Fear produces gods, and gods make people fearful.

I scratched my head in pain, and I really felt the pain of the death of my loved ones, as if a string was broken in my head, and the whole person seemed to be stunned. The view of the world that has been maintained in my mind for more than 20 years has collapsed again and again in the heavy blow of reality. Piety, Civilization, God, Yahweh, Wisdom, Holy One. These things, like movie clips, appeared in my mind over and over again, as well as the phrase 'hallelujah' that resounded throughout the Middle East!

Liu Weiwei sat next to me, holding my head and letting me lie in her arms.

She said to me, "I don't blame you for that. ”

As soon as Liu Weiwei finished speaking, the door of the emergency room was pushed open, and the doctor took out a medical liability contract for us to sign. I know that the third child's life is dying, and the doctor wants to rescue him after the most deplorable. I rushed over and picked up the pen to sign my name on the contract, but when the pen touched the contract, there was only one ink spot, and I couldn't write my own name, so I looked up at the doctor and asked him in English, "Can he come back to life?" ”

"Perhaps." The doctor told me with a solemn face.

I squatted on the ground, and it was Vera Liu who finally signed it.

Liu Weiwei took my hand and held me in her arms. At this time, she was much calmer than me, and she said to me, "Hao Ren, can you still remember the days when we sold milk tea together on the street?" ”

I looked up at her and said seriously, "I don't need to remember now. ”

Liu Weiwei pulled me to the chair and asked me to sit down, she sat next to me and said: "Life is always full of so many helplessness, for a person, the happiest thing is death, and the most unfortunate thing is also death, life in the world, if you can really give up all pursuits, give up all beliefs, calmly face all natural and man-made disasters, calmly face all birth, old age, sickness and death, maybe that kind of life, will be happy from beginning to end." ”

I didn't speak, and Liu Weiwei continued: "But in that case, what is the difference between people, pigs, dogs and cats? Born in fear, died in fear. Fear is the instinctive reaction of human beings to the unknown, and it is precisely because of fear that civilization and faith are born...... It's just fear, right? ”

She looked into my eyes, and her eyes were as clear as water, hollow valleys.

"Maybe let's do it all over again, and you'll do the same, but this time, you'll do it much harder than this time. For example, killing Sabah with his own hands. Liu Weiwei's eyes showed ruthlessness.

I suddenly understood that she had been exercising herself for the past two years. They are all challenging fear, overcoming fear in the primeval land of Africa. Conquer yourself on the battlefield filled with gunpowder.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and when I opened them again, I wasn't reborn, but I calmed down. I said to Liu Weiwei: "Fate has played with us again and again, a few years ago, I never thought that one day I would be able to go to war with you, because at that time, you were weak. But now...... You conquered fear and the unknown. ”

Liu Weiwei didn't speak.

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The third child was shot countless times in the chest, and several bullets pierced his body. There were three bullets stuck in his body, two at the edge of the heart, and one on top of the heart. The doctors in Cairo first stopped the bleeding for the third child, then took out the two bullets next to the heart, and finally they fixed their eyes on the bullet above the heart. Because for them, it is a miracle that a person's heart can beat for more than ten hours after being shot.

A group of doctors looked at each other.

They eventually decided to give it a go, because if it went on like this, the patient would really die. Cold tweezers, quiet operating rooms, heavy breathing, dazzling incandescent lights. It constitutes a cruel picture, lying on the hospital bed is a man covered in blood, and now the life of this battlefield hero is in the hands of the doctor in a white coat.

When the tweezers touched the cannon bullet, the heart rate graph suddenly increased. Without the slightest hesitation, the doctor took only a second to remove the bullet. At this moment, the third child's body twitched, and the heart rate chart became a branch line.

Suddenly, all the doctors were stunned.

The patient eventually died, and the cardiac arrest speaks for itself. There are no people in the world who can survive without losing their heartbeat, there is no such thing as life, life is not a movie, let alone a science fiction movie. The doctors in the ward were all stunned, so quiet that they couldn't even hear the sound of breathing. The original miracle of life ended in their hands, blood, bullets, all gathered together.

Eventually, the knife-wielding doctor sighed, placed the bullet on the tray, and said to the doctor behind him, "Go and tell the patient's family." ”

The assistant was about to go out of the jab when suddenly, the electrocardiogram produced a pulsation.

Knock, knock, knock!

The sound of a powerful heart beating stimulates the doctor's eardrums.

The doctor yelled: "The patient still has signs of life, quickly use hemostats, stimulate the patient's heartbeat, ventilator, fast ......"

A fierce rescue began again, and the operating table was like a battlefield, and there could not be delayed for a minute. The only difference is that the battlefield is a place to kill, and the operating table is a place to save people. The moonlight shone on the hot land of Africa, and a full moon crept into the sky. One night passed in a blink of an eye. At dawn, the lights in the emergency room went out, and the doctors moved the third child to the intensive care unit next door to the emergency room.

The doctor told me that the third child's vital signs were still unstable. The heartbeat is intermittent, the situation is very strange, they dare not do anything to the patient, they need to wait and see. I came to the door of the intensive care unit, looked at the third child on the hospital bed, pondered for a long time, and went to the supermarket near the hospital and made a transatlantic phone call.

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During the day yesterday, Xiao Nan always felt flustered and looked bad. I wanted to go out and read a book, but the ghost sent me to the vegetable market, bought a pound of pork and returned home to do nothing. Sitting in front of the window, looking at the green people above the window, my heart is chaotic. In the evening, Xiao Nan took out the pork, put it on the board and cut it into shredded meat, and made a bowl of shredded pork noodles, but after eating two bites, he couldn't eat it anymore.

The girl lay on the table, looking at the hot noodles, and finally chose to put the noodles in the refrigerator.

The breeze blew the green plants on the windowsill, Xiao Nan came to his senses, raised his head to look at the green plants, silently turned off the light, returned to the room, lay on the bed, tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.

At three o'clock in the morning, the phone rang suddenly.

The moment Xiao Nan picked up the phone, she burst into tears.

It turned out that the uneasiness in my heart was all about my relatives outside the mountains and rivers. Tears interpret longing, but also prove love. Xiao Nan suddenly found that he couldn't do without this man for a long time, not a minute or a second.