I looked at Chang Qing with a little pale face, she met my eyes, and a little smile appeared on her indifferent face: "You already know what this palace has to entrust you, right?" ”

I bit my lower lip: "Why me?" ”

"Because in this palace, the only thing this palace can believe in is you." Chang Qing said, and heard Nian Shen whispering in her dream, calling me softly, she smiled: "Besides, in Nian Shen's heart, you are the person he is willing to get close to, so I can have you to take care of him, and this palace is more relieved." ”

“……”

I didn't speak, just bit my lower lip so hard that I almost bit the skin.

Stay and take care of Nian Shen...... However, tomorrow is the day when they will go to the Taimiao Temple to seal the Zen sacrifice, if I stay to take care of Nian Shen, then this time I will not have a chance to leave the palace!

Although I have always been very distressed, my daughter is also outside the palace, waiting for my mother to find her!

My heart seemed to be pinched and my hair hurt, I looked at Xiao Nianshen's red-hot little face silently, and my fingertips subconsciously pulled the sheets under me, almost tearing the sheets, but Chang Qing didn't seem to see it, and continued: "This time for the Zen ceremony, the palace and the emperor will leave the palace for ten days, but some people don't have to go." ”

"......" My heart sank and I looked up at her.

Chang Qing looked at me calmly: "Give the eldest prince to you, and this palace can leave with confidence." ”

She is talking - Shen Rou and Nangong Lizhu?

These two women who are pregnant with Liujia can't stand the fatigue of the journey, of course they won't go to Taimiao, in this way, the two of them and Xiao Nianshen are left in the entire harem, for the two women who may be pregnant with the future crown prince in their bellies, this sick and unconscious child was originally a thorn in the eye, and now, it can be easily removed......

My mind suddenly flashed back then, in the bloody room of Jingren Palace, Xu Youling was lying pale on the bed, and in a trance, she overlapped with the child in front of her.

Nian Shen was bought by her life!

My cramped fingers almost crushed the sheets, my finger bones ached, but I couldn't say a word.

And Chang Qing, she didn't speak, didn't urge me, just calmly took the handkerchief in my hand, which was wetted with ice water, and carefully wiped the beads of sweat on her forehead that were already fine and dense.

Looking at that child, I knew how uncomfortable Nian Shen was now, and my heart seemed to be burned by a fire.

Stay, protect him......

Leave, go find Li'er!

Remain......

Leave!

Two voices in my heart kept shouting, as if two black hands were tearing at my heart, my soul, and with every heartbeat, the thought in my heart changed once, as if something was roaring and almost driving me crazy.

After a long silence, in the entire Jingren Palace, only Nian Shen's faint breathing remained, and he fell together, as if the wind swept through his ears, and he would lose it if he lost his mind a little.

I slowly raised my head, and finally nodded heavily: "Minnu, promise the queen." ”

Chang Qing looked at me, a smile appeared on her tired face, and nodded lightly at me, and I looked down at Nian Shen, who was sleeping groggily, although I was a little unwilling, but I knew that I couldn't give up this child after all.

Whether it is his tragic death of his mother, his young and innocent life, or the simple warmth he gave me when he was in the cold palace, I can't leave this child behind, no matter what, maybe I will have the opportunity to leave the palace in the future, but he, there are not many people who can rely on him in this palace.

I leaned down, my trembling lips gently touched his sweaty forehead, and silently thought in my heart: Li'er, I'm sorry, please wait for my mother for a while, wait for me for a while......

Chang Qing looked at me quietly, and said at this time: "These days, I have worked hard for you." ”

With that, he stood up and turned around and walked out.

I looked back at her back, thought about it, and finally got up and followed her out of the inner room, she heard my footsteps, looked back at me, and I gently bowed to her: "Thank you, Queen Mother." ”

Her eyes looked at me calmly without a trace of waves: "What are you Xie Bengong?" ”

"The gift of food cannot be repaid."

The corners of her mouth hooked slightly, but she didn't speak.

I continued: "The folk girl just doesn't know how the queen mother learned that the folk girl was locked up in the cold palace. ”

Chang Qing's eyes looked at the end of the curtain, Nian Shen, who was lying on the bed calmly, said with a slight heaviness: "Over the years, Bengong has also known that this child has been wronged, although he is sensible, but he still doesn't know what it means to be 'not happy with things, not to be sad with yourself', you taught him like this, and it also saved Bengong a lot of heart." ”

It turned out that since I inadvertently taught Nian Shen at that time, Chang Qing already knew my whereabouts.

But why did she do it?

She has always been an outsider in this harem, and she has never been involved in those intrigues, but this time she brought me non-toxic meals in private, which is not her usual style of staying out of things. Why did she get involved in these things between me and Nangong Lizhu?

In the face of my inquiry, she looked at me, but her eyes seemed a little blank.

It's not the first time I've seen that kind of gaze, I remember that I was still serving Shen Rou in the Chonghua Hall at that time, and she also showed such a blank gaze when she asked who rescued me from the assassins on the night we first met in the Taishi Mansion.

It is like a person, walking on the vast snowfield, with an endless road under his feet, and there is a kind of desolation that stretches as far as the eye can see.

She was silent for a long time, and then her eyes slowly became clear, as if her soul had returned to this body from thousands of miles away, and smiled faintly at me: "Yue Qingying, you-still don't live too soberly." ”

"What?"

"People, it's better to be confused."

I looked at her more and more stunned, Chang Qing looked at Xiao Nianshen again, and said: "He is very sick this time, whether he can get better can only depend on his life, take good care of him, if it is true, then Fu Badai will not have to enter the palace." ”

As soon as I heard Fu Badai's name, I immediately said, "You've already invited him?" ”

Chang Qing said: "The emperor issued an edict to Tianmu Temple before, but Fu Badai was a little strange, and he actually said that he now has an apprentice and does not want to enter the imperial city to serve the prince again." ”

As I listened, my heart moved slightly-Fu Badai, there is already an apprentice?

If you want to say that this person's temper is still difficult to change, he is so clearly resistant, if it is someone else, I am afraid that ten heads are not enough for the emperor to cut off; However, Fu Badai actually accepted apprentices again, he had already retired to Tianmu Temple, how could he accept apprentices; With his temperament, what kind of person can enter his eyes and become his apprentice?

Or is this apprentice ......

Chang Qing said again: "But that day, the palace listened to your words and also advised the emperor, so the emperor was relieved and sent someone to pass on the message, as long as Fu Badai's students are of good character, they can follow Fu Badai into the palace and read for the prince." ”

I frowned and didn't speak, Chang Qing didn't blame me for my poor etiquette, but said: "Okay, go to the Taimiao tomorrow, there are still some things to prepare in the palace, you can take good care of the prince here." ”

"Yes, congratulations to the Queen."

After seeing Chang Qing leave, my brows have not been loosened, and I returned to the bedside to take care of Nianshen with a heavy heart, moistened his face with ice water, and smeared medicinal wine on his palms and feet, the temperature finally dropped slightly, but he still coughed from time to time, and could smell some peculiar smell in the exhaled breath.

This kid doesn't know what kind of torment is inside.

In the evening, I went back to the waterfront pagoda and told the Queen Mother about Nian Shen, and when the Queen Mother heard this, she also frowned and said, "Rotten throat? This disease is not simple, if you are not careful, I am afraid that it will be fatal. ”

My heart is also very heavy, this disease is not easy to treat, ordinary children's children suffer from this disease is almost waiting for death, even if the prince is deep, the queen said that it is "fate", which shows the danger of the disease, and even worse, even if it is lucky, it will leave some embarrassing sequelae.

The Queen Mother sighed lightly: "This child, life is really-"

She didn't continue, but knelt in front of the Buddha shrine and whispered the Buddha's name, I packed up my things a little, and then prepared to go to Jingren Palace, the Queen Mother didn't reply, only said: "You, have made up your mind?" ”

I gritted my teeth: "Hmm." ”

"You must know that if you miss this time, I am afraid that it will be difficult to ask for such an opportunity again."

"Hmm."

"Is it worth it?"

I gritted my teeth, as if I had been struggling for a long time, and finally said, "It doesn't matter if it's worth it or not, I just don't want to be able to sleep even if I find my daughter in the future." ”

I heard the Queen Mother let out a long breath, as if she was laughing, and like sighing, but without looking back, I leaned over her, and walked out of the waterfront pagoda and walked to Jingren Palace.

When I arrived, the medicine happened to be boiled and sent over, and I waited for the medicine to cool down, so I picked up Xiao Nianshen with one hand, and carefully fed the medicine to his mouth with a spoon in the other.

Xiao Nian was groggy and groggy, and raised his heavy eyelids to look at me: "Grandma......"

"Your Highness, come and drink the medicine."

“…… It's so bitter......"

"Your Highness should be obedient, the medicine is bitter, and it will not be so uncomfortable after drinking the medicine."

I said, put a spoonful of medicine into his mouth, he barely swallowed some, there was still some medicine juice flowing from the corner of his mouth, I gently wiped it off for him, Nian Shen looked up at me, and said softly: "Just now, I opened my eyes, I didn't see Grandma, I thought - you don't think ...... deeply"

I endured the sourness in my heart and reluctantly smiled: "How come? I will accompany Your Highness. ”

"Really? Don't lie to me. ”

"Don't lie to Your Highness, but Your Highness must be well-behaved, and you can only get better after drinking medicine."

He was dazed, but he also listened to me, and asked me to send the medicine in with a long mouth, and after a while, half a bowl of medicine was drunk, I carefully helped him lie down, Nianshen curled up in the quilt, and said to me: "Grandma, don't leave while Nianshen is asleep, you have to accompany Nianshen." ”

I smiled and tucked the quilt for him: "Your Highness, don't worry, I will always accompany Your Highness." ”

He smiled with fascinated eyes: "Grandma is the best, I think, Grandma is like a mother......"

I listened to his indecent words, and was about to correct him, but the child was already asleep in a daze again, I reached out and brushed the sweaty hair from his forehead, and said softly: "Your mother is the most courageous person in this palace, and she is the one who exchanged her life for you." ”

……

"I'm not as good as her!"

……

Thinking of this, I felt an unspeakable pain in my heart, and tears filled my eyes with some irrepressible tears, I lowered my head and wiped it, and then got up to leave.

As soon as I got up and took a step back, I hit a solid chest, and a familiar aura that seemed to be soaked in bone marrow enveloped me at once.

My heart sank, and I slowly turned my head.