Flowers float and water flows,

Hanlin He has never seen a white head.

Heaven and earth are still divided into mountains......

He wrote one sentence, I read one sentence, and when it came to the fourth sentence, he stopped thinking about it for a moment, and then slowly wrote down the last sentence.

"I-have-have-not-heart...... Leave ...... and "

I looked at those words and suddenly felt like I couldn't move.

I have no intention of ......

Centerless......

I raised my head with some difficulty, looking at the close, but cold face, he was looking down at his "masterpiece", there was no pride, no shame of looking for chapters and sentences, just eyes staring at inky black, as if still considering, and seemed to have fallen into contemplation.

After some time, as if aware of my gaze, he turned his face to look at me.

A faint smile.

There was a gust of wind with snow that blew into my heart.

I have no intention of resting.

I have no intention of resting!

Back then, I accompanied him to read hard all night and gave him a sentence by sentence interpretation of the poetry scriptures, I could never have imagined that the first poem he got in this life was a love poem.

I have no intention, and I will not rest.

I stood beside him on the table, watched him settle again, and then slowly put down the pen in my hand, picked up the handkerchief and gently dried the ink stains on it, and then carefully folded it in half before handing it to me, and said with a smile: "It's ugly." ”

I looked down at the handkerchief, and was silent for a long time, before I slowly reached out to take it, but my fingers spasmed, and the handkerchief was pinched in my hand, as if it was about to be crushed by me, broken into powder.

Raise her head and smile at him: "Thank you." ”

The palm of his hand was ground by his nails and was blurred with flesh and blood, obviously it was a pain in his heart, but he didn't seem to feel it at all, and the person in front of him couldn't feel it, he looked at me with a smile, and with a little bit of humor, he said: "However, the wedding of Mrs. and Son-in-law is imminent, and it is really not good to write such a heart-wrenching poem to Mrs. below." Why don't you write another congratulatory poem below? ”

"No need."

When I spoke, his voice was so hoarse that even he felt strange, he looked at me in surprise, I didn't look at him, I just bowed my head and said, "I've been disturbing adults for a long time, and I should go back." ”

After saying that, he turned around and left.

Liu Qinghan was a little surprised, but he didn't catch up, just looked at my back in a daze.

When I walked to the staircase, I felt that the strength of my life seemed to be exhausted at this moment, but when I looked back, I looked at the man who had exhausted the joy of my life, but I didn't even feel it at all, only with that still intact eye, a little cool, looking at me quietly.

The person I love and hate the most in my life!

I finally bowed my hand to him: "My lord, take your leave." ”

He bowed: "Madam, let's go." ”

Hearing these two simple words, I couldn't help but smile.

Let's go......

Let's go.

You're going to get out of your world, and you want me to go all the way.

I smiled, step by step on the somewhat thin wooden ladder, step by step down, I knew that the original wooden ladder of this inn was made of ice, every step down was like stepping on the tip of the ice edge, every step was so cold, so painful, but I bit my lower lip, firmly let myself not look back, not even a little wolf bèi.

At this moment, I suddenly remembered that cold and rainy day.

However, this time it was me, turned away.

There was no cold rain, no heart-rending pain behind me, but I seemed to clearly feel how he broke free from me and walked out of my world that day.

It turns out that it hurts like this......

It turned out to be such despair......

Finally, I couldn't hold on anymore and almost fell, so I could only hold on to the handrail to stabilize my body.

The traffic outside, the people downstairs, as if they had suddenly disappeared at this moment, only the dim light and quiet space left in this narrow staircase, and there were drops of hot tears, like beads with broken threads, silently sliding from my eyes.

No one went upstairs or downstairs, so no one saw me sitting alone in this narrow staircase, crying silently.

In this life, the unforgettable joy ends here.

Light cold, thank you, give me an empty joy.

……

The next day, the first day of March.

It rained all night, and the next day the weather cleared, and the sunlight outside the window seemed to have a fresh smell of rain and dew.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw Pei Yuanxiu sitting on the edge of the bed looking at me.

I was still in a dream, a little dazed, and for a while, I muttered, "Why are you there?" ”

"You came back in the rain last night, and I'm worried you're sick."

As he spoke, he reached out and touched my forehead to test the temperature, and then said reassuringly, "Well, it's not hot." ”

I laughed: "I didn't get in the rain." ”

"But it was too cold last night. You're alone, and you're walking back from the river, I'm afraid—"

"Don't be afraid."

I smiled and sat up, and he hurriedly helped me put a pillow behind me so that I could sit comfortably at the head of the bed. The sun shone on my face, although it was still a little pale, but the faint smile was enough to make up for the lack of clarity and sickness brought by the paleness.

He looked at me smiling and asked, "What did you do across the river yesterday?" ”

"I've gone to cancel my household registration."

"Cancellation of household registration? Are you going to take the letter of resignation? ”

"Hmm."

"What if, those people go to ask Liu Qinghan?"

I smiled: "The master of the horse divorced his wife before marrying the princess, and the people in the household department didn't dare to mention it to anyone even if they had the courage of a leopard, where did they dare to sweep the royal face." You don't have to worry. ”

He was stunned for a moment, but immediately understood, and a look of astonishment appeared on his face, as if he couldn't believe that I would do this. In the face of his consternation, I just smiled faintly, and after a while, he reached out and stroked my cheek, and said softly, "Only now do I really feel that you are going to marry me." ”

"Tomorrow is the big wedding, are you still saying this?"

His palm rubbed my still cool cheek: "If you don't really marry you, nothing counts." ”

"And how are you ready?"

"It's ready."

"Really?" I frowned slightly and said, "But I've been in the house for the past few days, and I haven't seen the wedding hall you decorate." Where exactly did you set it up? ”

He smiled mysteriously: "You'll know tomorrow." ”

I looked at him with some amusement: "This, you have to keep it from me?" ”

He nodded solemnly: "Hmm." ”

I couldn't help but smile: "What about the new house?" ”

"Of course I'm ready, but—"

"It's a secret, right?"

"Surprised."

I gave him an angry look, but what is there to surprise when I worship in person.

He laughed too, like a child. Then he reached out and stroked my cheek, and said: "You, you are still too thin, you can only be fattened slowly after getting married, today, your task is to have a good rest, nourish your spirit, and prepare to be the happiest bride in the world." ”

I smiled in the palm of his hand and nodded slightly.

He leaned over, kissed me lightly on the forehead, and walked out smiling.

I sat at the head of the bed and watched his back disappear into the sunny doorway, until the elongated shadow slowly disappeared, the smile on the corner of his mouth slowly faded, and he curled up slightly tiredly, but at this moment, there was a sound of footsteps outside.

Could it be that he went and returned?

I hurriedly propped myself up again and smiled, but I saw a small figure push the door in, and in the sun, those big clear eyes flickered.

"Li'er."

A gentle smile immediately appeared on my face.

These days, Li'er and I are not tired of being together every day like in Jixiang Village, more or less because after knowing about my marriage with Pei Yuanxiu, this child is a little too silent, and even a little estranged from us. I once wanted to tell Pei Yuanxiu if I wanted to delay it a little, hoping to wait until Li'er accepted this matter, but he sued me to let her accept it, the first thing is to sue her, this matter cannot be changed.

Actually, I also know that he is right.

Even I can only accept this.

After all, the divorced son is also older, it is natural to have her own ideas, she will mind her mother getting married, it is also reasonable, this matter may really not be changed, I can only hope that my daughter can slowly understand.

Although, perhaps, even I may not be able to understand it.

Seeing that I was about to get out of bed, Li'er immediately walked in and walked to the side of the bed, and whispered, "Mother." ”

"You're here." I happily sat on the edge of the bed and took her little hand: "Why did you get up so early today?" ”

"Hmm."

"I came to my mother so early, do you have something to say to my mother?"

"......" She was silent for a moment and said, "Li'er just saw that Daddy went out of her mother's room." ”

When I heard this, I hurriedly said, "Your father just came to see my mother, and he wasn't in my mother's room last night." ”

Li'er raised her head and looked at me, was silent for a while, and said, "Then from now on, will Daddy be in my mother's room every day?" ”

I was stunned.

A girl at such a young age should not have made her aware of these things, but now it seems that there is no way to avoid it, I thought about it, and said softly: "Yes." After my mother marries your father, the two of us will be husband and wife, husband and wife, and we will be together. ”

Speaking of which, I seem to understand a little bit where her loneliness comes from.

I don't know who she slept with every night in the past years, but I slept with her for the whole year when I returned to her and took her to Jixiang Village. First, it was originally because the house over there was small, and secondly, I really wanted to make up for what I owed her over the years; But since I promised to marry Pei Yuanxiu, I haven't slept in the same bed with this child, of course she will be lonely, and she will feel that she is no longer loved.

Thinking of this, I leaned down, stroked her thin shoulders, and said softly: "Li'er, you have grown up now, and children who have grown up should sleep by themselves." Even if your mother doesn't marry your father, you won't be able to sleep with your mother all the time in the future. ”

“……”

"However, except for this, Yiqiē is the same as before."

“……”

"Mother and your father will only love you more."

Li'er didn't speak, just blinked at me with big eyes, and after a while, stretched out her little hand and hugged me tightly.

I looked down at the child's silent appearance, and held her tightly in my arms, but I didn't know how lonely she was after all, and I didn't see through it.

As if to make up for my words, this night, the eve of the wedding, I slept with my divorced son.

She had changed her clothes early, and sat on her knees on the bed, the soft brocade quilt around her as if it had sunk into a soft cloud. After I freshened up, I also sat on the bed, as soon as I lay down, this girl got into my arms, like a cat who found a stove in the cold weather, and kept rubbing my neck and chin with her cheeks, bringing a burst of ****.

I smiled and said, "Li'er, the bigger you get, the more sticky you are." ”

She buried her head in my arms, and after a while, she said sullenly: "Li'er doesn't want to grow up." ”

I smiled and reached out to stroke her swarthy hair, but I was in a trance at this moment, as if I had seen that many years ago, I had snuggled up to my mother like this, crying red eyes, whimpering and hugging her.

I don't want to grow up......

Lightness doesn't want to grow up......

My mother's voice was very pleasant, the same as mine, but she rarely spoke to me deliberately and gently, and it seemed that she always regarded me as an adult, and spoke to me in a calm voice that was equally calm and unwavering in good times and bad, and reasoned with me.

Maybe it's because of this that I'm suddenly sensible at that age.

"Silly boy, there's nothing bad about growing up or not."

“……”

"It's good to be comfortable."

It's good to be comfortable......

Thinking back to these words, I only felt full of sourness, and when I looked down, my daughter was already in my arms, sleeping deeply.

I smiled, looked down and kissed her on the forehead, slowly closing my eyes.

In my dreams, I could still see my mother, holding her daughter in her arms.