When I woke up, I saw the white ceiling.

The smell of disinfectant reverberates with the monotonous ticking of the instrument.

Luo Xian raised her eyes in confusion and heard hurried footsteps coming from outside the door. Awakened, the doctors pushed the door in and gave her a full examination.

Nothing was left out.

Then I was puzzled to find that the originally exhausted soul seemed to be reborn from a cocoon, but it was not as incomplete as I imagined or better than before.

Nothing has changed.

No more, no less.

Although there was no explanation for this situation, there was no way to explain it or study it more deeply, and some people wanted to try it under the ban, but after being glanced at by the old man who was leaning against the wall and watching the bustle, they obediently gave up this bold idea.

Until the end, I can only regret leaving with the conclusion that everything is normal.

Only the father and daughter were left in the ward.

Luo Lao blew a breath, and after closing the door, he finally looked at his daughter who woke up, looked at it carefully, and shook his head as if he was puzzled for a long time.

"It doesn't feel like anything has changed. ”

"yes, it seems to be pretty much the same as the original. ”

Luo Xian looked down at her hands, and didn't seem to care about what happened to her.

It's just hard to understand.

The qualities of the abyss still remained in her, but the human part did not decline in any way.

She wasn't reborn as a human, but she didn't die as a monster either.

The two sides mingled again in an unpleasant way...... But this time there are no previous benefits, and after losing the strengths of both sides, all the flaws of both are retained.

Without the tyranny and cruelty of the abyss, it is endowed with human weakness and limitations......

Is this a success or a failure?

No matter how much she rejected the way she was in the past, and how much effort and determination she put into it, at best, it was just a reversal of the positions on the scales.

did not fall into the abyss, nor did they return to this side of man.

Rather, the two ends of the rat hovered in the middle.

It looks completely different from the past, but the essence has not changed, and this appearance really makes people feel helpless and unbearable from the heart.

"It's funny, Xiaoxian. ”

The old man shook his head, and at a glance saw the failed outcome of this effort: "This is your essence, it cannot be changed, even if you are endowed with love......

He made a decisive judgment without warmth.

I already know the ending of this farce.

There are some things in this world that cannot be changed by effort alone, even if there is a strong so-called mind and bond, the material world is never transferred by essentia, and when you try to use essentia to interfere, you often have to be prepared to get worse and worse.

The more you want, the more the world will give, but what you get is not necessarily what you want. In the end, nothing but emptiness and disillusionment is gained.

That's how hell was created.

'Hell' in the literal sense of the word is the same.

"What's the gain, Xiaoxian?"

"I don't think so. ”

Luo Xian tilted her head and thought about it, and laughed self-deprecatingly: "It seems that I have lost a little more...... I always feel that the gains outweigh the losses. ”

After losing the ferocity and predator nature that was not in the original specifications, he was endowed with a faint love, but the hunger and thirst and mutilation of the heart were never satisfied.

She was still crippled.

The old man nodded, not caring about it. Just bent down, squeezed his overly strong body into the small sofa, and crossed his legs: "So, do you have any realization?"

"If you have to say it, you don't have it, do you?"

Luo Xian shook her head and sighed regretfully: "I was obviously endowed with love, but the desire to kill something in my heart has become stronger."

After experiencing what love is, instead of being satisfied, I crave that kind of thing even more......

Happiness through death, love through killing.

No matter what, it can't make up for this inherent flaw.

The short-term satisfaction made the monster's side retreat for a while, but it was a thousand times more eager than it had been for what it had once obtained.

It's only going to get crazier.

"It's okay, isn't there still a father?" Luo Lao slowly got up and stretched out his hand to her: "Let's go, let's go home." ”

"No, father. ”

Luo Xian thought about it, shook her head, and said seriously: "I already have someone I want to kill." ”

“...... Huh, huh?"

"yes. ”

Luo Xian laughed, and it was only at this moment that a hint of rosy appeared on her pale cheeks, and her dark pupils were full of joy, anticipation, and love.

"What kind of person is it?" the old man scratched his head in confusion, "Can you introduce me to my father?"

"Father, haven't you already seen it?"

Luo Xian thought for a while and recalled the memories of the past: "It's not like you, father, who can treat things I do indifferently, nor like those aliens in the abyss who praise what I do, and not like others who are afraid to retreat from my dishes and me...... After seeing my dish, he wanted to try it. ”

Speaking of the scene at that time, she couldn't help but smile: "Although he vomited after only taking a bite, and he cried unspeakably, he really didn't die." ”

"At that time, I suddenly thought - this is probably God's arrangement, right?

Sending me a person I wanted to kill when I was most lonely, making someone I couldn't kill friends with me, reminding me of my ugliness and twists. ”

"I don't know how to describe this kind of feeling...... But I wanted to kill him. ”

Luo Xian looked at her father and told him seriously:

"Or, if he kills him, too. ”

In the long silence, the old man looked at his daughter and raised his eyebrows in astonishment.

Not knowing whether it was pity or pity, he couldn't help but shake his head.

“...... It's a pity that I fell in love for the first time in more than 20 years, Xiaoxian ......," the old man sighed softly, "Whether you kill or be killed, love or be loved, I'm afraid you won't get it." ”

"That's enough, isn't it?"

Luo Xian still looked at him and calmly accepted this reality: "Didn't the book say that first love is always restrained and young, but it just can't get results, and it's not to the point of frustration, right?"

The old man thought for a moment and nodded: "That's right." ”

He asked, "So, are you going to leave the house?"

"Is it seen?"

"Fathers always need to know their daughters, don't they?" asked the old man, "where are you going?"

"I haven't thought about it yet. ”

Luo Xian thought for a moment and shook her head: "Go out and take a walk, since I was born, I haven't been out of Jinling much...... In that case, my father will have a lot less trouble, right?"

"Will you be back?"

"Naturally, I'll come and have a look when I'm passing by. Luo Xian said, "Although it's a pity that I didn't kill my father, I also hope that my father can live a long life and don't die in the hands of others." ”

"I try. ”

The old man looked at his daughter in front of him with a disapproving chin of his head, and he felt a little strange.

It's incomprehensible.

Is it because you have grown up unconsciously, or is it the magic of love that makes you grow?

But either way, it's time for her to face the world alone.

It's like seeing a fledgling with its wings spread to challenge the authority of an elder.

In the harsh and stern scrutiny, his eyes became relieved and helpless: "It's ridiculous that a gluttonous and greedy demon would crave temperate love, Xiaoxian...... Would you have such a dream?"

"People always have to have dreams, right?" Luo Xian replied hopefully: "Maybe one day, people like me can be redeemed." ”

"yes, maybe. ”

The old man bowed his head, and his rough hands gently stroked the girl's long hair, full of kindness: "I hope you can enjoy this dream, Xiaoxian."

If one day, you find that you wake up from your dream, come back. I'll be waiting for you here. ”

He said, "And then, kill you—"

Cut off the monster he created with his own hands, and bring the final relief to his daughter, who has completely despaired of the world.

"Okay. ”

Luo Xian nodded, feeling the old man's last tenderness.

This is the final agreement between father and daughter.

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When Huai Shi woke up from the same hospital, it was already a week later.

He only remembered that after dragging his serious injury to Liu Dongli and drinking wildly, he fainted and fell to the ground, waking up once in the middle, as if he was on some operating table, and heard the unbelievable exclamation of the chief surgeon in a drowsiness.

When he closed his eyes and opened them again, he was already lying on the hospital bed, looking at the familiar ceiling, and his mouth clicked, feeling that something was not right.

After a deep slumber and repair, those wounds have healed, but Huai Shi still can't lift the energy, the sequelae of the excessive inducing and use of essentia.

He may also have a nervous breakdown and insomnia for a long time before the rift in his soul heals.

When he picked up his mobile phone, he saw Liu Dongli's message, he saw that Huai Shi didn't know when he would wake up, so he happily paid for a month's medical expenses, and went to Shambhala alone for what he called a hot spring recuperation trip.

Looking at the photos of his circle of friends and young ladies from all walks of life, as well as the huge humanoid robot looming in the background, Huai Shi was envious.

If I had known, I would have been shameless and followed.

It's nice to be able to touch the robot!

And when he opened the internal APP of the Astronomical Society, he saw a notice sent to him by the Ministry of Justice - the secret interrogation of Ai Qing had been held yesterday.

Thanks to her excellent defense and Ai Qing's own ability and value, or after some political transactions and blessings that Huai Shi did not understand, in the end, for the sake of her voluntary surrender, she was only sentenced to 20 years of border service, which was immediately executed.

It's a pity that the place where she is in charge of taking office is a certain confidential agency and unit, and Huai Shi doesn't even know where she is going and how to contact her next.

When you make a call, you can only get a voice prompt to turn off the phone.

She seemed to suddenly disappear from the world that Huai Shi could touch, like a phantom evaporating in the mist, leaving without a sound.

Huai Shi didn't have any sense of reality at all.

And another thing...... I DON'T KNOW WHY, OUT OF RECOGNITION OF HUAISHI'S OWN TALENT AND VARIOUS BULABULA REASONS, HE WAS PROMOTED FROM A TEMPORARY WORKER-LIKE 'ACTION OPERATOR' TO A FULL-FLEDGED MILITARY ATTACHE IN THE INTERNAL SEQUENCE OF THE ASTRONOMICAL SOCIETY.

In addition to obtaining some judicial immunity from the current situation and the status of a full member, and with the recognition of the Eastern Xia lineage, he replaced the original position of Ai Qing and became the new Xinhai Supervisor......

After two weeks, he officially took office, and he was able to get the authority and information issued by the headquarters, and became the representative of the Astronomical Society in Shinkai.

Originally, the Ombudsman would only be formally appointed after going through the further study and assessment at the London border, but I don't know why, when it was Huaishi's turn, it was so perfunctory and sloppy, and only an electronic notice and file certification were issued.

Inexplicably so 'progressive'?

"What's going on?"

Huai Shi sighed in confusion: After messing around, instead of being dismissed, he was promoted? What are the people in the Central Management Department in the Command Bureau thinking? Shouldn't a young man like himself who has a problem with his thinking be honed a little more?

In the end, Huai Shi can only conclude that there is something wrong with their brains.

Anyway, his salted fish is definitely not as conscientious as Ai Qing, basically he can touch it, drag it if he can, push it if he can, and wave it if he can...... The Astronomical Society himself is not afraid, so what is he worried about?

He himself has full confidence in himself.

He's not sure about the rest, but he's too skilled at death.

- Give me two months, and before the Chinese New Year, I will be able to do this position!

When the time comes, the sea is wide and the fish jumps, and the sky is high and the birds fly, isn't it beautiful?

As if he was making a Pokémon that he didn't know where it came from, Huai Shi stood up, leaned on the head of the bed, and found a more comfortable position, and soon, he saw the small box between the flowers on the bedside table.

The packaging is familiar.

I think I've seen it somewhere.

When he reached out and opened the box, he saw the brilliant crystals lying on the black velvet, the miracle of faith and prayer.

Divine light.

Underneath the crystal, there was a small note, on which someone had left words in Juanxiu's handwriting, as if to say goodbye, but his name was not written.

Huai Shi was stunned.

For a long time, for a long time, he picked up the note in his hand and stared at the message on it: "Will the sun rise as usual?"

He was amused.

No matter what happens, the sun will rise as usual, illuminating everything old or new, and then setting as usual, throwing the good and the bad into darkness.

Even if something seems like a drastic change or an incredible miracle, it doesn't matter who was born, or who died, who came or who left...... It doesn't stop.

This world is the same without everyone.

And it's the same for everyone.

There is no one or indispensable, just as no one must not exist.

There is no parting that is unacceptable.

“...... Wouldn't it be nice to just say goodbye?"

Huai Shi shook her head and sighed helplessly.

Where did you learn this hardcore goodbye method?

Or is she really so strong that she has forgotten the possibility of reunion, and wants to say goodbye to herself forever? Let her go, anyway, even if she is thrown to the border, she will make a big deal out of nowhere.

We'll talk about that then.

Well, even if she comes to the door crying and looks at herself pitifully, and asks her good brother Huai Shi to help her, she is willing to be a cow and a horse in return, Huai Shi will definitely not be soft-hearted!

Thirty years on the river, thirty years on the bottom......

Don't bully young people into poverty!

Thinking of the scene where Ai Qingfu pleaded softly, Huai Shi couldn't help but laugh so loudly!

For a long time, for a long time, in the slowly rising sleepiness, he fell into a deep sleep.

Outside the window, the night passed little by little.

I don't know how long it took, but the dark sky was lit up again with a soft morning light. A new day is coming, as if the old day is coming to an end.

The sun rises as usual.