Do you think that I will really be released by you, check and balance your harem for you, go and fight those two women, and continue to be your woman?

Thinking of this, the sneer on the corner of my mouth deepened.

Kneeling on the ground, looking down and seeing my skinny hands, I can also imagine what the whole person looks like, my body and spirit have been greatly hurt by confinement, drugs and hunger in the past two years, although it is not like the last time I was imprisoned in the cold palace and the next life, but I also know that my body is ruined.

I don't have much strength left, and I don't have much affection, how can I be willing to use it on you and your woman again?

"Get up, it's cold on the ground."

I heard the voice of the Queen Mother, but I didn't get up immediately, but kowtowed deeper.

At this time, Pei Yuanhao turned his head to salute the Queen Mother, and the surrounding concubines suddenly reacted, and they all knelt down, Pei Yuanhao leaned over and said: "I don't know why the Queen Mother suddenly came to the cold palace, and my son was panicked." ”

The Queen Mother said lightly: "I heard that this girl is here, and the mourning family came to see her." ”

After speaking, she took two steps towards me, walked in front of me, looked down at my skinny appearance, and sighed softly: "Girl, why did you do this?" ”

Pei Yuanhao's face became more and more ugly.

He said: "It's freezing here, and the queen mother's health is not good, but I'm afraid that the wind will be big, so let's go to the Warm Fragrance Pavilion to talk about it." ”

The Queen Mother waved her hand: "No need, the mourning family just came over to say a few words, and then went back." ”

"If the queen mother has any words, let her son be commanded."

The Queen Mother nodded, turned her head to him and said, "Let this girl go back to Linshui Pagoda with the mourning family." ”

“……”

Pei Yuanhao still leaned over and didn't move, while Nangong Lizhu and Shen Rou, who were kneeling next to him, moved slightly, and looked at me with sharp eyes.

Pei Yuanhao was silent for a while, and said, "Why did the queen mother take her back to Linshui Pagoda?" ”

The Queen Mother said lightly: "The emperor and these concubines in the harem are all clever people, and the mourning family is not worried, only worried about this girl who doesn't know what to do." Let her follow the mourning family back to the Linshui Pagoda, listen to the Buddha every day and cultivate her mind, so that she can have a good landing, what about the emperor? ”

“……”

"Besides, there are so many people in this palace, and only this girl has an appetite for the mourning family, with her accompanying the mourning family, the mourning family is not so lonely, but I don't think about shaving."

“……”

Pei Yuanhao still didn't speak, but the two women behind him seemed to be a little unable to kneel, or Shen Rou opened her mouth first and said, "Queen Mother, the concubine looks at the Queen Mother to think twice." ”

"Huh?"

"The Queen Mother is kind-hearted and loves Yue Qingying very much, but she is not a kind-hearted person, at the beginning-"

Before she finished speaking, Pei Yuanhao turned her head and glanced at her coldly, Shen Rou was stunned for a moment, and then looked at Xiao Nianshen beside the queen, and the rest of the words could not be said.

The Queen Mother said lightly: "The mourning family has also heard about the original incident. ”

As she spoke, she looked down at me: "Girl, what do you say yourself?" ”

I still knelt on the ground, although my knees and hands were frozen, I didn't feel sad at all, and my voice was calm without a trace of ripples: "The folk girl knows that she has a deep sin, and she only wants to follow the Queen Mother to chant Buddha and Zen every day to atone for her sins and hope that the Queen Mother will be fulfilled." ”

"Hmm." She nodded, turned her head to look at Pei Yuanhao again, and then glanced at the concubines who were kneeling on the ground behind him, and said lightly: "God has the virtue of a good life, this girl has suffered for so many years, so why do you have to kill her?" Your Majesty, leave her a remnant life. ”

Pei Yuanhao leaned over and arched his hand, but he didn't move, but he seemed to grind his teeth, and finally said, "Respect the Empress Dowager." ”

It wasn't until I stepped into the gate of the waterfront pagoda that I was completely relieved.

This relaxation, people are also paralyzed, the Queen Mother hurriedly pointed to a few grandmothers and palace maids to come over and help me to the bed, and instructed the kitchen to make me some soft food, Linshui Pagoda has not seen meat here for many years, but the Queen Mother ordered, the imperial dining room or quickly sent ginseng and chicken soup those nourishing things.

I still didn't eat much, but my body hurt when I was lying at the head of the bed and even breathing, and my hands and feet didn't obey me at all, only cold sweat dripped down my forehead like beads with broken threads.

Mama Gui has been helping me wipe my sweat, and the Queen Mother is sitting on the edge of the bed, clasped hands on her knees, looking at me calmly.

It wasn't until I drank a bowl of hot chicken soup and ate a little porridge that I felt a little more comfortable, and the Queen Mother looked at my gray face and said, "Why did you make yourself like this?" ”

I smiled apologetically.

"Girl." Her voice was still calm, but there was a little more heaviness and majesty in the calm, and she said word by word: "Although the mourning family likes you, it involves the emperor's reputation and the safety of the harem, if you are at fault, the mourning family will not condone you." What has happened over the years, you have to be honest with the mourners! ”

I looked up at her.

She looked into my eyes and said, "The mourning family heard that you are outside the palace and have remarried?" ”

"......" I was silent for a moment and nodded.

"You're so daring."

I bowed my head and said nothing, although the Queen Mother has always been cold to Pei Yuanhao, but after all, it is her son, and I will not be happy as a mother-in-law no matter how generous I am.

However, the Queen Mother did not continue to scold me, looked at me for a while, and suddenly said, "What kind of person is that?" ”

"He's a fisherman."

"Fisherman?"

I nodded, looked up at the Queen Mother, she was still looking at me calmly, and suddenly seemed to be smiling, but I didn't know whether she was laughing at me or laughing at something, but there was an indescribable vastness in that gaze.

I thought about it, and said softly: "At that time, I thought that I would never have to go back to the palace again, I just wanted to have a good time with him......"

"How is he?"

"Good...... Very good. As he spoke, his eyes couldn't help but get a little hot, his voice choked up, and he smiled reluctantly: "Although he is poor, he is a very ambitious young man, if his life is better, he should at least be a minister who rules the world and a minion of the country." Even when the emperor saw him, he said that his insight was different from that of ordinary people. ”

The Queen Mother frowned slightly: "The emperor has also seen him?" ”

"Hmm."

"And what about him now?"

I lowered my head and said softly, "After I left, I don't know where he went." ”

Speaking of this, the tears in my eyes were about to burst out of my eyes, but I could only grit my teeth and endure it, recalling the day I broke with him, as if the whole world had collapsed, and that pain, until now when I think about it, is still tearing my heart.

The Queen Mother pondered for a long time, and said slowly: "You just want to leave the palace for him?" Do you want to go to him? ”

I shook my head.

The days I spent with him were dreams that I never wanted to wake up from for the rest of my life, but he - maybe he would never remember me again in this life.

I don't deserve to go to him again.

"Then why did you leave the palace?"

I slowly raised my head and looked at the Queen Mother, and said solemnly: "Queen Mother, I-When I left the emperor, I was already pregnant with his child, and later, I gave birth to a daughter. ”

"What?!" When the Queen Mother heard this, she was taken aback: "You gave birth to a daughter to the emperor?" ”

"Yes."

"What about the child?"

Speaking of this, I tightened the sheets under my body and said, "More than two years ago, the Shengjing army went south, and the emperor took me to the north, the child stayed in Texas, and the emperor and I went to Dongzhou, but when we went back-"

"What's wrong with the kid?"

"Kid, there's been an attack."

"What?" The Queen Mother's face turned pale all of a sudden, and she grabbed my hand: "Then, the child is dead?" ”

"I don't know." I shook my head: "The officer of the guard said that the child was taken away by Pei Yuanxiu. ”

"Yuan-Xiu?"

The Queen Mother's face also changed several times for a while, and after being silent for a long time, she slowly said to herself: "No wonder over the years, the emperor has been sending people outside the palace, and every year there is only a lot more, but there is no result, and there is no sue for the mourning family, it turns out - it turned out to be a child's business." She thought for a moment, turned to look at me and said, "However, since the emperor has been looking for so many years and has not found it, you-"

I said, "It's because the emperor is looking for it that I can't find it." ”

The Queen Mother was slightly stunned and looked at me: "Pei Yuanxiu him...... Is he for you? ”

I nodded silently.

"The person who attacked the child is Nangong Lizhu?"

I gritted my teeth and said, "It's her!" ”

The Queen Mother looked at me with some surprise, with an indescribable blankness on her face, and after a long while, she smiled faintly: "Their two brothers...... What a wickedness. ”

I thought back to Pei Yuanxiu, who was seriously injured and bleeding all over the place in Dongzhou at that time, and then thought about Nangong Lizhu, who had just stood in front of me with a big belly and a jeweled poop, and I also felt that this qiē was like a trick of God.

The Queen Mother said slowly: "No wonder, you have to let Mama Qian come to beg for the mourning family." ”

I have always been able to feel that the Queen Mother has a special affection for her children, and she has a soft heart of compassion more than ordinary people, so all I can ask for is her, and the only one who can move her is my child who is still outside the palace and whose life and death are unknown.

She said: "But, you must know that the emperor can let you go to the mourning house, but he may not let you out. ”

I bit my lower lip and didn't speak.

Of course he wouldn't let me go, at least not yet—maybe even if he did, he wouldn't let me out of the city.

However, at least I don't have to be locked up in a cold palace now, starving every day, relying on Mama Qian and Nian Shen's alms to live, and I must go to a relatively relaxed environment before I can think about what to do next.

At this time, the Queen Mother suddenly said: "You just said that you went to Dongzhou more than two years ago. ”

"Yes."

"Is it fighting against Losh?"

"Well, it's him."

The corners of the Queen Mother's lips hooked slightly: "This child has grown up and poured out his breath." ”

I just remembered that the legend I heard about the Iron Mask King in Yunling, according to General Ba, the Queen Mother is the sister of the Iron Mask King who crisscrossed the grassland, so Luo Shi can be regarded as her junior.

I thought about it for a while and said, "I was taken to the grassland by him, and I also met the Eight Heavenly Kings, and there are many people. ”

"Oh?"