There is a fate that will eventually be together, and it is the total separation of evil.

I listened to the inexplicable tightness in my heart, as if some indescribable sadness welled up in my heart.

Destined...... It is a sin to gather together for a long time...... Total separation.

It's just a short ten words, but it seems to be able to chew too much love out of it.

Sad, helpless, as if a person has pursued a lifelong dream for himself, obviously once so close, obviously he has always refused to give up, but he has never been able to grasp it, and he can't grasp it even if he stretches out his hand.

Or is it a determination that refuses to give up?

Because faith is fate, no matter how great the difficulties are experienced, no matter how long the separation is, I believe that there will be a day when we will be reunited.

Light cold, which one are you?

When you chant these two lines, what kind of mood do you have for me and for us?

I stood there, all my thoughts were condensed for a while, and I forgot about the qiē around me, and at this moment, a crisp voice came from the front, interrupting my thoughts at once-

"Aunt Qing!"

When I looked up, I saw Nian Shen running over from Chang Qing with a smile and hugging my thigh.

I was knocked by him, but I suddenly woke up after such a shock, looked down at the little face like a bun and raised it, my eyes were bent into two crescents, and I said sweetly: "Aunt Qing, you are here." ”

I smiled and patted his chubby little face: "Your Highness." ”

I reached out and patted his increasingly broad shoulder, and looked up at Chang Qing, who only sat there with a calm smile, the light in the room was not too bright and made her delicate silhouette a little deeper.

Nian Shen was still young, and he couldn't feel the undercurrent in it at all, so he just hugged me and said with a smile: "Aunt Qing, Nian Shen hasn't seen you for a few days, and my father said that Aunt Qing is not in good health?" Where does Aunt Qing hurt? ”

"Aunt Qing doesn't hurt."

"Really?"

"It doesn't hurt to see His Highness."

When he heard this, he immediately laughed so much that his eyes were almost gone, and he took my hand and said, "Aunt Qing, Nian Shen has learned a lot of things recently, wait for Aunt Qing to get better, Nian Shen will show Aunt Qing silently." ”

I stretched out my hand and stroked his little face, and said with a smile: "Aunt Qing knows that His Highness has been working hard, but His Royal Highness may not know, in fact, the two lines of poetry that your senior brother read, as well as the following two sentences." ”

"Really?" Nian Shen hurriedly pulled me: "Aunt Qing knows, read it to me." ”

I nodded, squatted down to look at his dark eyes, and said word by word: "Gather and disperse at ease, and my heart will always be the same." ”

"Gathering and dispersing...... Margin...... Comfortable, my heart...... It's always the same......"

With Nianshen's age and experience, it was already very difficult to understand the previous two sentences, and these two lines of poetry made the little brows twist into pimples. I smiled and looked up at Chang Qing, she seemed to have lost her mind for a while, and there were a little imperceptible ripples in her autumn-like eyes, but she quickly calmed down and said lightly: "Okay, Nianshen, the queen mother has something to talk to your Aunt Qing." You go back first and read today's homework again. ”

"Oh...... Yes, the queen mother. The retainers retired. ”

Nian Shen was still a little reluctant, holding my little finger, but also obedient, saluted Chang Qing and me, and turned around and walked out. Buckle and Xing'er also silently retreated and closed the door.

Only then did I raise my head and walk in front of Chang Qing.

The room was still so quiet, there was not even the wind, and the light smoke from the bronze incense burner on the low couch beside her became a straight line, until it was very high before slowly diffuse, as if it was the only vividness in the room.

I bowed softly to her.

Chang Qing didn't speak, just sat there quietly, the bright eyes of the autumn water regained the calm of the past, as if there were no ripples on the surface of the lake, under the light smoke looked a little confused, and seemed to be thinking deeply about something, I stood in front of her for a while, and there was no reaction.

I said softly, "The queen mother? ”

“……”

She was called back to her heart by me, and she raised her head to look at me a little blankly, and I said softly: "Niangniang summoned Weichen over, do you have something to explain?" ”

“……”

She was silent for a while, then looked at me and said, "Do you know what this palace is looking for you to say?" ”

"Wechen knows."

"Your answer, that's what it just was?"

"Yes."

Chang Qing's eyes were clouded, as if she was a little weak and helpless, and sighed softly: "Why are you still so stubborn?" ”

I listened, did not argue, did not answer, just kept my head bowed in silence.

Actually, I don't think I'm stubborn.

I can understand what she thinks, maybe everyone will feel that after getting along with a person for too long and being entangled too deeply, it is inevitable that they will be exhausted, tired, compromised, and helplessly think, since it has been all these years, it is better to leave it like this. Then, allow yourself to take a step back, and take another step back.

Slowly, I became compromised with everything, tolerated with everything, and finally, I didn't know myself anymore.

However, I don't want to "leave it at that."

I've always known what I wanted, and even—I got it, so I knew that the way I was now, wasn't what I wanted.

The words that Yang Jinqiao once said to me, after going through so much, made me understand it more clearly.

People, if you don't want to end up with nothing, it's best to take the first step, don't back down!

Because, the result after the concession, I know too well!

Seeing that I was always calm and silent, but firm enough not to see a trace of trembling eyes, Chang Qing seemed to know that she couldn't convince me, she thought for a while, and said slowly: "This palace also knows that there are some things that should not be forced on you, but this palace still has to say-"

I looked at her in silence.

"The affairs of the court, even if you don't ask, you should know that the situation is not optimistic, and the emperor is very bitter now."

Last time, she said that it was not easy, and this time, it was very bitter.

Recalling Pei Yuanhao's red eyes and tired eyes yesterday, I lowered my eyes silently.

"This palace doesn't force you to turn back, or ask you to do anything, it's just these times-"

"Niangniang," I interrupted her calmly and said, "When Weichen woke up before, he had already told Niangniang. This is already the best that Weichen can do. ”

The word "best", I accentuated my tone a little more, Chang Qing seemed to feel something, and was stunned for a moment.

I still looked at her calmly.

What kind of person I am, Chang Qing may not fully understand, but she can't not know at all.

This is the best I can do. I said this sentence very sincerely, but I didn't finish it, I didn't tell her, this is also the maximum limit of what I can endure.

At least, I didn't light a fire in his backyard when there was a crisis in his government......

I didn't even think about Nangong Lizhu anymore......

It's not that I've forgotten the pain of the past, I'm not a person who forgets all of my pain after it's gone, and I don't have the kind heart to repay grievances with virtue, I just feel that I shouldn't be entangled with him and the two of them anymore.

The deeper I got entangled, the harder it was for me to get out.

After a long silence, Chang Qing looked at me and said slowly, "Have you made up your mind?" ”

I nodded slightly.

This time, she didn't say anything more, I thought she would be angry, at least some displeasure that I didn't know what to do, but she didn't, just looked at me so calmly, and there seemed to be some clear light in her eyes. After a while, she smiled faintly, as if to wipe out the previous conversation with me: "Let's go out for a walk with this palace." ”

“……”

I was stunned for a moment, I couldn't react to her jumping, but I quickly followed her up and walked out.

The sun outside was a little poisonous, but she kept walking in silence, as if she couldn't feel anything, and in the bright sun, her eyes were still so faint, without a little warm coldness.

I followed her quietly.

This top woman in the Celestial Empire, she has had all kinds of glory that others can't imagine, and even the expectations of many famous ladies, but only I know that her eyes that I have seen over the years have always been so indifferent, almost unimaginable.

This is what I feel most sorry for her.

The two of them walked for a while and entered the Imperial Garden, where the green trees were lush and full of flowers, and the fresh smell of the air made people feel more comfortable, and she looked back and saw me sweating, and then came back to her senses: "Go over there and sit and enjoy the cool." ”

"Hmm."

I followed her into a gazebo, where the shaded area was a little more comfortable. I took out a handkerchief from my sleeve to wipe the sweat on my forehead, Chang Qing sat next to me and watched, and suddenly said, "This is your handkerchief?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, looking down at the somewhat rough white handkerchief in my hand.

It's not mine, but when I saw Qinghan in the bamboo forest outside the garden, he saw me crying and gave it to me, and I kept it, but Chang Qing looked at it squarely.

Although my identity is the orthography of Jixian Palace, but the degree of food and clothing is from the harem, such a handkerchief naturally should not appear in my hand.

“…… Be. ”

Listening to my somewhat hesitant answer, Chang Qing already understood.

She turned her head lightly, looked at the green leaves outside that were shining with oil in the sun, and said lightly: "Qingying, you have been by the side of the Queen Mother and have been reciting the Buddha for so long, do you know what compassion means?" ”

Mercy?

I raised my head to look at her, muttered for a while, and said slowly, "Compassion is the happiness that it brings to all beings; Compassion is the relief of the suffering of sentient beings. ”

"Do you understand compassion?"

"Wechen ......"

I sat there silently, not knowing how to answer for a while, Chang Qing turned his head to look at me, smiled and said: "This palace does not require you to do your best, do better, this palace just hopes that you can be more merciful to the emperor." ”

A little more compassion......

I was a little speechless, just sat there, looking at her tranquil face, and my thoughts were heavy for a moment.

I don't know how long it took, there was a sound of footsteps behind me, Chang Qing looked up behind me, and immediately stood up and gave a gentle blessing behind me: "The concubine pays a visit to the emperor." ”

It was Pei Yuanhao who came.

In the past, no matter how I faced him, I was not moved at all, and all kinds of feelings in the past could not be aroused, but today, just now I heard the word "mercy", but I was a little at a loss, hesitated, and finally carefully put the handkerchief back in the sleeve, and then turned around and bowed to the person who had already walked outside the pavilion: "Weichen greets the emperor." ”

"Get up."

He stepped forward and helped me up, with a little relief in the corners of his eyes: "Queen, why are you here?" ”

"It's too hot in the house, I want to come out and blow the wind."

"Oh." He looked down at me: "Aren't you sad? ”

I lowered my head, was silent for a moment, and shook my head: "Weichen is fine." ”

It was okay to say yes, but in the end it was such a sultry weather, my forehead was already covered with sweat, but the handkerchief could not be taken out, he looked at my sunburned cheeks and said, "Still hot?" ”

I didn't speak, just nodded.

Seeing me like this, Chang Qing also seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, so he smiled and said, "This year is a little stuffy, and there is no wind at all in this imperial garden." ”

"Hmm." Pei Yuanhao frowned, looked at the low pavilion, and seemed to be a little dissatisfied.

I looked at him, then at Chang Qing, and suddenly said: "There is a balcony in Jixian Palace, which is two stories higher than such a pavilion, the scenery is excellent, it is ventilated and cool, Niangniang can go over and have a look." ”

"Jixian Palace?"

Pei Yuanhao listened and said: "Although it's cool there, it's far away, and you're not in good health now, so don't go." ”

“…… Be. ”

His words did not surprise me, and his lips pursed slightly.

He's still so careful.

These days, he didn't really put me under house arrest, nor did he forcibly imprison me, but as long as he said a word, I couldn't take a step forward, and I couldn't even go to the imperial study that I could get close to in the past.

I looked up at the red wall not far away.

With such a high red wall, not a single wind can blow in, what else can get in, and how can it get out?

Before I knew it, another two or three days passed.

After that day, Chang Qing didn't look for me again, and I stayed in my own room peacefully, no matter how hot it was, there was an ice tray sent by her, I knew that my health was not good, and I didn't eat much, so I gave Shui Xiu and Kou'er a few of them, hiding in my house and eating a mouthful of juice.

On this day, Mama Wu watched them gather around the table and eat heavily, and walked over with a smile and patted Shui Xiu's head: "The things sent to the adults are cheap for you again!" ”

Shui Xiu and Kou'er were holding watermelons with a smile, still eating juicy.

Mama Wu smiled helplessly, and sent me a bowl of soup to relieve the heat: "Adults don't eat cold, drink some of this to relieve the heat." ”

I glanced up at her and smiled and took it.

When I finished drinking, Shui Xiu and the others also ate all their food, and they were cleaning up amid Mama Wu's scolding, when they heard the people outside: "The emperor has arrived." ”

As soon as they heard this, they all panicked and stopped what they were doing, and hurriedly knelt down, I turned around and saw Pei Yuanhao walking in from outside the door, at this time the sun had already gone down, but the heat on the ground was still heavy, and it was sad to come over at this time, as soon as he entered the door, he smiled and said: "You are still cool here." ”

I walked over and was about to bow down when he grabbed my hand and pulled me up.

I couldn't help but frown.

Since that day in the Imperial Garden, he hasn't come over for several days, I thought he had lost his patience, and I thought it was Yun Concubine who was about to give birth, he didn't care about this, but he didn't expect to come over again today, and as soon as he came-

"Your Majesty, Weichen—"

I looked at his hand, I didn't finish my words, I just wanted to remind him, but he didn't seem to hear it, and grabbed it closer.

In such weather, the touch brought by the skin ironing is already hot.

"Your Majesty."

"You come with me."

After he finished speaking, he took me out without saying anything.

I was confused by him, but I was dragged out in such a hot weather, and after a while, I was already sweating profusely, and I entered the imperial garden.

It's still the same place as before, the trees are lush, and the flowers are more colorful and beautiful because of the midsummer heat.

And in such a sinister landscape, a brand new veranda comes into view.

I stood in the corridor, I couldn't react for a while, my eyes widened and looked at the steps that followed the winding up of the corridor not far ahead, Pei Yuanhao pulled me all the way up, only to feel that the vision in front of me suddenly opened up, here and the waterfront terrace of the Jixian Hall is almost exactly the same, four red pillars support this small building, transparent on all sides, a gust of wind swept the fragrance of grass and trees, and swept away the stuffy and irritable atmosphere.

It's-

"So, how?"

His voice sounded in my ears, and I couldn't react for a while, and then slowly turned back to look at him.

"Do you like it here?"

“……”

Three days ago, it was just a low pavilion.

In just three days, such a balcony was built on the spot!

My eyebrows are always slightly frowned, as if something that cannot be untied, and the cool breeze blows, blowing a wisp of green silk in front of me, making me look at the person in front of me, a little blurry and indistinct.

After a while, I said with some difficulty: "Your Majesty, this is—"

"Fix it for you."

“……”

"Do you still like it?"

“……”