Life is like a box of chocolates, you always know what the next piece will taste like.

When I was in the countryside, I didn't know how to go to a third-rate university in Shanghai. In order to get to school, I almost spent all my parents' life savings. When I was in college, I didn't know that Ma Xiaodan was not my true love, and Sun Xiaoqing was my life's waiting. After I established myself in Shanghai, I didn't know that I would one day become a prisoner, and I never thought that Sun Xiaoqing would leave me again and leave me with Ben Ben......

I don't know why she wants to leave, and I don't want to know about it. There was only one reason why she left, I wasn't strong enough, I couldn't be her back, I couldn't protect her.

I don't know how I got back to my cell, and I don't know how I spent the next week. All I remember is that I stayed like a piece of wood in this world. Sun Xiaoqing's hair was in my pocket, like a treasure. I wander back and forth in prison every day, like a ghost? It's more like a zombie, and it should be a lonely soul to be accurate.

I was like an abandoned soul, with no support, no soul, only wandering in the world.

Wang Yingli's words rang in my ears over and over again, I stayed up all night, and I didn't eat every day. I sat in my cell, and I couldn't hear anyone coming, no matter who was talking. Sun Xiaoqing is my heart, I can't live without her, I'm uncomfortable, my chest is tight, I'm not even as good as a dog. At night I lay on the ground, laughing and laughing, nameless laughter. During the day, when I stood in the courtyard of the detention center, looking at the clear blue sky, I would sometimes say, "There are so many stars." ”

I was hungry, but I didn't eat a bite of the sweet and delicious food.

I'm not running away, and I'm not going to run away. I'm just looking forward to it, looking forward to the moment of awakening. Wang Yingli came to see me twice later, but I didn't see her, so the director brought her in and stood at a distance, watching my behavior from afar. Wang Yingli's eyes were full of tears, and she secretly wiped them away when the director was not paying attention. Sun Xiaoqing is my soul, and I won't think about it without her.

In summer, Shanghai has become a paradise for heavy rain.

It was a rainy night, and I got up late at night. They didn't dare to handcuff me in anklets, they were afraid that I would kill myself. In fact, I have been doing self-harm a lot for the past two days. Late at night, I got out of bed, I rushed to my roommate's bed, grabbed his neck, clicked, and died at my hands. I rushed to the other person's bed, grabbed him by the neck, and with another click, broke the other's neck.

My roommates woke up and they beat me up.

I'm no longer the boss in this barn, I'm a devil, and they're slamming their fists on my head for their own lives, punch after punch. The prison guards woke up and sounded the emergency alarm, and a dozen policemen rushed to the front of our prison barn, opened the cabin door, and carried me out and took me outside. A bolt of lightning descended on the earth, illuminating the night as if it were day.

They dragged me around the compound, and I knew they were going to send me to a special number, which was full of sponges, and I wouldn't die in it. And when it came to meals, they would give me a shot of nutrients, so I didn't have to eat. They want me to live, because they will be punished if I die. The rain fell on me, and I suddenly broke free from their restraints and ran into the rain, laughing like a madman.

Once again, lightning struck a tree in the courtyard, startling everyone. But I raised my middle finger towards God, and I scolded him angrily: "God, Lao Tzu is your ancestor, I will grass your mother, God, Lao Tzu is your godfather." ”

My filthy scolding resounded throughout the detention center, all the guards stood there watching me, and all the prisoners listened to me with their ears sideways. I scolded, then I cried, and at last I laughed again. I cried and laughed and went crazy. I began to chant poems, looked up to the sky and went out with a smile, how can I be a Penghao person. I began to sing, the wolf smoke rose, the north looked at the dragon flag, the horse was long, the sword was like frost, the heart was like the Yellow River, the water was boundless, who could resist each other, hatred, madness, long knife, how many siblings, loyal souls, other places, what a pity to die to repay the family and the country......

Finally, I rushed to the trunk of a nearby tree and used all my might......

As soon as my head hurt, my eyes went dark, and I fainted in the rain.

I was suicidal because I had just had a craniotomy a month ago. Now doing this, the new injury and the old disease recur together, and he is on the verge of death immediately, trembling all over. The prison guards put me in the car that escorted the prisoners to the detention center and took me to the Shanghai No. 1 Armed Police Hospital. The director from last time gave me the knife and cut my skull open again.

This time, the director saw darkness......

The darkness that stretched as far as the eye could see almost obscured all of my eyes.

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After 10 hours of surgery, I was wheeled out of the operating room. I'm not in a stable situation right now, but I was just pushed out when a group of people planted a chip on my arm. This is a GPS satellite positioning chip, planted under the skin, unless the meat is removed, otherwise it can never be removed.

Three days later, I woke up.

The director said I needed to stay in the hospital for two days before I could go back to the detention center. There are also doctors in the detention center, so I can let the doctors in the detention center continue to treat me when the time comes. I lay on the hospital bed, and instead of going crazy, I looked out the window with a smile on my face, and that little smile was very charming.

On the night I committed suicide, Wang Yingli learned about my situation. At that time, Wang Yingli was about to come to the hospital to see me, and she made trouble in the hospital corridor for a long time, and the police did not let her see me. After the last moment, Shen Guoqiang spoke, and he waited for my situation to stabilize before letting her see her. Wang Yingli had no choice but to go back, and now that the situation has stabilized, Wang Yingli rushed to the hospital. Wang Yingli sat next to my hospital bed, and there were only the two of us in the room. However, I know that there is a voice recorder next to the road, and there is a camera in the ward.

Wang Yingli looked at me lying on the hospital bed like a fool, grabbed my hand, and tears couldn't stop flowing out of her eyes.

The queen, who never cried before, cried these days like a resentful woman who learned that her husband was about to go to the execution ground. Wang Yingli took my hand, rubbed it carefully, and my hand with the hanging needle also rubbed her slender jade hand, grinning and smirking and saying something I had said before: "Sister, your hands are so beautiful." ”

Wang Yingli's tears could no longer be stopped.

I tried to reach out and wipe his tears, but I couldn't reach them. So she leaned on my hand and asked me to wipe away her tears. I touched her red lips and said, "Sister, don't cry, your face won't look good." ”

I don't know why, Wang Yingli suddenly rushed over, kissed me on the lips, and stretched my tongue into my mouth, I kissed her tender tongue, swallowed the sweet liquid in her mouth, and felt very good. The sweetest thing in this world must be the lips of a beautiful woman.