There are two people who went back to their hometown with Yang Yang, Ma Xiaodan and I. Xia Wanyu, Zhang Ling and others all stayed in Shanghai, not because they didn't want to come. It's that Yang Yang didn't let them come, after all, this is a white event, not a happy event. Too many people don't make much difference, and since Yang Yang went to college, he has cut off contact with the village. Now when I go back to do white things, it can't be too grand, just give my mother a home.

We set off at 8 o'clock in the evening on the first day of the new year, but we encountered a traffic jam on the road. There's a lot of space behind the car, and there's also a place to sleep. Where Ma Xiaodan and I lay down to sleep at night, Yang Yang squatted in the carriage alone and burned some paper money for his mother. I got up to go to the toilet at night, and the driver told me that I was in Changzhou now, because there were too many cars, and there was a little snow in the first two days, so it was jammed again, and it was estimated that it would take two or three hours.

I threw the driver a cigarette and said, "Dude, hard work." ”

The driver smiled, and the car in front of him began to move. I got back into the car, and the driver jumped into the car, and the car started again. At four o'clock in the night, the candles in the carriage were dim, the colored lights around the crystal coffin were a little dazzling, and Yang Yang's mother was lying in it, with a bit of horror movie flavor. After I slept with Ma Xiaodan for a few hours, we all woke up to accompany Yang Yang.

Yang Yang's tears had dried up, and he was sitting looking at the crystal coffin in front of him with blank eyes.

Ma Xiaodan persuaded her: "Yang, don't be too sad. ”

Yang Yang showed a smile on his face, and said with empty eyes: "I always felt that everything my mother said was wrong, she said that she would not let me go to college in other places, so I would be secretly admitted to Shanghai." As a result, when I arrived in Shanghai, I found that it was not the same as I had in my impression. Harmony, fairness, the sun is gone. In its place is power, money, wealth, and the iPhone in the hands of the rich second generation in the school. My mother gave her life savings for me. It's a pity that her life is only enough for me to live for one year. In order to stay here, I have been gritting my teeth, perfecting myself and disgusting myself. Being a young lady really doesn't make money, but when people are extremely poor, they will let go of some dignity. Banknotes don't mean anything, but the taste of hunger is unpleasant. After I had money, my mother said that I should go home and get married after four years of college, and I once again thought that what my mother said was wrong, what I went to college for, what did I sell my dignity for, wasn't it just to stay in Shanghai, to stay in this place of dreams? So, I'm here to stay. At first, I stayed here, to be honest, I didn't know what to do, it was the little mouse who helped me, gave me a little hope, and let me see a little sunshine. Later, after life was better, I brought my mother to Shanghai, and when my mother first came to Shanghai, she was extremely unaccustomed to life in Shanghai. Afterward...... I used my mother's craft to start a steamed bun shop, and I made more and more money and more connections, but people became busier and busier, and the days to stay with my mother became less and less. My mother wanted me to get married, and I thought she was right. ”

"But...... But I will never marry again. Yang Yang had a smile in the corner of his eyes, and tears overflowed.

Ma Xiaodan lowered his head and didn't speak, Yang Yang sat down next to Ma Xiaodan, leaned on her and said, "Xiaodan, let me lean on for a while." ”

Yang Yang fell asleep leaning on Ma Xiaodan and slept for four hours before arriving in Nanjing. When our car arrived in the service area, Ma Xiaodan asked Yang Yang to lie on the bed and sleep. The two of us and the driver got out of the car to eat, the food in the service area was not delicious, but we were busy all night and forgot to eat before leaving yesterday, so we were very hungry inside. I asked for two portions of noodles in the service area, and Ma Xiaodan gave me half of them, so I could barely eat enough.

Ma Xiaodan looked at me eating noodles, and his eyes were a little distracted.

Yang Yang was sleeping, and the road was blocked again. The driver said to wait in the service area and wait until the road is not blocked before leaving, and Ma Xiaodan and I agreed. The driver went back to the car and waited, I squatted in front of the supermarket in the service area, lit a cigarette, and Ma Xiaodan stood behind me. There was some haze in the sky, light snow drifting, the air was a little cold, I was wearing a military coat, and Ma Xiaodan was also wearing a military coat. After staying up all night, her eyes were a little red and her body was a little hard, so I raised the cigarette in my hand and asked her, "Do you want to take a puff." ”

Ma Xiaodan leaned down, took a puff on my cigarette butt with my hand, swallowed it and spit it out, breathed a long sigh of relief, I smiled and said: "It's not good for women to smoke, but if you don't smoke, I don't feel normal." ”

Ma Xiaodan smiled and said, "Can I only be a bad woman in your heart?" ”

"It's not. A woman who smokes must have a story on her. Xia Wanyu also smoked sometimes, but she just lit a cigarette and sat there watching the cigarette burn, only taking a puff for half a day. I hurriedly said.

Ma Xiaodan looked sideways at me, I looked at her and asked her, "What's wrong?" ”

Ma Xiaodan smiled and said without warning: "Hao Ren, you should know that I like you." ”

"I know the way, I always know the way." I took a puff of my cigarette and said.

Ma Xiaodan stood up and looked at the light snow in the sky, with an expression on his face that I couldn't understand, I don't know if he was happy, sad, or sad. She didn't speak, and I lit another cigarette. After so many years, when the original goddess said this to me, my heart was a little confused, and the snowflakes in front of me seemed a little unreal, as if I was lying on the ground with pain on my body Ma Xiaodan appeared in front of me and said sorry to me.

Ma Xiaodan said: "There are some mistakes, and it is enough to make them once in a lifetime." ”

I sighed, turned my head and said, "It's not your fault, I've forgiven you, it's just fate." ”

Ma Xiaodan smiled softly, lowered his head and looked at me squatting on the ground, his hands forming a rectangle in front of me. In the rectangle, it happens to be her smiling face. She asked me, "Is there really a fate?" ”

"Really." I threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stepped on it.

Ma Xiaodan said: "Then now I want to be strong. What will you do if you rape you? ”

"Lie still, don't let yourself get an erection, see what you do." I said with a wicked smile.

"I'm stripped naked in front of you, and you're not hard?" Ma Xiaodan asked boldly and hotly.

"I don't want to look at you." I answered quickly.

"I scream in your ear, and I bite under you." Ma Xiaodan looked at my eyes with a playful look in his eyes.

I gasped, and Ma Xiaodan continued: "I will use my teeth, slowly grind your furrows, use my tongue to carry your crown, and take your time up and down, and when you are hard, I will be strong. Rape you. ”

"...... "I was a little embarrassed, and I didn't know how to speak.

Ma Xiaodan saw that I was embarrassed, so he smiled and said, "I'll go to the toilet." ”

I nodded, sat in front of the supermarket and watched the traffic in the service area. Ma Xiaodan's words reminded me of an idiom, dry firewood. If we say these words not in the service area, but at home. Maybe Ma Xiaodan will really do this, but it's a pity that Ma Xiaodan is no longer the girl she was at the beginning, she is the same age as me. Once a person has two and a half, and then believes in this thing of love, it is really a bit stupid. Actually, I don't understand Ma Xiaodan's status in my heart, but after all, I used to pay for her sincerely, and now she appears in front of me every day. Once, future.

I let out a long sigh, a little distressed.

was hesitating, but received a message from Ma Xiaodan. Ma Xiaodan said that her aunt was here and asked me to go to the supermarket to buy her a pack of sanitary napkins, and asked for a large one. I turned around and went to the supermarket to buy a pack of sanitary napkins, and when I saw that there were red dates for sale, I bought another pack of red dates. handed the sanitary napkin to Ma Xiaodan in the bathroom, and after a while, she came out with a red face, smiled awkwardly and said to me, "I'm sorry, my aunt just came." ”

I said cheaply: "Then you can't be strong. Rape me. ”

"Oh!" Ma Xiaodan's words had a special meaning in them, I threw the red dates to her very cheaply, and turned around and walked out of the women's toilet.

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Two hours later, the traffic jam eased. Yang Yang also woke up and ate a portion of noodles. We set off, and by seven o'clock in the evening we were at our hometown. The truck drove to the village, my parents had already received the news, my parents took the lead, the people in the village helped, and the nearby feng shui master searched for the land. That night, Yang Yang's mother was buried halfway up the hill.

The grave is small, but it is neat.

There are huge stones around, and it is known that this is a cemetery.

After burying his mother, Yang Yang knelt in front of his mother's grave, tears rolling in his eyes, sad but unwilling to cry. She was tired, tired from crying. From the death of my mother last night, to the burial of my mother tonight. It only took twenty-four hours, and in these twenty-four hours, how much pressure she had on her heart, I'm afraid only she knew how much she did. Ma Xiaodan and I stood behind Yang Yang and watched, the three of us were the most prominent people in the village, and we were all college students. But now......

We can only say that we are adrift.

No matter how hard Yang Yang tried, her mother finally returned to this small mountain pass. Shanghai's luxurious cemeteries do not belong to this traditional country woman after all. Maybe her daughter will stay in Shanghai one day, but her roots will never leave this yellow earth. The cemetery in the steel city seems to be missing a smell. This smell seems to be called a human touch.

Yang Yang swallowed the tears in his eyes, let out a long breath, prostrate in front of his mother's grave, and shouted: "Mom! ”

Crying and wailing are just to vent the sadness in the bottom of my heart, and perhaps the tears at this moment are the most meaningful.

Ma Xiaodan's eyes were red, and Ma Xiaodan turned his head to look at me with tears in his eyes. She asked me almost subconsciously: "Do you know that I couldn't kill Ma Changsheng for what I did in the first place?" ”

I froze in place. Ma Xiaodan walked up, knelt beside Yang Yang, and said resolutely to Yang Yang's mother's grave: "Don't worry, auntie, I will definitely take care of Yang Yang." ”

Looking at the backs of the two of them, my heart was very blocked.