He frowned and looked at me, and there was a faint hint of anger in his eyebrows, but he didn't say anything, just turned around and walked away.

I hurriedly stepped forward and grabbed his hand.

He froze for a moment, looked back at my wrist, and slowly looked up at me, "What do you mean?" ”

"What were you doing?"

"Do what?" He smiled, as if there was a flame burning in his eyes, but there was not the slightest smile on the dark face hidden in the night, and he said coldly: "Just now, I wasn't drunk and went to your door?" ”

“……”

"Didn't I dare to go to you only when I was drunk?"

After saying this, he was about to break free of my hand, but I squeezed it tighter, he was scratched by my fingers a little painful, frowning at me, I only grabbed his wrist tightly, almost pinched my nails into his skin, after a while, I said: "I said, before you came to my door!" ”

His expression flashed, he turned his face away, and said lightly: "I went drinking." ”

"You're lying!"

When I said these three words, the roots of his teeth hurt, and when he heard these three words, his wrist trembled involuntarily, and he turned to look at me.

"You're lying!"

I let go of his hand as I spoke, and he didn't just walk away, just watched as I slowly raised my hand, the wound on my palm that had just been cut by the rough ground was still there, and the sand and stones were still on my wounds.

The scars on the palms were extremely red, dazzlingly red, but not only the blood that flowed from the wounds, but also the mud and sand that were as red as flames, sinking deep into the flesh.

The expression on his face trembled, his eyes flickered, as if he didn't dare to look at me anymore, and subconsciously turned his head, but I took a step forward and aggressively asked him: "Why is there red dirt on the soles of your shoes!" ”

“……”

"Where have you been?"

“……”

"Where did you go before you got to my door?!"

“……”

Although it was such a silent night, I tried my best to lower my voice, but at this moment, I was still a little uncontrollable, and my throat was almost salty and sweet with the smell of blood, he looked at me, silently lowered one eyelid, and was silent and no longer spoke.

I finally said slowly, "There's no red dirt around here, and if you're just drinking in this Juma Valley, you won't get this stuff on it." ”

“……”

"Where have you been?"

“……”

"Say! Where have you been?! ”

“……”

His eyelids were lowered, and his eyelashes, which were as thick as crow's wings, covered those eyes that were originally clear, and I could not see what kind of ripples those eyes were making at this time, but after a long silence, he slowly raised his head to look at me, and the corners of his mouth hooked a faint, almost invisible laugh line.

"Don't you already know?"

My heart sank.

There is no red mud in the vicinity of the Juma River Valley, and there is no such bloody red soil in all the places around it.

Except for one place.

Wash the sword pool!

The place where the military department arranges for the training of troops.

That is, now, where Shen Xiaokun is stationed with soldiers and horses!

No wonder, I haven't seen him in the Spring Hunting team for the past two days, even if Pei Yuanhao and I were attacked by a tiger and I was injured, he didn't show up, it turned out that he went to the sword washing pool alone!

Although this section of the road, the holy car walked slowly and leisurely for several days, but if a person galloped fast, in fact, one day was more than enough, and besides, he should have been away for two whole days, enough for him to go to the sword washing pool, and he could still be drunk and fall at my door like that! He rode his horse all the way, and the red dirt on the soles of his shoes didn't fall too much, so that when he sat down against my door, he all fell to the ground.

He, why go there? What is he going to do there?!

Questions were surging wildly in my mind, and the possible answers to each question were about to come out, almost tearing my head apart, I just felt a terrible pain all over my body, and choked up and said, "You, what are you going to do?" ”

He didn't answer me, didn't even say another word, but the light in those eyes slowly shrank in, leaving only a solemn black, I only felt that I was trembling uncontrollably, getting more and more powerful, and even my voice was almost fragmented: "Sue me, what are you going to do?" ”

“……”

"Do you know what you're doing?!"

Hearing this, he slowly raised his eyes and looked at me calmly: "I know. ”

“……”

"I do everything and I'm sober, I know what I want to do and I know what I want."

“……”

"What about you?"

"Me?"

"Do you still want to stay with him now?"

My heart trembled, and I looked at him with wide eyes, and heard his calm and steady voice ringing in the night—"What would you do if I said that I had done all this qiē for you, for you to get out of his side, and for me and yours to have a possible future?" ”

“……”

"You're still going to stop me?"

I was dumbfounded, lost my reaction for a moment, and stared at him with wide eyes.

What did he say?

For the sake of me and his future......

His eyes flickered in the night, and he slowly stepped forward and walked in front of me, so close that he was almost close to my body, and when he lowered his head, his lips with body temperature and alcohol rubbed my forehead as if they were nothing, and said word by word: "In your heart, me or him, who is more important?" ”

“……”

"Who will you help?"

When he breathed, the familiar breath was like a pair of hot hands, and immediately embraced my whole body, I only felt that I was trembling so much that I couldn't look like it, and in a trance I had the illusion that I was completely unable to resist being invaded.

Biting my lower lip hard, until my teeth bit into the flesh, the tip of my tongue tasted the taste of blood, that salty smell made me a little fresher, I slowly raised my head to his dark eyes, and said word by word: "You are more important, it doesn't mean that you are right." ”

“……！”

His expression shook and he looked at me solemnly.

A gust of wind blew from behind, carrying a cool breeze across the mountain roads on both sides, and the lush grass rustled.

At this time, he raised his eyebrows, and there was immediately a hint of playfulness in his eyes: "Oh-? ”

I had never seen him with such an expression, it was so strange that it seemed to be another person, I couldn't help but clench my hand, trying to give myself a little clarity through the pain of the wound in my palm, but I suddenly felt that my hand was really empty.

Nothing, it's all gone.

The man who curled up with me on a small bed, smiling and blushing, is no longer there; The man who went to the stone house to take a shower in the cold water that night had already been too far away from me and from him......

I bit my lower lip and looked at him: "Right and wrong, and human feelings, are two different things. ”

"Really? The right and wrong in your heart and your feelings can be two different things? ”

His eyes looked more solemn, but the expression on his face became more and more playful, he lowered his head, pressed his hot ear, and said slowly: "If what I do is wrong, what will you do to me?" ”

After saying that, Qing Han smiled faintly at me, and the smile was so indifferent that it seemed that when he left, the wind that swept over his face disappeared in a flash.

I stood there and looked at the darkness of the night around me, and I felt like my whole body was empty.

If he did, if he did it all wrong, what would I do to him?

I never thought that I would have to confront him, and I even felt that even if the whole world was against me, he would definitely stand by my side, even in front of me, and help me resist all attacks and poisonous arrows, just as he helped me stand in front of all the villagers when we first got married.

But what if I'm going to face him?

What will happen to me? What will happen to him?

I couldn't think about it at all, I didn't even know what I should do, I just felt that my heart was empty, as if someone had hollowed it out, and I walked around the dark camp at a loss, and before I knew it, I heard the guard in front of me shouting: "Stop! ”

"Ah......" I looked up blankly, only to find that I had unconsciously walked in front of the king's tent.

"The Queen Mother has an order, the emperor is recuperating and no one is allowed to enter. Lord Yue, please go back! ”

I stood there, looking at it a little blankly, it seemed that there was a faint candlelight in the heavy tent, through the bright yellow tent, giving people an illusion of warmth, I muttered: "I, I want to see the Queen Mother......"

"No way!"

Just as they were about to stretch out their hands to stop me, the voice of the Queen Mother came from inside: "Is it Yue Qingying?" Let her in. ”

When the guards heard this, they immediately retreated to both sides, and I made up my mind before I walked in.

As soon as I entered the tent, I immediately smelled a familiar, sandalwood smell, mixed with a little bitterness of medicine, permeating the entire tent, and a faint candle flame swayed on the desk, reflecting the emaciated figure of the Queen Mother on the tent, casting a long, emaciated shadow.

She sat on the edge of the bed, and when she saw me enter, she beckoned to me: "Girl, come." ”

I walked over and saw the person on the bed at a glance.

It's rare to see him lying quietly like this.

More often than not, he stood in high spirits, as if he wanted everyone to crawl at his feet, and he wanted to look down on everyone condescendingly, and he should never lie quietly like now, with wounds on his body, and a sickly flush left by a continuous low-grade fever on his face, and in the shadow of the candle flame, his angular face also revealed a kind of haggardness.

And light cold, completely different from haggard.

Such two men and women, one is the supreme Ninety-Five Supreme, and the other is a barefoot man who fishes to make a living, as if one day and one place should not intersect at all.

But now, it was as if it was tearing at my body and soul, trying to tear me apart all the time.

Seeing me standing on the edge of the bed, slightly stunned, the Queen Mother looked at me for a while, and said softly: "Girl, what's wrong?" ”

"......" I turned my head to look at her: "Queen Mother." ”

She looked at me, reached out and rubbed my eyebrows with her thumb: "You, what's the knot?" ”

“……”

"Do you want the mourning family to help you untie it?"

I was silent for a while, looking at the Queen Mother's somewhat familiar eyes, and then at the man on the bed, I suddenly walked up to her, gently knelt on her knees, and said, "Queen Mother, do you love your child?" ”

"......" she was stunned and looked at me in amazement.

"Do you love your children? Your own flesh and blood, do you love him? ”

This sentence was obviously a joke, but the Queen Mother didn't seem to be able to laugh, her old face seemed to be several years old all of a sudden under the reflection of the candle flame, and she was silent for a long time, and she finally nodded: "Of course." ”

"What if his heart is not open and upright? If he were a man of bad character, would you still love him? If he had done something unreasonable, would you still love him the same? ”

The Queen Mother looked down at me, her eyes flickering with the candlelight: "Why do you ask this?" ”

"I want to know, please untie my heart knot!"

“……”

She thought for a while and said ramblingly: "Parents all over the world love their children. If he has a bad character and bad behavior, as a mother, the mourning family will inevitably be disappointed, and he will definitely discipline him strictly and let him go on the right path. She said, her eyes added a little stern, and said: "But if he is stubborn and vicious, then this son is just a biological son for the mourning family, and the mourning family will not have more expectations for him, and even the mourning family will give up on him." ”

When I heard this, I hurriedly said, "Will the Queen Mother give up on him?" Won't the Queen Mother love him because he is your biological son, and she will always favor him no matter what he does? ”

The Queen Mother smiled and said meaningfully: "If he is not a good person, what does the mourning family love him?" ”

“……！”

My heart shook violently.

If he is not a good person, what does the mourning family love him?

I just remembered that the first time the Queen Mother asked me about Huang Tianba, the first sentence was to ask him how his conduct was, which was not just a simple question, but the most basic prayer and requirement for a person who was the most important to herself.

If he wasn't a good man, what would I love about him?

Yes, if he is not a good person, what is there to be loved and cherished?

I fell in love with him because he was a good man, well-behaved, diligent and motivated, if he did not have such merits, but was a person who disregarded the life and death of others, only for his own selfish interests, and fell into the misery of thousands of lives, then where is it worthy of preference?

No one will love a **** villain who humiliates, kills and sets fires, because it's not worth it!

He is good, and he deserves this qiē!

With such a simple truth, why would I entangle myself, and why would I have to help me untie this knot later? Could it be that just because it's him, I'm reluctant, so even myself has become confused?!

The Queen Mother looked at my struggling eyes, gently reached out and stroked my cheek, and said, "Girl, what to do, you should know very well." ”

"Queen Mother, I-"

The Queen Mother looked at my entangled gaze, as if she felt something, and said, "What are you still hesitating about?" ”

I bit my lower lip and looked up into her gaze: "What if, I don't want to give up on him like this?" ”

"......" This time, the Queen Mother's gaze became a little deeper, she thought for a while, and said: "The mourning family has just said that if the mourning family's biological son misbehaves, the mourning family will naturally use his mother's identity to discipline him strictly." ”

"If you, if the person you love is of bad character, of course you should use your own strength to influence him and stand your ground, instead of following him and acting according to his goals because you love him; You can't let him do whatever he wants because you love him. So he's him, and what are you? ”

"Girl, you're injured here," the Queen Mother looked at my hand, and then tapped my forehead with her fingertips: "Here, no!" ”

My heart shook violently.

The Queen Mother continued to look at me and said, "What to do, you know it very well." ”

I looked at the old man in front of me with a haggard face, her health was not good, and she never seemed to have said such a long thing, she was slightly unevenly wheezing, and her face was a little pale. But on that pale and old face, there was a strange brilliance, which looked so dazzling in such a dim light.

I finally understand why, for so many years, the Emperor Taishang has always had respect for the Linshui Stupa and has always been in awe of her, and this is not without reason.

Maybe some things at the beginning made the Emperor feel guilty about her, but the feelings of guilt will not make people respect her, only her firmness and integrity in her heart can make people truly respect!

I felt my heart burning for a while, there was a feeling that seemed to be far away, but in fact it had never left me, it was constantly surging, and it couldn't stop overflowing, I stretched out my slightly hot hand, held her fingertips, and nodded deeply: "Queen Mother, Qingying knows." ”

I stood up slowly, and a gust of wind came from nowhere, only to feel a chill through my muscles and bones, all the way to my heart, and even the candle flame in the tent flickered.

I lowered my head and looked at Pei Yuanhao on the bed, frowned slightly, and the Queen Mother still looked at me: "Girl." ”

"Queen Mother, Qingying went to do things first."

With that, I gave her a gentle blessing and turned to walk out.

As soon as I walked to the door, I lifted the curtain, but I saw a few soldiers in soft armor outside walking up, surrounding the door of the king's tent, and looking down at me: "Lord Yue." ”

I frowned and looked around - what about the guards? Why didn't they stop?

My heart chuckled, but I still determined: "Who are you?" ”