Cheng Yue stood on the balcony, a little irritable, took a cigarette and lit it for himself, took a hard puff, and then spit out the white smoke. With the light on his back, the white smoke in the darkness slowly drifted away, which was particularly obvious.

Actually, I didn't want to make it like this, but people will always feel uncomfortable when they are rejected repeatedly.

In fact, it's not the child's problem, he didn't say that Mi Jia must give him a child, if he really doesn't want to, or decides to say that he doesn't want to have children, then it doesn't matter, the two of them are open and honest, how to decide that.

But she always avoided the question, and he sensed that she didn't want children, or that she was at least not sure whether to have children with him, in other words, she was not sure of her feelings for him.

He didn't know if it was right to think like this, but now he was a little anxious to think about it.

Cheng Yue smiled bitterly, took another hard puff of his cigarette, and spit out the white smoke.

Only then did he realize that he liked and loved her more than he imagined, and he would be troubled by her little affection, and he was entangled in how much he had in her heart, which he had never had, even when he was with Jiang Yawen, he had never had these feelings and experiences.

He never knew that he would be such a little man, and he couldn't afford to be chic at all.

He seemed to have become greedy, and he longed for her to reciprocate the love he had offered.

He stood on the balcony for a while, smoked two cigarettes, and then prepared to go back to his room.

It was only when he turned his head that he found Mi Jia standing behind him in his pajamas, I don't know when he came over, just standing by the balcony door and looking at him fixedly, biting his lip gently.

Seeing her like this, even if she is still angry in her heart, she still inevitably feels a little sorry for her and feels pity for her, after all, she is the woman she loves.

He stepped forward and stared into her eyes for a moment before he spoke, "What's going on?" It's just that he may still be angry, and he is still bored in his heart, and the tone sounds a little dull and a little cold.

"I see you haven't come up for so long......" Mi Jia whispered, the tone was pitiful, watching him open his mouth to say something, but the words were stuck in his throat like fish bones, but he couldn't say anything.

Cheng Yue couldn't help but feel more annoyed when he looked at her speechless appearance, and only said coldly, "Go back to the room." ”

"Cheng Yue." Seeing that he was leaving, Mijia hurriedly stopped him

Cheng Yue stopped, but did not look back.

Looking at his back, Mija bit her lip and asked, "Are you mad at me?" ”

Cheng Yue is angry, but it is not her who is angry, but herself.

Seeing him like this, Mi Jia was a little frightened, some didn't dare, he had never been like this, they hadn't even quarreled with each other before, every time before the quarrel, he would always gently analyze the problem with her, and she didn't know how to deal with the situation now, and she had no experience in this area at all.

Cheng Yue never turned his head or spoke, only stood for a while, and walked directly upstairs.

Mi Jia suddenly wanted to cry, and her aggrieved eyes were a little hot.

Squatted down, hugged himself tightly with both hands, and really couldn't help but whimper and cry.

"Woo...... Woohoo......"

She didn't know what to do, she didn't like this, she really didn't like it, she wanted him to hug her, she wanted him to kiss her, she wanted him to smile at her gently, instead of being so indifferent, not looking back, and not even wanting to talk to her.

Thinking like this, the psychology became more and more uncomfortable and wronged, whimpering and crying more sharply, and the tears fell more fiercely.

I don't know how long I've been crying like this, but I feel a very gentle and familiar embrace that will take her to a chest that she has been longing for now.

Before she could raise her head, she only heard a faint sigh from his ear, which contained a lot, but she only heard his helplessness.

Then came his familiar deep voice, "Alright, stop crying. ”

Mi Jia raised his head from his arms at this time, the tears blinded his eyes a little, making his whole person a little blurred, reached out to touch his face, and said with a crying voice, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, it's not that I don't want to have children, I just ......"

"Okay, don't talk about it, don't talk about it." Cheng Yue lowered his head and kissed her head, he admitted defeat, he couldn't let her cry helplessly, he couldn't ignore her grievances and sadness.

Even if she can't give him as much love as he wants, that's okay, it's okay to have less, at least it's loved, it's real.

In fact, when the two first got married, she made it very clear, she said that the last thing she could give was love, and now he can get so much, even if it is not the same, it doesn't matter, she has made so many changes for him, he really shouldn't be too greedy to ask for so much.

"No, no." Mi Jia raised his head from his arms, shook his head and raised his hand to wipe his tears indiscriminately, and said, "I, I don't want to give birth, I don't dare, I'm worried that my child will be the same as me, I'm afraid, I just want us to be more sure that we can stay with each other for a lifetime, and then let our child come, because I think what the child needs most is not what the family conditions are, but just a complete home, with dear father and mother, you don't need to give a lot, just accompany him to grow up, It's good to grow up with him, it's not that you're not good enough, I'm not brave enough, I know you're good to me, but maybe it's because of the relationship I've experienced since I was a child, I'm really scared, I'm really scared......"

Cheng Yue stretched out his hand and hugged her tightly, he knew all her worries and fears, and suddenly regretted it, regretted that he couldn't empathize with her and think more, she had such a childhood experience, and she could take the first step to accept love has continued to use up all her courage, and what did she take to prepare for a new challenge in a short time.

"Don't cry, I'm not good, it's me who ignores your feelings, it's me who is not good." Cheng Yue kissed her lightly, and gave her a smooth back as he spoke, patting and comforting her somewhat excited feelings, "Don't cry, don't cry......"

Leaning on his arms, Mi Jia shook her head, only crying and muffled, "It's not your fault, it's me, it's me who only cares about my own feelings, it's me who ignores you, grandma is right, I'm too selfish, I only think about myself but never think about you." ”

"Well, don't cry." Cheng Yue let go of her, kissed away the tears that fell from her face, kissed little by little, and then picked her up after a while and went upstairs to the room.

[Author's digression]: I have to go out at night, so it will be after 11 o'clock, don't stay up late, wash and sleep early, and get up tomorrow morning to watch