"Mother, did Daddy sleep with you last night?"

I just felt a choke in my throat. In fact, yesterday, except for Pei Yuanxiu who kissed me, he just hugged me all night, and the two of them didn't do anything, but in the face of my daughter's clean and doubtful eyes, I suddenly felt that I couldn't raise my head.

I don't know what to say, what can I say?

Seeing that I had been stunned but didn't speak, Li'er gently pulled me again: "Mother, did Daddy live here last night?" ”

“……”

I couldn't deceive my child after all, and nodded slightly: "Hmm." ”

Li'er looked at me for a while, and asked more and more cautiously, "Then, my mother slept with Daddy?" ”

“…… Well. ”

Li'er's face immediately showed a stunned expression.

Although she is just a child, she is so old that she also knows a little bit about the three outlines and five constants. Hearing me say this, she looked at me as if she was a little anxious: "But, mother, shouldn't you sleep with your father?" ”

It's getting harder and harder for me to speak.

I have never told her what happened between me and her father, and what position I am in now, but as far as she is concerned, my father and mother should be together, and there should not be such a relationship between me and Pei Yuanxiu, so she will be anxious.

Children, especially little girls, are sensitive and fragile in their minds, looking at her anxious eyes, I tried not to be more upset than her, calmed down my mind, and then said softly: "Yes, my mother was supposed to sleep with your father, but Li'er, there are some things that should be known to you." ”

"What's the matter?"

"Your father has already abolished his mother."

"Scrapped? What is Scrapped? ”

"That's it, Hugh. The mother is no longer his wife. ”

Li'er's eyes widened, as if she couldn't believe it, she looked at me blankly for a while, and grabbed me more and more anxiously: "Why, mother? Why should Dad be abolished, he wants to divorce you? ”

"Because some ...... Misunderstand. ”

Only misunderstood two words, of course, it was not enough to make the qiē between me and Pei Yuanhao clear, and it was not enough for Li'er to understand why her father wanted to divorce her mother, she hung her head and thought for a long time, then raised her head to look at me, and said sadly: "Mother, does Dad not like you?" ”

Don't like me?

When I heard this, I was a little stunned.

In fact, from knowing Pei Yuanhao to the present, I have rarely or not thought about this problem at all. For a person of his status, it doesn't really matter whether he likes it or not, whether he wants it or not, or whether he needs it or not, is the most important thing.

Of course, this situation may only be for some special people.

But......

Looking at Li'er's clean eyes, I still said softly, "No." ”

"That's—"

"It's just that your dad has someone he likes more."

"Huh?"

I gently hugged Li'er in my arms, stroked her heart, and said softly: "Your father has already given a lot of happiness to his mother, so now, he is going to give happiness to other people." ”

Li'er looked at me stupidly: "What happiness did he give his mother?" ”

I smiled and said, "It's Li'er." ”

“……”

"Having a separated child is the greatest happiness in my mother's life."

Li'er's ignorant little face was originally full of anxiety and sadness, but when she heard this, she seemed to bloom a flower and laughed.

However, her smile only lasted for a moment, and suddenly she looked at me with an anxious expression: "What about my mother and father?" ”

This time, I hesitated.

I know she likes her daddy, but liking daddy is not the same thing as knowing that daddy and her mother sleep together.

Children, especially girls, should let her have the most correct understanding of ethics, and she will be able to self-respect and self-love when she grows up in the future, I am not good enough, and I can't do better, I and Pei Yuanxiu were not right at all last night, and I don't want to cast such a shadow on Li'er's heart.

So, I said seriously: "Li'er, my mother has one more thing to tell you." ”

"What?"

"You-"

I hesitated for a moment, looked at her clean and clear eyes, gritted my teeth and said, "If my mother marries your father, are you willing?" ”

Li'er's eyes opened for a moment, and then there was no sound.

I lowered my head and looked at her carefully, looking at her blank face and flickering big eyes, for a while, I couldn't tell whether I liked it or was angry.

I waited with bated breath for a long time, but she still didn't react, just felt the small body in my arms stiffen terribly.

I said softly, "Li'er? ”

When she heard my voice, she moved in a trance, but still didn't speak.

"Li'er, whatever you think, tell your mother."

“……”

"Mother wants to know, what does Li'er think."

She still didn't speak immediately, but after lowering her head and being silent for a while, she raised her eyes to look at me, but instead of answering my question, she asked me: "Mother, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, you said that Daddy will have his own family in the future, and he wants to marry and have children, but why, it's you?" ”

I didn't expect that she remembered what I had said to her that night.

It's just that now, it only makes me feel bitter. What I once looked forward to has now become an empty place, and my departure has finally become a joke, no matter how I escape, it seems that I can't escape.

I smiled bitterly in my heart, but my face was still very calm, and I said softly: "Because, your father chose me." ”

"Does Daddy like Mother?"

“…… Yes. ”

Li'er was silent again, I thought she would be silent for a long time like before, but after a while, she raised her head and looked at me again: "What about the mother?" ”

I was stunned for a moment: "What? ”

"Does my mother like Daddy?"

“……”

"Do you like it?"

Hearing her question, I was stunned for a while, only this immature voice rang back and forth in my ears, but it asked a deafening question-

Does my mother like Daddy?

Do you like it?

I suddenly remembered that in this half of my life, but in just a few decades, I have experienced so much, back and forth around me, all kinds of people, and even married twice, but no one has ever asked me, do I like that person?

All people care about is whether I should marry, whether I can marry, whether I am worthy of marrying; All I think about is what will happen if I get married and what will happen if I don't get married; All everyone sees is how good, how bad, how worthy, and unworthy that man is...... All they saw was my other person, but no one ever really cared about me.

No one has ever asked me if I like it or not, would I like it?

The first person to ask this question turned out to be my daughter!

Looking at Li'er's eyes, I only felt a burst of sadness, and a burst of relief, tears almost poured out of my eyes, and I couldn't help but hug her: "Li'er ......"

"Mother."

She seemed to be a little sluggish in my arms, but as if she felt something, a pair of tender little hands reached out and wrapped around me.

At this moment, no matter whether Pei Yuanhao once gave me happiness or misfortune, I am really grateful to him, grateful that he gave me such a daughter, with her, even if I experience all the pain in the past again, I don't care!

Our mother and daughter didn't know how long they had been together before they slowly separated, Li'er's hands held my face again, and asked persistently: "Mother, you haven't answered Li'er yet." Does my mother like Daddy? ”

“……”

After a long silence, I reached out again and took my daughter into my arms.

Some trembling voices sounded above her head—

"Mother, maybe I'll like him."

Since I knew that Pei Yuanxiu and I would get married, Li'er's mood has been very silent, I can't tell whether she is happy or sad, such a young girl, her joy and anger are even incomprehensible.

Sometimes, she even gave me the illusion that I had grown up overnight.

I would even see my daughter sitting in the house and going into a trance, for a long time.

I also know that such a young child suddenly knows that her mother has been divorced by her father, whom she has never met, and her mother is going to marry an adoptive father who raised her since she was a child, no one can appreciate it, only she knows. It's just -- I can feel that she's been battered, and even sensitive.

And these are all things that only she can tease.

Now Pei Yuanxiu and I, all we can do is to be careful and not let anyone or anything hurt her.

After taking my eight characters that day, a few days later, Pei Yuanxiu came to the inner courtyard to tell me that our wedding date was set for the second day of the third month.

I was drinking tea with a teacup, and when I heard about this day, I looked up at him, and he smiled and said, "There are some things, I have asked them to go down and prepare." ”

I smiled, "Why did it happen that day?" ”

He also smiled: "They have seen it and said that day is the right day." ”

"Oh......"

I smiled and didn't ask anything more, lowered my head and took a sip of tea, then put down the teacup and said, "So, what should I prepare?" ”

He smiled and stretched out his hand to take my two hands, gently groped my fingertips, and said softly: "You have to prepare to be the happiest bride in the world." ”

I don't know if it was because of the lingering fingertips, or because of his words, I blushed and lowered my head.

He looked at me, the smile in his eyes deepened, and leaned over to drop a kiss on my lips, but I already noticed it and gently backed away from him.

"Don't do that."

“……”

"Don't let Li'er see it."

In fact, at this time, Li'er had already been taken to study with the master he had specially invited. My marriage with him is approaching, and I can't and don't need to do some things myself. When he heard me say this, he looked at me with a smile, and I just lowered my head and said softly, "Before we get married, don't do this." ”

“……”

"I don't want Li'er to know too much."

“……”

He was silent for a moment, a knowing smile on his face, and held my hand: "I understand. ”

As he spoke, he seemed to be unable to control himself, leaned into my ear, and said softly, "I can wait." ”

He said "waiting" - of course, he didn't just mean waiting for the marriage date.

My face turned red from what he said, and he chuckled in my ear, then gave me a kiss on my ear and smiled, "I'll go and let them get ready." ”

After saying that, he left the inner courtyard.

After he left, I glanced at the yellow calendar.

The second day of March.

Renyin Day.

It is advisable to crown, travel, and sacrifice.

Avoid beams, groundbreaking, and marriage.