The doctors in the emergency room are gone, and only me and her are left in the huge space. She lay on the bed, her face pale, but still smiling. She looked at me and said in a gentle voice, "You're here." ”

In just one sentence, I couldn't cry. I walked slowly in front of her and looked at Sun Xiaoqing lying on the hospital bed with a smile on her face. I cried and said, "Why are you so stupid, so stupid." Do you know how distressed I am now? Do you know the truth? I cried and roared at her. I just stood there like a child, complaining.

After I finished complaining, Sun Xiaoqing said to me softly, "I understand." ”

I lay in front of her, looking at her pale cheeks, I stopped crying, I firmly said to her, "You will not die, you will not." Xiaoqing, if you leave, what will Ben Ben do? What should I do, I'm going to take you away, take you back to China, have you forgotten that we said that the forty-year-old of Hao Lu traveled around the world? Have you forgotten? Australia's Great Barrier Reef, Cape of Good Hope, India's Golden Temple, Sydney Opera House, Harbour Bridge, Empire State Building, Statue of Liberty, Brooklyn Suspension Bridge, Canadian Rockies, Mexican Mayan Monuments, Peruvian Inca Ruins, Niagara Falls, Yellowstone, Grand Canyon, Victoria Falls, and mysteriously wild Africa. Have you forgotten what you told me we had to go to once? Xiaoqing, have you forgotten? ”

Sun Xiaoqing coughed lightly twice, and I reacted and looked at her in fear.

She smiled and said to me, "I won't forget this." That's why I want you to travel all these places and all the worlds for me after I pass away, and fulfill my dream. After the last day, you climbed to the top of Mount Everest and threw me what you saw and heard along the way. In this way, I will be able to protect you in heaven. ”

"No, don't! I want you to go with me and walk through the world together. I hugged Sun Xiaoqing and wept bitterly.

"Fool! I've always been with you, I'm here with you. "Sun Xiaoqing caressed my heart, her hands were cold, and I felt a sense of life passing.

I cried bitterly.

Sun Xiaoqing said to me slowly: "I'm leaving, don't be sad, don't be too sad." Ben Ben, you don't have to worry about him, he's old enough. Just do what you love and don't try that hard. Get enough sleep every day and don't eat too much or too little. Take care of your own body, the body is the capital of the revolution. Some people say that a wife is a husband's garment, and after I am gone, you should dress yourself and don't let yourself feel cold. When you get used to the days when I am not there, I can leave with peace of mind. Promise me to live well. All right? ”

I choked silently, and the pain in my heart made me feel a sense of suffocation.

Fate, death, heaven, reincarnation. These things, which are usually far away from me, are now in front of me. I hugged Sun Xiaoqing and stroked her hair that had thinned from chemotherapy. With tears in her eyes, she threw herself into my arms, hugged me and said, "It's so warm, I really want to sleep here for the rest of my life." ”

I couldn't cry, and the whole person almost stupidly said to Sun Xiaoqing: "You go with me, we will be fine." ”

"Hao Ren." Sun Xiaoqing called me.

I let go of her and looked at her.

She said to me, "You're not a child anymore, you can't be so childish anymore." The reason why people are human beings lies in the Buddha heart that always exists in your heart, for your own sake, don't kill people anymore, don't do evil anymore. ”

I froze in place, my mind recalling what I'd been through all these years. Thinking back to the person I killed with both hands, I suddenly realized that it was precisely because of my sins that God punished Sun Xiaoqing. I silently closed my eyes, put my hands on my chest, and looked at Sun Xiaoqing's Diamond Sutra, the first product of the Diamond Sutra, "The Cause of the Dharma": "If I heard it, at one time, the Buddha was in the Lonely Garden of the Tree of the Guardian Country, and there were 1,250 people with the great bhikkhus. At that time, when the world-honored one was eating, he wore clothes and held a bowl, and went into the city to beg for food. In the city, he begged and returned to this place. After eating, the mantle is collected, the feet are washed, and the seat is sitting. ”

Sun Xiaoqing put his hand on my chest and said to me, "The Buddha is here, and I am here, you don't have to recite these ancient texts." ”

I cried silently and hugged Sun Xiaoqing in my arms again.

Sun Xiaoqing said to me, "Let me sleep for a while, okay?" ”

I was horrified and said, "No, no! Xiaoqing, you can't sleep. I still have a lot to say to you, I have a lot more to ask you, you can't sleep, Xiaoqing. ”

I let go of her, only to see her look at me with a clever smile and say coquettishly, "Okay! I don't sleep, you tell me, you ask me. ”

I looked at her and wept again.

Sun Xiaoqing looked at me with tears streaming down her face, and said faintly, "Can you not cry?" ”

As soon as I tightened my mouth, I wanted not to cry, but looking at Sun Xiaoqing's weak appearance, I couldn't hold back crying anymore. I said to her, "No, I'm not a man, I can't stop crying when my wife is leaving." ”

Sun Xiaoqing said to me intimately: "You are a man. ”

She slowly closed her eyes and said to me silently, "You will always be ...... My man... Person! ”

The last sound came out, Sun Xiaoqing closed his eyes, and his whole body sank downward, and there was no sound anymore. After reacting, I picked her up at once and shouted: "Xiaoqing, Xiaoqing, Xiaoqing!" ”

I was met with a long silence.

and my heart-wrenching cry, I felt a pain in my heart, as if there were thousands of needles there to prick me. I hugged Sun Xiaoqing, crying and shouting. But she just couldn't wake up, and I asked myself, all this is a dream, it must be a dream, it's not real. However, when I looked down at Sun Xiaoqing, she just closed her eyes as if she was asleep. I was lying on the bed, Ben Ben and Dr. Monica came in from outside, and saw Sun Xiaoqing lying on the bed with her eyes closed, and they both looked at each other. Ben Ben rushed up, and Dr. Monica froze in place.

Ben Ben wanted to kick me away, but he was a kid after all.

He rushed up angrily, punched and kicked me, gnawed and bitten, and scolded me angrily: "Get out, you're not my father, not my mother's husband, get out, get out!" ”

I looked back at her with a little scarlet in my eyes.

I hate him for not telling me earlier, and he hates me for not being able to keep my mother.

But Sun Xiaoqing's gradually cold body told us two that she had left us.

Sun Xiaoqing...... It's true... Passed away!

……

On Wednesday afternoon, I buried Sun Xiaoqing under a tree in a mountain in Sicily. I don't remember the burial, but I do remember sitting in front of her tombstone for a long time. It wasn't until the sky flickered and darkened twice that a woman in a long black dress appeared in front of me.

Xia Wanyu...... Here it comes!

She sat down beside me, took a bottle of water out of her bag, fed me two sips, and said to me, "I am sad that she has died, and I regret not telling you that I knew he was in Sicily." ”

I turned my head to look at her, looking at Xia Wanyu.

Xia Wanyu said to me: "I gave up everything, I came here, I don't want to leave here, I want to guard her here for the rest of my life, are you willing to come with me?" Even though I'm not her, I can stay with you for the rest of your life. ”

I hugged Xia Wanyu, and the tears that had long since dried up welled up again.

Xia Wanyu said to me: "People can't be resurrected after death, I only hope that she can enjoy her life in heaven." ”

……

We returned to Sun Xiaoqing's restaurant, and we came to Sun Xiaoqing's home by the sea. After discussing with Xia Wanyu, we will continue to open Sun Xiaoqing's restaurant. We prepared for a while, and then used what Sun Xiaoqing left behind to continue selling dumplings. On the day the dumpling restaurant reopened, Ben Ben dragged his suitcase and left Sicily. Before leaving, he told Dr. Monica that he was going to make a career out of me, bastard.

Life is drama, Ben Ben is gone, I am here.

The Sicilian monsoon blows in my face. The lemon flavor makes me feel sweet and sour. Everything that was once remembered, now only familiar dumplings remain. No matter what Xia Wanyu and I do, the dumplings are not as delicious as those made by Sun Xiaoqing. Business in restaurants is bleak, but we don't want to make a profit. Just ask for peace of mind, on Wednesday, the two of us will go to Sun Xiaoqing's tombstone together, talk to her, and chat with her.

Everything is like in a dream, which makes people feel sad and helpless.

Sometimes, I would get up at night, put on my big pants and sit by the beach. Xia Wanyu, who woke up, found that I was not by her side, so she put on her clothes and came to my side and accompanied me to meditate on the beach. Looking at the sea and listening to the tide, I don't know when the day of the road is the end. There is sadness in the plainness, but there is helplessness in the sadness. Perhaps, the ultimate meaning of life is the land and the tombstone when the last one was put into the ground.

However, every time I go to see Sun Xiaoqing, I always feel heartache.

She's obviously dead.

……

One day, in the morning.

Outside the door of the dumpling restaurant.

A man in a Navy SEAL hat was squatting there, and when Xia Wanyu and I came over, he stood up, and the centipede scar on his face looked very hideous. I exclaimed, "Sun Youbo." ”

Sun Youbo walked up and kicked me in the chest, kicking me five meters away. He rushed up angrily, Xia Wanyu wanted to drag him, and he was thrown to the ground with one arm at once. He walked up to me, kicked me on the head, pulled me up, and used all means to make me feel both physical and mental pain. At the end, I curled up on the ground. There was blood all over his body, Sun Youbo looked at me panting and said, "I want you to know that you will always be sorry for my sister." ”

I staggered to my feet and sat down on the ground.

Put your hands together in front of your chest and close your eyes.

"Hand down." Sun Youbo saw that I made a gesture of worshiping the Buddha with his hands folded, and shouted angrily.

I just closed my eyes and said slowly: "If I smell ......"

Sun Youbo said again: "Put your hand down." ”

I don't put it down.

He rushed over and punched at me.

But my hands are always on my chest, meditating on the Diamond Sutra.

There, Sun Xiaoqing is hidden.