I smiled and said, "Didn't you just say that I came to talk to the master about Buddhism and Taoism." ”

"Since it is talking about Buddhism and Taoism, why does the female donor not leave the court, the government, and the people?"

"The Buddha crosses the world, isn't it compassion? If the people of Li can live in peace with the government and be less ravaged by war, isn't it the Buddha's wish? ”

He looked at me with disgust, his face became more and more ugly, but he couldn't say a word, only silence. At this time, there was a very soft knock on the door outside, and with a soothing complexion, he turned his head and said, "Come in." I saw the little novice just walk in, fold his palms and salute, and ask, "What's the matter?" ”

"Master, the villagers of Jixiang Village are here again, bother the master to go out and have a look."

"Oh?"

I was about to get up, thought about it, frowned slightly and looked back at me, I smiled: "If the master has something, please go and get busy, and I won't bother you later." ”

"The female benefactor will sit down for the time being, and the poor monk will go back when he goes."

"Okay."

As soon as he was gone, I got up from the futon, and in the room, in addition to the curling green smoke rising from the incense burner, there was a faint incense in the air, lingering on the tip of my nose, but so light, so light, as if the slightest negligence would dissipate, but it always touched my heart.

Following the faint scent, I pushed the door open and walked out.

As the abbot, the backyard where he lives is also cleaned very quietly, and the bluestone slabs are washed by water to be dusty, and there is a slight coolness when walking on it. My steps were also a little cold, and I walked out of a nearby room with closed doors and windows, and the faint fragrance seemed to be cut off here.

I stood in the doorway, staring intently at the closed door.

I couldn't see anything, but I seemed to feel the breath inside, and it was a little disordered, and it was as if it had never been calm.

In this room......

A figure flashed in my heart, delicate and weak, but it also gave me the greatest pain invisibly. Suddenly, even the coolness rose from the soles of his feet, and even his fingers were cold in an instant.

I don't know how long later, I let go of my clenched fist, raised my hand, my fingertips just touched the door frame, and before I could make up my mind whether to push it away, or how, I heard a rush of footsteps behind me, and said loudly: "Female donor!" ”

As soon as I turned around, I saw him hurrying over, with a somewhat uneasy look on his face, and came over to look at the closed door, and then looked at me: "Why did the female benefactor come here?" ”

"Huh? I, I walked around casually and came here by accident. ”

"Female donor, there are just some scriptures piled up in this house, and there are no people living in it, so don't go in."

Looking at his uncertain expression, I suddenly became a little afraid.

I have always been cautious in doing things, and I will never take risks until I have to, and even if I do, there must be a way out, but just now I reached out and wanted to push the door, which was too bold and irrational.

Perhaps, it is because the person I think of in my heart has no reason at all, and all my pain and humiliation are not brought by her, but they are always inseparable from her shadow. She is like a swallow that flies very high, obviously no longer in my sight, but the shadow she casts on me always hangs over me.

For a long time, I rarely thought about her, and even resisted thinking about her as a person, and I always wanted to drive away the feeling of being around her, but now I realize that it is too difficult.

Maybe it's because I've always been by that person's side, and she's in that person's heart.

Thinking of this, the suffocating feeling that made it impossible to breathe last night came up again, I subconsciously reached out to support the wall, and the person was also a little pale, and I saw that I seemed to be a little wrong, and hurriedly asked: "Female donor, what's wrong with you?" ”

"Huh?" I glanced back at him, only to feel my gaffe, hurriedly smiled, and asked casually, "I don't know if the master left just now, is there anything important to deal with?" ”

"It's not a big deal, it's a villager from Jixiang Village outside Yangzhou, he comes to the temple every month to help clean it, and the poor monks should also go to see it."

"Oh......"

I know that many ordinary people will donate money to the temple to accumulate merit, but some people cannot afford this money, so they will go to the temple to help clean, chop wood or cook, and call it "sacrificing their lives" to accumulate merit.

Speaking of cleaning, I suddenly remembered something and asked, "Master, do you have-"

In the middle of speaking, his throat suddenly choked a little, and he looked back at the closed door, remembering the way he had come, and decided not to ask any more, but smiled.

What does it matter if you can't find it back or not?

"Female benefactor?" Looking at me with a strange look, he asked softly, "What are you laughing at?" ”

"No, nothing?"

"......" He looked at me, his thick black eyebrows twisted together, I looked at him, and said with a faint smile: "I just laughed at that time." ”

After saying this, I turned and walked away, and followed me with a look of anger, but with a solemn look, as if I wanted to say something, but I always wanted to say nothing, and I listened to the third morning bell this morning, and said, "Master, it's not too early, and I have to take my leave." ”

"The female donkey is leaving?"

"I'm really sorry to have bothered the master for so long."

"Then, the poor monk will send a female benefactor."

"No need, Master, please stay." I turned to look at him, glanced at the closed door again, and said with a slight smile: "What I said to the master today is what Huang Ye once said to me, and I said this to the master, not to influence what the master does, but to hope that the master can understand Huang Ye's mind." He would rather be pointed out by a thousand people, and hope that irrelevant people can not be harmed, this is the realm of the Buddha, and I hope that the master can think twice. ”

Yiyi's face looked a little heavy, and he said, "The poor monk will think about it." ”

"Thank you, Master."

As soon as I walked to the back door of the Buddhist hall, I saw the dust flags there, hanging high, and the figures in front of the hall swayed, as if someone was cleaning in front, although I couldn't see people, but I could see the dust flying from the light shining in the door.

In such dust, my thoughts couldn't help but drift away.

I remembered that time, I was here looking for the lost orchid buckle, but I was also standing there, and I heard a heavy sigh.

I don't know what he was thinking about when he stood in front of the Buddha statue at that time, so he let out that sigh, but I thought that if I could have known earlier what he was thinking in his heart and what he couldn't forget, would it be different now?

Will I wake up sooner?

After going down the mountain, I got on the carriage and walked to the city, at this time Yangzhou City also woke up, the pedestrians on the road were bustling, and both sides of the road were selling, and it was very lively.

I was sitting in the carriage, and I heard a lot of people talking about the **** downstairs in the city last night.

Although there was chaos last night, there was no knife, and even the common people saw that something was wrong, as if the emperor wanted to find someone in Yangzhou, and I lifted the curtain to look outside, and it seemed that I also saw a lot of impressive faces in the crowd.

He is in Yangzhou City, but he is afraid that it has already been full of people.

In order to find Nangong Lizhu, he did work hard, and he would even do not hesitate to make a big deal in the future, but if he really found it, what would happen? What would he do with that woman?

It was still early in the morning when I got back to the state capital, so I thanked the two guards and the coachman, and walked carefully back to my lodgings through the side door.

The door is also closed, could it be that Shui Xiu has gone out?

I stepped forward and stretched out my hand to push, but I saw that in the middle of the room, Pei Yuanhao was sitting at the table, heard the sound of the door being pushed open, and slowly turned his head to look at me.

Shui Xiu stood beside him with a frightened expression.

I was stunned for a moment - how could he be in my room?

His face was not very good-looking, the person was almost transparent by the sun, but there was a faint shadow under his eyes, which was a trace of not sleeping all night, which made his whole person look even more gloomy, as if exuding an indescribable evil aura.

Standing at the door for a while, he couldn't get back to his senses, but he slowly picked up the teacup on the table and took a sip, Shui Xiu hurriedly glanced at me, and then I stepped forward and knelt down and said: "Slave and maid to see the emperor, long live the emperor." ”

He took a sip of tea and slowly put the teacup back on the table: "Where did you go?" ”

“…… Slave maid, slave maid go out for a walk. ”

"Going for a walk?" He seemed to sneer, slowly stood up and walked in front of me, looking at me condescendingly: "Do you know what crime the palace maid is to escape?" ”

I knelt on the ground, my palms grinding slightly from the floor.

Yes, the palace maid will be killed when she escapes and comes back, I can't know better, I'm not the person last night, he just can't catch her, if he does, I'm afraid it's also in the palm of his hand, and I'm too easy to catch me, no matter how you want to me, you don't have to pay any price.

I lowered my head and smiled softly, "The slave knows." ”

"Get up."

"Your Majesty."

I stood up slowly, because I knelt for a long time, my knees were numb, and I hurriedly reached out to help the door frame, he looked at me, his eyes seemed to flicker, and coldly ordered: "You go out first." ”

"Huh? Yes. Shui Xiu, who was standing behind, was still a little unable to react, I looked up at her, and she hurriedly bowed her head and said, "Yes." After saying that, she hurried over, but when she went out, she still looked at me with some worry, I smiled and shook her head, she could only turn around and walk out.

I thought about it, and the hand holding the door frame was gently lowered, and the door was still open.

He said coldly: "Close the door." ”

My heart skipped a beat, I bit my lower lip, and I still slammed the door shut.

As soon as the door was closed, the sunlight seemed to be cut off, and the room was plunged into an indescribable haze, and as soon as I turned around, I saw that he was already standing in front of me, staring at me with dark, bloodshot eyes.