That night, I had a rare restful sleep, in the long and quiet dream, finally there was no sneering, hideous faces, no ice and snow and wind cold, but a little warmth, the next morning when I woke up, only to find that the sun was in full bloom outside, a ray of sunlight was casting down from the dilapidated window lattice, shining on my body, bringing a warm melt.

I didn't move, I blinked at the dust flying in the pillar of light, in the sunlight, they had nothing to hide, but as soon as they left the sunlight, they disappeared without a trace.

After watching quietly for a long time, I slowly got up.

As soon as I got out of bed, I saw the figure of a grandmother who came to deliver food at the door.

She didn't usually come so early.

I didn't care when they came or what they were going to eat, but I just turned my head to look out the door, but I saw that the grandmother carefully took out a bowl of rice from the food box, and covered it with a chicken leg and some green vegetables, she glanced at me, her eyes looked a little strange, and said, "Come and eat." ”

I frowned slightly.

Usually they either beat or scold me, and they never say hello to me, a "madman", when they put down things, why today-

I walked over slowly, a little confused, and the grandmother looked at me again, didn't say anything more, turned around and left quickly. I stood in the doorway, a little stunned, looking down at the bowl on the floor.

If I hadn't been so hungry, I wouldn't have eaten what they brought.

I slowly picked up the bowl, the taste of the contents was still not so good, just a stomach, I sniffed, and carefully picked up the chicken leg and took a bite, the aroma and fat of the cooked meat suddenly overflowed the entire mouth, the taste made me slightly prostration, it was really too long to eat.

And what surprised me even more was that there was no medicine in it, no grass aconitum aconitum , no vine vine, no strychnine, this was a bowl of rice, no poison!

What's going on? Why did they send me a bowl of unmedicated food, Nangong Lizhu had obviously explained to them before, it was impossible for them to go against Concubine Li's wishes.

Thinking back to the strange expression of the grandmother just now, could it be that someone asked her to send it?

Who is it?

My brows furrowed suddenly, and I raised my head nervously, I was still the only one in this small courtyard, the courtyard door had been closed, and outside the small courtyard, there was no one else passing by the path all year round, it was like an isolated island, in the already cold and lonely cold palace, more and more lonely.

A gust of wind blew, and only the fallen leaves were swept to the corners of the wall to make a rustling sound, which made the place even more lonely.

But I had a vague sense that this loneliness was coming to an end.

The days in the cold palace passed quickly, and every morning I watched the light of the sun from the wooden fence move little by little, and when it moved to the corner, the day passed, and I spent almost this way for two years, and I didn't seem to find it difficult.

However, this short period of five days is longer than the past two years.

But these days are better than usual, the best thing is that I can finally eat, but I also remember what Mu Hua once said, if people who have been hungry for too long eat a lot, it will cause their stomachs to explode and die, so even if there is no problem with the meal, I don't dare to eat too much, but my spirit is much better than in the past.

Even Xiao Nianshen saw it.

Early this morning, he sneaked into the cold palace, and whispered to me while holding the wooden fence: "Grandma." ”

I walked to the door and saw that he was wearing a new jujube red jacket today, lined with a snow-white and pink face, if a jade doll is so cute, I smiled and said, "Why did Your Highness come here so early today?" ”

"The queen mother said that she would take me to Yuhua Hall today to celebrate the birthday of the concubine, I will come to see you first."

"Your Highness is really messing around, what if the queen finds out?"

Speaking of this, he lowered his head a little lonely: "The queen mother won't." ”

As soon as I heard it, I understood: "Queen Mother, did you lock yourself in the studio again and didn't come out?" ”

Xiao Nianshen nodded lightly.

In fact, after listening to Nian Shen for so long, Chang Qing has not done this once or twice, and the people around him are also used to it, but the child is the child's heart after all, and he still hopes to get the most attention and warmth from his mother, no matter how often Chang Qing is used to being indifferent, it will still make the child feel cold after all.

Thinking of this, I gently reached out to touch his soft heart and smiled softly at him.

Xiao Nianshen looked up at my smile, and seemed to be stunned, and after a long while, he muttered: "Grandma, your eyes are so beautiful when you smile, much better than usual." ”

I bent my eyes at him, "Really?" ”

"Hmm." He nodded earnestly, vigorously, as if he had suddenly discovered something, and said, "Really, Grandma, your eyes are so good-looking, better than what I see in others." ”

“……”

"Except—except for the man in the queen mother's painting, Grandma, your eyes are the best I've ever seen."

My heart moved slightly.

The person in Chang Qing's painting has a pair of the most beautiful eyes?

Although Nian Shen is young and does not know much, he was born in a palace full of flowers, where the beauty is like a cloud, not to mention the beautiful concubine and the beautiful concubine of the country, only the beautiful queen and those concubines, which pair of beautiful autumn water eyes are not moving, but he said that the eyes of the people on that painting are the best.

So, who is on the painting that Chang Qing painted?

I was still thinking about it, Xiao Nianshen looked at the sky, and said, "Oh, I've been out for a while, and they'll be looking for me later, Grandma, I'm going back." ”

"Hmm."

I watched him turn around and run away, but he suddenly remembered something, looked back at me and said, "Grandma, don't worry, I will definitely help you today." ”

I sat at the door, looked at him through the wooden fence, and smiled, "Thank you, Your Highness." ”

He smiled at me and turned to run.

The rest of the time is waiting.

There was a stove burning in the center of the room, but I sat in the doorway far away from the stove, the meager heat could not resist the colder and colder temperature outside, and the wind blew in the dust and fallen leaves, and soon blew my fingertips cold, but I still sat there stubbornly, looking at the somewhat gloomy sky outside.

The heaven of Chonghua Hall should not be like this.

The birthday of the dignified concubine must be a feast of jewels.

I remembered the several banquets I had experienced in the palace, all of which were the same, but the most impressive thing was the night when Pei Yuanxiu married Nangong Lizhu.

I remember that at that time, the night was so deep, but there were many kinds of lanterns everywhere in the palace, which made the night beautiful, and I walked quietly on the most secluded path behind the cold palace.

I don't know why, so many years have passed, but I suddenly remembered that night.

For more than two years, I have rarely thought about the past, because the past is too unbearable, and because the feeling of regret will make my life more difficult, I don't know why, tonight I have some inevitable to think about - if I hadn't gone to the cold palace to visit Ning Yan that night; If that night, I hadn't met the man who was drunk for Nangong Lizhu; If that night, I hadn't stopped him because he was staggering and about to fall into the lake...... What will happen to me now?

Is it possible to stay up peacefully until the day I leave the palace, and take my meager savings to live a little life; Perhaps, after I leave the capital, I will really go south to Yangzhou, because it is far away from the capital, and it is not Shudi; Perhaps, I will really stay in an inn because I don't have time to find a place to stay; Then, I will meet Liu San'er, he is so kind, and he will definitely help me who has no relatives; And then...... And then will he like me like this way, and I, without those experiences, will not shy away from his feelings because of my own filth, will I also like him? Two people can have no scruples, simply get along and get married......

When I think about this, I just feel like my head is about to explode.

"Hmm-"

I curled up desperately, holding my head and curling up hard, but I couldn't resist the sharp pain that almost exploded my body, so I could only tell myself, don't think about it, don't think about it.

I'm in so much pain, I'm ...... I regret it!

I don't know how long I had been tormented by the pain of remorse, and when the night was getting darker, I heard a faint sound of clattering footsteps outside.

The familiar footsteps made me wake up a little, and when I looked up, I saw the door of the small courtyard being pushed open.

Xiao Nianshen cautiously looked at it and made sure that the grandmothers didn't come, so he grinned at me: "Grandma! ”

"Your Highness."

He quickly ran over, his face was flushed, and his body was stained with a lot of the aroma of fat powder, obviously at the night banquet tonight, the concubines in the palace were gone, he was originally smiling, but when he got closer, he saw my face clearly by the moonlight, and immediately said: "Grandma, what's wrong with you?" With such an ugly face, are you sick? ”

I reluctantly shook my head: "No." ”

"Ah, your hands are so cold." He reached out and touched my fingers, looked at me again, and suddenly smiled: "Ha, I know, grandma, you are waiting for me, right?" ”

I looked at him with a smile and nodded.

He looked a little proud, he was originally just a child, living in Chang Qing's indifference and Pei Yuanhao's neglect, and was suddenly entrusted with a heavy responsibility by adults, which made him feel a little more proud, he clenched his hand into a fist in front of me like a treasure, and looked at me with wide eyes: "Grandma." ”

“……”

"I did it!"

“……”

"Look!"

I lowered my head and watched as he slowly opened his small palms.