gold worshipper, I don't know what this is for, but when I face that person's eyes, I always think, do you really like me that much?

Finally, I got the answer. He won't like me anymore, but I just look back, and it turns out that all this is my revenge on myself, not against him, or testing him.

I don't know what I'm doing, but when the man who was supposed to go to hell jerked in my body for three minutes and gave me the first wave of JING fluid in my life, I knew that I had become a bad woman. But when I learned that I was pregnant with my first child, I suddenly felt a sense of confusion.

How I wish I had a child, and I would be the mother of this child. But I knew that this child had to be killed, because I didn't like the child's father. I don't even remember who the father of the child is, I know what I did wrong, but I don't know what I should do, so I keep being wrong.

I got addicted to drugs in nightclubs, and I lost myself under the influence of drugs. When I finally showed up in prison, I looked back and realized that the man who was supposed to go to hell had only done me once, and I had done it for years and ruined my life.

He gave me life, but he also ruined my life with his own hands, and ruined my youth.

Ridiculous. Insult it. Huh.

I fell in love with the word redemption when I first heard it in prison. I hated and complained all my life, but I found that all the hatred and complaining were just practicing myself.

When the sun shone on my face, when sweat ran down my cheeks and fell on the earth, when the gears of fate rolled forward again.

I may have been reborn, or I may have been reborn.

……

After reading this journal, I felt a kind of confusion in my whole person. It can be seen that Ma Xiaodan vented all his grievances. But where did she get this resentment from? I suddenly realized that I thought I knew Ma Xiaodan, but I didn't know him at all. Is it me the one she said likes her?

I don't know, but I found that his QQ signature was changed to a sentence: In the future, I'll leave it for later.

A sentence that makes people feel a little lonely and helpless.

I didn't leave a comment under the log, because I didn't know what to leave behind.

I think maybe the last sentence of her journal is the point, she has been reborn and reborn.

Life is sometimes like this, everyone has his own suffering, these sufferings can only be silently used by a person in the middle of the night to Tian his own scars, can not tell anyone about this suffering, because he belongs to a secret that can never be said in a person's heart.

I suddenly wanted to find Ma Xiaodan, pull her back, and ask her if there was anything she couldn't say, and I would help her solve it. But I knew I couldn't do that, so I silently turned off the computer and lay on the bed trying to fall asleep.

I had a dream, I dreamed of Ma Xiaodan's ponytail and the thin Yang Yang. I was wearing a high school uniform in Ruyang, sitting in the classroom, I couldn't see the classmates around me clearly, I couldn't see anyone around me clearly, I only saw Ma Xiaodan clearly, and the ponytail behind her, the summer wind hit, her ponytail swayed with my heart.

How many days and nights have such dreams appeared in my life?

Time has passed, and to this day, I can only encounter such scenes in my dreams.

After dreaming of the worst, Ma Xiaodan said to me: "The head teacher is here, don't sleep." ”

Then I woke up, and I opened my eyes to look at Qingyu standing at the head of my bed. Qingyu opened the curtains, and the bright sunlight outside the window shone in, making me feel uncomfortable.

Qingyu said to me, "It's past nine o'clock when I get up." ”

I took a deep breath and said to myself, "Come on." ”

As always, I said these two words to Ma Xiaodan's back on the eve of the college entrance examination.

Maybe it's because of the dream, I felt groggy all day, and when I got home from work, I actually received a call from Xia Wanyu asking me to go to her house, and her voice was very small and broken on the phone. I took a deep breath, and then I got up my spirits and rushed to the golf villa in Yushan, where Xia Wanyu was.

I parked my car in the parking lot outside the villa, but I found two cars parked near my car, one of which I recognized, it was Ye Zhengtu's car, and I had sat in it. The other was a car with a clear model and no logo or brand on it, and I was very skeptical that it was someone else's own car.

I raised my head and looked at the Yushan Golf Villa at night, and suddenly realized that something big might happen tonight, remembering Xia Wanyu's hurried voice when she called just now, I hurriedly rushed into the villa, and as soon as I entered, I saw two men sitting in the hall of the villa.

It was Ye Zhengtu and Meng Long.