Pei Yuanxiu has never been like this, perhaps, because I have never met Pei Yuanxiu like this, he has always had a faint smile, a faint breath, even if he said to me that night in the imperial city, he never treated me as a palace maid, and it was not as urgent as in front of him, almost eager to eager.

As if, as if something had stimulated him, my hand was almost hot in his hot palm.

That was unexpected, Pei Yuanxiu's body temperature.

At this moment, I only feel like my heart is numb, I can't remember a word that I have thought about in my mind before I don't know how many times, just looking at the eyes that are close at hand, obviously so gentle, but it makes me feel helpless that there is nowhere to escape, I can only turn my face away, avoiding his hot eyes.

An equally hot palm lifted up and stroked my cheek.

I shuddered, and could only raise my head to look into his eyes and listen to him repeat gently: "Call me Yuan Xiu." ”

“……”

"Call me - Yuan Xiu."

“……”

I bit my lower lip, the slight pain and the warmth of his palm made me shiver.

But the more this is the case, the clearer my heart becomes.

I don't know how long it took, but I finally raised my head slowly, although my eyes were soft, but unusually firm, and I opened my mouth slightly.

"Childe!"

Pei Yuanxiu froze for a moment.

When he turned around, he saw a familiar figure standing at the end of the path behind him, at the entrance of the inner courtyard, bowing his hands.

It's a layout.

A trace of gloom flashed between Pei Yuanxiu's eyebrows, but it was only a flash, and the temperature of his palm dropped, and he slowly let go of me.

At this time, I almost had the illusion of being choked by the throat and suddenly let go, I took a deep breath, stumbled and retreated to a green bamboo behind me, and suddenly the dew poured down. The sudden chill also calmed me and him. Pei Yuanxiu glanced back at me, the corners of his eyes were also slightly red, and he only said in a low voice: "I'm sorry." ”

“……”

"I said I wouldn't force you, just now, I was abrupt."

“……”

"Don't be angry."

I lowered my head and didn't speak, he looked at me again, bowed his head again and apologized, then turned around and walked towards the gate of the garden, Butu had been standing there, and as soon as he arrived, he whispered: "It seems that some people are going here from the Jiujiang River, let's ......"

His voice was getting lower and lower, and I couldn't hear what was said clearly, and my heart was pounding, which made me a little overwhelmed, just watching the two of them talk in a low voice, Pei Yuanxiu looked back at me again, didn't say anything after all, just nodded at me, and then turned around and left with Butu.

They were gone, I was still leaning on the bamboo, the dew slowly slid down from the top of my head, leaving a long and cold mark on my cheeks, and after a long time, I finally regained my strength, I barely stood up straight, just about to go back to the house, when I turned around and saw the other end of the path, Li'er was wearing a thin little clothes, standing there stupidly.

I suddenly felt refreshed and hurriedly walked over: "Li'er." ”

The expression on her face was a little dumbfounded, and when I went over and picked her up, I felt that her body was a little cold, and her cheeks were also cold, I don't know how long she had been standing there, and hurriedly said, "Why did you come out and have no clothes on." ”

She was held in my arms, still dumbfounded: "Mother, what were you and Daddy doing just now?" ”

“……”

She saw the scene that just happened?

I was a little stunned for a while, I didn't know what to say, and when I looked at the child's black and white clear eyes, I only felt that the originally cold cheeks were also a little hot, and I said, "We, we're talking about things." ”

"Say something? But why is Daddy grabbing your hand and touching your face? ”

“……”

"Daddy usually talks to Aunt Ruoshi about things, and he hasn't done this before."

“…… We're talking about important things. ”

"What's important?"

At the age of a child, it is also the time to get to the bottom of it, but I really can't answer this question, so I can only say perfunctorily: "Li'er is still young now, and I will know when I grow up." ”

She looked at me with dissatisfaction, and a look of solemnity appeared on her little face.

I just carried her back to the room, wrapped her somewhat cold body tightly with the quilt, and kept rubbing her cheeks with my palms, finally warming her up, the child was silent and didn't speak, just kept nesting in the quilt, and after a while, stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around my neck: "Mother, hug." ”

I smiled and hugged her tightly into my arms, and my daughter's warmth and intimacy also made me feel calm.

It's been so long since I talked about Jiangnan, except for seeing Butu on the night I crossed the river, I haven't seen him in this mansion, it seems that he usually goes to do other things, and today he called Pei Yuanxiu away as soon as he appeared, and in the following time, I hardly saw Pei Yuanxiu again.

Don't know what they're up to.

I hugged each other in bed for a long time, almost fell asleep in a daze, and when I woke up, I saw that my daughter was not asleep, her face was red, and her eyes were more and more bright looking at me, I smiled at her, and then hugged her to get up, and after washing up, she combed her hair, and she sat in front of the bronze mirror in a daze.

I smiled and fiddled with her headband, and said with a smile: "Li'er, what are you doing in a daze?" ”

She suddenly woke up, looked up at me, and said, "Mother, what are we doing today?" ”

“……”

She stopped me at this time. Originally, I came here to be a guest, except for yesterday Pei Yuanxiu took me and Li'er to wander around to see the scenery, I had nothing to do, and there was nothing to do, and without the company of the host, my boredom became more and more obvious.

I thought about it, smiled and asked, "When my mother didn't come, what did Li'er usually do?" ”

"Me?" She pouted and thought about it, and said, "Usually my father accompanies me, and I don't know what to do, so time flies so fast, and it gets dark in the blink of an eye." If my father didn't have time, Aunt Ruoshi and Aunt Zitong would accompany me, but now they don't come to me anymore. ”

“……”

She suddenly remembered something and said to me, "Mother, shall we go to the horse farm?" You didn't see me riding yesterday, so I'll show you today, okay? ”

I smiled and nodded, "Okay." ”

Yesterday I have been to the horse farm, and today I am familiar with the way, and there are people who immediately come to serve on the horse farm, and lead the black and shiny little foal of Li'er, and she is carried on the back of the horse, although the foal is not very tall, but it is also powerful, and as soon as Li'er flicks the whip, the foal spreads its hooves and runs.

"Wow, hahahahahaha......"

Li'er smiled happily on horseback, and the dust behind her could not hide her cheerfulness, and she held the reins in one hand and raised the whip in the other, ran around and came back to stop in front of me.

"Mother, you see if I'm powerful!"

Seeing that her face was blooming with a smile and a healthy flush on her face, I was also very happy and praised her: "Mother didn't expect that Li'er is so powerful, and she rides a horse so well." ”

"Giggles," her laughter was crisp, and she added, "Mother, you wait here, I'll go and run a big circle and come back!" ”

After saying that, she had already raised her whip and rushed out again, and before I could shout "Be careful", she had already left me with a cloud of smoke and dust, and there was no shadow.

I stood there and could only shake my head and laugh.

I can't help but remember that when I was still in the palace, Pei Yuanhao once asked me, what will my daughter look like when she grows so big, I said in a trance, it should be a quiet, but also lively girl, but Li'er is now the same as a monkey spirit, I don't know who to follow.

When I thought of Pei Yuanhao, my mood also sank a little.

In the bamboo forest in the morning, the words Pei Yuanxiu said to me, and his hot eyes, are still vivid, and even inadvertently recalling it makes me tremble.

It's not that I don't know his feelings for me, even at the beginning, I was still a precarious palace maid, he was the prince of the Heavenly Empire under one person and above ten thousand people, he also told me clearly, and now, he is bringing up my daughter, and my daughter also affectionately calls him "Daddy", in the eyes of outsiders, maybe everything is a matter of course.

Just as I was thinking, a glass of water was brought to my eyes.

It was the person who served in the racecourse, and he said with a smile: "Madam, here is usually the groom taking care of it, and there is no good tea." Madame will just run a run. ”

I smiled, "Thank you." ”

Reaching out to pick up the cup, he was about to take a sip when he heard a cold voice behind him: "You are now like the hostess here." ”

My back twitched, and when I looked back, Han Zitong was holding his arms and standing coldly behind me looking at me.

The attendant hurriedly and cautiously leaned over and saluted: "Miss Zitong." ”

Han Zitong sneered: "My sister and I are still young ladies, she has become a lady." What a lady? ”

The attendant was robbed of her like this, and his face suddenly froze, and he couldn't speak with a smile. I stood aside, and I also felt that her sting was coming at me, and there was no need to bother others, so I smiled and said, "You go and get busy." I'll talk to Miss Zitong. ”

"Yes." The man had received amnesty and hastily withdrew.

Han Zitong slowly walked up to me: "What can I talk to you about?" ”

I looked at her with a smile: "Aren't you supposed to thank me?" ”

"I thank you?!"

"If I hadn't made it around, you wouldn't be here now, would you?"

When she heard this, a look of shame and anger suddenly appeared on her face, and she glared at me viciously: "Yue Qingying, you really think you are the hostess here!" ”

I laughed and didn't say anything.

She became more and more angry: "I sue you, my sister is the mistress of this mansion, she grew up here, and she has accompanied Pei Yuanxiu all these years." You ask yourself what you have done for Pei Yuanxiu and Li'er, why did you replace her all as soon as you came, what qualifications do you have to be the hostess here?! ”

I was still smiling, but my smile was slightly heavy when I heard "what I did for Li'er".

I did, indeed, do nothing for my daughter.

Even when I was pregnant, when I should have protected her the most, I still didn't let her be safe, not long after I was born, I was robbed again, I missed her babbling and toddler over the years, I didn't hear her cry when she missed me, and I didn't see her every successful laugh, just so suddenly appeared, to be her mother.

I was silent for a long time, and then said slowly, "I am indeed an incompetent mother. ”

Han Zitong frowned and glared at me.

"But, I am her mother. This cannot be erased no matter how long she has been separated from me and who she was raised by. ”

"You-"

She was furious, and she stepped forward and almost wanted to hit me, but I calmly looked at her face, which was not inferior to Han Ruoshi, and said, "I just think it's strange." ”

"Strange?" She paused: "What's strange. ”

"You think about your sister and do everything for her, but what about yourself?"

"You...... What do you mean? ”

"Have you thought about anything for yourself?"

Han Zitong froze suddenly.

It seems that no one has ever told her this, and she has never thought about it herself, and suddenly she was completely distracted by my question.