Readers, I'm Antarctic Blue.

I'm really sorry, it's been a long time since I've come up to update the novel. Hehe, maybe many people already know that I am sick after seeing my message.

I had a very rare disease called lupus erythematosus, which required a long hospital stay, and I was recently discharged from the hospital and will have a follow-up test in a few days. The doctor said that if I can maintain a good state of mind and condition, I can live for more than ten years.

So, at the age of thirty-five I started to count down.

This is a very strange feeling, and if you don't feel it personally, it's hard to appreciate the helplessness and bitterness.

There is a saying in China that "it is better to die than to live". I didn't feel anything before, but now I know. The reason why I poured Chinese and Western medicine together every day, suffering and living, was because there were too many worries, and I told myself that I couldn't die yet.

Because death is just a sign of cowardice, and it is irresponsible.

Thirty-five years old, there are parents who have passed the sixtieth birthday, there is a husband who loves me and refuses to give up on me, there are children who are waiting for milk, and there is a large group of friends who care about me and love me, and I don't have to think about what will happen to them if I die.

So, I have to live, be happy, work hard, and live freely. I kept telling myself that at least it was okay, and there were still more than ten years, and the evil took pity on me.

You may have heard of or watched a movie called "The Eraser in My Brain". Somewhat similar to the name, my brain miraculously actively erased part of my memory because of my illness. As it happens, it erases a part of the memory of the novel. So although I wrote the book myself, I now need to re-read my novel to find my memory, and then organize my thoughts and update it. This will take a while, so I haven't been able to update it lately, sorry.

I guess everyone is going to scold when they see this, hehe, they should be scolded. Who made me miraculously suffer from such a strange disease? I checked on the Internet, and Ladygaga and Zhou Haimei also had this disease, and they are still alive, so I am still a little confident.

As a veteran reader, I have experienced many times of being cheated, and that feeling makes people want to scold! So as an author, I won't pit this beloved work. Hehe, although it is said that personality is not valuable, but now I still vouch for my own personality, I will resume the update as soon as possible, so that it has a beginning and an end, and ends perfectly.

You may scoff at it. Yes, it's hard to be perfect, but for me, who has a lot of time to recuperate, and I'm perfect, it might be possible.

December 22 is the winter solstice, and I hope everyone can eat delicious dumplings.

December 25th is Christmas, and I hope you can count the Christmas bells with your loved ones.

Antarctic Blue Stay (To be continued......)