448 Self-blame
Cheng Yue never spoke, just let her hold it like this.
However, the more Cheng Yue didn't speak, the more bottomless Mi Jia became, the more panicked she became, and she didn't know what to do and what to do to make him not be so angry.
Cheng Yue was really angry this time, angry that she didn't cherish herself like this, angry that she gambled on her health for the so-called beauty and beauty, he never cared about what she was like, what he cared about was always her as a person, and her heart. He wants someone who can accompany him through his life, and health is the most important thing compared to beautiful appearance.
In fact, it is not so much that he was angry this time, but that this time he was scared more by her, he received a call from Aunt Qin, saying that something happened to Mijia, his head was completely blank for a moment, he didn't know what happened to her, but Aunt Qin's nervousness and panic he could hear from the phone, and he didn't even hang up the phone directly and drove back at the moment, when he saw her curled up in the room, the mood was even more indescribably uncomfortable, and the fear was never so strong, She didn't know that at that time, he was even shaking his legs a little, because of fear and helplessness.
He couldn't imagine what it would be like if he lost her, so when Dr. Hu said that she was just suffering from stomach pain and collapse caused by malnutrition, because she had not eaten well for a long time, she would be hungry like that, and the worry in her heart was put down and replaced by his anger, how worried he was about her before Then how angry he was at the moment, angry how she could make herself like this, and angry with herself, as the closest person around her, He didn't even know that she had starved herself for so long behind his back, if something really happened this time, if this time it was not just the prostration and weakness caused by stomach pain, if he would really lose her this time, then what would he do!
If he could, he wanted to beat her up, and then let her run a few kilometers with weight, and then lock her up, but no matter how strong the anger in his heart was, he couldn't attack, because she was his wife, not his soldier!
He wants to be strict with the soldiers, because he is responsible for their lives, only by training them more hard, they will not lose their lives lightly on the battlefield, but she is his wife, that is his responsibility, he loves and protects at the same time, he has the responsibility to be responsible for her safety and not let her be hurt at all, so while he is angry with her, he is more angry with himself, angry that he did not protect her well.
"Cheng Yue ......," Mi Jia called her, her voice dragged long, with a crying voice and a coquettish taste.
Cheng Yue stretched out his hand and pulled her hand holding his waist down, but still didn't turn his head to look at her, turned around and walked towards the door, opened the door and went out directly.
Mi Jia looked at the door that was opened and closed again, there were indescribable feelings and feelings in her heart, biting her lip and the red tears in her eyes were a little unbearable, she sat back on the bed, she could only hold her legs and bury her head in her arms and cry, she really regretted it, she wanted to be beautiful not to make him happier, if he was not happy at all, what was the point of doing so much.
Thinking like this, Mija's tears fell even harder, and the sound of whimpering echoed throughout the room.
Outside, Cheng Yue went directly to the kitchen, and Aunt Qin was boiling porridge, holding a big iron spoon and stirring in the casserole.
Cheng Yue went up, stretched out his hand to Aunt Qin, took the iron spoon in Aunt Qin's hand, and said, "I'll come." ”
Aunt Qin handed him the iron spoon in her hand, and still couldn't help but ask with some concern, "Mi Jia, is she okay, how can the doctor say no?" ”
"It's okay, I've got some medicine, just eat something." Cheng Yue stirred the white porridge in the casserole, and casually asked Aunt Qin, "Aunt Qin, has Mi Jia not had much appetite lately and doesn't eat much?" ”
Aunt Qin nodded and said, "Recently, Mi Jia seems to have eaten very little for lunch, and she doesn't eat snacks at night, and she said that she will wait for you to come back and eat together." ”
When Aunt Qin said this, Cheng Yue roughly understood, and only nodded and said, "I know." ”
Aunt Qin still wanted to ask clearly, because she was really scared when she saw Mi Jia before, "Did the doctor say anything about the reason, why did this suddenly happen?" ”
"She was on a diet to lose weight, and her nutrition didn't keep up, so she collapsed from stomach pain." Cheng Yue said, scooped up the white porridge in the pot and looked at it carefully, the heat was still almost, and continued to boil.
Turned around and opened the fridge to see what was inside, and finally took the eggs, shrimp and cucumber out.
"Mi Jia diets to lose weight!" Aunt Qin was surprised and asked, "Why?" She thought that Mi Jia might have eaten the wrong thing or really had a cold, but she didn't expect that it would be a diet to lose weight, and she would also mess up her stomach.
Speaking of the reason, Cheng Yue remembered that someone just hugged herself and said that she wanted her to be his most beautiful bride, saying that she didn't want to make herself regretful, in fact, she didn't have to make any changes, she was his most beautiful bride, in his eyes she has always been beautiful, there will be no comparison, she is the only one in his heart.
Thinking like this, he shook his head and said helplessly, "Because of the wedding, she wants to be the best in herself." ”
Hearing this, Aunt Qin also shook her head, she really didn't know whether to be angry or what, and said with some distress, "That stupid girl, the bride is the most beautiful woman in the world, what's so good about this." ”
"If I had to wear her body down for a wedding, I'd rather not do it." The wedding was originally just to make up for her regrets, but if she lost her health because of such regrets, it was too unworth it for him, and he would rather make up for her somewhere else when the time came, rather than let her hurt herself by doing so.
Aunt Qin looked at him and understood that he was really nervous Mi Jia felt sorry for Mi Jia, thinking to herself, the old lady should be relieved that she knew underground, Mi Jia did not marry the wrong person, a man who cares more about her physical health than about her external beauty is a man who can really be trusted for life.
With a chuckle, he reached out and patted Cheng Yue's shoulder and said, "I'll come, you go and accompany Mi Jia." ”
"No, I'll just get it." Cheng Yue shook his head and did not give up his position.
Seeing that he insisted, Aunt Qin didn't say anything more.
Reached out and took the seasoning box, scooped up a little salt and sprinkled it into the white porridge, then stirred it with an iron spoon a few times, and then took out the shrimp clearly and cleanly, took the oil and made a cucumber fried shrimp with shrimp and cucumber, and beat a frangipani with eggs, and after the two plates of side dishes were ready, the white porridge here was almost the same, took the bowl and put a bowl, put all the food on the tray, and then took the chopsticks and spoon and went to the bedroom.