I stood on the mountainside of Xiangshan, looking at the sun-shining city of Beijing, and the past ten years in my heart were reminded one by one. I thought of the gray hair of the old director, the hearty voice of the young deputy director, and I thought of every guard, every doctor, every doctor, every staff member of the institute. When I deceived them, when I fought in all sorts of shameful ways, when I completely exposed my ignorance, incompetence, and stupidity, when I felt so desperate at myself that I couldn't live, they, these *** people, always firmly believed that I could be reformed, and patiently helped me to be a new person.

"People"

This was the first word I knew in the Enlightenment Reading, the Three Character Classic, but I never understood it in the first half of my life. With *** people and the policy of reforming criminals, I only understood the meaning of this solemn word today, and I became a real person.

- Aixin Jueluo. Pu Yi's "The First Half of My Life" is the last paragraph.

When I was in school, I loved to read, and I dabbled in literary and historical classics and historical allusions. When I watched Pu Yi's "The First Half of My Life", I had just entered college and finished reading it on the train to Shanghai. It takes seventeen hours to travel from Luoyang to Shanghai by train. At that time, my family had borrowed a lot of money to support my college education. I was sitting on a hard seat, a seventeen-hour drive. I finished reading "The First Half of My Life", and at that time I only had a pale feeling.

And now, when I'm locked up in the dark.

I don't know the time, I don't know the years. When I was still alive, I suddenly missed Pu Yi's reflective memoir, "The First Half of My Life," which Pu Yi wrote in 1957 while in a detention center for war criminals. At that time, World War II had ended, and Pu Yi spent a long time in a prison for war criminals. The last emperor, who ascended the throne at the age of three and left his strongest mark in the history of the Qing Dynasty, seems to believe in one ism.

I was sitting in a dark space, and my mind was in turmoil. It seems like for a long, long time when they stopped asking me for things, and they didn't bring me food on time. Sometimes it can be delivered twice in a short time, and sometimes it won't come once in a long time. The darkness made me not know what to do, or even what kind of food I was eating in my mouth, I could only rely on my sense of hearing and smell to make out it. I tried to get out of my own way, but I had no idea where I was.

It!

I don't know the border.

I don't know where to go.

I only know that I am here.

Maybe it's a punishment, maybe it's a sin. But my psyche was on the verge of collapse. Originally, seeing Mu Mu once could make me feel at ease and make me realize. But after Mu Mu left, the thought that I don't know how long it would take to leave made me want to commit suicide. But I found that there were no walls around it. I didn't dare to sleep, I was afraid to sleep. I was afraid that I would not wake up, but when I woke up, it was a terrible nightmare.

But sometimes I was tired and fell to the ground, regardless of my age.

I just want to sleep with my head bored.

I know that this is a common method of interrogating war criminals.

The principle is to take advantage of people's fears, when a person is in a space surrounded by darkness, and does not know the time of the road, and does not know the years of the road. Only when the silence is terrifying, the consciousness of the person will be blurred, and it will frighten itself. This effect is similar to hypnosis. But it is very different from hypnosis, which is artificial, and horror, which is generated in the mind.

Before Mu Mu is in the future, I will think about Sun Xiaoqing and them.

After Mu Mu came, my mind was full of messy things, and this kind of thing annoyed me a lot. And none of those people bothered me, and I fell into a kind of sorrow and fear. This feeling is as if something is missing, alone in the dark, unable to talk to others, unable to talk to others, only darkness and loneliness. Slowly, I began to fear sleep, and I began to fear everything that I didn't know. I even started talking to myself, I don't know how long it took, but I remember, I ate three times. I was exhausted after not sleeping for a long time, I lay on the ground, feeling the cold floor, my heart was cold, helpless, helpless, and painful.

I began to give up and then fell into a deep sleep.

……

When I woke up, I found myself lying on a grassland as far as the eye could see. The sun is dazzling, and the expression is lazy, as if waking up from a nap in the afternoon. The breeze is warm, the grass is clear, and the sky is blue. A white gardenia floated down from the sky and landed on my sinuses, with fresh petals and fragrant stamens. The green grass and blue sky of the grassland, the unobstructed view of the sky, the faint sound of the wind in the ears, everything is like a dream, unreal.

Unreal let me know that this was a dream.

I closed my eyes, fantasizing, understanding, and reveling.

I felt that there was something more than enough in front of me, and the sunlight that had been warm to my eyes seemed to be hindered by something. When I opened my eyes, I was greeted by a long black and thick hair, and the woman's long hair smelled of orchids. The woman was lying on top of me, her long hair hanging down her sideburns, and my pupils focused again, seeing the true face of the woman.

It's her!

It's her!

It's really her.

Sun Xiaoqing.

Sun Xiaoqing, who has left me for many years.

She lay on top of me, and I felt the scent of her sideburns. She didn't speak, she rolled over and lay down beside me, her hand on mine. The sky was blue like a mirror, reflecting the two of us. I closed my eyes, the breeze was blowing, and everything was like what I had experienced yesterday. I asked her, "Why are you leaving?" ”

She sighed like an orchid and said slightly: "I have never walked before." ”

I slowly opened my eyes, tears welling up in the corners of my eyes.

The sunlight is very dazzling, and the breeze on the grassland is intoxicating. I was silent, silent. After a long time, I turned around and took her in my arms, and I said to her, "Never left." ”

She hugged me, whispered, and said to me, "It's always been in your heart." ”

I let go of her and looked at her face.

A breeze blew, and the green silk on her head slowly fluttered, like green grass on the grassland, like a dream. The wind was blowing, and the three thousand green silks on her head turned into green grass on the grassland, leaving her scalp and falling to any corner of the world. Standing in front of me was a bald Sun Xiaoqing, she was still beautiful, but she had lost the three thousand green silks with the smell of orchids.

The sun was dazzling, and I unconsciously felt some tears in my eyes.

She said to me, "This is who I am." ”

I didn't speak, I just nodded.

Sun Xiaoqing's originally full body and appearance slowly began to become a little sickly, the originally ruddy lips became pale and weak, the originally godly eyes began to become a little painful, and the originally plump body began to become a little thin. She said to me again, "This is who I am." ”

I nodded again.

Sun Xiaoqing put it next to my ear, hugged me and said to me, "This is the truest self." ”

I opened my eyes and saw a tombstone standing on the grass. The tombstone was engraved on it, 'The Tomb of Hao Ren's Wife', and I rushed up frantically, lying in front of the tombstone, and found that there was a small tomb behind it. I shouted for Sun Xiaoqing, but I couldn't hear Sun Xiaoqing's voice. I was shocked, I was shocked to look at everything around me, I felt the world spinning. The sun in the sky was as hot as a blazing fire, and I couldn't breathe.

……

I sat up suddenly, and found myself still in the dark.

I was covered in cold sweat and had a plate at hand. Above is the leftover food I just ate, and the food still has a temperature. I was in disbelief, I sat there, thinking about everything and feeling the temperature on my plate. I only seemed to sleep for a few minutes, and everything in the dream made me a little manic. At that moment, the door opened. A bright light appeared in the distance, and they took me out of the hall and made me sit on a chair, facing the blinding incandescent light. The lights were so bright that I felt very dazzling and hot. A cold voice came from the other side, and the voice asked me, "What did you do wrong, tell me the truth?" ”

I froze in place, my mind still not relieving.

Everything has turned into Sun Xiaoqing's tombstone.

I thought about the inscription on the tombstone, the sentence of Hao Ren's wife's tomb, and thinking about all this, I stood up at once. I walked towards the incandescent lamp, and several people in black suits and black ultra sunglasses rushed up around me, trying to stop me, and I knocked me over with two punches, I walked over and turned the incandescent light at the person who interrogated me, only to find that there was only one microphone there. I angrily destroyed the microphone, took the incandescent light and looked around, and walked towards the door.

When I got to the door, I saw the courtyard I had seen that day.

and a perimeter fence of more than eight meters, and a grid of more than four meters of the fence. There were a few prison guards rushing around, they had guns in their hands, I rushed up and snatched the guns from their hands, shot him with a backhand, and then killed another prison guard, I had two guns in my hands, and there were hundreds of prison guards in front of me. I'm like a character who opened G in CS and CF games, seeing God and killing God, seeing Buddha and punishing Buddha.

The prison guard fell to the ground, I rushed to the prison gate with a pistol, rushed into the security booth at the door, rushed in and shot the security guard, found the electric switch of the gate, I opened the prison gate, I took two guns, and rushed out. When I looked back, the original picture of a river of blood was gone, replaced by an entire prison crumbling into ruins, as if in a Hollywood blockbuster, the hero destroyed the evil lair and returned in a hurry.

But I always feel that all this is so unreal-

PS: I can finally repay the update I owe to everyone, and this one is even more compensated. It is also to repay the ghost sorrows, Gu Ran, Little Potato, and the love in the crotch of the pants that gave the ticket today. There should be a continuous supplement in the next few days.,Make up for this one.,Twenty-five chapters were originally owed.,Now there are twenty-four chapters left.。 Character is to rely on a little bit of their own efforts, steamed bread is no longer nonsense, but if you make up for the steamed bread, calculate how much is left behind, I hope everyone can supervise.