When I heard this, I hurriedly lowered my head, turned around and ran.

The person by the window in the house had immediately run to the window, looked out, and I didn't look back, but hurriedly turned the cloister in the backyard, but I rushed into the front hall in a panic.

Originally, the shouting of the person just now had startled the people around him, and the people in the courtyard stood up in a panic, and several people in the backyard also found me and ran in, which also frightened the women in the building, and thought that something was wrong, so they all ran away.

At this moment, I don't know who was so frightened that he shouted: "My wife has found the door, run!" ”

This sound was terrible, and suddenly all the people in the Qinglou were in chaos, screaming and screaming, and the women were all shouting and scurrying, and countless room doors were pushed open suddenly, and many people ran out before they even had time to put on their clothes, and there were people shouting behind them.

"Hey, give me money, don't run!"

"Dead ghost, your wife doesn't want an old lady when she comes to the door, right, beat you a worthless negative man!"

"Childe, you have to come again, the slave family is waiting for you!"

The guests ran, the girls made a fuss, and suddenly the whole incense courtyard became a mess, and those nursing homes had no time to catch me, and it was too late to protect the chaos of the scene, so I took the opportunity to mix in the crowd and hurriedly ran out.

Just as I was about to get out of the gate, I turned around in the midst of a chaotic crowd.

In the deepest part of the courtyard, the scholar in the foggy shirt stood quietly in the corner, although there was chaos in front of him, his face was always as calm as ever, looking at this qiē calmly, and his eyes looked towards me like electricity.

My heart panicked, and suddenly my steps were also chaotic, and I was pushed by the person behind me, and I stumbled and fell down all of a sudden, but I just avoided that gaze.

At that moment, a strong arm reached out and hugged me all at once.

I opened my eyes in horror, and when I looked up, I met Liu San'er's dark eyes.

At this moment, he also had a surprised expression on his face, as if he couldn't believe that I would appear here, but without the slightest hesitation, he took me into his arms and pushed away the people around him.

The moment I threw myself into his arms, I was in a trance.

There is a nightmare that will come to reality, no matter how far you have traveled and how much you have forgotten the past, he will still break free from the ashes of time and choke your throat.

Sometimes, even if you use your life to escape, you find that it is always behind you, like a shadow.

Just now, when I almost thought I was going to be consumed by that nightmare again, he appeared.

I grabbed his clothes at once and hugged him tightly: "San'er! ”

He hugged me, although his hands were strong, they were also a little trembling, and his voice trembled slightly: "It's okay, it's light, I'm here." ”

After saying that, one hand hugged me hard, and the other hand desperately pushed away the people around me, not letting anyone bump into me, stumbling all the way, and finally walked out with the crowd.

The scene in the incense house lasted until the evening, and it is said that there were many jokes in the town, the women of the Qinglou and the wives and concubines who rushed to the scene together grabbed the men and beat them on the street, and even the girls chased them until they reached the house to ask for money.

Half the town was in chaos.

But the initiators of this qiē, me and Liu San'er, are unusually quiet.

Along the way, neither of them spoke again, until they returned home, he carried me gently to the bed, I still lowered my head, did not say a word.

Liu San'er slowly sat on the edge of the bed, kept looking at me, and was silent for some time, he finally spoke, and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry." ”

“……”

I looked up at him.

There was still a trace of panic on his face, as if he was afraid of something, he reached over and grabbed my hand, I tried to pull it away slightly, but he grabbed it tighter: "I'm sorry." ”

“……”

"Light, I know I shouldn't lie to you."

“……”

"I also know that you won't agree to go to that kind of place."

“……”

"But I really just went to work, and the wages were much higher there. In the past, I didn't want to go to that kind of place, but I really liked to hear what people said. ”

“……”

The fingertips he held were cold, and when I spoke, the cold feeling stained my voice from my heart: "Why? ”

“……”

He fell silent, and I didn't ask any more questions, just kept looking at him.

After a long time, Liu San'er finally said to me as if he had made up his mind: "Light, since I was a child, I wanted to read because I didn't want to be blind; Later, after you came, I wanted to study literature in order to make myself worthy of you. You know so much, and with you, I feel like I'm really- useless. ”

As he spoke, an embarrassed smile appeared on his face.

My throat suddenly became hoarse and I couldn't speak.

I never thought that Liu San'er's heart would be like this, after all, there are only one in 10,000 people in the Celestial Empire, there are many illiterate people, and there are even more people who don't study literature, and not many people will be sad because of this. Even if I read thousands of books, see a lot, and understand a lot, I don't necessarily make myself happy, or even more miserable than others.

I never knew it would embarrass him.

"San'er, I-"

I subconsciously wanted to say something, but he gently covered my mouth and said, "But later, it was different. ”

"......" I was stunned and looked at him with wide eyes.

Liu San'er looked at me seriously and said, "Light, you were right before, the more you know, the happier you may be, but I didn't learn it to make myself happier." Because I found that if I know a little more, people will not be in pain without knowing it, and I will not be in trouble without introspection, and I don't want to live a life in a daze. ”

“……”

"Even if you don't have a good life, at least you know why you're not good."

“……”

When I heard him say this, I couldn't help but smile on my face.

But at the same time, tears also spread from my heart.

I finally knew that I had been living so plain and happy all along, but I always had uneasiness in my heart, where did that uneasiness come from.

He...... It's too much like his father and brother.

The same sobriety, the same persistence, even if they are in the mire, does not damage their tenacious souls.

Perhaps, all the pain and all the emotions I experienced in the first half of my life gave me the best luck for the rest of my life, I picked up a treasure, and when I was in a desperate situation, I happened to meet a right, very good person.

But this person resolutely embarked on a road that did not know the future.

I, happy, and unwilling.

Tears were almost spreading out of my eyes, I grabbed his hand with my backhand, clenched it harder than him, and choked up: "Liu San'er, isn't it, even if I ask you not to go there again, you won't agree?" ”

"......" His face stiffened slightly.

"Are you going to go there and continue to listen to those people preach?"

“……”

"San'er ......?"

I looked at him almost with a hint of begging, Liu San'er's face twitched slightly, and in those dark eyes, the most pure and direct eyes in the past, at this time, it seemed to be torn by some force and struggled.

After a long time, his lips opened slightly, his voice was a little hoarse, and he said, "Light." ”

“……”

"I want to live a little more sober."

As soon as I heard this, it was as if some embankment in my heart had collapsed at this moment, and I closed my eyes almost helplessly, and hot tears immediately welled up in my eye sockets and wet my cheeks.

Liu San'er suddenly panicked, hurriedly squatted down, shouted my name, and wiped my tears with his rough thumb, but the tears seemed to be pouring down continuously, and the more they wiped, the more turbulent they became, and in the end they were almost flooded, and he was helpless, holding my face, and shouting in a panic: "Light...... Light you don't cry, light you what's wrong...... Light......? ”

I couldn't speak, I just shook my head, but the tears never stopped.

Late at night.

It's quiet.

I lay on the bed, listening to this tranquility, as if everything in heaven and earth had disappeared, leaving only this person beside me, and his faint sigh.

He couldn't sleep either.

I turned my head slightly sideways and looked at Liu San'er on the ground, the moon was as cold as frost, shining on his clear eyes, even in such a night, it was still shining, even brighter than in the past.

What's wrong with him?

I knew that I was not a good wife, and marrying him with the name of unchastity made him suffer a lot of white eyes for such an honest and straightforward person; After marriage, there was no round house, nothing to do, and it was impossible to even be intimate, but he didn't mind at all, but obeyed me in everything, although the life was not rich, it was the happiest time in my life.

He gave me so much more than I gave him.

How can I, after depriving him of so much, still force it?

"San'er ......"

In the quiet of the night, although my voice was as low as a mosquito, it was like a thunderclap, and he sat up at once, and hurriedly lay down on the side of the bed: "Light! ”

I still lay on my side, looked at his contoured face in the dim light, and said softly, "Go ahead, I won't stop you." ”

A flash of ecstasy flashed in his eyes: "Lightness-!" ”

"But you have to promise me one thing."

"What do you say?"

I gently reached out and grabbed his hand, and said, "No matter what they say or do, you just be a hearr and don't have any contact with them." ”

“……”

"No matter what the world becomes, no matter how much you know, San'er, I want you to be my husband first, and then everyone else. May I? ”

I don't understand what I said, and he is not stupid, and what those people preach is not "right", and what this means, anyone knows in their hearts.

Liu San'er hurriedly nodded and said, "I promise you." ”

It's just that these four words, I didn't say more, and I didn't let him say more, smiled faintly, held his hand and slowly closed his eyes.

But it was Liu San'er, who was still a little uneasy in his heart, lying on the side of the bed against my cheek, and after a long time, he said softly: "Light, you really don't stop me anymore?" ”

I opened my eyes, looked at his eyes that were close at hand, and smiled.

"I don't want you to hate me even more in the future."