When I was in school, there was a girl in my class who had a pencil sharpener and carved her boyfriend's name on her arm. Later, when she broke up with her boyfriend, she picked up a knife again and cut off all the flesh on that arm, which was bloody and very scary. At that time, I didn't understand this girl's behavior, and thought it was stupid and out-and-out.

Now when Sun Youbo's fist smashed into my face, when his foot kicked on my body, I realized that sometimes, physical pain can temporarily paralyze mental pain. The most painful thing in the world is not the moment of death, but the separation on the long road of life, leaving. I believe that Sun Youbo must have gone to find Sun Xiaoqing, but unfortunately he, like me, did not find it.

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My parents and Wang Yingli took me to a nearby clinic and bandaged my wounds. It seems that Sun Youbo beat me bloody, but in fact, these knowledge skin injuries are just a casual treatment, get two band-aids on them, and I propose to go to the hotel for dinner. My parents sighed and reluctantly got into the car and followed me to the hotel. At the hotel, I symbolically went to take a shower and then had a good meal with my parents.

Wang Yingli is a clever person, and she arranged for me and my parents to stay at Zhang Ling's villa in Sheshan in the evening. He didn't let me go back to my former home in the community, as if I was afraid that I would see things and think about people. I accepted her offer, and I didn't actually want to go back to that house myself. Being released from prison is just a symbol, and the horror is what I will do after I get out of prison. I'm not one of those RTL prisoners who lived in prison for more than ten years and was out of touch with society, but I'm not like them.

In the midst of this change, I lost almost everything, including my wife and children. I'm about to be thirty years old, and a man is thirty. But I lost everything on the eve of my thirtieth birthday. I originally had a very good future that everyone would be envious of. But in this revolution, I am back to the beginning. It doesn't matter if it's the reincarnation of fate, or the calamity that should be in my life, but I'm really tired and tired.

He was given a suspended death sentence in the first instance and acquitted in the second instance.

This is the world of this world. In China, there is always a height, and there is always a circle that cannot be climbed into for a lifetime. No matter how hard you work, no matter how hard you work, an ordinary person and a phoenix man will always stop outside this circle. Throughout his life, there is only one way to enter this circle, and that is to marry a daughter or a wife. There are no nobles in China, but there are red tribes.

The old fox let me step into that circle, but when the old fox died, as soon as Shen Guoqiang took office, he took away all the things I was proud of.

I sat on the sofa in Sheshan Villa, which used to smell of Xia Wanyu, but now it seems a little deserted. My parents had gone to the bedroom to rest, and I found a box of cigarettes, took out one and tried to light it, but I couldn't find a lighter.

At this time, a plain hand reached out and a flame appeared in front of me. I turned my head to see that Zhang Ling was smiling at me. Zhang Ling said, "I'll give you some." ”

I put the cigarette in my mouth, lit it over the flame, took a puff, and spat out a smoke ring. Zhang Ling put away the lighter, sat next to me, and said to me, "Hao Ren, in fact, you are quite handsome at smoking. ”

I turned my head and looked at her in surprise: "Didn't you hate smoking boys before?" ”

"That was before." Zhang Ling smiled like a flower arrangement.

I didn't speak, Zhang Ling put the lighter on the table, and I smoked one cigarette after another. After smoking a cigarette, Zhang Ling lowered her head and tugged at the corner of her clothes and said, "I know that you are uncomfortable, but what can you do if you are uncomfortable?" Everyone's thoughts, everyone's actions, have their own reasons, and being hurt by others is actually being hurt by themselves. Fate is actually something that no one in the world can understand, all people are talking about ideals, talking about the future, and singing about fate and the times, but I want to say. People, or do what you want to do, just be happy, vulgar, elegant, happy, happy, drinking coffee and nibbling garlic life is actually a lot of fun. ”

I finished smoking a cigarette, and Zhang Ling's words were finished. I turned my head to look at her and said, "Then how do you say you should forget about others?" ”

Zhang Ling shook her head and said: "It seems that you still don't understand my words, in fact, you don't need to forget anyone in the world, she appeared in your life, bringing you joy and laughter and sadness and grievances, this is all doomed fate, the person you want to forget, you can't remember it at all, the person you don't want to forget, even if you pretend to be nothing, you still can't forget." Disturb one after another, these things in the world, just follow fate. ”

I reached out and touched her head and said, "It seems that the church has taught you a lot of things." ”

Zhang Ling shook her head and said, "These are not taught by Western churches, these are what I read from Buddhist scriptures." In the Diamond Sutra, Subo asks Shakyamuni how to surrender his mind if he wants to become a Buddha. In fact, our Chinese Buddhism and Taoism are very good, and I have been reading books on this area recently. ”

I didn't speak, and I don't know what I'm worried about right now. finally escaped punishment, but in the end he was still so unhappy. Because of Sun Xiaoqing, but also because of myself. Sun Xiaoqing's departure made me lose my direction, and the setbacks in my career made me lost. In the days after I was released from prison, I spent my time in the midst of various visits.

Most of these people are my friends, including several of my brothers, as well as Ma Xiaodan, Qingyu and Jiang Xiao.

After they all visited, my life was quiet. This time, because of my affairs, I have affected too many people, and I don't know what to do. But Jiang Xiao's business in Ningbo can't go on, and he is not ready to go back. Qingyu is ready to start a business, but she doesn't dare to start a career in Shanghai, Shanghai is no longer that Shanghai, this city with hidden dragons and crouching tigers, I can't control it.

My parents wanted me to go back to my hometown with them and let me start a business in my hometown, and my mother wanted to continue my education. My mother likes Sun Xiaoqing, but she wants my family's incense to be passed on. Although I already have Ben Ben, but now Ben Ben is nowhere to be found, and she is afraid. My mother likes Yang Yang the most, and she discusses with Yang Yang's mother all day about marrying Yang Yang to me.

But apparently there is no possibility that this kind of thing will even reach my ears.

One day, Zhang Ling brought me many scriptures, including the Bible, the Tao Te Ching, and the Buddhist Sutra.

Many, many, I picked up a random copy and saw a sentence.

This sentence made me fall in love with religion, and since then I have become a devout believer, I believe in Buddhism, Taoism, I believe in God, and even Islam.

This sentence is: "There are many talented and virtuous women, but you are the only one who surpasses everything." ”

From the Old Testament. Poetic Wisdom Book. Proverbs 31–29