As our boat left the north shore and headed south, it began to rain.

The winter rain, even in Jiangnan, was icy, and I sat in the cabin, even though Su Su saw the great change in my face and kept carefully half-supporting and half-hugging me, he still couldn't suppress my slight trembling.

When the ship docked, it was already a little late, the whole world was shrouded in a silver-gray rain curtain, which seemed depressed and low, Su Su and Gu Ping did not speak again all the way, both of them carefully supported me, just walked up the steps of the dock, I saw a carriage parked there, a white figure standing by the carriage, holding an umbrella.

As soon as he saw me, he immediately walked over: "Qingying." ”

I looked up a little hastily and saw the familiar, gentle face. Pei Yuanxiu seemed to notice my abnormality immediately, and frowned slightly: "What's wrong with you?" The face is so ugly? ”

“……”

I didn't speak, I couldn't speak, I just looked at him.

He also looked at me for a while, but didn't ask again, but reached out and took me from Su Su's arms: "Let's go back first." ”

I was carried into the carriage by him, and he still held me in the carriage, listening to the rolling wheels all the way, and soon returned home, when he carried an umbrella and sent me back to his room, just walked up to the corridor, I didn't look back, only my voice trembled slightly: "You don't have to send me, I'll go back alone." ”

"Young Baby." His voice sounded behind him: "Aren't you going to sue me for what happened today?" ”

“……”

"My bride is so unhappy, can't I know why?"

“……”

I stood on the edge of the corridor, and I could even feel the coolness brought by the drizzle and mist on my face, and slowly turned around and saw him still standing behind me with an umbrella, his eyes were gentle and firm: "Shouldn't you have come to sue me if anything happens, and if you have any pain, you should be the first to let me know?" ”

I was stared at with such gentle eyes, but it hurt so much.

It hurt so much that I almost cried.

When I spoke, my voice was broken: "Do you really want to marry me?" ”

His gaze flickered: "What? ”

"Don't marry me."

"Young Baby!"

"Whoever approaches me will definitely not end well."

"Young Baby!"

"I'm an ominous person, and I'm going to bring disaster to those around me."

His eyes suddenly converged, and he looked at me with dark eyes: "What nonsense are you talking about!" ”

"I'm not talking nonsense."

The hot tears finally fell uncontrollably, I could barely stand, Pei Yuanxiu saw that I was so fragile that I was about to fall, and immediately threw away the umbrella in his hand and hugged me.

I trembled so hard in his arms, tears gushed out like beads of broken thread, and I choked up, "I'm not talking nonsense, I hurt them, and I will hurt you." ”

"Young Baby!"

It's my fault, it's all my fault.

If it weren't for me, Qing Han wouldn't have lit that fire in Jixian Hall, and if it weren't for that fire, he wouldn't have been injured and wouldn't have lost his memory by being hit in the head by a pillar...... And Chang Qing will not lose her child!

I only remember now, at the beginning of her pregnancy, she said without desire, her life has the image of the defeat of the eating star, in order to save the fetus in the womb, there can be no large-scale sacrificial celebrations in the palace, especially fireworks, and she, when she saw the fire, and listened to the guards report that I might be in the Jixian Palace, she suddenly had abdominal pain, but even at that time, she kept calling people to extinguish the fire to confirm that I was not inside, and when the imperial doctor came, it was no longer possible!

My eyes were blurred with tears, and in the fog, I seemed to be able to see the white snow in front of the Jixian Palace, and she fell into the snow, and her body was blood-red!

No wonder, no wonder that on the day I first knew that she was pregnant, I saw the fiery red maple leaves in Yihua Palace, and I felt like a fire, and I would be so uneasy......

It turns out that a qiē has long been predestined.

I hurt her!

And also......

And a light chill!

When I thought of the four curse-like words in Fu Badai's mouth, I only felt that my heart had been hollowed out, and the man who hollowed out my heart no longer remembered me!

He forgot about me!

He forgot about me!

Seeing me crying and trembling in his arms, listening to my choked confession, Pei Yuanxiu was silent until I finished speaking, he held me in his arms hard, the strength of his arms almost suffocated me, but I could feel the rise and fall of his chest and warmth, and his gentle voice sounded above his head-

"That's not your fault."

“……”

"You're not wrong."

“……”

"Qingying, you are kind, but you can't blame yourself for everything."

“……”

"The consequences of what others do for you cannot be borne by you, because people are human beings, not Buddhas, and it is impossible to be free from original sin. If everything has to be found in this way, there will be all sinners in this world, and there is no one who should not die. ”

“……”

"Only when a man dies can he put an end to such sins."

“……”

"But if you die, my heart will ache, isn't that your sin?"

His words seemed to wake me up, and I gently raised my head in his arms, looked him in the eye, and heard him say, "Isn't it another sin of yours that you are hurting me by rejecting me?" ”

“……”

This time, I was finally speechless and only looked at him with tears in my eyes.

Although he didn't speak, he could feel that my breath was not as desperate and helpless as just now, but he still mourned, so he simply picked me up horizontally, carried me back to the house, and carefully put me on the bed.

The room was very warm, and the coolness that had just been brought from the rain made me shiver a little, so he carefully pulled the quilt over me and covered me, and said softly: "Don't think too much about it first, get a good night's sleep." You're so sad now that you're thinking about everything. ”

He's right, I'm so sad.

I curled up in the quilt and nodded gently, he reached out and stroked my cheek, brushed away the **** hair, and said softly: "Sleep, wake up." I'll be with you. ”

“…… Well. ”

Under his gentle gaze, I closed my eyes.

Even in my dreams, I could feel his gentle gaze, and it seemed that it was the same gaze that dispelled the horrors of my chaotic dreams, and although there were so many chaotic scenes in the dream, I slowly calmed down. When I woke up, I felt a lot more relaxed.

And when I turned my head, I still looked at him like that.

Pei Yuanxiu sat at the head of the bed, lowered his head and looked at me gently: "You are awake." ”

I looked at him vaguely for a moment and muttered, "You, just here?" ”

"I'm afraid you'll have nightmares."

He said as he helped me get up and sit on the head of the bed, I don't know how long I slept, although my spirit was calm, but my body was a little soft, he turned around and brought a cup of hot tea to my mouth, let me drink it, and I felt a little more comfortable.

"Are you feeling better?"

I nodded slightly.

Indeed, I was too sad and a little bit of a bull's head. Even in the past, when I was about to marry Qinghan, those village women said that I was filthy, and I also knew that I was just a victim, and I should not be cut by a thousand knives because I was hurt. It's the same this time, I shouldn't have been loved and cared for, so I piled all those accidents on my head.

It's just-

Thinking of Chang Qing's miscarriage, my heart is still painful. I've been through that kind of pain, and I know better how hard it can hit a woman, and I'm not by her side, and I don't know how she's going to get through that time, and how much pain she's really hauling.

When I think of this, even if I have figured it out, the pain in my heart still can't be avoided.

Another thing that makes me feel uneasy is that Wen Fengxi seems to have revealed a message-

For the queen's miscarriage, the most angry person is not only the emperor, but also the emperor's father-in-law.

And there is speculation from top to bottom in the DPRK that this fire is lightly released.

Therefore, Qinghan and Wen Fengxi went south this time, Pei Yuanhao was under a lot of pressure, and I somewhat understood where he came from.

I was thinking about it in a distracted way, a hand reached over and gently rubbed my eyebrows, as soon as I raised my eyes, I saw Pei Yuanxiu looking at me, and said softly: "It's all said, don't frown." ”

“……”

"No matter how tragic those things are, they are already in the past, and no matter how sad you are, it will be in vain."

“……”

"What's more, it's someone else's life."

I looked at him in a daze, only to see him holding my hand and putting it to his lips and kissing it gently, "What you want to think about now is your own life." The biggest thing in your life is to marry me, shouldn't you put more thought into me? ”

“……”

"Those things are in the past."

I was silent for a while, and finally didn't say anything more, just nodded.

Pei Yuanxiu's words also make some sense.

In the final analysis, that is all in the past, and it can't be changed, no matter how sad I am in Jiangnan, I can't make Chang Qing in the capital feel better.

And the light cold ...... My path with him has come to this point, and it is a fact that he is separated.

The marriage between me and Pei Yuanxiu in front of me is indeed a big event.

We crossed the river that day, because of the appearance of Wen Fengxi, in the end, Su Su did not choose a satisfactory fabric, and after a few days, when Pei Yuanxiu arranged the matter at hand, he simply accompanied me across the river to choose.

I originally thought that he was making a fuss like this, after all, with his identity, such a light river crossing really shouldn't be, but seeing his interested appearance, and the idle appearance of walking into the silk village with his hands behind his back, made me forget his identity a little.

"Qingying, look at it, do you like this horse?"

I suddenly came back to my senses, and he had pulled me over and placed a piece of bright red silk on my body.

The shopkeeper served beside him, and only gave a thumbs up: "Childe is really a good eye." This piece of silk is the treasure of our shop's calm. Look at the texture, the workmanship, it's as smooth as water, and the color is so pure. Don't hide it from the child, ordinary people come, the store will not take it out at all, and it is not worthy. But Madame, so graceful and luxurious, the country and the city, if you wear a dress made of satin, it will complement each other! ”

I looked down, that piece of silk was still the last time I came, it seems that this boss also has some eyes, and when he looked at Pei Yuanxiu, he knew that his identity was not ordinary, so he took out the real good things. This piece of silk is smooth and delicate, and it is not easy to dye such a pure red, which is indeed a good thing.

Pei Yuanxiu looked at me and said softly, "Do you like it?" ”

I nodded, and was a little worried: "This color, will it be too bright." ”

"Ouch, look at what Madame said." The shopkeeper hurriedly took over the conversation and said with a smile: "Isn't it to be happy to do a happy event? People are afraid that they are not glamorous enough. The two of them are such talented and beautiful, a match made in heaven, it is the red and glamorous, the more joyful it is. ”

I also blushed a little when he said this, and I only looked down at the silk and didn't speak.

Pei Yuanxiu was happy to hear it, and lowered his head and said jokingly in my ear: "I said that you don't want to be so old-fashioned, we are married, you should be separated." ”

I looked up at him with disgust: "Will we both part?" ”

The corners of his eyes were crooked, but there was a determined light in his eyes: "I will never let you leave me for the rest of my life." ”